{"id":1074,"date":"2021-06-07T16:30:40","date_gmt":"2021-06-07T12:30:40","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1074"},"modified":"2021-06-07T16:30:40","modified_gmt":"2021-06-07T12:30:40","slug":"sonuncu-mogikan-varis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/sonuncu-mogikan-varis\/","title":{"rendered":"Sonuncu mogikan – VAR\u0130S"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hekay\u0259<\/strong><\/em><\/h4>\n

H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n hans\u0131sa bir gu\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir hadis\u0259yl\u0259, h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir insanla rastla\u015fma\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yaln\u0131z ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ba\u015f verir ki, siz \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n orada onlar\u0131n r\u0259sml\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kmisiniz. Onlarla n\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirsiniz – bu art\u0131q sizin sonrak\u0131 se\u00e7iminizdir.<\/em>\u00a0\u00a0Ri\u00e7ard Bax<\/strong><\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131 xilas etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 bir-bir insanlar\u0131 xilas etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/em>\u00a0\u00c7arlz Bukovski<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130nsanlar ya qocal\u0131b \u00f6l\u00fcrl\u0259r, ya da x\u0259st\u0259likl\u0259rd\u0259n, b\u0259db\u0259xt hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n.\u00a0 Amma o, yorulub \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Qal\u0131n \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259li st\u0259kandak\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q r\u0259ngli \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rark\u0259n qopard\u0131\u011f\u0131 taqq\u0131lt\u0131 ki\u00e7ikekranl\u0131 televizorun s\u0259sini itirib-g\u0259tirirdi, bunun f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131, qa\u015f\u0131\u011fa bir q\u0259d\u0259r aman verdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r proqram\u0131 gedirdi. Bazar meydan\u0131nda sor\u011fu apararaq ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri bir-bir yolundan el\u0259yir, hans\u0131 markadan avtomobil b\u0259y\u0259ndikl\u0259rini soru\u015furdular…<\/p>\n

\u018fsn\u0259di. S\u0259h\u0259rin lap alatoran\u0131nda durmu\u015fdu, eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b s\u0259h\u0259r alatoran\u0131n\u0131n q\u00fcss\u0259 v\u0259 h\u00fczn dolu g\u00f6y\u00fcmt\u00fcl r\u0259ngini \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259, \u0259slind\u0259, v\u00fccudunda hiss etmi\u015fdi: bu r\u0259ngalma h\u0259r hans\u0131 libas\u0131n g\u00f6y r\u0259ng\u0259 boyanmas\u0131ndan daha \u00e7ox z\u0259d\u0259l\u0259r alm\u0131\u015f b\u0259d\u0259nin g\u00f6mg\u00f6y g\u00f6y\u0259rm\u0259sini and\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sanki qu\u015f qanad\u0131 \u015fapp\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 e\u015fidildi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini otaq boyu g\u0259zdirib ba\u011fl\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin r\u0259ngi getmi\u015f kilidl\u0259rind\u0259 saxlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn fikri-zikri a\u011fappaq, ipil\u0131q, simsirli bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn m\u0259hr\u0259mliyi il\u0259 qol-boyun halda bu ax\u015fam olacaq tama\u015fada ik\u0259n, “yorularaq \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yi” bar\u0259d\u0259ki x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q q\u0259fild\u0259n soxularaq bu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc qeyb etmi\u015f, d\u0259rhal da qeybolman\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi ac\u0131 q\u0259h\u0259r burul\u011fan\u0131nda \u00e7abalama\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Niy\u0259 m\u0259hz bu gec\u0259, bel\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir bayram\u0131n \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 yuxusunda \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, anlaya bilmirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm obraz\u0131 he\u00e7 d\u0259 \u0259li q\u0131l\u0131ncl\u0131, a\u011f k\u0259f\u0259nd\u0259, balta di\u015fl\u0259ri \u015faqq\u0131ldayan k\u0259ll\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n ibar\u0259t deyildi, ovuc i\u00e7in\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fan \u0259lvan bir qu\u015fcu\u011faz idi. Cik-cik ed\u0259-ed\u0259 qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m art\u0131q t\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259ss\u0259n, add\u0131mlar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131b, \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fczr\u0259s\u0259n. Amma s\u0259nin \u00e7iynin\u0259 indi qonmayacam, b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn yorulub \u00e7\u00f6km\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r proqram\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259rpicsif\u0259tli xan\u0131m apar\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n bu proqramad\u0259k b\u0259y\u0259ndikl\u0259ri avtomobild\u0259n imtinalar\u0131na nail olaca\u011f\u0131na \u0259minlikl\u0259 reklam etdiyi avtomobilin \u00fcst\u00fcn c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rini \u015f\u00fcurlara p\u0259r\u00e7iml\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f kvadrat, sif\u0259t q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131. Eyn\u0259n k\u0259rpic. Qazi Elmangilin h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f k\u0259rpicl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259n \u015f\u00fcmal\u0131n\u0131n bir\u0259bir b\u0259nz\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

Studiyan\u0131n b\u0259sit dekorasiyas\u0131n\u0131n uy\u011funsuzlu\u011funu iri akvariumdak\u0131 nar\u0131nc\u0131 v\u0259 qara r\u0259ngli iki iri bal\u0131q pozma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Apar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n libas\u0131 g\u00f6zqama\u015fd\u0131ran nar\u0131nc\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259ydi, axtarsan, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qara l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 tapa bil\u0259rdin…<\/p>\n

Akvariumda bal\u0131q, dib\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259 g\u00fcl, q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259 qu\u015f… Beyni t\u0259lat\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259ldi.\u00a0\u00a0 Hiss etdi, s\u00f6zl\u0259r bir-birini it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k qaranl\u0131qdan i\u015f\u0131\u011fa can at\u0131rlar. B\u0259z\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259sbehin s\u0259d\u0259f muncuqlar\u0131 kimi s\u0131raya d\u00fcz\u00fcb ard\u0131c\u0131l, \u015faqq\u0131ldada-\u015faqq\u0131ldada s\u0259sl\u0259ndirm\u0259yi sevirdi, yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 fikirl\u0259rin hans\u0131n\u0131n iki dibsiz u\u00e7urumu birl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 qadir olan k\u00f6rp\u00fc, hans\u0131n\u0131n bu u\u00e7urumlar\u0131 sonsuzad\u0259k d\u0259rinl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n t\u0259kan ola bil\u0259c\u0259yini d\u0259 t\u0259xmin edirdi.<\/p>\n

Durub ka\u011f\u0131z-q\u0259l\u0259m g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yazmas\u0131 g\u0259r\u0259k idi. Amma durmayacaqd\u0131.\u00a0\u00a0 Komodun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259rarla\u015fm\u0131\u015f d\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li g\u0259nc ki\u015finin q\u0259dimi \u015f\u0259kli amiran\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259 “Yox, yazma!” s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi sanki.<\/p>\n

(“Baba” k\u0259lm\u0259si g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 sa\u00e7-saqqal\u0131 qar kimi a\u011f, sif\u0259t q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u015fumlanm\u0131\u015f tarlaya b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n, beli azac\u0131q b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, \u0259li d\u0259 \u0259sal\u0131 \u015f\u0259xs g\u0259tir\u0259r. \u015e\u0259kild\u0259ki ki\u015fi anas\u0131n\u0131n babas\u0131yd\u0131, c\u0259mi iyirmi doqquz il ya\u015fama\u011fa macal tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130yirmi doqquz ya\u015fl\u0131 ulu baba).<\/p>\n

– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, b\u0259s siz hans\u0131 avtomobili daha \u00e7ox b\u0259y\u0259nirsiz? Cavab\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fdan \u00f6nc\u0259 siz\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6r\u0259rdim ki…<\/p>\n

Masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n saat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qurdu, saat\u0131n sol b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259n tama\u015fa biletini bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla ox\u015fayark\u0259n sa\u011f b\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u0259ki q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 cildli kitab\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131q s\u0259hif\u0259si g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeri d\u0259rhal tapd\u0131:<\/p>\n

“…Amma s\u00f6hb\u0259timizin m\u00f6vzusu tam ba\u015fqad\u0131r. \u0130\u015f ondad\u0131r ki, “mogikanlar” dey\u0259 Nyu-York \u015ftat\u0131 \u0259razisinin \u015e\u0259rq hiss\u0259sind\u0259, Qudzon \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n sahili boyunca m\u0259skunla\u015fm\u0131\u015f be\u015f \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli hindu tayfas\u0131n\u0131n konfederasiyas\u0131na daxil olanlar\u0131 adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. “Mogikan” s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259rfi t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259si…”<\/p>\n

V\u0259r\u0259qi \u00e7evirdi:<\/p>\n

“…”b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00e7ay\u0131n insanlar\u0131” dem\u0259k idi. Avropal\u0131lar is\u0259 onlar\u0131 “\u00e7ay hindular\u0131”, yaxud da toteml\u0259rin\u0259 uy\u011fun olaraq “qurdlar” adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar…”<\/p>\n

“Qurdlar?”, – dey\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

“…1600-c\u00fc ild\u0259 saylar\u0131 35 min n\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131. Demokratik hakimiyy\u0259t formas\u0131na malik idil\u0259r. Konfederasiyan\u0131 h\u00f6kmdar idar\u0259 edirdi, h\u00f6kmdarl\u0131q irs\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi…”<\/p>\n

Al\u00fcminium \u00e7ay qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ay\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b dinc\u0259lm\u0259yind\u0259, st\u0259kan da asud\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011f\u0131nda idi (Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 h\u0259dd\u0259n \u00e7ox yorur).\u00a0\u00a0 Soyumu\u015f \u00e7ay\u0131n \u015firinliyi he\u00e7 d\u0259 hiss edilm\u0259y\u0259n bu c\u00fcr hal\u0131na anas\u0131\u00a0 “yaxant\u0131” dey\u0259rdi. \u00c7ay\u0131na h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r iki qa\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u0259k\u0259r tozu qat\u0131r. Bunu he\u00e7 olmasa \u00fc\u00e7 el\u0259s\u0259ydi, yen\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131 tama g\u0259l\u0259rdi. Amma bir kiloluq \u015f\u0259k\u0259r tozu ba\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz iki ay i\u015fl\u0259dir, bir qa\u015f\u0131q art\u0131m iki ay\u0131n ay yar\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259si dem\u0259k olard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ki\u015fi q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259si a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda qad\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc…<\/p>\n

Apar\u0131c\u0131 studiyaya xan\u0131m m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259mi\u015fdi, m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni d\u0259 sin\u0259sini b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259z\u0259m\u0259ti il\u0259 n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdir\u0259n dekolted\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259 \u00f6z avtomobilind\u0259n, qarderobundan, m\u0259tb\u0259xind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 (“Por\u015fe” s\u00fcr\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, “Serlio Rassi”d\u0259n tufli geyinirmi\u015f, \u00fc\u00e7bac\u0131 dolmas\u0131 bi\u015fir\u0259 bilirmi\u015f). Titrl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nninin \u0259laq\u0259 n\u00f6mr\u0259si g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259nd\u0259 (ad\u0131 \u0130lkan\u0259 imi\u015f) c\u0259ld h\u0259min n\u00f6mr\u0259ni hafiz\u0259sin\u0259 yazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Apar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si h\u0259lim idi, yap\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 idi. T\u0259qrib\u0259n bir ayd\u0131 yerli kanal\u0131n\u00a0\u00a0 “S\u0259h\u0259r proqram\u0131”n\u0131 apar\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259 onu ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi d\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu k\u0259rpicsif\u0259t xan\u0131m “K\u0259rpick\u0259s\u0259n ki\u015finin dastan\u0131”n\u0131 oxuyubmu.<\/p>\n

Dem\u0259k, yorulub \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259kmi\u015f…<\/p>\n

Otaqda \u0259lvan r\u0259ngli qu\u015fcu\u011faz u\u00e7ur? Yox, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, yox. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini ovxalad\u0131, divara vurulmu\u015f b\u0259d\u0259nn\u00fcma g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259ldi, s\u0259sini ar\u0131tlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Bu h\u0259ft\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f al\u0131b bank m\u0259murunun h\u00fczuruna getm\u0259lis\u0259n, nitq haz\u0131rlam\u0131san?<\/p>\n

– Getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m he\u00e7 yer\u0259. N\u0259tic\u0259sizlikl\u0259r bezdirib m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni, getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m? Bu yek\u0259xanal\u0131q, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259nm\u00fc\u015ft\u0259behlik n\u0259ymi\u015f bel\u0259? M\u0259g\u0259r s\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyin \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259ll edil\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inanan sad\u0259l\u00f6vhs\u0259n? Yoxsa ki, Frederik De\u015famyusan?<\/p>\n

– \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, o kimdir el\u0259? Tan\u0131mad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Tan\u0131mazsan da. O, sehrli \u00e7ubu\u011fa malik X\u0259yal\u0131stan sakinidir. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n X\u0259yal\u0131standa ya\u015fam\u0131rsansa, dem\u0259k, daim kiml\u0259rins\u0259 h\u00fczuruna getm\u0259lis\u0259n. N\u0259 bezginlik?!<\/p>\n

(T\u0259k ya\u015fayan insan \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 ucadan dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa \u0259vv\u0259l-ax\u0131r v\u0259rdi\u015f edir. \u00dcst\u0259lik, getdikc\u0259 \u0259\u015fyalarla da “fikir m\u00fcbadil\u0259si” aparmal\u0131 olur. Yoxsa, d\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131nda m\u0259ng\u0259n\u0259d\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi s\u0131x\u0131la bil\u0259r).<\/p>\n

Ekran\u0131n yuxar\u0131 sa\u011f k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 saat\u0131n 8.17 oldu\u011fu g\u00f6st\u0259rilirdi. Baho, d\u0259rs\u0259 gecik\u0259r ax\u0131. Boyat \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k diliminin ust\u00fcn\u0259 qaxaca d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f pendir par\u00e7as\u0131 qoyub tez-tez, iri-iri di\u015fl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k uddu, \u00e7ay\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib durdu. \u018fynini geyinib, g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc korpuslu saat\u0131n\u0131 qoluna ba\u011flay\u0131b (bunu x\u00fcsusi \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259 etdi), tama\u015fa biletini d\u00f6\u015f cibin\u0259 qoyub, kitab\u0131 da qoltu\u011funa vurub qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 ki, qap\u0131 m\u0259sam\u0259sind\u0259n yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n dama-damal\u0131, sar\u0131mt\u0131l ka\u011f\u0131z b\u00fckm\u0259si g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131, d\u0259rhal qan\u0131 bir az da qarald\u0131. Zal\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 otuz-q\u0131rx il \u0259vv\u0259lki m\u0259kt\u0259bli d\u0259ft\u0259ridir, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259ri qurtarm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

B\u00fckm\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131b ev sahib\u0259sinin \u0259yri-\u00fcyr\u00fc h\u0259rf d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259dsiz q\u0259z\u0259b sezdirdiyi n\u00f6vb\u0259ti x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan agah oldu: “S\u00f6z ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrs\u0259n, dey\u0259s\u0259n. H\u0259ft\u0259nin sonuna kimi pulu \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259ni qovub yerin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 q\u0131z g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m!”<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc tavana tutdu. Tanr\u0131, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn k\u00f6m\u0259k ol, bu t\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si h\u0259ll olunsun, atas\u0131gil pul yollas\u0131nlar. Ya da g\u00fcl d\u00fckan\u0131nda, qabaqcadan avans \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259, bir i\u015f versinl\u0259r ona, bu qad\u0131ndan can\u0131n\u0131 qurtara bilsin…<\/p>\n

Qanqara\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qovmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn el\u0259 blokun pill\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259c\u0259 yen\u0259 h\u0259min a\u011fappaq, ipil\u0131q, simsirli g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn m\u0259hr\u0259mliyin\u0259 at\u0131ld\u0131. Ad\u0131 da g\u00f6z\u0259l idi g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f \u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131n: Frayda. Qara\u00e7\u0131 dilind\u0259n t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259si “sevinc” dem\u0259kdi. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259li akrobatik h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259r g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rk\u0259n sanki s\u00fcm\u00fcks\u00fcz oldu\u011fu anlat\u0131lan, h\u0259r duru\u015fu, t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fi, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti il\u0259 ruhu s\u0131\u011fallayan bu xan\u0131m\u0131 da, Kxamalo (K\u00fcr\u0259n) adl\u0131 ill\u00fcziya\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 da, Baxti (Xo\u015fb\u0259xt) adl\u0131 \u015fir t\u0259lim\u00e7isini d\u0259, \u0130lo (\u00dcr\u0259k) adl\u0131 ekvilibristi d\u0259, \u00fcst\u0259lik teatr truppas\u0131n\u0131, ki\u00e7ik orkestri, balerinalar\u0131 da g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yi saata az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, saat alt\u0131da \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 qastrola g\u0259lmi\u015f inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t ustalar\u0131n\u0131n tama\u015fas\u0131 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259\u00a0\u00a0 – c\u0259mi \u00fc\u00e7 haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259rzind\u0259 onlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa da macal tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259yyar dair\u0259vi arena Universitet yolunda, iki mikrorayon aras\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259nlikd\u0259, d\u0259mir konstruksiyalar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 taxta oturacaqlar d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nilm\u0259kl\u0259 v\u0259 ortada brezent \u00f6rt\u00fckl\u00fc s\u0259hn\u0259 qurulmaqla in\u015fa olunmu\u015fdu, \u0259traf\u0131 heyvanlar\u0131n q\u0259f\u0259si, qastrol\u00e7ular\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 vaqonlar il\u0259 h\u0259lq\u0259y\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Lap giri\u015fd\u0259 hasar boyu, olduqca iri q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 h\u0259rfl\u0259rl\u0259 “D\u00fcnyan\u0131 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k!” \u015f\u00fcar\u0131 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Akvariumda bal\u0131q, dib\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259 g\u00fcl, q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259 qu\u015f. Bir d\u0259 h\u0259bsxanada insan…<\/p>\n

Bayaq yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015f fikrini tamamlama\u011fa can atd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tliliyin akvariumun, dib\u00e7\u0259yin, q\u0259f\u0259sin, kameran\u0131n \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u0259ri h\u0259ddind\u0259dir. H\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsizliyin is\u0259 \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259r, s\u0259malar, \u00fcmmanlar v\u0259 ucsuz-bucaqs\u0131z torpaqlar q\u0259d\u0259rdir…<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini yazmamaq fikrind\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 ki, q\u0259ti idi. Ha\u00e7ansa bu fikri korrekt\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259min deyildi, h\u0259m d\u0259.<\/p>\n

…Avtobus lap tez g\u0259ldi. Bu \u0259yal\u0259t \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 avtobuslar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131nacan dolu olur. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc birt\u0259h\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259ri sal\u0131b ortaya do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdi ki, qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda qal\u0131b girib-\u00e7\u0131xanlara mane\u00e7ilik t\u00f6r\u0259tm\u0259sin. Yerini rahatlayandan d\u0259rhal sonra, ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n s\u0259yyar arenan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilsin dey\u0259, iri avtobus p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n olan\u0131nda bir g\u00f6rm\u0259 buca\u011f\u0131 tapd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat\u0131nda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 canl\u0131 sirk, teatr, balet v\u0259 konsert (\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bir tama\u015fada) g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yinin sevinci onu nec\u0259 \u00e7ul\u011falam\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa dalbadal bu \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u00fcn ham\u0131s\u0131nda tama\u015fa veril\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259kana ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f, arenan\u0131n qurulmas\u0131na, m\u0259\u015fql\u0259r\u0259, heyvanlar\u0131n yeml\u0259nm\u0259sin\u0259 heyranl\u0131qla tama\u015fa etmi\u015fdi. Biletl\u0259r \u00e7ox ucuz idi, V\u0130P biletl\u0259r on manata, adi biletl\u0259r iki manata. D\u00fcz giri\u015f t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n birinci c\u0259rg\u0259nin birinci yerin\u0259 olan adi bileti biletl\u0259r sat\u0131\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131lan kimi d\u0259rhal, h\u0259l\u0259 m\u00f6h\u00fcr\u00fcn m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bi qurumam\u0131\u015f alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Arenan\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc it\u0259rk\u0259n, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki sevinc c\u00fcc\u0259rtil\u0259ri h\u0259l\u0259 tam itm\u0259mi\u015f, qoltu\u011fundak\u0131 kitab\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n davam etdi:<\/p>\n

“…Mogikanlar, ad\u0259t\u0259n, qaya ba\u015flar\u0131nda, t\u0259p\u0259likl\u0259rd\u0259 sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259r biri 20-30 evd\u0259n ibar\u0259t k\u0259ndl\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. K\u0259ndl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 bir hiss\u0259si yer\u0259 basd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir ne\u00e7\u0259 metr h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fckl\u00fc taxta dir\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n ibar\u0259t hasarlarla \u0259hat\u0259l\u0259nirdi. Onlar qar\u011f\u0131dal\u0131 yeti\u015fdirir, ov\u00e7uluqla, bal\u0131q\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olurdular…”<\/p>\n

Adam\u0131 nec\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131rlar, aman da vermirl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

“…S\u00f6z\u00fcb\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fckl\u0259ri, alic\u0259nabl\u0131qlar\u0131 il\u0259 se\u00e7il\u0259n bu insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kim\u0259s\u0259 pislik etm\u0259k yad idi, \u0259ksin\u0259, k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 olana m\u00fctl\u0259q k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rdil\u0259r. Ki\u015fil\u0259ri d\u0259, qad\u0131nlar\u0131 da c\u0259surluqda ad \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…”<\/p>\n

K\u00f6k bir qad\u0131n nec\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259dis\u0259, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 oturaca\u011f\u0131n d\u0259mirin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131, az qald\u0131 kitab\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n sals\u0131n. Qad\u0131n \u00fczrxahl\u0131q etm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259: “M\u0259ni d\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259dil\u0259r”, – s\u00f6yl\u0259di, amma onu qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczr ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259si deyil, “Ba\u015f\u0131 xarabd\u0131r e, g\u00f6r he\u00e7 bura kitab oxumaq yeridir?”, – dey\u0259 m\u0131z\u0131ldanmas\u0131 \u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Kitab\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b qoltu\u011funa d\u00fcrtm\u0259kd\u0259n savay\u0131 \u0259lac\u0131 qalmayanda v\u0259 bunu icra ed\u0259nd\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131 ki, bayaq \u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259ydi, indis\u0259 buradak\u0131lar\u0131n al\u0259min\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Kimd\u0259ns\u0259 k\u0259sif t\u0259r, kimd\u0259ns\u0259 siqaret, kimd\u0259ns\u0259 ya\u011f-so\u011fan qovurmas\u0131 qoxusu g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

– Qadam onun \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259, r\u0259dd etdim, dedim s\u0259n kim, m\u0259n kim, get anq\u0131r, tay\u0131n\u0131 tap. Ay q\u0131z, bunun sevgisi d\u0259ysin t\u0259p\u0259sin\u0259. Evi yox, i\u015fi yox, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yox, can\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 desin…<\/p>\n

G\u0259nc q\u0131z ya\u015f\u0131d\u0131 il\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015firdi.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n mallar\u0131 \u00e7ox ucuz sat\u0131ram, lap aeroport qiym\u0259tin\u0259. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 alverim gedir. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, g\u0259l, \u015f\u0259rikli i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259k. Diplomunu da apar at zibil…<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fct\u00fckl\u00fc ki\u015fi g\u00f6z\u00fc k\u0259d\u0259rli ki\u015fiy\u0259 deyirdi.<\/p>\n

– \u0130nand\u0131r\u0131m s\u0259ni, iki y\u00fcz iyirmi t\u0259zyiql\u0259 yaz\u0131q y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b ortada qald\u0131, h\u0259kim dedi, kassaya s\u0259ks\u0259n manat \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259s\u0259niz baxan deyil\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u00fcm, Hippokrat bunlara q\u0259nim olsun! G\u00f6r\u00fcm…<\/p>\n

Quca\u011f\u0131u\u015faql\u0131 qad\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131z\u0259nbilli qad\u0131na dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qanqarald\u0131c\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r ged\u0259n m\u0259kan\u0131n da siqaret \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n m\u0259kan q\u0259d\u0259r insan s\u0259hh\u0259tin\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259rli olmas\u0131na \u0259min idi. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ikinciy\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 insanlar, ad\u0259t\u0259n, d\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fck n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirs\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, birincini h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 etinas\u0131zl\u0131qla qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

Dayanaca\u011fa \u00e7atanda c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259md\u0259n at\u0131l\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc avtobusdan atd\u0131. H\u0259r g\u00fcn bu mar\u015frutla universitet\u0259 g\u0259lib geri qay\u0131tmaq q\u0131rx q\u0259pik tutur, ayda iyirmi d\u0259f\u0259y\u0259 bu x\u0259rc s\u0259kkiz manat el\u0259yir. K\u0259ndd\u0259n g\u0259lib ev kiray\u0259l\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 ilk ay\u0131 d\u0259rs\u0259 piyada gedib g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. He\u00e7, ay tamam olmam\u0131\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131ndan qalma iyirmi bir manatl\u0131q ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n daban\u0131 qopmu\u015f, a\u011fz\u0131 aralanm\u0131\u015fdi. M\u0259cbur qal\u0131b, axtar\u0131b b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 ucqarlarda bir \u00e7\u0259km\u0259\u00e7i tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7\u0259km\u0259\u00e7i d\u0259 m\u00fcrg\u00fc d\u00f6y\u0259-d\u00f6y\u0259 \u0259lini toz basm\u0131\u015f q\u0259lib\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015fdi ki, indiki ayaqqab\u0131lar urvats\u0131zd\u0131rlar, \u0259vv\u0259lkil\u0259r t\u0259ki t\u0259mir\u0259 getmirl\u0259r, el\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259ksizdir.<\/p>\n

Dayanaca\u011fa dir\u0259nmi\u015f iri \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 vitrinli g\u00fcl d\u00fckan\u0131na ke\u00e7ib uzunb\u0131\u011f, yumrusaqqal sat\u0131c\u0131 il\u0259 salamla\u015fd\u0131, “M\u00fcdird\u0259n soru\u015fdum, s\u0259n\u0259 uy\u011fun i\u015f yoxdur” cavab\u0131 onun salam\u0131 il\u0259 havadaca toqqu\u015fdu. Bilm\u0259di m\u0259yuslu\u011funu hara sal\u0131b gizl\u0259tsin.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcn\u0259n buradan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng \u00e7obanyast\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri d\u0259ymi\u015fdi, \u00e7obanyast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bu r\u0259ng \u00e7alar\u0131 onu heyr\u0259tl\u0259ndirmi\u015f, h\u0259min bu sat\u0131c\u0131dan bilgi alma\u011fa vadar etmi\u015fdi. Dem\u0259zs\u0259nmi\u015f, g\u00f6z\u0259llik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri l\u0259\u00e7\u0259k-l\u0259\u00e7\u0259k r\u0259ngl\u0259yirl\u0259rmi\u015f, t\u0259biiliy\u0259 s\u00fcnilik qat\u0131rlarm\u0131\u015f. Minl\u0259rl\u0259 l\u0259\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 r\u0259ng vurmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259ti duyulan m\u0259kanda ona da y\u00fcng\u00fclvari m\u0259vacibl\u0259 bir i\u015f tap\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 \u00fcmidiyl\u0259 (yax\u015f\u0131 r\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi var) uzun b\u0131\u011f\u0131na, yumru saqqal\u0131na bir q\u0259d\u0259r simpatiyas\u0131 da yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdiyi sat\u0131c\u0131dan i\u015f ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bu da cavab.<\/p>\n

\u018fv\u0259z \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi “A\u011f\u0131r deyil siz\u0259 burda i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k?”, – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. Sat\u0131c\u0131 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcnd\u0259n \u015fa\u015f\u0131r\u0131b “Niy\u0259 ki” sual\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131b d\u00fckan dolu g\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 el\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6vd\u0259sind\u0259n zorla ayr\u0131lan bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin ah-nal\u0259si aras\u0131nda duru\u015f g\u0259tirdiyiniz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Sat\u0131c\u0131 sual\u0131 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259krarlad\u0131b \u0259vv\u0259lkind\u0259n d\u0259 art\u0131q t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015f halda cavab tu\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Qaqa\u015f, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn y\u0259ni f\u0259rqi var ki, g\u00f6vd\u0259si olsun, yaxud g\u00fcldan? Onsuz da solacaq da.<\/p>\n

Dedi, yox, yan\u0131l\u0131rs\u0131z. F\u0259rqi var, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259rqi var ki, can\u0131n\u0131 evind\u0259, do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda tap\u015f\u0131rasan, yaxud evind\u0259n k\u0259narda, yadlar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259.<\/p>\n

D\u00fckandan \u00e7\u0131xark\u0259n arxas\u0131nca at\u0131lan “Bunun ba\u015f\u0131 xarab imi\u015f ki” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri k\u00fcr\u0259yini yalay\u0131b ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcl d\u00fckanlar\u0131n\u0131, zooma\u011fazalar\u0131, g\u00f6r\u0259n, ba\u011flamaq olarm\u0131?<\/p>\n

B\u0259s h\u0259bsxanalar\u0131 nec\u0259?<\/p>\n

…Bu da universitetl\u0259rinin \u00fc\u00e7m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li bozumtul binas\u0131, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 v\u0259 avtomobil q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259liyi…<\/p>\n

K\u0259ndd\u0259 evl\u0259rind\u0259n azac\u0131q aral\u0131 ki\u00e7ik bir \u00e7ay ax\u0131r, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f sular\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r, yazda-pay\u0131zda \u00e7a\u011flay\u0131r, yayda quruyur. Yay aylar\u0131nda o \u00e7ay\u0131n miskin hal\u0131ndan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi da\u011flanard\u0131. \u0130ndi son g\u00fcnl\u0259r tez-tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259min o \u00e7ay\u0131n yaza-pay\u0131za atlanammay\u0131b daim yayda qalan hal\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 qaynay\u0131b qar\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259diyi bu bozumtul m\u0259kanda ilk olaraq t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131 Ziv\u0259rin titr\u0259k salam\u0131n\u0131 alma\u011fa al\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Qap\u0131da duraraq ke\u015fik \u00e7\u0259km\u0259si ehtimal\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck olan Ziv\u0259r, ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259, onu k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kir, hal-\u0259hval tutur, onsuz dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirir. Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 eyn\u0259n.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 ilk d\u0259rs g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n Ziv\u0259rin diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kdiyini hiss el\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130mkanl\u0131 o\u011flanlarla g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli q\u0131zlar, el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 imkanl\u0131 q\u0131zlarla g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli o\u011flanlar \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda c\u00fctl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r, b\u0259st\u0259boy, azac\u0131q dolu olan, iri, \u0259tli sif\u0259ti il\u0259 x\u0131px\u0131rda burnu t\u0259zad t\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259n Ziv\u0259r d\u0259 q\u0259fild\u0259n ona a\u015fiq oldu\u011funu bildirmi\u015fdi. Bunu m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti hal, \u00f6t\u0259ri hiss hesab edib tezlikl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n sevgi t\u0259lat\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n qurtulaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma “S\u0259nsiz m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259yat yoxdur” h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc ver\u0259n Ziv\u0259r get-ged\u0259 daha da Leylil\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. Bir insan\u0131n onun ucbat\u0131ndan qara torpa\u011fa yem olmas\u0131 il\u0259 nec\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fa bil\u0259rdi ax\u0131? \u0130st\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z “\u018fg\u0259r birini xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259 bilirs\u0259ns\u0259, bunu etm\u0259m\u0259yin cinay\u0259tdir!” aksiomunun basq\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 zor\u0259n M\u0259cnun rolunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259li olmu\u015fdu. Bu \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini h\u0259min v\u0259d\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 (el\u0259 indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259) h\u0259r ax\u015fam evin\u0259 getdiyi professorla da b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. N\u00f6vb\u0259ti \u0259lyazmas\u0131 topas\u0131n\u0131 komp\u00fcterin elektron yadda\u015f\u0131na h\u0259kk etdiyi zaman haql\u0131 olub olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fark\u0259n professor h\u0259yat \u0259lam\u0259tl\u0259ri get-ged\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259ziy\u0259n nursuz g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc uzaqlara dikib xeyli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, demi\u015fdi:<\/p>\n

– Ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259rdini \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sal\u0131b b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259zalar\u0131yla birg\u0259 da\u015f\u0131mas\u0131na insan\u0131n \u00f6z d\u0259rdi q\u0131sqancl\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt imkan verm\u0259z. Amma s\u0259nin d\u0259rdin q\u0131sqanc deyilmi\u015f…<\/p>\n

D\u0259rs ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

“N\u0259z\u0259ri-metodoloji b\u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 problemin qoyulu\u015fundan tutmu\u015f respondentl\u0259rin se\u00e7ilm\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olan c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259r, metodiki-prosedur b\u00f6lm\u0259sin\u0259 is\u0259 m\u0259lumatlar\u0131n toplanmas\u0131, i\u015fl\u0259nm\u0259si v\u0259 t\u0259hlili aiddir. Birinci b\u00f6lm\u0259 sosioloqdan \u0259sasl\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259ri haz\u0131rl\u0131q t\u0259l\u0259b edir. O, t\u0259dqiqat obyektini m\u0259ntiqi t\u0259hlil\u0259 m\u0259ruz qoyma\u011f\u0131 bacarmal\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130kinci b\u00f6lm\u0259 is\u0259…”<\/p>\n

Professoru xat\u0131rlama\u011f\u0131 lap yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu ax\u015fam ax\u0131 tama\u015faya g\u00f6r\u0259 onlara ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. M\u00fctl\u0259q z\u0259ng vurub x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q etm\u0259lidir, yaz\u0131qd\u0131r, g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259sin.<\/p>\n

\u018flyazmalar\u0131n\u0131 kitab etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir, bu ixtiyar \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda. Komp\u00fcterd\u0259 m\u0259tnl\u0259ri daha \u00f6z\u00fc y\u0131\u011fa bilmir, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri v\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxm\u0131r. \u0130mkan\u0131 da yoxdur ki, haradasa y\u0131\u011fd\u0131rs\u0131n. Bunlar\u0131n dekan\u0131 il\u0259 ill\u0259rin dostudur. Bir k\u0259lm\u0259 il\u0259 xahi\u015f el\u0259yibmi\u015f ki, g\u00f6r t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yiyuxas\u0131n\u0131 tapa bilirs\u0259nmi, g\u0259lib m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259sin. Dekan bu xahi\u015fi auditoriyada elan ed\u0259nd\u0259 ham\u0131 \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tur\u015futmu\u015fdu, “\u0130\u015fimiz-g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fcz yoxdur?”, – demi\u015fdil\u0259r. O is\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Professorla s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yi \u00e7ox sevir. \u018fn \u00e7ox da ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, professor \u00e7evr\u0259sind\u0259ki onu dinl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259n yegan\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsdir. Ona k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fayan valideynl\u0259ri, qarda\u015f-bac\u0131lar\u0131, ba\u011f-ba\u011fatlar\u0131, d\u00f6rdg\u00f6z evl\u0259ri, \u0259n \u0259sas da, evl\u0259rind\u0259ki nadir kitablar bar\u0259d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131zdolusu dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259min kitablar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259si, art\u0131q be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda yaz\u0131b-oxuma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259si, bu kitablar\u0131n 1937-ci ild\u0259, iyirmi doqquz ya\u015f\u0131ndayk\u0259n xalq d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni kimi g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n ulu babas\u0131ndan qalmas\u0131 professor \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259dsiz maraql\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. O vaxt ulu babas\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n duyuq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kitablar\u0131 NKVD-\u00e7il\u0259rd\u0259n at t\u00f6vl\u0259sind\u0259, saman\u0131n aras\u0131nda nec\u0259 gizl\u0259tmi\u015fdi, ill\u0259r sonra r\u0259hm\u0259tliyin h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xararaq \u00f6vladlar\u0131na \u0259n d\u0259y\u0259rli miras kimi nec\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 etmi\u015fdi – bu tam t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcatl\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r professoru \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, kitablar\u0131n adlar\u0131, m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259ri, m\u0259zmunlar\u0131 il\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 maraqlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

T\u0259cili telefon tapmal\u0131d\u0131r. Kimin telefonu il\u0259 z\u0259ng vursun? \u00d6z telefonunun yaln\u0131z \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f etm\u0259y\u0259 imkan\u0131 oldu\u011fundan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 m\u00f6htac qal\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 V\u00fcqar\u0131n? Yox, d\u00fcn\u0259n V\u00fcqar\u0131n telefonunu Qazi Elman\u0131n yol k\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 evin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131laraq bir hiss\u0259sini u\u00e7urmu\u015f s\u0259rxo\u015f “Kamaz” s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259z\u0259mm\u0259t ed\u0259-ed\u0259 gen-bol i\u015fl\u0259tmi\u015fdi, sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131 protez m\u00fcharib\u0259 \u0259lilin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n maddi ziyan\u0131 niy\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sin qar\u015f\u0131lamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 haqda m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00fcnvanlarla n\u0259tic\u0259siz dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onda Da\u015fq\u0131n\u0131n. Yox, Az\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Az\u0259r\u00e7\u00fcn kurs i\u015fi yaz\u0131r. Etiraz etm\u0259z.<\/p>\n

T\u0259n\u0259ff\u00fcsd\u0259 Az\u0259ri aray\u0131b bufetd\u0259 tapd\u0131. Yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, adam\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 suland\u0131racaq q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015ftaha\u00e7an qoxunun mane\u00e7iliyi il\u0259 \u00f6nc\u0259 tama\u015faya gedib-getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini soru\u015fdu. S\u0259n dem\u0259, he\u00e7 x\u0259b\u0259ri yox imi\u015f. Sonra da q\u0131zara-q\u0131zara telefonunu ist\u0259di…<\/p>\n

Bayaqk\u0131 ard\u0131c\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131n davam\u0131 g\u0259ldi: d\u0259niz suyuna qibt\u0259 ed\u0259n hovuz suyu…\u00a0\u00a0 Birinin h\u00fcdudsuz azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131, birinins\u0259 kafel s\u0259ddin\u0259d\u0259k olan m\u00f6vcudlu\u011fu…\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Amma yox, fikri qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu b\u0259nz\u0259tm\u0259 bayaqk\u0131 silsil\u0259nin davam\u0131 ola bilm\u0259z. Hovuz suyunun azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kafel s\u0259ddin\u0259d\u0259k uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi, d\u0259niz suyunun azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da sahil\u0259 kimidir. Burada tam, m\u00fctl\u0259q azadl\u0131q yoxdur, b\u00f6y\u00fck v\u0259 ki\u00e7ikh\u0259cmli natamam azadl\u0131qlar var.<\/p>\n

\u0130mkans\u0131zl\u0131q, kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q, ehtiyac… Bu sayaq s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n z\u0259ndeyi-z\u0259hl\u0259si gedir. M\u00fctl\u0259q \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259td\u0259 maddi s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131 varsa, maddi s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259 bayraq etm\u0259yin\u0259 n\u0259 hac\u0259t? H\u0259tta sonu dalana dir\u0259ns\u0259 bel\u0259, d\u00fcz yolu dolanbac, sa\u011fa-sola d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olan yollardan \u00fcst\u00fcn tutur.<\/p>\n

Professorun “G\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m” x\u0259b\u0259rin\u0259d\u0259k sevinc, x\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259n sonrasa m\u0259yusluq do\u011furan s\u0259si il\u0259 t\u0259masdan sonra k\u0259rpicsif\u0259t xan\u0131m\u0131n proqram\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259sini “bu d\u0259f\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q al\u0131nacaq” \u00fcmidiyl\u0259 (bunad\u0259k d\u00f6rd m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni il\u0259 u\u011fursuz anla\u015fma c\u0259hdi olmu\u015fdu) y\u0131\u011fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– \u0130lkan\u0259 xan\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

– Yox, prod\u00fcseri. Buyur. Bu h\u0259ft\u0259sonuna toy g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr\u00fck. G\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259y\u0259 olar. Ancaq ara g\u00fcnl\u0259rin\u0259. Qiym\u0259tl\u0259ri y\u0259qin bilirs\u0259n. B\u00fct\u00fcn toy \u00fc\u00e7 min\u0259, yar\u0131m saatl\u0131q proqram be\u015f y\u00fcz\u0259.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n toy \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn z\u0259ng etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259n…<\/p>\n

– \u018fg\u0259r konsertdirs\u0259 biz yaln\u0131z d\u00f6vl\u0259t t\u0259dbirl\u0259rin\u0259 gedirik.<\/p>\n

– Konsert d\u0259 deyil. Ah\u0131llar evind\u0259 yar\u0131m saatl\u0131q proqramla \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Bu \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

– Hardad\u0131r ora? Bak\u0131dad\u0131rsa be\u015f y\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rik. Bak\u0131dan k\u0259nard\u0131sa , incim\u0259, qiym\u0259t min manatd\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcnortaya sal.<\/p>\n

– Yox, bilirsiz, m\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259y\u0259m, qap\u0131bir qon\u015fum Ah\u0131llar evind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir, deyir, ordak\u0131 insanlar\u0131n \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck ehtiyaclar\u0131 var m\u0259n\u0259vi qidaya.\u00a0\u00a0 T\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Biz ham\u0131m\u0131z humanist…<\/p>\n

– T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259, bura bax, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 saxla! \u0130ndi hans\u0131 z\u0259man\u0259dir ki, m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni pulsuz oxusun?! Bunun b\u0259st\u0259kardan mahn\u0131 al\u0131nmas\u0131 var, qarderobun, kosmeti\u00e7kan\u0131n t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259si var, klip \u00e7\u0259kdirilm\u0259si var. Bunun M\u0259h\u0259rr\u0259mliyi, Oruclu\u011fu var. Ba\u015f\u0131n xarabd\u0131r s\u0259nin?<\/p>\n

– Ax\u0131…<\/p>\n

Qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 qapatd\u0131. O, kor-pe\u015fiman telefonu Az\u0259r\u0259 qaytard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259dir, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n yen\u0259 \u0259lvan qu\u015fcu\u011fazm\u0131 u\u00e7du?<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015ftaha\u00e7an qoxu m\u00fctl\u0259q pera\u015fki qoxusu olmal\u0131yd\u0131. \u00c7ox y\u0259qin, kartof pera\u015fkisinin. \u0130ndi bu uzunsov m\u0259xluqlar (can ver\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey canl\u0131d\u0131r) i\u00e7i ya\u011fla dolu tavada c\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 qopara-qopara q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zarmaqdayd\u0131lar y\u0259qin…<\/p>\n

Az\u0259r kurs i\u015finin v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini soru\u015fub d\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra at\u0131\u015f\u0131b x\u0259ng\u0259lxanaya ged\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi, dilucu onu da d\u0259v\u0259t edirdi. \u018flb\u0259\u0259l “yox” dedi, \u0259lav\u0259 etdi ki, d\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra bibisigil\u0259 ged\u0259sidir, bibisi qutab bi\u015firib, qar\u0131n qutab\u0131, bilir qutab xo\u015flayand\u0131r, d\u0259v\u0259t edib.<\/p>\n

Amma getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi bibisigil\u0259 d\u0259. Ke\u00e7\u0259n \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 onlarda \u0259lind\u0259ki kitab\u0131 bir k\u0259nara qoyub \u0259rkyana \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ay s\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, bibisi d\u0259 dirs\u0259yi il\u0259 iyr\u0259n\u0259-iyr\u0259n\u0259 kitab\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259mi\u015f, “\u0259li mikroblu-mikroblu” \u00e7aydana toxundu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onu danlayaraq \u00e7aydan\u0131 bo\u015fald\u0131b yumu\u015fdu. \u0130ncimi\u015fdi bibisind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Auditoriyaya qay\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fv\u0259ll\u0259r he\u00e7 vaxt haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259diyi \u015feyl\u0259r vaxta\u015f\u0131r\u0131 beyninin qida rasionunda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 beyinin bu qidalarla ilk t\u0259mas\u0131 g\u00fcn kimi ayd\u0131n olsa bel\u0259, dad v\u0259 qoxu sanki d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 dad\u0131lm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 qoxlanm\u0131\u015f kimi ona tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259lir. Get-ged\u0259 daha \u00e7ox \u0259min olur ki, “yeni” adlanan h\u0259r \u015fey do\u011frudan da el\u0259 “k\u00f6hn\u0259”nin \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr ki var. Olacaqlar ham\u0131s\u0131 art\u0131q olmu\u015fdular, bo\u015f f\u0259rziy\u0259l\u0259r y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcb g\u00fcmanlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 itib-batmaqdansa, olmu\u015flara t\u0259r\u0259f qanr\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ki, olacaqlar\u0131 t\u0259xmin etsin.<\/p>\n

N\u00f6vb\u0259ti qo\u015fasaat ba\u015flad\u0131. Ziv\u0259rin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bir an da olsa \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilmirdi.<\/p>\n

\u018fmin idi ki, olmu\u015flarla olacaqlar\u0131n dir\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k yerini yaln\u0131z o \u00f6z\u00fc bilir, h\u0259min s\u0259rh\u0259dd\u0259 t\u0259k-t\u0259nha q\u0259rarla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bura n\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259ki do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 be\u015f-on dig\u0259r tan\u0131\u015f-bili\u015fini, he\u00e7 professoru da \u00e7\u0259kib g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. G\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zdil\u0259r. H\u0259tta la\u011fa qoyar, ri\u015fx\u0259nd edib g\u00fcl\u0259rdil\u0259r ona. \u018fslind\u0259, el\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259l\u0259ri yax\u015f\u0131 idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki onlar\u0131n olacaqlardan o q\u0259d\u0259r umacaqlar\u0131 var idi, bu umduqlar\u0131ndan el\u0259 d\u00f6rd\u0259lli yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki… Bu yap\u0131\u015fma da, \u0259slind\u0259, yegan\u0259 ya\u015fam s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259ri idi. \u0130nsan ya\u015fam s\u0259b\u0259bi olmadan ya\u015faya bil\u0259rmi?<\/p>\n

Mesaj siqnal\u0131 g\u0259ldi. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, Ziv\u0259r idi. Yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, “Niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r soyumusan m\u0259nd\u0259n? B\u0259lk\u0259 araya kims\u0259 girib? Art\u0131q b\u00fct\u00fcn universitet, h\u0259tta ail\u0259m d\u0259 bizim sevgimizd\u0259n m\u0259lumatl\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259ni x\u0259b\u0259rdar etmi\u015f\u0259m, ya s\u0259nin olaca\u011fam, ya qara torpa\u011f\u0131n. D\u00fcn\u0259n anam, bilirs\u0259n, qay\u0131d\u0131b n\u0259 deyir? Deyir, t\u0259cili o\u011flan\u0131n anas\u0131gil g\u0259lib “h\u0259ri”ni als\u0131nlar. Yaz\u0131q neyn\u0259sin.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Qap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259 biri d\u00f6y\u00fcr”.<\/p>\n

Qol saat\u0131na baxd\u0131. Universitetd\u0259 ham\u0131 saat\u0131 mobil telefonundan \u00f6yr\u0259nir. Osa h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 bil\u0259yini yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rmaqla sev\u0259-sev\u0259 “Luch” markal\u0131 saat\u0131na bax\u0131r, vaxtdan x\u0259b\u0259rdar olur.<\/p>\n

Bu, ona l\u0259zz\u0259t verirdi, b\u0259z\u0259n kims\u0259 qolundak\u0131 saata i\u015far\u0259 il\u0259 ondan saat\u0131 soru\u015fanda (uzunqol k\u00f6yn\u0259k geyin\u0259nd\u0259 saat\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u00fcn dey\u0259 qolunu \u00e7\u0131rmalay\u0131rd\u0131) el\u0259 sevinc\u0259k olurdu ki, saat\u0131 lap d\u0259qiq, h\u0259tta b\u0259zil\u0259rin\u0259 – g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 xo\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 saniy\u0259sin\u0259d\u0259k deyirdi. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi, yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 geri qalmadan, ir\u0259li qa\u00e7madan, \u0259n d\u0259qiq i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n m\u0259hz onun saat\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Dem\u0259k, anas\u0131 Ziv\u0259rgil\u0259 “h\u0259ri”sini alma\u011fa getm\u0259lidir? S\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc-d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di, f\u0259rq el\u0259m\u0259z, h\u0259r yerd\u0259 sin\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259r\u0259k “M\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u0259l balam, universitet oxuyan balam”, – dey\u0259 q\u00fcrr\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n, evl\u0259nm\u0259k ya\u015f\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131nca ona q\u0131ztapma\u00a0 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 bula\u015faca\u011f\u0131 vaxt\u0131n s\u0259rm\u0259stliyi il\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s alan (h\u0259tta art\u0131q yeti\u015fmi\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli q\u0131zlara g\u00f6z qoyma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131) anas\u0131n\u0131n bu x\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259 hala d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259k ist\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Alt\u0131n\u0131n tamam\u0131na h\u0259l\u0259 be\u015f saat on iki d\u0259qiq\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 yox da! “Qap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259 biri d\u00f6y\u00fcr”. Yox bir!<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir add\u0131m geri \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n iki add\u0131m ir\u0259li g\u0259lm\u0259sini g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, buna al\u0131\u015fa bilmirdi he\u00e7 c\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

“Anangil” s\u00f6z\u00fc yenid\u0259n yad\u0131na ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259rinin \u0259kib-bec\u0259rdikl\u0259ri, ancaq sata bilm\u0259dikl\u0259ri t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc sald\u0131. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, u\u015faqlardan hans\u0131n\u0131n K\u0259nd T\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131 Nazirliyind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f\u0131 var? B\u0259lk\u0259 Razinin? Yaxud Qumrunun? Yoxsa T\u0259l\u0259tin?<\/p>\n

N\u00f6vb\u0259ti t\u0259n\u0259ff\u00fcsd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 arad\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259t dedi, adam tapa bil\u0259r\u0259m. Ancaq xeyirim n\u0259dirs\u0259 qabaqcadan verm\u0259lis\u0259n. Bu i\u015fd\u0259 xeyir g\u00fcdm\u0259yin \u0259sass\u0131z oldu\u011funu ba\u015fa salmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 illah el\u0259di, duz-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259sdikl\u0259rini g\u00f6z\u0259 soxdu, faydas\u0131 olmad\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259t \u0259lini yell\u0259yib getdi.<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259lvan qu\u015fun qanad \u00e7\u0131rpmas\u0131n\u0131n yelini hiss el\u0259yir? Qu\u015f-filan yoxdur ax\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259?<\/p>\n

G\u0259r\u0259k he\u00e7 a\u011f\u0131z a\u00e7mazd\u0131 T\u0259l\u0259t\u0259. \u018fz\u0259l g\u00fcnd\u0259n he\u00e7 xo\u015fu g\u0259lmir bu \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259nm\u00fc\u015ft\u0259behd\u0259n. El\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 Mehmandan, Tal\u0131bdan, Raufdan, \u018fsg\u0259rd\u0259n, qeyril\u0259rind\u0259n… Birisinin atas\u0131 filan i\u015f\u0259 bax\u0131r, birininki b\u0259hm\u0259n i\u015f\u0259… Ham\u0131s\u0131 n\u0259h\u0259ng devl\u0259rdir. Birinci kursda T\u0259l\u0259tin atas\u0131 yeni \u015fadl\u0131q saray\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259yirdi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ikinci ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b bayram\u0131 bayrama qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131ran T\u0259l\u0259t d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yeyib-i\u00e7m\u0259k m\u0259rasimin\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etmi\u015fdi (O vaxtlar h\u0259l\u0259 qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131ndan tam aralanmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, o da getmi\u015fdi). U\u015faqlar i\u00e7ib d\u0259ml\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 bir sa\u011fl\u0131q da ondan ist\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r, o da “Cola” s\u00fczd\u00fcy\u00fc bad\u0259sini qald\u0131r\u0131b el\u0259 bir sa\u011fl\u0131q demi\u015fdi ki (Qapal\u0131 bir m\u0259kanda xeyli insan ya\u015fay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 bacadan ora insanlar\u0131n say\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r yem\u0259k qoyulurmu\u015f. \u0130lk vaxtlar h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z pay\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc, ham\u0131 \u015fad-x\u00fcrr\u0259m idi. Amma t\u0259dric\u0259n bacaya yax\u0131n olanlar tamahland\u0131lar, \u0259ll\u0259ri, qoltuqlar\u0131, yaxalar\u0131 tutan q\u0259d\u0259r yem\u0259k g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar, lap aral\u0131dak\u0131lar is\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rini yetir\u0259 bilm\u0259yib yem\u0259ksiz qald\u0131. Get-ged\u0259 yem\u0259k qamarlayanlar n\u0259h\u0259ng devl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7evrildil\u0259r, yem\u0259ksiz qalanlarsa iyn\u0259 de\u015fiyind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k hala g\u0259ldil\u0259r. \u0130\u00e7\u0259k, h\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6z ruzisini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259si sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na!), bu sa\u011fl\u0131qdan sonra u\u015faqlar\u0131n bir ne\u00e7\u0259si “Bizim atalar\u0131m\u0131za sata\u015f\u0131rsan?”, – dey\u0259 onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, qrup n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri Barat araya girib onu d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n Frayda ne\u00e7\u0259nci \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f ed\u0259c\u0259k? V\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259? B\u0259lk\u0259 q\u0131z anadang\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fcks\u00fczd\u00fcr? Ax\u0131 b\u0259d\u0259n o d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259, lap ilan t\u0259ki nec\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131la bil\u0259r?<\/p>\n

D\u0259rs qurtard\u0131. Ziv\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ustal\u0131qla o\u011furlan\u0131b t\u0259l\u0259sk\u0259nlikl\u0259 giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 ki, universitetd\u0259 dill\u0259r \u0259zb\u0259ri olan “Pul respektdir, d\u0259rdl\u0259ri reset el\u0259yir” m\u0259s\u0259linin m\u00fc\u0259llifi K\u00f6n\u00fcll\u0259 toqqu\u015fdu, d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 \u00fczr ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131n bir-iki a\u011f\u0131r k\u0259lm\u0259sini h\u0259zm el\u0259y\u0259si oldu.<\/p>\n

P\u0259rt halda yoluna davam edirdi ki, qolundan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, \u00e7evril\u0259nd\u0259 Mehman\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc, d\u0259rhal i\u00e7in\u0259 xo\u015f olmayan hissl\u0259r doldu. Mehman y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b hotel\u0259 getdikl\u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259m vururdu, ora \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 \u0259r\u0259b turist g\u0259libmi\u015f, yerli y\u00fcng\u00fcl\u0259xlaql\u0131lar da t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbl\u0259rmi\u015f ki, \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri tap\u0131b pul qazans\u0131nlar. \u0130ndi Mehman ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259st\u0259si il\u0259 namuslar\u0131n\u0131 taptalayan h\u0259min z\u0259n\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u00f6y\u00fcb-s\u00f6y\u00fcb hotelin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259n qovacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bilm\u0259rr\u0259 olaraq getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini s\u00f6yl\u0259di (H\u0259tta di\u015fl\u0259rinin q\u0131cand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yumruqlar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259ndiyini d\u0259 hiss etdi). Mehman\u0131n: “Ay x\u0259st\u0259, bir d\u0259f\u0259 adam\u0131n bir i\u015fin\u0259 yara da”, – dem\u0259si, “S\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 apararlar, n\u0259tic\u0259 il\u0259 yox”, – m\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259si an \u00e7\u0259kdi. “X\u0259st\u0259” s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki “s” v\u0259 “t” h\u0259rfl\u0259rinin toqqu\u015fmas\u0131ndan yaranan cingilti az qald\u0131 qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bat\u0131rs\u0131n. G\u00fcnd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 “x\u0259st\u0259”, “ba\u015f\u0131 xarab” sayaq s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fidirdi, bunlara al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Lap \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r m\u00fcbahis\u0259 etm\u0259k, bu al\u00e7ald\u0131c\u0131 s\u00f6z basq\u0131s\u0131ndan qurtulmaq ist\u0259mi\u015fdi, he\u00e7 yeri a\u011fr\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131sa nec\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi ax\u0131? Amma bir d\u0259f\u0259 do\u011frudan da ruhunun a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyub x\u0259st\u0259 olmas\u0131 il\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Yenid\u0259n qol saat\u0131n\u0131 narahat el\u0259di. Avtova\u011fzala da getm\u0259lidir. \u00dcst m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki qon\u015fuya rayonlar\u0131ndan \u0259man\u0259t g\u00f6nd\u0259ribl\u0259r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn vaxt\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan gedib g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259yi ondan xahi\u015f edib. G\u0259r\u0259k tama\u015faya kimi \u00f6nc\u0259 avtova\u011fzala, oradan da Qazi Elmangil\u0259 getm\u0259yi \u00e7atd\u0131rs\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Avtova\u011fzalda \u00e7ox olub. Ancaq he\u00e7 vaxt aeroportda, d\u0259miryolu va\u011fzal\u0131nda, limanda olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yeyinl\u0259tdi, az qala qa\u00e7araq hala g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn avtova\u011fzallar \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda, d\u0259miryolu va\u011fzallar\u0131 \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda, liman v\u0259 aeroportlar da el\u0259c\u0259, \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda m\u0259ktubla\u015f\u0131rlar. Avtobus bir avtova\u011fzal\u0131n dig\u0259rin\u0259, qatar bir d\u0259miryolu va\u011fzal\u0131n\u0131n dig\u0259rin\u0259, g\u0259mi bir liman\u0131n, t\u0259yyar\u0259 is\u0259 bir aeroportun dig\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi m\u0259ktublard\u0131r.\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r is\u0259 bu m\u0259ktublar\u0131n m\u0259zmunudur…<\/p>\n

\u018fman\u0259t b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc z\u0259rfd\u0259n ibar\u0259t idi, g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin d\u00f6\u015f cibin\u0259 – tama\u015fa biletinin yan\u0131na qoyaraq qaran\u0259f\u0259s dig\u0259r \u00fcnvana \u00fcz tutdu.<\/p>\n

Amma b\u0259z\u0259n bu m\u0259ktublar m\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na yeti\u015fmir, \u015fossed\u0259, d\u0259mir yolunda, suda, havada “q\u0259zaya u\u011framaq” adl\u0131 bir qorxunclu\u011fa tu\u015f g\u0259lib par\u00e7a-par\u00e7a olur. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, m\u0259zmunca \u0259n dol\u011fun, \u0259n a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olan m\u0259ktublar tu\u015f g\u0259lirl\u0259r bel\u0259 aqib\u0259t\u0259.<\/p>\n

Prospektd\u0259n k\u0259s\u0259 gedib Ya\u015f\u0131l m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 adlamaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 Seyidl\u0259r m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259si il\u0259 uzun-uzad\u0131 getdi (Ya\u015f\u0131l m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 ac\u0131 bir xatir\u0259si vard\u0131 dey\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt oradan ke\u00e7m\u0259zdi. \u00d6t\u0259n il Novruzun ax\u0131r \u00e7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259min m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 azya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n qalad\u0131qlar\u0131 tonqala iki pi\u015fik balas\u0131n\u0131 atd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 edib pi\u015fikl\u0259ri xilas etm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, tonqal\u0131n \u015fah\u0259 qalxan alovlar\u0131 imkan verm\u0259mi\u015fdi, \u0259ll\u0259rini yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131).<\/p>\n

Ail\u0259lil\u0259r yataqxanas\u0131n\u0131 yenic\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, diqq\u0259tini \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 “Xalq\u0131n sevimlisi xalq\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u0259lir!..” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f b\u0259z\u0259kli-d\u00fcz\u0259kli iri bir avtobus \u00e7\u0259kdi, s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndirici il\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131 M\u0259rk\u0259zi M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t Evin\u0259 – mill\u0259t v\u0259kili K\u0259l\u0259nt\u0259r K\u0259l\u0259nt\u0259rliyl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. Gileyl\u0259ndi ki, bunlar da vaxt tap\u0131blar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259. Ax\u0131 bu g\u00fcn tama\u015fa olas\u0131d\u0131r!<\/p>\n

*\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *<\/strong><\/p>\n

…Qazi Elmana da salam-k\u0259lamdan d\u0259rhal sonra saat alt\u0131dak\u0131 tama\u015fa bar\u0259d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131zdolusu dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7\u00a0 bilm\u0259di d\u0259, Fraydan\u0131 m\u00f6vcudlu\u011fundak\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fczd\u0259 biri q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bildimi.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn dam\u0131n taxta karkas\u0131n\u0131 qurmal\u0131 idil\u0259r. Bir ovuc y\u00fczl\u00fck mismar v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7\u0259kici g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yuxar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, i\u00e7ind\u0259 “G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n Qazi Elman Qazi Burhan\u0259ddini tan\u0131y\u0131rm\u0131” sual\u0131 c\u00f6vlan ed\u0259-ed\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00dczb\u0259\u00fczd\u0259ki \u00e7ayxana yen\u0259 dolu idi, \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti g\u0259ncl\u0259rd\u0259n ibar\u0259t kontingent domino oynay\u0131r, siqaret t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259dir, \u00e7ay qurtumlay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 buradan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 (kitabxanaya gedirdi) bir aya\u011f\u0131 protez \u015f\u0259xsin a\u011f\u0131r h\u00f6rg\u00fc i\u015fini t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na icra etm\u0259sind\u0259n b\u0259rk t\u0259sirl\u0259nib \u00e7ayxanaya adlam\u0131\u015f, kimin h\u00f6rg\u00fc i\u015fini bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fmu\u015fdu. Yo\u011fun bil\u0259kli, enlik\u00fcr\u0259k ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r “M\u0259n” deyib yerind\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7ram\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir Qaraba\u011f qazisin\u0259 t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259yin laz\u0131m oldu\u011funu bil\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 duranlar sif\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 naraz\u0131 ifad\u0259 yerl\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Taxtan\u0131 taxtaya p\u0259r\u00e7iml\u0259yir, yandan mismar vururdu. Bir, iki… On, on bir… iyirmi, iyirmi bir…<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131na \u00e7ox uzaqda qalm\u0131\u015f u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259si d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yamya\u015f\u0131l tala, a\u011fappaq \u00e7ad\u0131rlar, t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259n\u0259n ocaq… Barmaqlar\u0131 \u00e7at-\u00e7at olmu\u015f ki\u015fid\u0259n itil\u0259nmi\u015f yiy\u0259 il\u0259 taxta \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 oyma nax\u0131\u015flar a\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259si… \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k, yarpaq, qu\u015f nax\u0131\u015flar\u0131…<\/p>\n

Aman, Tanr\u0131, yen\u0259 d\u0259 qu\u015f?<\/p>\n

T\u0259qrib\u0259n saat yar\u0131m \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u00e7ay fasil\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. K\u0259rpicl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib ba\u015f\u0131\u00e7almal\u0131 ev sahib\u0259sinin g\u0259tirdiyi k\u0259klikotulu \u00e7ay\u0131 l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259, “\u00c7ay yor\u011funlu\u011fu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r” m\u0259s\u0259lini isbatlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s bu ev kiray\u0259si m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini nec\u0259 h\u0259ll ed\u0259c\u0259k? \u0130nsaf\u0259n, \u0259vv\u0259lki ild\u0259 pulu \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259k rahat idi, atas\u0131gil \u00e7atd\u0131ra bilirdi, ifrit\u0259 qad\u0131n sonradan h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd aydan bir qiym\u0259ti iyirmi manat qald\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Gah deyir, neft ucuzla\u015f\u0131b, qald\u0131r\u0131ram, gah deyir, dollar bahala\u015f\u0131b, qald\u0131r\u0131ram, gah deyir, \u0259rimin maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 azald\u0131blar, qald\u0131r\u0131ram…<\/p>\n

St\u0259kan\u0131 bo\u015fald\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131ndan aralay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, Qazi Elman\u0131n protez aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qa\u015f\u0131mas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc, donub qald\u0131. Barmaqlar plastmas\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 c\u00fcy\u00fclt\u00fc qopararaq ir\u0259li-geri gedirdi. \u0130nsan\u0131n t\u00fckl\u0259rini biz-biz ed\u0259n, qan\u0131n\u0131 donduran bir c\u00fcy\u00fclt\u00fc idi.<\/p>\n

Duruxaraq \u00e7ay i\u00e7m\u0259yini yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q k\u0259sm\u0259sini g\u00f6rc\u0259k Elman \u00fczrxahl\u0131qla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di, q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259yi var idi, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri itinc\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0131y\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, dedi, h\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bu c\u00fcr aldad\u0131ram, m\u0259n\u0259 fikir verm\u0259, \u0259lav\u0259 d\u0259 etdi ki, bu c\u00fcr aldan\u0131\u015flar olmasa insan d\u0259li ola bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 t\u0259sirl\u0259nmi\u015fdis\u0259 i\u015fi davam etdir\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kici mismara yox, ba\u015f barma\u011f\u0131na vurdu, birc\u0259 anda barma\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259rib \u015fi\u015fdi. A\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u015fidd\u0259tind\u0259n zar\u0131lday\u0131r, Elman\u0131n p\u0259rt olmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131raraq ev sahib\u0259sind\u0259n yod, pamb\u0131q t\u0259l\u0259b etm\u0259sini, ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llim qon\u015fusuna ac\u0131-ac\u0131 “\u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kic tutmayan yad adam m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ustal\u0131q el\u0259yir, barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259zir, halbuki vaxt\u0131 il\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q etdiyim o q\u0259d\u0259r dost-tan\u0131\u015f, qohum-\u0259qr\u0259ba var ki, indi qolumdan tutmur”, – dey\u0259 etiraf\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 edirdi ki, onu g\u00f6rd\u00fc, m\u00fc\u0259llim qon\u015funun can\u0131yananl\u0131qla “Altruistdir d\u0259” s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259si aran\u0131 qatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qazi Elman ki\u015finin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atlan\u0131b “Al turist d\u0259 s\u0259nin d\u0259d\u0259ndir, ver turist d\u0259”, – dey\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259b p\u00fcsk\u00fcrd\u00fc, “Pis s\u0259ns\u0259n, s\u0259nin kimil\u0259rdir, o is\u0259 \u0259sl ki\u015fi adamd\u0131r” s\u00f6zl\u0259rini x\u0131rtd\u0259yind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015faraq yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u015fill\u0259 t\u0259ki \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc d\u0259. Barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir anl\u0131q unudas\u0131 oldu, barmaqlar\u0131 k\u0259lb\u0259tin\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f Qazi Elman\u0131 qon\u015fusundan aralama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131, “altruist” s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn he\u00e7 d\u0259 pis s\u00f6z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u0259ksin\u0259, “eqoist”in \u0259ksini bildirm\u0259sini h\u0259rfb\u0259h\u0259rf qand\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 buna xeyli vaxt, \u0259s\u0259b s\u0259rf etdi.<\/p>\n

P\u0259rt olmu\u015f m\u00fc\u0259llimi \u00fczrxahl\u0131qla yola salanda Elman da bil\u0259yi il\u0259 t\u0259rini sil\u0259-sil\u0259 bir siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131, buludlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda gizl\u0259n\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f q\u0131y\u011fac\u0131 boylan\u0131b k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

– Qaqam, m\u0259ni q\u0131nama, bizl\u0259r bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q ac\u0131y\u0131q? O q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fik ki. Hans\u0131n\u0131 deyim e s\u0259n\u0259? \u018fsirlikd\u0259 olanda erm\u0259nil\u0259r \u0259limiz\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 su olan bo\u015fqab verib qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131rd\u0131lar. Kimin bo\u015fqab\u0131ndan bir damc\u0131 su t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcs\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259yirdil\u0259r… Aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 mina par\u00e7alayanda el\u0259 \u015fok ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdim, qanl\u0131 \u0259t par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb iyn\u0259-sap t\u0259l\u0259b el\u0259yirdim ki, yerin\u0259 tikim…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi gizl\u0259y\u0259n buludlar\u0131n b\u0259zil\u0259ri qarayd\u0131, amma b\u0259yaz\u0131 da az deyildi…<\/p>\n

Yenid\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flayanda \u0259zilmi\u015f barma\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 o, daha usta kimi \u00f6z\u00fc taxta mismarlam\u0131rd\u0131, indi usta k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7isiydi, Elmana mismar \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 yazmasa da yadda\u015fla yaz\u0131rd\u0131, \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 qalaqlay\u0131rd\u0131 cildl\u0259ri.\u00a0\u00a0 \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 topla\u015fm\u0131\u015f sevinc v\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259rd\u0259n ara-s\u0131ra sevinirdi, f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259nirdi, amma daha \u00e7ox iniltil\u0259ri, ah-uflar\u0131 sezirdi, damc\u0131layan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na diksinirdi.<\/p>\n

Adi bo\u015f ka\u011f\u0131zlarla m\u0259na k\u0259sb ed\u0259n yaz\u0131l\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131zlar eyni c\u00fcr yanm\u0131rlarm\u0131\u015f, \u0259min idi. Birincil\u0259r d\u0259rhal alovlan\u0131b \u00e7\u0131rt\u0131lt\u0131yla yan\u0131r, bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda k\u00fcl olurlarm\u0131\u015f. \u0130kincil\u0259r is\u0259 uzun-uzad\u0131: h\u0259rfb\u0259h\u0259rf, c\u00fcml\u0259b\u0259c\u00fcml\u0259, fikirb\u0259fikir yan\u0131rlarm\u0131\u015f. He\u00e7 k\u00fcll\u0259ri d\u0259 \u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lmirmi\u015f…<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn zamanlarda yadda\u015flarda yaz\u0131lan kitablar\u0131n da yand\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 \u0259mri verils\u0259ydi, onda nec\u0259 olard\u0131? A\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n bu fikird\u0259n lap eym\u0259ndi, \u0259m\u0259llic\u0259 xof hiss el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

*\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0*<\/strong><\/p>\n

…Saat alt\u0131ya iyirmi be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f “D\u00fcnyan\u0131 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k!” \u015f\u00fcar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131b biletini n\u0259zar\u0259t\u00e7iy\u0259 t\u0259qdim ed\u0259r\u0259k sevinc\u0259k add\u0131mlarla arenaya daxil oldu, birinci c\u0259rg\u0259nin birinci yerind\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik qidas\u0131n\u0131 udma\u011fa haz\u0131r v\u0259ziyy\u0259t ald\u0131. \u018ftrafda bayram \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259si duyulurdu. B\u0259z\u0259nib-d\u00fcz\u0259nmi\u015f insanlar, \u00e7oxu ail\u0259likc\u0259, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259baxan tumu, popkorn, i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r, dey\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 \u00f6z yerl\u0259rini tap\u0131b \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259ydi. Oynaq musiqi s\u0259dalar\u0131 e\u015fidilirdi.<\/p>\n

F\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259n istifad\u0259 edib qoltu\u011fundak\u0131 kitab\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n davam etdi:<\/p>\n

“…Mogikanlar \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259sild\u0259n t\u00f6r\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r, bu \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259slin m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sl\u0259\u015fdirdikl\u0259ri canl\u0131lar qurd, t\u0131sba\u011fa v\u0259 hindqu\u015fu idi. H\u0259r n\u0259slin bir fratriyas\u0131 vard\u0131. \u018fn g\u00fccl\u00fc qurd fratriyas\u0131 idi ki, bura da \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00f6rd n\u0259sil – qurd, ay\u0131, it v\u0259 opossum n\u0259sill\u0259ri daxil idi…”<\/p>\n

\u018flini d\u00f6\u015f cibin\u0259 at\u0131b qon\u015fusunun \u0259man\u0259tinin yerind\u0259 olmas\u0131na \u0259minl\u0259ndi. H\u0259l\u0259 tama\u015fa ba\u015flanmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Musiqinin gur s\u0259si yerl\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259 olan tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

“…Mogikan \u0259yal\u0259tinin paytaxt\u0131 \u015eobak adlan\u0131rd\u0131. Burada h\u0259m h\u00f6kmdar, h\u0259m onun m\u00fc\u015favirl\u0259ri \u0259yl\u0259\u015firdi. Ali icraedici orqan olan Saxeml\u0259r \u015furas\u0131 da \u015eobakda f\u0259aliyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. H\u00f6kmdar…”<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fland\u0131! Ba\u015fland\u0131!<\/p>\n

U\u015faqlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 kitabdan ay\u0131r\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259canla s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259di. \u00d6nc\u0259 i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 (Frayda x\u00fcsusi \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259 add\u0131mlay\u0131rd\u0131) t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n od sa\u00e7an velosiped\u00e7il\u0259rin m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259ti il\u0259 d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurub tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 salamlad\u0131lar. Kollektivin r\u0259hb\u0259ri Qodyavir (A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131) Mixal\u0131\u00e7 (bir suyu nec\u0259 d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259ki Baronu xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131) bu isti m\u00fcnasib\u0259t\u0259, zal\u0131n tam dolmas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f halda minn\u0259tdarl\u0131q bildirdi. S\u00f6z \u015f\u0259h\u0259r b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259si n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259sin\u0259 veril\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259 n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 bu \u0259yal\u0259t \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin\u0259 g\u0259li\u015fl\u0259ri il\u0259 artistl\u0259rin \u015f\u0259h\u0259r sakinl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259sl bayram ya\u015fatd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259s-k\u00fcy qopdu\u011fundan (arxas\u0131ndak\u0131lar bir yer\u0259 iki bilet sat\u0131lmas\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259bind\u0259n yerl\u0259ri b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dikl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, \u0259lb\u0259yaxa olsunlar) s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 daha n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan bix\u0259b\u0259r qald\u0131, amma m\u0259murun kollektivin r\u0259hb\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7ox iri, par-par par\u0131ldayan b\u00fcllur vaz h\u0259diyy\u0259 etm\u0259sini g\u00f6rc\u0259k qanadland\u0131, bu q\u0259dirbilm\u0259ni \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7ox y\u00fcks\u0259k qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirdi.<\/p>\n

Kxamalo zal\u0131 q\u0259\u015f\u015f edinc\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fc, Baxti ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u015firin a\u011fz\u0131na soxmaqla ham\u0131ya h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 anlar ya\u015fatd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131nda oturan uzunburun, iridi\u015f ki\u015fi v\u0259 onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n o\u011flu g\u00fcn\u0259baxan tumunu nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rtlay\u0131rd\u0131larsa, \u00e7\u0131rt\u0131lt\u0131 s\u0259si s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259rl\u0259 az qala r\u0259qab\u0259t aparacaqd\u0131. Bir tum qab\u0131\u011f\u0131 dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, tum\u00e7\u0131rtlayan qon\u015fular\u0131n\u0131n yerd\u0259 yaratd\u0131qlar\u0131 qab\u0131q da\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 tullamaq ist\u0259di, amma \u0259li g\u0259lm\u0259di, cibin\u0259 qoydu ki, evd\u0259 zibil qab\u0131na tullayar.<\/p>\n

\u0130lo on metr h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fckd\u0259 k\u0259ndirin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 mayallaq a\u015fd\u0131, ponil\u0259r paraddan ke\u00e7dil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259dir bel\u0259? \u00d6nc\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlamad\u0131, arenaya s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndirici il\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259f\u0259rin daxil olmas\u0131n\u0131 tama\u015fan\u0131n t\u0259rkib hiss\u0259si hesab el\u0259di, di g\u0259l,\u00a0\u00a0 “M\u0259rk\u0259zi M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t Evind\u0259 xalq\u0131n sevimlisi, mill\u0259t v\u0259kili K\u0259l\u0259nt\u0259r K\u0259l\u0259nt\u0259rli il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ke\u00e7irilir, ham\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 d\u0259v\u0259t edirik!” ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 tamam kefin\u0259 so\u011fan do\u011frad\u0131, ani olaraq bayaq k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259kli avtobusu q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7 bu \u00fc\u00e7 \u015f\u0259xsi etik normalara riay\u0259t etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b onlardan arenan\u0131 t\u0259rk etm\u0259l\u0259rini t\u0259l\u0259b el\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259mr\u0259ylik \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq o da yerind\u0259n durdu, tama\u015fan\u0131 pozmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259rs bir bax\u0131\u015f tolazlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Meymunlar\u0131n hoqqalar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259lx\u0259kl\u0259rin m\u0259zh\u0259k\u0259sinin tamamlamas\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131nca sanki i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f do\u011fdu, g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259li Frayda sehrli g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259si il\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131 ovsunlayaraq al\u0131\u015f\u0131b-yanan q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 paltar\u0131nda s\u0259hn\u0259nin tam ortas\u0131nda, projektorlar tu\u015flanan n\u00f6qt\u0259d\u0259 yer ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aman Allah, bu q\u0259d\u0259r inc\u0259lik, elastiklik, ah\u0259ngdarl\u0131q v\u0259 bunlardan do\u011fan bu q\u0259d\u0259r sehrkar g\u00f6z\u0259llikmi olard\u0131? Fraydan\u0131n h\u0259r bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin\u0259, jestin\u0259, mimikas\u0131na acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 tama\u015fa edirdi. Seyr \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259hz birinci c\u0259rg\u0259ni –\u00a0 Fraydan\u0131n bir add\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 “af\u0259rinl\u0259r” ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Bayaqdan b\u0259ri g\u00f6yn\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259 olan \u0259zilmi\u015f barma\u011f\u0131 da a\u011fr\u0131dan qurtularaq kirimi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 (g\u0259r\u0259k ki, yeddincid\u0259 oxuyurdu) arx\u0131n suyunun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sib \u00f6z bostanlar\u0131na ax\u0131dan atas\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, atas\u0131n\u0131n sonradan “g\u00fcnah i\u015f” adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir i\u015f tutmu\u015fdu, ba\u011f\u0131-ba\u011fat\u0131 yanan qon\u015fulara \u00fcr\u0259yi yananl\u0131qla suyun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r ona he\u00e7 \u0259l qald\u0131rmayan atas\u0131 b\u0259rk q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259nib \u00fclg\u00fccl\u0259 q\u0131rx\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131na a\u011f\u0131r bir qapaz endirmi\u015fdi (Z\u0259rif d\u0259riy\u0259 be\u015f barmaq \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259 nec\u0259 qan s\u0131zmas\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 bu l\u0259k\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 nec\u0259 qorxmas\u0131n\u0131, anas\u0131n\u0131n onu ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131b nec\u0259 a\u011flamas\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 unuda bilmir). O da qapaz\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131ndan daha \u00e7ox incikliyinin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 evd\u0259n qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, gedib talada m\u0259sk\u0259n salm\u0131\u015f qara\u00e7\u0131 taboruna qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. Deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n, oxuyub-oynayan, dolu-dolu s\u00fcfr\u0259l\u0259r a\u00e7an, k\u00fcp-k\u00fcp \u00e7ax\u0131r i\u00e7\u0259n, daim \u015f\u0259n qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7ox b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259n \u0259zalar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259sdirilm\u0259si il\u0259 m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259t olunan “Flamenko” r\u0259qsl\u0259rin\u0259, “Xaberoma” adland\u0131rd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259tli-g\u00f6y\u0259rtili \u015forbalar\u0131na, daha \u00e7ox is\u0259 s\u0259madak\u0131 qu\u015flar q\u0259d\u0259rki azadl\u0131qlar\u0131na a\u015fiq olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Qara\u00e7\u0131lardan q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 yor\u011fa at s\u00fcrm\u0259yi, taxta \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 oyma nax\u0131\u015flar vurma\u011f\u0131 da \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Qara\u00e7\u0131 qanunlar\u0131n\u0131, x\u00fcsus\u0259n i\u015f\u0259-g\u00fcc\u0259 ged\u0259n qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnd\u0259lik qazanclar\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirib r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng nax\u0131\u015fl\u0131 d\u0259mir sand\u0131qdan ibar\u0259t \u00fcmumi x\u0259zin\u0259y\u0259 toplamas\u0131n\u0131, Baron adland\u0131r\u0131lan ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n bu qazanc\u0131n b\u0259rab\u0259r \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259ddi-bulu\u011fa \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f tabor sakinl\u0259ri aras\u0131nda (i\u00e7l\u0259rind\u0259 qocalar, \u015fik\u0259stl\u0259r d\u0259 az deyildi) b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259sini, “He\u00e7 bir qara\u00e7\u0131 dig\u0259rind\u0259n \u00fcst\u00fcn ola bilm\u0259z” qaydas\u0131n\u0131 u\u015faq t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fc il\u0259 h\u0259dsiz b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra g\u00f6z\u00fcya\u015fl\u0131 atas\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259nd adam\u0131yla birg\u0259 g\u0259lib onu tapanda he\u00e7 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. H\u0259tta ona mehr salm\u0131\u015f Baron onun q\u0131rx\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rib “\u0130nsan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini t\u00fckl\u0259ri da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r, biz l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015fl\u0259ri bu c\u00fcr q\u0131rx\u0131r\u0131q, s\u0259ns\u0259 bir par\u00e7a u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r n\u0259 hala salm\u0131san”, – s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, “Qoy biziml\u0259 qals\u0131n, s\u0259n onunla pis r\u0259ftar edirs\u0259n” q\u0259na\u0259ti il\u0259 atas\u0131na t\u0259pki g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck taborda qalaca\u011f\u0131na bir \u0259minlik d\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onda.<\/p>\n

Amma anas\u0131n\u0131n, bac\u0131-qarda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n onun\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fckl\u0259rini e\u015fitc\u0259k \u00fcr\u0259yi yum\u015falm\u0131\u015f, geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q vermi\u015fdi. Sonradan da, az qala h\u0259r g\u00fcn, ta ki qara\u00e7\u0131lar \u00e7ad\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcb k\u00f6\u00e7 ed\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k, g\u0259lib uzaqdan q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259 bu azadl\u0131q v\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259rlik yuvas\u0131n\u0131 seyr etmi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n

Q\u0131rmancl\u0131 atl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015fa ba\u015flayanda s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndiricili m\u0259rdimazarlar yenid\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 daha inamla, \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nl\u0259 arenada peyda oldular, qan\u0131n\u0131 bir daha qaraltd\u0131lar, K\u0259l\u0259nt\u0259rli il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 i\u015ftirak ed\u0259n h\u0259r bir k\u0259s\u0259 h\u0259m K\u0259l\u0259nt\u0259rlinin n\u0259fis t\u0259rtib olunmu\u015f f\u0259aliyy\u0259t proqram\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259lli manat m\u0259bl\u0259\u011find\u0259 \u0259skinas h\u0259diyy\u0259 olunaca\u011f\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rini qapqara l\u0259k\u0259 kimi bu al-\u0259lvan g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 p\u0259r\u00e7im el\u0259dil\u0259r. Bir anda zalda u\u011fultu qopdu, onu g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, adamlar durub \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015fa do\u011fru getm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. S\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndiricinin\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 “T\u0259l\u0259sin, yerl\u0259r m\u0259hduddur!” elan\u0131 e\u015fidildikd\u0259 is\u0259 giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259sl t\u00fcnl\u00fck yarand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ani olaraq t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 bel\u0259 bir \u015fey g\u0259ldi: insan d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259n kimi onu tamah v\u0259zind\u0259n axtalay\u0131rlar…<\/p>\n

Q\u0131rmancl\u0131 atl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir an da olsa dayand\u0131rm\u0131r, a\u011flag\u0259lm\u0259z tryuklar n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirirdi. H\u0259tta d\u0259rid\u0259n-qab\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xan at\u0131n da, san\u0131rd\u0131n ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 insanlara xitab\u0259n “N\u0259 olar, dayan\u0131n, getm\u0259yin” yalvar\u0131\u015f\u0131 hiss olunurdu.<\/p>\n

Arena tam bo\u015falmaqdayd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131nda oturan uzunburun, iridi\u015f ki\u015finin getm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n o\u011flunu az qala s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259, “\u018f, \u0259lli manata be\u015f kilo \u0259t d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr e” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 t\u0259rkisilah ed\u0259r\u0259k arenadan \u00e7\u0131xarmas\u0131n\u0131, Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7\u0131n ged\u0259nl\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ke\u00e7ib onlar\u0131 geri qaytarmaq\u00e7\u00fcn dil\u0259 tutmaqdan ibar\u0259t m\u0259nas\u0131z \u00e7abalar g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259sini \u00fcr\u0259k a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 seyr etdiyi zaman bay\u0131rdan guppultu qopdu. Giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 boylananda arenadan \u00e7\u0131xan izdiham\u0131n dar giri\u015fd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n basabas yarad\u0131b qoruyucu hasar\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sini a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. “D\u00fcnyan\u0131 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k!” s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin “m\u0259d\u0259niyy” yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f d\u00f6rdd\u0259 bir hiss\u0259si ayaqlar alt\u0131nda taptalanmaqda idi, f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131 ki, arxas\u0131 ona olan \u015f\u00fcar\u0131n yaln\u0131z miskin “D\u00fcnyan\u0131 \u0259t xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k!” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Sonrak\u0131 saat mac\u0259ras\u0131z, sakit m\u0259crada ke\u00e7di. C\u0259mi iki tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, o v\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fczd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f orta ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fi. Teatr v\u0259 balet truppas\u0131, orkestr, sonra yenid\u0259n meymunlar v\u0259 klounlar yaln\u0131z onlar\u0131n ikisi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tama\u015fa verdi (Nax\u0259l\u0259f barma\u011f\u0131 \u0259zilm\u0259y\u0259 vaxt tapd\u0131 da. Ax\u0131, ged\u0259nl\u0259rin yerin\u0259 alq\u0131\u015f ya\u011fd\u0131rmaq ona d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc).<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fc t\u0259ki d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n ba\u015fqa birisinin d\u0259 m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funa \u00e7ox sevinirdi, h\u0259tta g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 sevinc ya\u015f\u0131 da gil\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Tama\u015fan\u0131n ax\u0131rlar\u0131na yax\u0131n yerini d\u0259yi\u015fdi, gedib ikinci tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n (ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndi, Cumal\u0131 imi\u015f) yan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi, ax\u0131rad\u0259k tama\u015fada qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn minn\u0259tdarl\u0131q bildirdi. \u0130kinci tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 \u0259lini onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyaraq dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, o \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r el\u0259 bilirl\u0259r, h\u0259r \u015feyi pulla h\u0259ll etm\u0259k olar, \u0259slind\u0259 is\u0259 bel\u0259 deyil, yan\u0131l\u0131rlar, bu g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259rin i\u00e7ini silk\u0259l\u0259diyini hiss etdi, az qald\u0131, durub ba\u011fr\u0131na basaraq bu \u015f\u0259xsi \u00f6ps\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

\u0130kinci tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 ard\u0131nca da dedi ki, m\u0259n b\u0259db\u0259xt adamam, ka\u011f\u0131z pula allergiyam var, el\u0259 ki \u0259lim\u0259 al\u0131ram, \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259 g\u0259zdirir\u0259m, b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nim qa\u015f\u0131n\u0131b k\u00f6pp\u0259-k\u00f6pp\u0259 s\u0259pir.<\/p>\n

Yox, qu\u015fcu\u011faz n\u0259 g\u0259zirdi, y\u0259qin yen\u0259 onu qara bas\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Orkestrin notlar\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, meymunlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q duydu, Kxamalonun n\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f pay\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r ac\u0131, q\u0259h\u0259rli g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f kimi g\u0259ldi ona.<\/p>\n

Tama\u015fa bit\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259 Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7 s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b q\u0259h\u0259rli s\u0259sl\u0259 indi h\u0259r yerd\u0259 – Amerikada da, Avropada da, Asiyada da m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tin g\u00f6zd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, d\u0259y\u0259rsizl\u0259\u015fdiyini vur\u011fulayaraq, h\u0259r halda, tama\u015fan\u0131 sona yetirm\u0259y\u0259 arenada tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt sand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi anda o, insanlar bar\u0259d\u0259 du\u015funm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259r bir insan g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr, h\u0259m d\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc oldu\u011fu q\u0259d\u0259r z\u0259ifdir. G\u00fcc\u00fcn n\u00f6vb\u0259si \u00e7atanda qurub-yarad\u0131r, savablar qoyur ortaya. Amma z\u0259ifliyin n\u00f6vb\u0259si \u00e7atanda u\u00e7urub-da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, g\u00fcnahlar t\u00f6r\u0259dir. \u0130nsan\u0131n h\u0259qiq\u0259ti g\u00fccl\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259, yalan\u0131 z\u0259ifliyind\u0259, \u0259dal\u0259ti g\u00fccl\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259, haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 z\u0259ifliyind\u0259dir. El\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 humanizmi v\u0259 xeyirxahl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da eqoizmi v\u0259 q\u0259ddarl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla, m\u00fcvafiq olaraq, birinciyl\u0259 ikincinin t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 r\u0259qab\u0259t apar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 idi, bayaq m\u0259murun ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcllur vaz\u0131 g\u0259tizdirib “Siz iki n\u0259f\u0259rsiz, amma \u0259fsus ki, m\u0259n c\u0259mi bir h\u0259diyy\u0259 ver\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m, h\u0259diyy\u0259ni b\u00f6lm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fcr dey\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fam…” t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirirdi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259diyy\u0259 qeydsiz-\u015f\u0259rtsiz onun olmal\u0131yd\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259nin qa\u015f\u0131n\u0131b k\u00f6pp\u0259-k\u00f6pp\u0259 s\u0259pm\u0259si s\u0259b\u0259bi m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t\u0259 a\u015fiqlik s\u0259b\u0259bini he\u00e7 bir v\u0259chl\u0259 \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. Qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirilm\u0259yi, d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirilm\u0259yi m\u0259cbur\u0259n sevm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 yor\u011funlu\u011fundan dolay\u0131 topla\u015fm\u0131\u015f m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259t\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259r hissl\u0259rini s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131b uyutmaqda olan bir q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 hissinin c\u00f6vlan etdiyinin f\u0259rqind\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

“Eh, elo\u011flu, s\u0259n bizim d\u0259rdimizi bils\u0259n d\u0259smal g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011flayarsan e.\u00a0\u00a0 Q\u0131z\u0131ma f\u0259rli cehizlik d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259 bilmirik, kaprizli qudalar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00f6lg\u0259liyik. Bu, xalis \u00e7ex b\u00fcllurudur, ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Ev\u0259 aparsam u\u015faqlar\u0131n anas\u0131yla q\u0131z\u0131m he\u00e7 bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 qol g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb oynayarlar?”, – s\u00f6zl\u0259ri sual \u00fcnvanlanaraq cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259nilirmi\u015f kimi ona tu\u015flananda ani olaraq duruxub qald\u0131 (Ax\u0131 hardan bilirdil\u0259r onun bu yaral\u0131 yerini?!).<\/p>\n

Xeyli vaxt ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra a\u011f g\u0259linlikd\u0259ki g\u0259nc q\u0131z\u0131n b\u00fcllur sevinci namin\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n

Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fi az qala qa\u00e7araq s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b b\u00fcllur vaz\u0131n par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z i\u015fart\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdir\u0259nd\u0259 o, art\u0131q arenadan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ev\u0259 do\u011fru g\u0259lirdi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bombo\u015f s\u0259mayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Binalar\u0131na nec\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131, \u00fcstd\u0259ki qon\u015funun z\u0259rfini nec\u0259 verdi, m\u0259nzil\u0259 nec\u0259 girdi, boyat \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k dilimini (pendir qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131) bir st\u0259kan a\u00e7\u0131q r\u0259ngli \u00e7ay\u0131n m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259ti il\u0259 nec\u0259 yedi, \u0259zilmi\u015f barma\u011f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131m\u0131, televizorda hans\u0131 proqrama baxd\u0131, yerin\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt uzand\u0131, x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131. Birc\u0259 onu g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, gec\u0259 lampas\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131b v\u0259 kitab\u0131 dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n oxuma\u011fa davam edir:<\/p>\n

“…XVII \u0259srin ortalar\u0131nda mogikanlar \u00f6z ticari \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rini geni\u015fl\u0259ndirm\u0259kd\u0259 idil\u0259r. Onlar d\u0259ri alveri il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur, get-ged\u0259 z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fir, bununla da \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 r\u0259qib moxoklar\u0131n timsal\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n formala\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. X\u0131rda insidentl\u0259r 1664-c\u00fc ild\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tli m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evrildi, k\u0259ndl\u0259r yand\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r, insanlar qar\u0131\u015fqa kimi q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131…”<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, artistl\u0259r yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r? Amma yox… Arenan\u0131 s\u00f6km\u0259k el\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt aparar. Y\u0259qin s\u00f6km\u0259k i\u015fin\u0259 oba\u015fdandan ba\u015flay\u0131b sabah ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc d\u0259 yola d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

“Yaln\u0131z 1669-cu ild\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259r, guya, s\u00fclh ba\u011flad\u0131lar. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259 d\u00fcr\u00fcst olan mogikanlar d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin “s\u00fclh” t\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini a\u011f\u0131llar\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259zdil\u0259r, ancaq moxoklar silah\u0131 yer\u0259 qoymu\u015f mogikanlara q\u0259fild\u0259n h\u00fccum edib b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck qazand\u0131lar…”<\/p>\n

Cumal\u0131 ki\u015finin q\u0131z\u0131 indi nec\u0259 sevinir… Allah xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259sin, yar\u0131yanlardan olsun.<\/p>\n

“Hofmans – Ferri adl\u0131 \u0259razid\u0259 mogikanlar h\u0259lledici m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259t\u0259 m\u0259ruz qald\u0131lar. Moxoklar \u0259sirl\u0259r\u0259 bel\u0259 aman verm\u0259dil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

\u018fsrin \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259 say hesab\u0131 35 min n\u0259f\u0259r olan mogikanlardan 1672-ci ild\u0259 c\u0259mi min n\u0259f\u0259r qald\u0131. Q\u0259fil ba\u015flay\u0131b t\u00fc\u011fyan ed\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k epidemiyas\u0131 is\u0259 bu say hesab\u0131n\u0131 da yar\u0131bayar\u0131 azaltd\u0131…”<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259nin r\u0259ngi, san\u0131rd\u0131n ki, \u0259vv\u0259lkil\u0259rd\u0259kind\u0259n t\u00fcnd idi. Anas\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259n\u0259si dan\u0131\u015farm\u0131\u015f, o vaxt NKVD-\u00e7il\u0259r h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 aparanda da gec\u0259nin zil qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. S\u0259mada c\u0259mi bir ulduz var imi\u015f. Sol\u011fun, \u00f6l\u0259ziy\u0259n bir ulduz.<\/p>\n

Ulu babas\u0131, deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, \u00e7ox elmli \u015f\u0259xs imi\u015f, ill\u0259rin m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259l\u0259rini, ara\u015fd\u0131rmalar\u0131n\u0131 beyninin bir h\u00fccr\u0259sin\u0259 toplay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f, beynind\u0259 kitab yaz\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Ancaq h\u0259min o kitab\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u0259yibmi\u015f. Dostlar\u0131, yolda\u015flar\u0131 t\u0259kid ets\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, Bak\u0131dan b\u00f6y\u00fck aliml\u0259r g\u0259lib dil\u0259 tutsalar da beyin kitab\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f ki \u00e7\u0131xarmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131na gizlinc\u0259 bir-iki k\u0259lm\u0259 deyibmi\u015f h\u0259min qan qoxulu ill\u0259rd\u0259. Deyibmi\u015f, \u0259lyazmalar\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131lanlar bir c\u00fcr, kitablar\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131lanlar ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr b\u0259db\u0259xtdirl\u0259r. F\u0259rqi yoxdur, b\u0259xtin g\u0259tirib birincid\u0259n olmad\u0131nsa, m\u00fctl\u0259q ikincid\u0259n olacaqsan. Bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r tonqallar\u0131 alovland\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Yata\u011f\u0131ndan durub p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, s\u0259maya boylanmaq ist\u0259di.\u00a0\u00a0 Ancaq qorxdu ki, orada c\u0259mi bir, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 sol\u011fun, \u00f6l\u0259ziy\u0259n ulduz g\u00f6r\u00fcb lap m\u0259yus olsun.<\/p>\n

Qay\u0131d\u0131b yenid\u0259n q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fczl\u00fc kitaba sarmand\u0131.<\/p>\n

“…XVIII \u0259srin ortalar\u0131nda azsayl\u0131 mogikanlar \u00f6z yurdlar\u0131nda olduqca a\u011f\u0131r m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fdikl\u0259rind\u0259n \u015e\u0259rq\u0259 – Stokhic\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7 etdil\u0259r. Hindu torpaqlar\u0131nda a\u011fal\u0131q ed\u0259n ingilis v\u0259 frans\u0131z m\u00fcst\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259\u00e7il\u0259ri h\u0259min d\u00f6vrd\u0259 daim \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri ay\u0131rd etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, evl\u0259ri da\u011f\u0131lan, \u0259kin sah\u0259l\u0259ri yand\u0131r\u0131lan hindu tayfalar\u0131 is\u0259 neytral qala bilm\u0259yib \u00f6z m\u00f6vcudluqlar\u0131n\u0131 qorumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fctl\u0259q t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131…”<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u00fcstl\u0259rind\u0259ki qon\u015funun K\u0259nd T\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131 Nazirliyind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f\u0131 var? El\u0259-bel\u0259 adama ox\u015fam\u0131r. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 kostyum geyir, qalstuk tax\u0131r…<\/p>\n

“…Mogikanlar yeddiillik m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 ingilisl\u0259rin t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 frans\u0131zlara qar\u015f\u0131 silah qald\u0131rd\u0131lar, 1776-c\u0131 ild\u0259 AB\u015e-\u0131n m\u00fcst\u0259qilliyi u\u011frunda ged\u0259n m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 is\u0259 on \u00fc\u00e7 qiyam\u00e7\u0131 \u0259yal\u0259tin m\u00fcst\u0259qillik m\u00fcbariz\u0259sin\u0259 qo\u015fulub\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Britaniyaya qar\u015f\u0131 vuru\u015fdular. H\u00f6kmdarlar\u0131 Hendrik Opomut elan el\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, biz h\u0259qiq\u0259tin, \u0259dal\u0259tin t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 olaraq \u00f6z insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdir\u0259k, y\u0259qin bu jestimiz cavabs\u0131z qalmaz…”<\/p>\n

Son c\u00fcml\u0259ni oxuyanda art\u0131q i\u015f\u0131qla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

“…Amma m\u00fcharib\u0259ni qalibiyy\u0259tl\u0259 bitirib AB\u015e-\u0131n m\u00fcst\u0259qilliyini elan ed\u0259n h\u00f6kum\u0259t mogikanlar\u0131n \u015f\u00fcca\u0259tini qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 onlar\u0131n torpaqlar\u0131nda zor\u0259n \u00f6z a\u011fd\u0259rili v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yerl\u0259\u015fdirdi. Get-ged\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lan sonuncu mogikanlar m\u0259yus halda Viskonsin \u015ftat\u0131nda irokezl\u0259rin verdiyi s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011fa \u00fcz tutdular. Orda da yerli tayfalar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259riy\u0259r\u0259k yox oldular…”<\/p>\n

…G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u00f6z \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259rini p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri salanda o, art\u0131q “S\u0259h\u0259r proqram\u0131”na baxa-baxa nahar el\u0259yir, k\u0259rpicsif\u0259t xan\u0131mgilin bazar meydan\u0131ndan haz\u0131rlad\u0131qlar\u0131 sor\u011funu cand\u0259rdi izl\u0259yirdi. Respondentl\u0259rd\u0259n soru\u015fulurdu ki, siz\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 edilm\u0259sini ist\u0259y\u0259rdiniz.<\/p>\n

Saat\u0131n\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qoluna ba\u011flad\u0131. H\u0259yat\u0131nda ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ilk v\u0259 yegan\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259ydi bu. Universitet\u0259 q\u0259bul olunma x\u0259b\u0259ri g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 atas\u0131 babat bir m\u0259clis qurmu\u015fdu. Bu saat\u0131 da ona \u018fli day\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259diyy\u0259 etmi\u015fdi. Saatdan saata da f\u0259rq var. Bu, saat deyildi, sanki bir dost idi, sirda\u015f idi ona. B\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259tta bil\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa da q\u0131ymaz, gec\u0259 onunla yatard\u0131. X\u00fcsus\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 bir par\u0131ldama\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131 ki. T\u00fcnd g\u00f6y siferblat\u0131 v\u0259 qara k\u0259m\u0259rciyi g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc korpusuna v\u0259 g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259rin\u0259, r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259rin\u0259 x\u00fcsusi g\u00f6z\u0259llik g\u0259tirirdi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, ondan soru\u015fulsayd\u0131, n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 edilm\u0259sini ist\u0259y\u0259rdi? Q\u0259ti bir fikr\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Bazar meydan\u0131nda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 kameramanlara tu\u015f g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Suallar da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259i\u015f\u0259t tipli olurdu. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 tele\u00e7\u0259kili\u015f\u0259 bigan\u0259 qala bilm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k “Hans\u0131 markadan geyinirsiniz?” sor\u011fusuna, azac\u0131q d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, “Qarda\u015f moll-dan” cavab\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015fdi. Jurnalists\u0259 “Ora harad\u0131r” sual\u0131na ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 “Y\u0259ni, b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n k\u00f6hn\u0259l\u0259rini geyinir\u0259m” cavab\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcqabilind\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fmi\u015f, “Bunun ba\u015f\u0131 xarabd\u0131r ki” h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc vermi\u015fdi. Sonrak\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 televiziya\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n suallar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib cavabs\u0131z buraxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00fcn haradan do\u011fmu\u015fdusa “\u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyiniz b\u0259dii q\u0259hr\u0259man kimdir” sual\u0131 qoyulmu\u015fdu, o da h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 “Don Kixot” cavab\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015fdi, “Niy\u0259”sini is\u0259 “\u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259nas\u0131z \u00e7abalardad\u0131r, yel d\u0259yirmanlar\u0131 il\u0259 vuru\u015fur”la cavabland\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Olduqca yoxsul g\u00f6rk\u0259mli bir yeniyetm\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar (Operator q\u0259sd\u0259nmi, ya bilm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n onu tam obyektiv\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi, c\u0131r\u0131q sandal\u0131ndan yal\u0131n ba\u015f barma\u011f\u0131 bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131). Yetim imi\u015f. Deyirdi, \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzum mobil telefonumun olmas\u0131d\u0131r, t\u0259z\u0259si il\u0259 i\u015fim yoxdur, ancaq telefon d\u00fckan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259nmi\u015f bir telefon sat\u0131rlar, c\u0259mi on be\u015f manata. Deyirdi, ka\u015f, m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259ydi, bu verili\u015f\u0259 baxan imkanl\u0131 adamlardan biri onu al\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259ydi…<\/p>\n

Yeniyetm\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259sum idi, o q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259sum idi ki… H\u0259m d\u0259, el\u0259 bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 kimins\u0259 o telefonu al\u0131b ona ver\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f q\u0259d\u0259r sad\u0259l\u00f6vh k\u00f6rk\u0259md\u0259ydi…<\/p>\n

Pendir d\u0259 vaxt tapd\u0131 qurtarma\u011fa. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k pendirsiz he\u00e7 getmir…<\/p>\n

Barma\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 zoqqulday\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n diqq\u0259tini k\u0259rpicsif\u0259t xan\u0131m\u0131n studiya qonaqlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bu ki\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7la Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fidir! Yerind\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b d\u00fcz ekran\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259ldi, b\u00f6y\u00fck maraq i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn diqq\u0259tini proqrama y\u00f6n\u0259ltdi. H\u0259yatdan tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlar\u0131 ekranda g\u00f6rm\u0259k ayr\u0131 bir hiss oyatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki tama\u015fa anbaan \u015f\u00fcurunda t\u0259krarlan\u0131b i\u00e7ini rahatlama\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Apar\u0131c\u0131 inan\u0131lmaz hadis\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, deyirdi, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimiz\u0259 qastrola g\u0259lmi\u015f s\u0259yyar inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t qrupunun d\u00fcn\u0259nki \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 f\u00f6vq\u0259lad\u0259 bir hadis\u0259 (hadis\u0259nin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu a\u00e7\u0131b a\u011fartmad\u0131) az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 pozsun, b\u00fct\u00fcn tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar arenan\u0131 t\u0259rk etdil\u0259r, yaln\u0131z bir n\u0259f\u0259r – bax bu Cumal\u0131 day\u0131 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t\u0259 sevgisini g\u00f6st\u0259rib sonad\u0259k qald\u0131, artistl\u0259r d\u0259 yaln\u0131z onun\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f etdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

“El\u0259 deyil ax\u0131!”, – dey\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0131z\u0131ldand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fi bol-bol t\u0259rifl\u0259ndikc\u0259 t\u0259rif bo\u011f\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 ki\u015fiy\u0259 q\u0131sqand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, i\u00e7in\u0259 sonsuz q\u0259h\u0259r doldu\u011funu hiss etdi, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 studiya masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 bais b\u00fcllur vaz\u0131 tap\u0131b s\u0259rt bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7ilikl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u0130nan\u0131lmaz \u015feyl\u0259r ba\u015f verirdi! Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fiy\u0259 Bak\u0131da b\u00fct\u00fcn teatrlara, konsertl\u0259r\u0259 bir illik pulsuz abonementlik (guya el\u0259 laz\u0131m\u0131 idi?), “\u018fn yeni d\u00fcnya \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131” y\u00fczcildliyi (bunu e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 sanc\u0131 da duydu) h\u0259diyy\u0259 edilirdi, h\u0259tta Milan\u0131n La-Skala teatr\u0131na v\u0259 Parisin Luvr muzeyin\u0259 (\u0130lahi, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin h\u00fcdudsuzlu\u011funa bir bax) ekskursiya putyovkas\u0131 da.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi Cumal\u0131 ki\u015finin yerin\u0259 h\u0259min o a\u011f kresloda nec\u0259 rahatl\u0131qla \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259yi (kreslo h\u0259m\u0259n c\u0131r\u0131ldayacaqd\u0131), \u0259ld\u0259 etdiyi imtiyazlar\u0131 nec\u0259 m\u0259mnunluqla q\u0259bul ed\u0259c\u0259yi (sevincind\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015faracaq, \u0259ll\u0259ri \u0259s\u0259c\u0259kdi), ail\u0259sinin verili\u015f\u0259 bax\u0131b nec\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yi (anas\u0131 m\u00fctl\u0259q qol g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb oynayacaqd\u0131) ehtimal\u0131 i\u00e7ini a\u011fr\u0131td\u0131qca b\u00f6y\u00fck konsert salonlar\u0131, teatr v\u0259 muzey zallar\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, ba\u015f\u0131na says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z da\u015f kitablar ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Amma ara-s\u0131ra g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda a\u011f g\u0259linlik libas\u0131nda p\u0259rvaz ed\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259li bir q\u0131z da g\u0259lib dayanmaqda idi. N\u0259 idis\u0259, o q\u0131z simaca Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fiy\u0259 \u0259sla b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi, h\u0259tta d\u0259rin\u0259 getdikd\u0259 bir suyu \u00f6z atas\u0131na, ondan da adlayanda kamodun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259rarla\u015fm\u0131\u015f d\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li ki\u015finin q\u0259dimi simas\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Bir anda q\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik ya\u011fan \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259n qopan q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131mlar \u0259trafda \u0259sl at\u0259\u015ff\u0259\u015fanl\u0131q yaratd\u0131lar, n\u0259s\u0259 bir y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u00fck, rahatl\u0131q ya\u011fd\u0131 bu r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng dair\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, konuslardan, ulduzcuqlardan…<\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131. K\u00fcl\u0259k qalx\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00e7ilikl\u0259nm\u0259di. C\u0259ld s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b c\u0259ft\u0259sini ba\u011flad\u0131. Bay\u0131ra bir bax\u0131\u015f atd\u0131. H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259rki kimi s\u00fcd ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yolun k\u0259nar\u0131nda l\u00f6vb\u0259r at\u0131b n\u00f6vb\u0259y\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015f \u0259liqabl\u0131 camaat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bo\u015falmaqda, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k d\u00fckan\u0131ndan yupyumru, q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259r \u0259l-\u0259l, z\u0259nbil-z\u0259nbil da\u015f\u0131nmaqda, tretuarlar boyunca ka\u011f\u0131z v\u0259 sellofanlardan ibar\u0259t zibil k\u00fctl\u0259l\u0259ri u\u00e7u\u015fmaqda idi. H\u0259tta qar\u015f\u0131 binadak\u0131 sevgilisinin evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n\u0131 siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n o\u011flan\u0131n duru\u015fu, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, dir\u0259k aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tez-tez d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259si d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi idi.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rpicsif\u0259t xan\u0131m Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7a s\u00f6z ver\u0259rk\u0259n televizor azac\u0131q x\u0131r\u0131ldad\u0131, g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc itdi, d\u0259rhal da h\u0259r \u015fey d\u00fcz\u0259ldi. Qodyavir Mixal\u0131\u00e7 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 do\u011frudan da m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tin xilas ed\u0259c\u0259yini s\u00f6yl\u0259yib bu \u015f\u00fcara s\u00fcbut olaraq d\u00fcn\u0259nki “\u00e7p” zaman\u0131 (apar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n him-ciml\u0259rin\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259l qoymayaraq o, “\u00e7p”-nin mahiyy\u0259tini a\u00e7\u0131qlad\u0131) pul dal\u0131nca qa\u00e7mayan, arenada Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fi il\u0259 birg\u0259 qalan g\u0259nc bir o\u011flan\u0131n da m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funu bildir\u0259nd\u0259 hiss etdi, i\u00e7in\u0259 h\u0259dsiz sevinc dolur, k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131. Di g\u0259l, Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fi kobud t\u0259rzd\u0259 mikrofonu qaparaq s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 tam z\u00fclm\u0259t\u0259 q\u0259rq etdi:<\/p>\n

– O g\u0259nc m\u0259niml\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 oturmu\u015fdu. Onun \u0259lli manat\u0131n dal\u0131nca getm\u0259m\u0259si m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t\u0259 sevgisi s\u0259b\u0259bind\u0259n deyildi. \u00d6z\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 etiraf etdi ki, sad\u0259c\u0259, ka\u011f\u0131z pula allergiyas\u0131 var, toxunanda b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259ni qa\u015f\u0131n\u0131r, k\u00f6pp\u0259-k\u00f6pp\u0259 s\u0259pir…<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259 qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpan qu\u015fcu\u011faz\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 canl\u0131 hiss etdi…<\/p>\n

*\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *<\/strong><\/p>\n

…Universitetd\u0259 \u00e7ox k\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259rd\u0259n r\u0259van, nizaml\u0131, \u00fct\u00fcl\u00fc-s\u0131\u011fall\u0131 n\u0259 varsa ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131b t\u00f6km\u0259k, alt-\u00fcst etm\u0259k zorunda qalmas\u0131 hissiyyat\u0131 il\u0259 qiyam etm\u0259k d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259sin\u0259d\u0259k \u00f6z v\u00fccudunu silahland\u0131r\u0131r, s\u0259ng\u0259r\u0259 at\u0131r. G\u0259l ki, el\u0259 yaraq-yasa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda inl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k t\u0259p\u0259rini itirir, \u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7maq ist\u0259diyi sava\u015fa \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 a\u011f bayraq qald\u0131raraq t\u0259slim olur…<\/p>\n

Ziv\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b k\u0259d\u0259rinin s\u0259b\u0259bini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da bir cavab ala bilm\u0259diyind\u0259n, sonda bunu sevgi d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 u\u00e7urub-da\u011f\u0131tmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc q\u00fcvv\u0259nin m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funa yozdu, laz\u0131m g\u0259ls\u0259, sevgilisini \u0259lind\u0259n almaq ist\u0259y\u0259n o l\u0259\u00e7\u0259ri par\u00e7a-par\u00e7a ed\u0259c\u0259yini bildirdi.<\/p>\n

Mehman\u0131n u\u011funub ged\u0259-ged\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259n oteld\u0259 t\u00f6r\u0259tdikl\u0259ri h\u0259ngam\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b bug\u00fcnk\u00fc planlar\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259sini dinl\u0259m\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qald\u0131qca (gec\u0259 bar\u0131nda q\u0131zlarla \u0259yl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda d\u00fcn\u0259n oteld\u0259n t\u0259hqir ed\u0259r\u0259k qovduqlar\u0131 da olacaqd\u0131), el\u0259 hey bu sapsar\u0131 “c\u0259ngav\u0259r\u0259” sual verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, bar\u0131, bilirs\u0259nmi, hans\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n\u0131n ada\u015f\u0131san?<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, qrup n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri Barat onun yaxas\u0131n\u0131 Mehman\u0131n \u015fit s\u00f6hb\u0259tind\u0259n qopara bildi, \u00e7\u0259kib Mehman\u0131 apard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Barat\u0131 dig\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131ndan bir qar\u0131\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcr. \u00d6t\u0259n il olduqca t\u0259l\u0259bkar olan, yaln\u0131z biliy\u0259 qiym\u0259t ver\u0259c\u0259yini b\u0259yan ed\u0259n bir m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259ri vard\u0131, qrup yolda\u015flar\u0131 q\u0259rara alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, bu m\u00fc\u0259llimin kobudlu\u011fu, d\u0259rs apara bilm\u0259m\u0259si, qrup q\u0131zlar\u0131na \u0259xlaqs\u0131z t\u0259klifl\u0259r etm\u0259si bar\u0259d\u0259 rektora uydurma \u015fikay\u0259t \u0259riz\u0259si yazs\u0131nlar. B\u00fct\u00fcn qrup \u0259riz\u0259ni imzalad\u0131, t\u0259kc\u0259 ondan savay\u0131. Bel\u0259d\u0259, yo\u011funbil\u0259k bir t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131 var, Tal\u0131b ad\u0131nda, yo\u011fun barmaqlar\u0131yla onun xirtd\u0259yind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, niy\u0259 s\u0259n ham\u0131dan f\u0259rql\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc f\u00f6vq\u0259lad\u0259 adam kimi apar\u0131rsan? Bax onda Barat ortaya girib onu T\u0259l\u0259tin \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131, dedi, \u0259slind\u0259, \u0259n adi adam odur, biz ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131q f\u00f6vq\u0259ladi adamlar…<\/p>\n

Dekanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdi, iki t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 o\u011flan\u0131n \u0259trafdak\u0131lara m\u0259h\u0259l qoymadan s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f s\u00f6y\u0259r\u0259k dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u00fcstl\u0259rin\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259di, ancaq ayaqlar\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n t\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sinin ax\u0131r\u0131 n\u0259 olacaq? Banka gedib atas\u0131gilin kreditinin gecikm\u0259 faizin\u0259 faiz hesablanmas\u0131na r\u00fcsx\u0259t ala bil\u0259c\u0259kmi?<\/p>\n

\u0130kinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259nin pill\u0259kan meydan\u00e7as\u0131nda bir o\u011flan\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259ki a\u00e7arla t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259mird\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f divar\u0131 c\u0131zaraq hans\u0131sa q\u0131za sevgi etiraf\u0131 yazmas\u0131na da m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 etm\u0259di, laqeydlikl\u0259 yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

Ah\u0131llar evind\u0259kil\u0259r onun m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni g\u0259tir\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, \u00e7ox sars\u0131lacaqlar.<\/p>\n

Auditoriyada n\u00f6vb\u0259ti d\u0259f\u0259 Ziv\u0259rin sual-cavab at\u0259\u015find\u0259n (S\u0259n el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259n bilmir\u0259m m\u0259ni kim\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015firs\u0259n? Guya bilmir\u0259m, d\u00fcn\u0259n K\u00f6n\u00fcll\u0259 nec\u0259 qucaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n? D\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de, onun n\u0259yi m\u0259nd\u0259n art\u0131qd\u0131r? \u0130nan ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m, buna d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Bunu ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?) qurtulub, h\u0259yat\u0131nda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259n yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rarla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 kim\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fczl\u00fc kitab\u0131n\u0131 qoltu\u011funa vurub auditoriyan\u0131 t\u0259rk etdi.<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131, bird\u0259n o ifrit\u0259 do\u011frudan da onu evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131, neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi?<\/p>\n

Akt zal\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kursun nazl\u0131-q\u0259mz\u0259li, \u015f\u0131k geyimli bir ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n bu s\u0259h\u0259r efird\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259ri v\u0259 bahal\u0131 mobil telefonlar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259ri c\u0131r\u0131q sandaldan \u00e7\u0131xan ba\u015f barma\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k la\u011fa qoymalar\u0131ndan lap sars\u0131ld\u0131, “Bu lap a\u011f oldu” s\u00f6yl\u0259di, bu biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa sakitc\u0259 \u015fahidlik etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259minlik hiss etdi. Amma ayaqlar\u0131 yen\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxmad\u0131, dayanmadan oradan da ke\u00e7ib getdi. Lap t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi. Y\u0259ni s\u0259h\u0259rki m\u0259sum yeniyetm\u0259nin m\u00fcdafi\u0259sin\u0259 qalxmayaraq bu b\u0259rb\u0259z\u0259kli g\u0259lincikl\u0259rin \u00fcstl\u0259rin\u0259 yerim\u0259y\u0259n, onlara haqs\u0131z olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n omu idi?<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011frudan da yorulmu\u015fdu?<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 o qu\u015f universitetin hans\u0131sa a\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n el\u0259 indic\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri soxulacaq, g\u0259lib el\u0259 buradaca onu tap\u0131b “salam \u0259leyk\u00fcm” dey\u0259c\u0259kdi?<\/p>\n

…Kitab\u0131n postskriptumunu professorgil\u0259 ged\u0259rk\u0259n avtobusda oxuya bildi:<\/p>\n

“…The Last of the Mohicans – Sonuncu mogikan haz\u0131rda hans\u0131sa sosial qrupun son n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259sin\u0259, \u00f6z d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f hans\u0131sa insan f\u0259aliyy\u0259tinin, hans\u0131sa ideyan\u0131n, k\u00f6hn\u0259lmi\u015f qaydalar\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259fdar\u0131na deyilir…”<\/p>\n

*\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *<\/strong><\/p>\n

…Professorun toz basm\u0131\u015f, saralm\u0131\u015f \u0259lyazmalar\u0131n\u0131 taqq\u0131lt\u0131yla komp\u00fcterin yadda\u015f\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcr, arabir ev xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi t\u00fcnd, qaynar \u00e7ay\u0131 x\u0131rda do\u011franm\u0131\u015f k\u0259ll\u0259 q\u0259ndl\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 qurtumlay\u0131rd\u0131 (Xan\u0131m t\u0259kid ets\u0259 d\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt onlarda yem\u0259k yem\u0259zdi).<\/p>\n

Professora d\u00fcn\u0259nki tama\u015fa, Fraydan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi v\u0259 m\u0259ftunedici ifas\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Avtobusla bura g\u0259l\u0259rk\u0259n s\u0259yyar dair\u0259vi arenan\u0131n nec\u0259 s\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259sini xat\u0131rlay\u0131b tamam q\u00fcss\u0259 ya\u011fmuruna q\u0259rq oldu, ruhdan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Y\u0259qin ki, bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt h\u0259yat\u0131nda Qodyavir\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Mixal\u0131\u00e7\u0131, \u0130lonu, Baxtini, Kxamalonu (Fraydan\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259sd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. Bildi, \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 tam \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k) g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, buz s\u00fckutu \u00e7ilikl\u0259nmi\u015f o s\u0259s-s\u0259dayla, boz ger\u00e7\u0259kliyi r\u0259ngl\u0259nmi\u015f o al-\u0259lvanl\u0131qla qol-boyun olmayacaq.<\/p>\n

Ka\u015f ki, n\u0259s\u0259 bir xatir\u0259 saxlayayd\u0131 o tama\u015fadan. L\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f n\u0259zar\u0259t\u00e7i, bar\u0131, biletin “n\u0259zar\u0259t” hiss\u0259sini k\u0259sib qalan\u0131n\u0131 qaydaya uy\u011fun olaraq qaytarsayd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ani olaraq yad\u0131na yan\u0131nda oturmu\u015f uzunburun, yek\u0259di\u015f ata-o\u011ful d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u0259lini \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n cibin\u0259 sal\u0131b g\u00fcn\u0259baxan tumunun qab\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tap\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D\u00fcn\u0259nki g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin yegan\u0259 \u015fahidini sevgi dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na tu\u015f el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Professor bu g\u00fcn bir az nasaz idi, qan t\u0259zyiqi y\u00fcks\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Arada h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 g\u0259lib t\u0259zyiqini \u00f6l\u00e7d\u00fc, “Bir az d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, doxsan\u0131n y\u00fcz q\u0131rxad\u0131r” deyib azac\u0131q \u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k ver\u0259r\u0259k getdi.<\/p>\n

Klaviatur el\u0259 bil kor\u015fal\u0131b, b\u0259zi h\u0259rfl\u0259r ancaq iki-\u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259y\u0259 ist\u0259k icra edir.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oo, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, internet var imi\u015f. Axtar\u0131\u015f x\u0259ttin\u0259 “allergiya” s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

“Allergiya. Yunancadan h\u0259rfi t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259si “ba\u015fqa t\u0259sir” dem\u0259kdir.\u00a0\u00a0 M\u00fcxt\u0259lif allergik \u0259\u015fyalar orqanizm\u0259 t\u0259sir g\u00f6st\u0259rib qa\u015f\u0131nma, s\u0259pki, g\u00f6z sulanmas\u0131, asq\u0131rma, ba\u015f gic\u0259ll\u0259nm\u0259si kimi \u0259lam\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rir…”<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Dem\u0259k, “ba\u015fqa t\u0259sir”mi\u015f allergiya! \u0130nsanlar “M\u0259nim filan \u015feyd\u0259n (tozdan, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif d\u0259rman preparatlar\u0131ndan, sitrus v\u0259 \u00e7iy\u0259l\u0259k kimi b\u0259zi qidalardan) allergiyam var” deyirl\u0259r (b\u0259zil\u0259rinin ka\u011f\u0131z \u0259skinaslardan allergiyas\u0131 olmas\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259sd\u0259n xat\u0131rlatmad\u0131), h\u0259min n\u0259sn\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n uzaq durma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. Eyn\u0259n, yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q etm\u0259dikc\u0259, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259dikc\u0259, \u0259slind\u0259, insanlarda yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011fa, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 da allergiya yaran\u0131r. \u0130nt\u0259has\u0131, bu, dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq etiraf edilm\u0259y\u0259n, gizli saxlan\u0131lan “ba\u015fqa t\u0259sirdir”!<\/p>\n

Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 professorla bir q\u0259d\u0259r Qaraba\u011fdan, z\u0259man\u0259nin s\u0259rt \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, “S\u0259h\u0259r proqram\u0131”nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc, \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusu on be\u015f manatl\u0131q mobil telefon olan yeniyetm\u0259nin m\u0259sumlu\u011fundan da s\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131, Professor n\u0259 oxudu\u011fu il\u0259 maraqlan\u0131b q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00fczl\u00fc kitab\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259di, i\u00e7ini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k s\u00f6yl\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox h\u0259ssassan. M\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259ncliyimd\u0259 \u00e7ox h\u0259ssas idim. \u0130ndi g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n d\u0259, t\u0259zyiq aman vermir. G\u0259ncliyind\u0259 h\u0259ssas olanlar ya\u015fla\u015fanda d\u00f6n\u00fcb m\u00fctl\u0259q meteoh\u0259ssas olurlar.<\/p>\n

Barmaqlar\u0131 komp\u00fcterin d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 idi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri is\u0259 k\u0259nd-k\u0259s\u0259y\u0259 – do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd bu il bankdan kredit pul g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb t\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259kib bec\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Amma sifari\u015f\u00e7i t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0259bul etmirdi, deyirdi, qurudub verin (Bel\u0259d\u0259 t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259kisi xeyli y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdiyind\u0259n qazanc\u0131 da ikiqat artacaqd\u0131). T\u00fct\u00fcn qurutmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259raitl\u0259ri olmayan insanlar is\u0259 bank faizl\u0259rinin y\u00fck\u00fc alt\u0131nda evl\u0259rind\u0259n qatar-qatar t\u00fct\u00fcn yarpaqlar\u0131 asma\u011fa m\u0259cbur qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. T\u00fct\u00fcn yarpaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s alan do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259hh\u0259ti il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q ke\u00e7irirdi, t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011fa, x\u00fcsus\u0259n a\u011f ciy\u0259r\u0259, n\u0259f\u0259s yollar\u0131na z\u0259r\u0259rini g\u00f6z\u0259l bilirdi, t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259m d\u0259 fasil\u0259siz t\u0259mas n\u0259tic\u0259sind\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzin\u0259 basq\u0131s\u0131ndan, k\u00fctl\u0259vi psixoz yarada bilm\u0259k qabiliyy\u0259tind\u0259n, f\u0259rdil\u0259\u015fm\u0259ni eqalitarizm\u0259 y\u00f6nl\u0259ndirm\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rdar idi.<\/p>\n

Amma daha \u00e7ox t\u00fct\u00fcnl\u0259 bir otaqda qalan babas\u0131n\u0131n kitablar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q ke\u00e7irirdi…<\/p>\n

N\u0259dis\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, professora qara r\u0259ngin sonsuz basq\u0131s\u0131, t\u00fct\u00fcn sifari\u015f\u00e7il\u0259ri, kiray\u0259d\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nzilin sahib\u0259si, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131 Mehman v\u0259 T\u0259l\u0259t, \u00e7ayxanadak\u0131 g\u0259ncl\u0259r, \u0130lkan\u0259 adl\u0131 m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kursun b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259kli g\u0259lincikl\u0259ri, Cumal\u0131 ki\u015fi bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bir q\u0259d\u0259r bezdiyini, yoruldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259di, h\u0259tta ovuc i\u00e7in\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fan \u0259lvan qu\u015fcu\u011faz\u0131n m\u00f6vcudlu\u011fundan da s\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yox, komp\u00fcterin mausu \u0259sla yax\u015f\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259mir, d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r onu da.<\/p>\n

Xan\u0131m \u00e7aylar\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi. K\u0259ll\u0259 q\u0259ndl\u0259 t\u00fcnd \u00e7ay \u00e7ox l\u0259zz\u0259tliydi. Professorun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 yay\u0131nanda q\u0259nd tik\u0259l\u0259rini iki-bir, \u00fc\u00e7-bir a\u011fz\u0131na at\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259 vaxi idi bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firin \u015fey yem\u0259diyind\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n azac\u0131q f\u0131rland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, bu q\u0259dimi m\u0259nzilin q\u0259dimi \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131n yerind\u0259n oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da hiss etdi.<\/p>\n

T\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259k laz\u0131m idi, bird\u0259n, Bazar meydan\u0131nda k\u00f6hn\u0259-k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f al\u0131b-satan alver\u00e7i k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011flay\u0131b ged\u0259rdi. Ona saat\u0131n\u0131 on be\u015f manata t\u0259klif etm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Professor n\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, fikrini c\u0259ml\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259 dediyind\u0259n agah oldu. Deyirdi, d\u0259d\u0259-babalar ill\u0259rdir bizl\u0259r\u00e7\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131q, istilik r\u0259mzi olaraq \u015famlar yand\u0131r\u0131b qoyublar, amma indi h\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259min \u015famlar\u0131n birini s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259dir. G\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, \u0259n son \u015fam\u0131 da s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r, i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z, istiliksiz qalaca\u011f\u0131q. V\u0259 sual ed\u0259nd\u0259 ki, bundan qorxmursan, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saat\u0131ndan ay\u0131r\u0131b udqunaraq “yox” dedi.<\/p>\n

Professor d\u0259rin heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 sual\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259krarlad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259?! S\u0259n \u0259n son \u015fam\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n, i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z, istiliksiz qalaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan qorxmursan?!<\/p>\n

Eyni q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 yenid\u0259n “yox” dedi.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259?!<\/p>\n

– \u00c7\u00fcnki g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi ki, s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r?!<\/p>\n

*\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *<\/strong><\/p>\n

…Bazar meydan\u0131na ged\u0259nd\u0259 yolu s\u0259yyar arenan\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7m\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259rk t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259ndi. Ancaq d\u0259qiq bilirdi v\u0259 bunu bildiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 olduqca xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi ki, g\u00f6rm\u0259 buca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 insanlardan, avtomobill\u0259rd\u0259n, a\u011faclardan, binalardan bir q\u0259d\u0259r aral\u0131da, h\u0259tta ola bil\u0259rdi, qatarda, t\u0259yyar\u0259d\u0259, b\u0259r\u0259d\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 art\u0131q s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259rd\u0259n o yanda a\u011fappaq, ipil\u0131q, simsirli bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f m\u00f6vcuddur.<\/p>\n

Hava \u00e7ox sakit, k\u00fcl\u0259ksiz idi.<\/p>\n

Alver\u00e7inin k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131, saat\u0131n\u0131 qolundan a\u00e7d\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin doldu\u011funu hiss etdi…<\/p>\n

30.10.2017<\/strong><\/p>\n

3.12.2017<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hekay\u0259 H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n hans\u0131sa bir gu\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir hadis\u0259yl\u0259, h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir insanla rastla\u015fma\u011f\u0131n\u0131z yaln\u0131z ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ba\u015f verir ki, siz \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n orada onlar\u0131n r\u0259sml\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kmisiniz. Onlarla n\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirsiniz – bu art\u0131q sizin sonrak\u0131 se\u00e7iminizdir.\u00a0\u00a0Ri\u00e7ard Bax D\u00fcnyan\u0131 xilas etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 bir-bir insanlar\u0131 xilas etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.\u00a0\u00c7arlz Bukovski \u0130nsanlar ya qocal\u0131b \u00f6l\u00fcrl\u0259r, ya da […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1075,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1074"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1074"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1074\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1076,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1074\/revisions\/1076"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/1075"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1074"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1074"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1074"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}