{"id":1070,"date":"2021-06-06T10:32:13","date_gmt":"2021-06-06T06:32:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1070"},"modified":"2021-06-06T10:32:13","modified_gmt":"2021-06-06T06:32:13","slug":"m%c9%99n-ozumd%c9%99n-soz%c9%99-atdim-omrumu-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/m%c9%99n-ozumd%c9%99n-soz%c9%99-atdim-omrumu-seirl%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n S\u00f6z\u0259 atd\u0131m \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc – \u015eE\u0130RL\u018fR"},"content":{"rendered":"

NURAF\u0130Z<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kir ruha s\u00f6z\u00fcn edam\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u00fcsahib\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n,
\nM\u0259nim balam, otur \u00e7\u00f6z\u0259k h\u0259llini.
\nSevgi haqda sual\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015fa ver,
\nYa\u015f\u0131m \u00f6t\u00fcb min ildir ki, \u0259llini.<\/p>\n

-N\u0259 yaz\u0131rsan? Yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m ortada,
\nN\u0259 yaz\u0131ram, Allah bilir bu sirri.
\n-Nec\u0259 olur da\u015f\u0131 de\u015fir damlalar,
\nA\u00e7\u0131q qal\u0131r indiy\u0259c\u0259n su sirri?<\/p>\n

…n\u0259yim varsa saxlam\u0131\u015fam \u015feird\u0259,
\nNe\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131, ac\u0131, itgimi.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fc-g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6y\u00fcr dabanbasaraq,-
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131qlar \u015fans g\u00fcd\u00fcr it kimi.<\/p>\n

\u00c7at\u0131ld\u0131m\u0131 fikirl\u0259rin qa\u015flar\u0131,
\n\u015e\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kir ruha s\u00f6z\u00fcn edam\u0131.
\nN\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131q-qazanc budu, sonras\u0131…
\nTa qorxutmur dar a\u011fac\u0131 adam\u0131.<\/p>\n

Daha dey\u0259mmir\u0259m<\/strong><\/p>\n

Daha dey\u0259mmir\u0259m qay\u0131d\u0131m geri,
\n\u00c7\u0131rman\u0131b k\u00fcl t\u00f6k\u00fcm, ev tikim k\u0259ndd\u0259.
\n\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ad\u0131na yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feiri,
\nG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n oxuyub kim sevdi k\u0259ndd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 kim \u0259nd\u0259rdi gileyl\u0259rini,
\nQ\u0131na\u011fa b\u0259l\u0259di getdiyim yolu;-
\n\u0130ld\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259ldiyim,
\nQ\u0131rx ildir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 itdiyim yolu?!<\/p>\n

A\u011fac olammad\u0131m yol q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda,
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259m\u0259 s\u0131\u011fmad\u0131 bir qar\u0131\u015fqa da.
\nUzaqdan-uza\u011fa salam yollad\u0131m,
\nHe\u00e7 dad\u0131 qalmad\u0131 bir qar\u0131\u015fda da.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0131x\u0131b \u00f6y\u0259c\u0259yim n\u0259yim qald\u0131 ki…
\n\u00d6y\u00fcdd\u0259n, danlaqdan ke\u00e7ibdi daha.
\nAd\u0131na yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m birc\u0259 misram\u0131
\nSon dua bil\u0259ydi ka\u015f ki, Allaha.<\/p>\n

U\u00e7an qu\u015fun sa\u011f qanad\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0131n\u0131q k\u00f6rp\u00fc, vaxt \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc havay\u0131,
\nBu k\u00f6mr\u00fckd\u0259 s\u0131nan\u0131rd\u0131 inad\u0131m.
\nVizas\u0131n\u0131 alammad\u0131 h\u0259sr\u0259tim,
\n,,Bir \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc, bir baxt\u0131m\u0131 q\u0131nad\u0131m\u201d.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259nin d\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131 kar imi\u015f,
\nM\u0259n susduqca e\u015fitm\u0259di he\u00e7 m\u0259ni.
\nYalvaras\u0131 deyildim ki, d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcm,
\nQanan deyil, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r gec m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Dil-doda\u011f\u0131 t\u0259pimi\u015fdi s\u0259brimin,
\nAt \u00e7ap\u0131rd\u0131 s\u00fckutumun a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131.
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131m anr\u0131dan,
\nQula\u011f\u0131mda anam\u0131n ,,G\u0259l\u201d \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131…<\/p>\n

Bir s\u0259s boyu yolum qal\u0131r T\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259,
\nX\u0259yal\u0131mda min yol gedib, qay\u0131td\u0131m.
\nQ\u0259m \u00f6pd\u00fckc\u0259 inad\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n,
\nYalan yer\u0259 vaxt itirib say uddum.<\/p>\n

U\u00e7an qu\u015fun sa\u011f qanad\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma…
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259r aram\u0131zdan qada\u011fa.
\nO t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n bir meh vurdu \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259,
\nD\u00f6z, a k\u0259ndim, can\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 sada\u011fa…<\/p>\n

C\u0259llad k\u00f6t\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 salam ver\u0259n ba\u015f<\/strong><\/p>\n

C\u0259llad k\u00f6t\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 salam ver\u0259n ba\u015f,
\nBaltan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda s\u00fckut a\u011flay\u0131r.
\nS\u0259brimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ocaq \u00e7at\u0131l\u0131b,
\nRuhmda kor qorxu sakit a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131q boyuna dilim hamil\u0259,
\nQan\u0131m\u0131n astar\u0131 na\u011f\u0131l tam\u0131nda.
\nSilir g\u00fcman\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131
\nSevincin \u00f6geyi q\u0259m liman\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

S\u0259rt y\u00f6n\u00fc b\u0259llidi qara sevdam\u0131n,
\nS\u0259mt y\u00f6n\u00fc ox\u015fasa b\u0259yaz telimi,
\nB\u0259xtim a\u011f \u00e7\u0131xarsa q\u0131\u015f qaras\u0131ndan,
\n\u00d6p\u0259r d\u0259 , in\u015fallah, bu yaz telimi.<\/p>\n

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\nDaha ox\u015fam\u0131ram \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 , pay\u0131z
\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 bay\u0131rda qalacaq ya\u011f\u0131\u015f,
\nD\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259k, d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259k p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri…
\nArif Mustafazad\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r k\u00fcl\u0259k qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q,
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259mi d\u00f6y\u00fcb qay\u0131d\u0131r.
\nEl\u0259 bil kimd\u0259ns\u0259 qorxub \u00e7\u0259kinir,
\nQ\u0131r\u0131b budaqlar\u0131 ,,s\u00f6y\u00fcb\u201d qay\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

A\u011faclar utan\u0131r \u00e7\u0131lpaql\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan,
\nYarpaqlar bir k\u00fcnc\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b qal\u0131r.
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr pay\u0131z\u0131n r\u0259ngl\u0259ri altda,-
\nS\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b qal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fc pay\u0131za y\u00f6n\u0259dir \u00f6mr\u00fcn,
\nGileyi q\u0259m dad\u0131r q\u0259rib ax\u015fam\u0131n.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcmid ba\u011flaram,
\n\u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 fikrimi s\u0259rib ax\u015fam\u0131n.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 ki, qar ya\u011f\u0131b, soyuq d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yib,
\nS\u0259ni toplayacam g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259, pay\u0131z.
\nDaha do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lir,
\nDaha ox\u015fam\u0131ram \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259, pay\u0131z.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ini s\u00f6yk\u0259yib ayr\u0131l\u0131qlara<\/strong><\/p>\n

Arif Mustafazad\u0259y\u0259<\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ini s\u00f6yk\u0259yib ayr\u0131l\u0131qlara,
\nRuhu ovunurdu k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259, q\u0259ml\u0259.
\nS\u0259sini isladan k\u00f6n\u00fcl nisgili
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qorunu silirdi n\u0259ml\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fcrtm\u0259y\u0259 utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan,
\nAh\u0131yla \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc da\u015f\u0131-divar\u0131.
\n\u0130ll\u0259ri su kimi ax\u0131b gedirdi,
\nK\u00f6hn\u0259 xatir\u0259l\u0259r-d\u00f6vl\u0259ti, var\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018flind\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc b\u0259yaz sa\u00e7lar\u0131,
\nNa\u011f\u0131la d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u0259rki, inad\u0131.
\nSevincin tam\u0131n\u0131 yad\u0131r\u011fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131,
\nS\u0259sin\u0259 hopmu\u015fdu pay\u0131z\u0131n dad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Zaman\u0131 geyinib a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131na,
\nSimin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi tavar saz\u0131n\u0131n.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259ridib s\u00f6z eyl\u0259mi\u015fdi
\nQara sevdal\u0131s\u0131 Qarayaz\u0131n\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Bir misra o yana ba\u015fqa havad\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bir misra o yana ba\u015fqa havad\u0131,
\nOrda itirmi\u015fik \u00f6mr\u00fcn dad\u0131n\u0131.
\nVaxt\u0131 s\u0259brimizin cibin\u0259 qoyub,
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q qoymu\u015fuq h\u0259l\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sevincin tam\u0131n\u0131 yad\u0131r\u011fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q
\nDaha ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n d\u0259rd \u00f6l\u00e7\u0259nind\u0259.
\nAya\u011fa duramm\u0131r xatir\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259,
\nYolunu az\u0131bd\u0131 fikrin \u00e7\u0259nind\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rin yel d\u00f6y\u0259n pay\u0131z v\u0259d\u0259si,
\nQism\u0259tin sonuncu pay\u0131d\u0131r yollar.
\nDaha \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k vaxt \u00e7apamm\u0131r\u0131q,
\nDaha \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131r yollar.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z i\u00e7imd\u0259 yer tapmad\u0131m d\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n

N\u0259 gizl\u0259dim, yel\u0259 verib bu \u00f6mr\u00fc,
\n\u018fll\u0259rind\u0259 yesir qald\u0131m t\u0259kliyin.
\nO baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259r d\u0259 yad oldu,
\nYeri yoxmu\u015f s\u0259rt olma\u011f\u0131n, b\u0259rkliyin.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0131xar\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 qism\u0259tin,
\nN\u0259 qald\u0131sa \u00f6mr\u0259-g\u00fcn\u0259 yaz\u0131ld\u0131.
\n\u018fl tutdu\u011fum savablar\u0131m an\u0131ld\u0131,
\nU\u011furuma d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 yaz\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Dadar-doymaz bir \u00fcmid\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m,
\nYalan-do\u011fru, \u00e7ox aldatd\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc.
\n\u00d6z i\u00e7imd\u0259 yer tapmad\u0131m d\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259,
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n S\u00f6z\u0259 atd\u0131m \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131q q\u0259zaya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, dey\u0259l\u0259r<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tamarz\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim yen\u0259 yol \u00e7\u0259kir,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yollara s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015famm\u0131ram.
\nS\u0259brimi lal xiff\u0259t p\u0259l\u0259s\u0259ng sal\u0131b,
\nL\u0259liyib \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015famm\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

Ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ,,geyib\u201d \u0259ynim\u0259,
\nG\u0259r\u0259k q\u0259m eydirib d\u00f6z\u0259m yen\u0259 d\u0259.
\nFikrimi teyl\u0259y\u0259m vaxt\u0131n boyuna,
\nRuhum gec\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259, bin\u0259d\u0259.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259nin ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 yara it s\u0259si,
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q q\u0259zaya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb,- dey\u0259l\u0259r.
\nO gec\u0259 doymayaq na\u011f\u0131l pay\u0131ndan,
\nLampa i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda q\u0131za d\u0259y\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Fikirl\u0259rim yol g\u00f6y\u0259rdir dal\u0131nca<\/strong><\/p>\n

Yollar\u0131mm\u0131 yen\u0259 s\u0259kkiz yazmada,
\nYa s\u0259yriy\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rimmi \u00e7\u0259p idi?
\nBu gedi\u015fin havas\u0131na susad\u0131m,
\nUdqunduqca dil-doda\u011f\u0131m t\u0259pidi.<\/p>\n

Dil yan\u0131ldan gec\u0259g\u00f6zl\u00fc a\u011fr\u0131lar
\nS\u0259br s\u0259pir s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n bal\u0131nca.
\nG\u00f6r\u00fcm vermir s\u0259n ged\u0259n yol g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,
\nFikirl\u0259rim yol g\u00f6y\u0259rdir dal\u0131nca.<\/p>\n

Duy\u011fular\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131 geyib t\u0259kl\u0259nib,
\nAy\u0131ramm\u0131r do\u011fmas\u0131n\u0131, yad\u0131n\u0131.
\nM\u0259n dilimin duas\u0131na b\u0259l\u0259yib,
\nDoda\u011f\u0131mda b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259c\u0259m ad\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

NURAF\u0130Z \u015e\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kir ruha s\u00f6z\u00fcn edam\u0131 M\u00fcsahib\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n, M\u0259nim balam, otur \u00e7\u00f6z\u0259k h\u0259llini. Sevgi haqda sual\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015fa ver, Ya\u015f\u0131m \u00f6t\u00fcb min ildir ki, \u0259llini. -N\u0259 yaz\u0131rsan? Yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m ortada, N\u0259 yaz\u0131ram, Allah bilir bu sirri. -Nec\u0259 olur da\u015f\u0131 de\u015fir damlalar, A\u00e7\u0131q qal\u0131r indiy\u0259c\u0259n su sirri? …n\u0259yim varsa saxlam\u0131\u015fam \u015feird\u0259, Ne\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131, ac\u0131, itgimi. \u00d6mr\u00fc-g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6y\u00fcr […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1071,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1070"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1070"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1070\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1072,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1070\/revisions\/1072"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/1071"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1070"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1070"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1070"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}