{"id":1282,"date":"2021-10-08T16:30:20","date_gmt":"2021-10-08T12:30:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1282"},"modified":"2021-10-08T16:30:20","modified_gmt":"2021-10-08T12:30:20","slug":"s%c9%99n-aglatsan-gulm%c9%99k-olmur-n%c9%99d%c9%99ndi-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/s%c9%99n-aglatsan-gulm%c9%99k-olmur-n%c9%99d%c9%99ndi-seirl%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"S\u0259n a\u011flatsan g\u00fclm\u0259k olmur, n\u0259d\u0259ndi? – \u015eeirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u018flibala Hac\u0131zad\u0259<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbimin qan\u0131yla yazm\u0131\u015fam, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nAd\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn varaqlar\u0131na.
\nO qara g\u00f6zl\u0259rin nur \u00e7e\u015fm\u0259sidir,
\nB\u0259nz\u0259yir d\u00fcnyam\u0131n \u00e7\u0131raqlar\u0131na.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n nec\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kim bir c\u00fct nar\u0131ndan,
\nO a\u011f b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n \u2013 quzey qar\u0131ndan,
\n\u00d6pd\u00fckc\u0259 doymuram dodaqlar\u0131ndan,
\n\u015e\u0259k\u0259r s\u0259pilibdir dodaqlar\u0131na.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz ya\u015famaram m\u0259n birc\u0259 an da,
\nYolunda qurband\u0131r bu ba\u015f, bu can da,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcrd\u0259n qiym\u0259tli n\u0259 var cahanda?
\nM\u0259n onu atm\u0131\u015fam ayaqlar\u0131na.<\/p>\n

***
\nG\u00fcl n\u0259f\u0259sin g\u00fcl qoxuyur, ay g\u00fcl\u00fcm,
\nDe g\u00fcl n\u0259dir, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k n\u0259dir yan\u0131nda.
\nBu d\u00fcnyada m\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n,
\nHuri n\u0259dir, m\u0259l\u0259k n\u0259dir yan\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki s\u0259n yoxlarsan, m\u0259n varam,
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki s\u0259n sev\u0259rs\u0259n ya\u015faram,
\nBir g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6z ucuyla baxmaram,
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l n\u0259dir, g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k n\u0259dir yan\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz olsam, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 sarar q\u0259m,
\nS\u0259nsiz olsam, birc\u0259 anda \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimi s\u0259n\u0259 qurban ver\u0259r\u0259m,
\nBu can n\u0259dir, \u00fcr\u0259k n\u0259dir yan\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

***
\nBu k\u00f6vr\u0259k e\u015fqimi, k\u00f6rp\u0259 e\u015fqimi,
\nB\u0259sl\u0259yib b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb qo\u00e7 etmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n.
\nTanr\u0131m yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, b\u0259xtim qarad\u0131,
\nTanr\u0131m yazanlar\u0131 he\u00e7 etmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n,<\/p>\n

K\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc vermi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259, a dilb\u0259r,
\nYolunda qurband\u0131r bu can, bu g\u00f6zl\u0259r,
\nMin bir \u0259zab il\u0259 \u00f6ls\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r,
\nDem\u0259r\u0259m \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc pu\u00e7 etmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Hicranl\u0131, v\u00fcsall\u0131 d\u0259ml\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259ldir,
\nSevincli, n\u0259\u015f\u0259li q\u0259ml\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259ldir,
\nBir g\u00fcn e\u015fid\u0259rs\u0259n bir x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259ldi,
\nBu s\u0259nli d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7 etmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

***
\nTapm\u0131\u015fam \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn a\u011f g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc bil,
\nXumar g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qaras\u0131nda m\u0259n.
\nS\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb g\u0259ll\u0259m,
\nOlsam, bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n haras\u0131nda m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

E\u015fqin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mda od qalay\u0131bd\u0131r,
\nDilim daim s\u0259ni haraylay\u0131bd\u0131r,
\nQ\u0259lbini bir nadan yaralay\u0131bd\u0131r,
\nYa\u015faram q\u0259lbinin yaras\u0131nda m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz yaman olur bilirs\u0259n hal\u0131m,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm qan a\u011flay\u0131r, d\u00f6n\u00fcr \u0259hval\u0131m,
\nQ\u0131yma ki, dayan\u0131m, qoyma ki, qal\u0131m,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr yollar\u0131n\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131nda m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

***
\nYand\u0131 m\u0259ktublar\u0131m…S\u0259n yand\u0131rd\u0131n, s\u0259n,
\nBilm\u0259dim bu s\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259s idi?
\nYaral\u0131 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259 yaralar vurdun,
\nM\u0259n\u0259 \u0259zablar\u0131n, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, b\u0259s idi.<\/p>\n

Yand\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yimin s\u0259si, f\u0259ryad\u0131,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n sel-sular ax\u0131b \u00e7a\u011flad\u0131.
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fcn s\u00fctunu qopub laxlad\u0131,
\nM\u0259n sonra anlad\u0131m o n\u0259 s\u0259s idi.<\/p>\n

A\u011flad\u0131m, d\u00f6zm\u0259dim g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131na m\u0259n,
\nS\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m candan \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n,
\nPe\u015f\u0259m yanmaq olub, \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n,
\nTaleyim \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n m\u0259nim n\u0259hs idi.<\/p>\n

***
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni sev\u0259nd\u0259n tanr\u0131 olubsan,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni sev\u0259nd\u0259n \u201cd\u0259liy\u0259m\u201d, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.
\nS\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn solmaz bahar\u0131,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcl\u00fcy\u0259m, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259ni sev\u0259nd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u00f6zl\u0259rin,
\n\u015e\u0259k\u0259r\u0259, no\u011fula d\u00f6n\u00fcb s\u00f6zl\u0259rin,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni sev\u0259nd\u0259n bu g\u00f6y\u00fcn, yerin,
\nBahar ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131yam, seliy\u0259m, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259ni sev\u0259nd\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131b \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k, g\u00fcl,
\n\u015eeir\u0259, n\u0259\u011fm\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb o k\u00f6n\u00fcl,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni sev\u0259nd\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131ram bil,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni sevm\u0259s\u0259m, \u00f6l\u00fcy\u0259m, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

***
\nNurdan yaranm\u0131san, nurdu bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n,
\nUlduzlar g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.
\nSev\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 bu at\u0259\u015f, bu od,
\nSev\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u2013 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah,
\nA\u011faran sa\u00e7\u0131ma bax\u0131b \u00e7\u0259km\u0259 ah.
\nY\u00fcz telim h\u0259sr\u0259td\u0259n a\u011far\u0131b, vallah,
\nBirc\u0259 d\u0259n bir ac\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

E\u015fqinl\u0259 ucalan uca bir da\u011fam,
\nS\u0259ni sev\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m \u2013 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sa\u011fam.
\nBir k\u0259si dem\u0259y\u0259 qoymayaca\u011fam \u2013
\nSevgilin qocal\u0131b g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb\u2026<\/p>\n

***
\nBilm\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 do\u011fmasan m\u0259n\u0259
\nBir bel\u0259 qohumun, yad\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259.
\nT\u0259k s\u0259nin ad\u0131n\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015fam g\u00fcl\u00fcm
\nQ\u0259lbim\u0259 min g\u00f6z\u0259l ad\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259.<\/p>\n

E\u015fqinl\u0259 \u00e7a\u011flayan bir b\u00fclb\u00fcl oldum
\nS\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 oldum, q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl oldum,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni yand\u0131rd\u0131n, yan\u0131b k\u00fcl oldum
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni qoymazd\u0131m odun i\u00e7ind\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

***
\nS\u0259n Allah, yuxuma girm\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259r,
\nQorxuram sevincd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259m yuxuda.
\nYaman ist\u0259yir\u0259m ham\u0131dan gizli,
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm yuxuda g\u0259l\u0259m yuxuna.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l\u0259m tufan kimi, g\u0259l\u0259m sel kimi,
\n\u00d6p\u0259m g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n, dodaqlar\u0131ndan.
\nUyuyum qoynunda q\u0131z\u0131l g\u00fcl kimi,
\nN\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131la, n\u0259 s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259 dan.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 dey\u0259m inc\u0259d\u0259n inc\u0259,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim q\u0259\u015f\u015f ed\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyind\u0259n.
\nS\u0259rxo\u015f dodaqlar\u0131n hey p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldaya:
\n\u201cS\u0259nsiz neyl\u0259yir\u0259m xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi m\u0259n?\u201d<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259, yuxunda ya\u015fayam s\u0259nin,
\nG\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m kimi-kims\u0259ni.
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xti say \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259n
\nM\u0259nim t\u0259k kim sev\u0259r, ax\u0131 kim s\u0259ni?<\/p>\n

***
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259di,
\nBu \u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fcld\u00fc, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kdi.
\n\u00d6lm\u0259zlik m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t zirv\u0259sind\u0259di,
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u0259b\u0259di \u00f6m\u00fcr dem\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0131zlama \u00fcr\u0259yim, s\u0259n d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fc ol,
\nBu d\u00fcnya h\u0259m ac\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015firindi.
\nBir g\u00f6zl\u0259 s\u0259n a\u011fla, bir g\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 g\u00fcl,
\nBu d\u00fcnya \u0259zab\u0131na d\u00f6z\u0259nl\u0259rindi…<\/p>\n

Hicran\u0131n yollar\u0131 bitm\u0259z, t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z,
\nV\u00fcsal yollar\u0131na qar \u0259l\u0259nibdir.
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fqin\u0259 qurban dey\u0259n k\u0259s,
\nX\u0259yan\u0259t \u0259liyl\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259nibdir…<\/p>\n

N\u0259d\u0259ndi<\/strong><\/p>\n

Gah a\u011flatd\u0131n, gah g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fcn s\u0259n m\u0259ni,
\nHikm\u0259tini bilm\u0259k olmur, n\u0259d\u0259ndi?
\nSel\u0259 – suya q\u0259rq el\u0259dim cahan\u0131 –
\nG\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 silm\u0259k olmur, n\u0259d\u0259ndi?<\/p>\n

N\u0259 bil\u0259ydim, x\u0259zan vurmu\u015f g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m,
\n\u00d6z \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn bilmi\u015f\u0259m,
\nF\u0259l\u0259k m\u0259ni a\u011fladanda g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m –
\nS\u0259n a\u011flatsan g\u00fclm\u0259k olmur, n\u0259d\u0259ndi?<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fama\u011fa n\u0259 inam var, n\u0259 g\u00fcman.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m \u00fcstd\u0259n he\u00e7 \u0259skilmir sis – duman,
\n\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m h\u0259sr\u0259tinl\u0259 verim can,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259k olmur, n\u0259d\u0259ndi?<\/p>\n

***
\nYen\u0259 g\u0259lir \u00fcz\u00fc qara ayr\u0131l\u0131q
\nS\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131 salar \u0259zizim.
\n\u0130nsaf\u0131 yox, m\u00fcrv\u0259ti yox, qan\u0131 yox.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ocaq qalar, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki bu d\u00fcnyada m\u0259n varam,
\nGec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz yollar\u0131na baxaram.
\nS\u0259nsiz g\u00fcl\u00fcm, olaramm\u0131, he\u00e7 aram,
\nSevinc m\u0259n\u0259 haram olar, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n

***
\nS\u0259nsiz hicran\u0131na d\u00f6zm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindi,
\nS\u0259nsiz ke\u00e7\u0259n anlar \u00f6m\u00fcrm\u00fc, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.
\nM\u0259ni inild\u0259d\u0259n bu h\u0259sr\u0259tindi,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim poladm\u0131, d\u0259mirmi, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u201cS\u0259n\u201d deyib s\u0131zlay\u0131r q\u0259lbimin ba\u015f\u0131,
\nF\u0259ryad\u0131m yand\u0131r\u0131r topra\u011f\u0131, da\u015f\u0131.
\n\u018fzizim, qurudu g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131-
\nYan\u0131b k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fc, k\u00f6m\u00fcrm\u00fc, g\u00fcl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

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\n\u0130nan ki, nam\u0259rd\u0259m s\u0259ni unutsam,
\nS\u0259ni \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu anar \u00fcr\u0259yim.
\nS\u0259nsiz bir an bel\u0259 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259z,
\nS\u00f6n\u0259r bir \u015fam kimi, donar \u00fcr\u0259yim.<\/p>\n

F\u0259l\u0259k \u00e7ox oyunlar a\u00e7\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131ma,
\nHe\u00e7 kim r\u0259hm etm\u0259yib axan ya\u015f\u0131ma.
\nTalemi \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131 s\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131ma?
\nS\u0259ni bir xilaskar sanar \u00fcr\u0259yim.<\/p>\n

Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u018flibala Hac\u0131zad\u0259 Q\u0259lbimin qan\u0131yla yazm\u0131\u015fam, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, Ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn varaqlar\u0131na. O qara g\u00f6zl\u0259rin nur \u00e7e\u015fm\u0259sidir, B\u0259nz\u0259yir d\u00fcnyam\u0131n \u00e7\u0131raqlar\u0131na. M\u0259n nec\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kim bir c\u00fct nar\u0131ndan, O a\u011f b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n \u2013 quzey qar\u0131ndan, \u00d6pd\u00fckc\u0259 doymuram dodaqlar\u0131ndan, \u015e\u0259k\u0259r s\u0259pilibdir dodaqlar\u0131na. S\u0259nsiz ya\u015famaram m\u0259n birc\u0259 an da, Yolunda qurband\u0131r bu ba\u015f, bu can da, \u00d6m\u00fcrd\u0259n qiym\u0259tli n\u0259 var cahanda? M\u0259n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1283,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1282"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1282"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1282\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1284,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1282\/revisions\/1284"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/1283"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1282"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1282"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1282"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}