\u00a0***
\nDaha s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\nhe\u00e7 dar\u0131xm\u0131ram…
\nHe\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m
\nsevgim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnd\u00fczs\u0259n ya gec\u0259s\u0259n!
\nDaha \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259
\nd\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m
\n\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc silib art\u0131q,
\n\u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n yox olub,
\ng\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr daha nec\u0259s\u0259n…
\nYox olursan,
\nyadla\u015f\u0131rsan yava\u015f-yava\u015f x\u0259yal\u0131mda,
\nCizgil\u0259rini birl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca itirs\u0259n.
\nSon d\u0259f\u0259
\nhans\u0131 k\u0259lm\u0259ni i\u015fl\u0259tmis\u0259n dey\u0259
\n\u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r qulaqlar\u0131m,
\n“Daha bitdi” –
\nsa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b getdiyin k\u0259lm\u0259nd\u0259 bitirs\u0259n…
\nGetdiyin yollar\u0131na
\n\u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u015f\u0259klini,
\nBir d\u0259 f\u0131r\u00e7am boyay\u0131b k\u00f6lg\u0259ni:
\nqara r\u0259ngd\u0259dir.
\nDar\u0131xmaq da k\u00f6rp\u00fc kimidir,
\ngah apar\u0131r, gah g\u0259tirir.
\n\u0130tirib s\u0259n deyil\u0259n\u200b \u0259man\u0259tin izl\u0259rini,
\nbilmir hans\u0131 s\u0259mtd\u0259dir.
\n\u0130nand\u0131\u011f\u0131m inanc\u0131mda
\ninanm\u0131ram s\u0259nli s\u0259n\u0259 ,
\nDaha \u00f6rt\u00fcm p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni
\nk\u00fcl\u0259k p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259.
\nYalan \u00fcmidl\u0259r na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n
\ndan\u0131\u015facaq \u015firin-\u015firin,
\nM\u0259ns\u0259 aldanacam ona
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimi d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259m yen\u0259…<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 ***
\nSabah m\u00fctl\u0259q yazacam…
\nbu d\u0259f\u0259 s\u00f6z verir\u0259m!
\nS\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131b q\u00fcrurumu
\npar\u00e7a-par\u00e7a s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259
\na\u011f g\u0259linlik geyin\u0259n
\nka\u011f\u0131z v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rinin sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m…<\/p>\n
Sabah m\u00fctl\u0259q yazacam…
\nG\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131mla islad\u0131b
\n\u00e7\u0259kdiyim dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n
\nb\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini,
\nSaat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bind\u0259 tez s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m…<\/p>\n
Sabah m\u00fctl\u0259q yazacam…
\nZaman qatar\u0131 ke\u00e7ir
\nevinizin yan\u0131ndan,
\nQurban olum n\u0259 olar,
\nhe\u00e7 olmasa bu d\u0259f\u0259:
\n\u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259!
\nM\u0259ktubumu al oxu –
\ns\u00f6z verir\u0259m s\u0259n oxu,
\nsonra \u00f6z\u00fcm g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m…<\/p>\n
***
\nDuy\u011fular\u0131m dal\u011falar\u0131n qoynunda
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin dizl\u0259riyl\u0259
\ns\u0259cd\u0259 ed\u0259r g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259.
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni d\u0259 yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n
\ng\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 yola sald\u0131m;
\nH\u0259tta dualar\u0131 da
\ns\u0259p\u0259l\u0259dim ard\u0131nca,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyim ruhun
\nd\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 inanmaq
\n\u015eim\u015f\u0259yin \u00e7ax\u0131b
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n ya\u011fmamas\u0131 kimidir…
\nOnun kimi s\u0259ni dinl\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r,
\namma susarlar astaca.
\nArzular l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r,
\nl\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 t\u0259ngin\u0259f\u0259sliyim kimidir.
\n\u00c7atmazsan,amma o s\u0259ni qovar.
\nV\u0259 d\u0259nizd\u0259n k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fcn an
\n\u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r s\u0259nd\u0259n
\nalar s\u0259nd\u0259n s\u0259ni d\u0259,
\nonu da.
\nBo\u011fulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259
\ndabanlar\u0131n d\u0259nizin qumlar\u0131n\u0131 ovar…
\nV\u0259 sonra….
\nd\u0259nizd\u0259n i\u00e7diyin su son \u015f\u0259rb\u0259tin,
\nruhun is\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259 qalxan bad\u0259 olar…<\/p>\n
***
\nBir ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fa ki, k\u00fcl\u0259k islana,
\nS\u0131\u011f\u0131na sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7\u0259tirl\u0259rin\u0259 –
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin b\u0259tnind\u0259n h\u0259diyy\u0259 ola,
\nL\u0259bim l\u0259bl\u0259rinin s\u0259tirl\u0259rin\u0259…<\/p>\n
Bir ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fa ki, k\u00fcl\u0259k islana,
\nCo\u015fub qisas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259nizd\u0259n ala –
\nGeyinib dal\u011fan\u0131n qat-qat donunu,
\n\u00c7\u0131lpaq yaxas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259nizd\u0259n ala…<\/p>\n
Bir ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fa ki, k\u00fcl\u0259k islana,
\nG\u00f6y \u00f6z laylas\u0131n\u0131 oxuya yer\u0259 –
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f k\u00fcl\u0259yi ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131b,
\nTorpaq\u200b quca\u011f\u0131nda yuxuya ver\u0259…<\/p>\n
***
\nV\u0259 bir g\u00fcn rast\u0131na bir qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xa –
\nT\u0259p\u0259d\u0259n d\u0131rna\u011fa d\u0259rdini al\u0131b,
\nruhunu sevgiyl\u0259 ba\u011fr\u0131na s\u0131xa…<\/p>\n
V\u0259 bir g\u00fcn rast\u0131na bir qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xa –
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n silib k\u0259d\u0259rin,
\nsevinci xal\u0131t\u0259k qar\u015f\u0131na y\u0131xa…<\/p>\n
V\u0259 bir g\u00fcn rast\u0131na bir qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xa –
\n\u00d6t\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n,
\na\u00e7\u0131b p\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259ri s\u0259ninl\u0259 baxa…<\/p>\n
***
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin var,
\nart\u0131q d\u0259li olmu\u015fam?
\nBezdim
\ndivarlarla dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan,
\nX\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131 p\u0259rd\u0259 kimi asd\u0131m,
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259.
\nAl\u0131\u015fd\u0131m bu yalan\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259yata,
\nyalanlar\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259
\nat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u0259\u015fya kimi
\nqald\u0131m h\u0259sr\u0259timin k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259.
\nS\u0259nin kimi yalana qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131m,
\nad\u0131 olmayan quru d\u0259nizl\u0259r kimi.
\nYaz\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nq\u0131\u015f\u0131n qar\u0131n\u0131
\nsonra g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131ma qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131m.
\nYast\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n n\u0259min\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm,
\nsonra d\u0259li kimi
\nyast\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0259n \u0259v\u0259zi
\nb\u0259rk-b\u0259rk sin\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdim.
\nBoylan\u0131ram\u00a0 gec\u0259l\u0259r
\np\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u0259trafa
\nAy i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131
\nk\u00fcl\u0259k t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259n a\u011faclara.
\nM\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki,
\nd\u0259li oluram art\u0131q,
\nyarpaqlar m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\nS\u0259nli xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n
\nnar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
***
\nD\u0259rind\u0259n h\u0259r ah \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259
\n\u0259ks-s\u0259dam gedib
\ns\u0259n\u0259 toxunurdu
\n“Ka\u015f ki”l\u0259rl\u0259 sildims\u0259 d\u0259,
\ns\u0259n dediyim n\u0259 vard\u0131sa
\nb\u0259lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 oxunurdu…
\nDamarlarla s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259nmi\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yimi
\ndamarlardan
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc
\nm\u0259rmi kimi
\n\u00e7al\u0131n\u00e7arpaz ay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nH\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131lan m\u0259rmil\u0259r d\u0259,
\ns\u0259nd\u0259n susub gizl\u0259tdiyim ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri
\nsorub-sormaz say\u0131rd\u0131.
\nQ\u0259rib\u0259dir,
\ns\u0259nd\u0259n uzaq q\u0259ribliyi
\n\u0259n yax\u0131nda yad edirs\u0259n
\nyadlar kimi,
\nQula\u011f\u0131na s\u0259sl\u0259r g\u0259lir
\ne\u015fitdiyin s\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259
\nad g\u0259zirs\u0259n
\nadd\u0131mlar kimi.
\nQollar\u0131nla bo\u015f qucaqda
\nyoxlu\u011fundan yuva qurub
\nduy\u011fular\u0131n k\u00f6rp\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rsan,
\nD\u0259n ist\u0259y\u0259r s\u0259nd\u0259n
\nac hissl\u0259rin\u0259,
\ng\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131ndan su vers\u0259n d\u0259,
\nyoxlu\u011funun tik\u0259siyl\u0259
\nac qoyursan.
\nAc\u0131qlan\u0131b q\u0259z\u0259bini g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259rs\u0259n,
\nged\u0259rk\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259di dey\u0259,
\n\u018fll\u0259rin d\u0259 bir-birini d\u00f6y\u0259r
\nyen\u0259 bacar\u0131b tutmad\u0131 dey\u0259.
\n\u0130zini itir\u0259r bir g\u00fcn,
\nk\u00fcs\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131n yerd\u0259n,
\ndizind\u0259 taq\u0259tin qalmaz.
\nM\u0259n \u00fcmid dediyim yolda,
\ngedib g\u0259lm\u0259zl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\n\u00fcmidd\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u00fc sal\u0131nmaz…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00a0*** Daha s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 dar\u0131xm\u0131ram… He\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m sevgim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnd\u00fczs\u0259n ya gec\u0259s\u0259n! Daha \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc silib art\u0131q, \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n yox olub, g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr daha nec\u0259s\u0259n… Yox olursan, yadla\u015f\u0131rsan yava\u015f-yava\u015f x\u0259yal\u0131mda, Cizgil\u0259rini birl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca itirs\u0259n. Son d\u0259f\u0259 hans\u0131 k\u0259lm\u0259ni i\u015fl\u0259tmis\u0259n dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r qulaqlar\u0131m, “Daha bitdi” – sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b getdiyin k\u0259lm\u0259nd\u0259 bitirs\u0259n… Getdiyin yollar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1275,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1274"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1274"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1274\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1276,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1274\/revisions\/1276"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/1275"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1274"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1274"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1274"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}