{"id":1318,"date":"2021-11-02T20:42:50","date_gmt":"2021-11-02T16:42:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1318"},"modified":"2021-11-02T20:42:50","modified_gmt":"2021-11-02T16:42:50","slug":"ur%c9%99yim-aciqdir-d%c9%99rd%c9%99-%c9%99zaba-torpaq-yagislara-%c9%99l-acan-kimi-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/ur%c9%99yim-aciqdir-d%c9%99rd%c9%99-%c9%99zaba-torpaq-yagislara-%c9%99l-acan-kimi-seirl%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00dcr\u0259yim a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131r d\u0259rd\u0259, \u0259zaba torpaq ya\u011f\u0131\u015flara \u0259l a\u00e7an kimi – \u015eeirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u018fl\u0259ddin \u018fZ\u0130ML\u0130<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

M\u00dcRG\u00dc<\/b><\/p>\n

Sakit gec\u0259dir,
\nm\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259yir\u0259m masan\u0131n arxas\u0131nda.
\nEl\u0259 burdaca
\nyatmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m,
\nq\u0259l\u0259m-d\u0259ft\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nevd\u0259kil\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nh\u0259r bir \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz.
\nBu h\u0259zinlik
\nsanki layla \u00e7al\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259.
\nV\u0259d\u0259siz yuxu
\na\u011fu\u015funa al\u0131r m\u0259ni.
\n…Nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015fli hava,
\nyap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam \u0259lind\u0259n.
\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki ba\u011f\u00e7ad\u0131r,
\namma yaz yox, pay\u0131zd\u0131r.
\nYer-g\u00f6y tamam d\u0259yi\u015fib,
\nvaxt, t\u0259bi\u0259t
\na\u015f\u0131b \u00f6z s\u0259rh\u0259dini.
\nBir az ir\u0259lid\u0259
\nqaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n
\nkims\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259yir m\u0259ni,
\nay\u0131l\u0131ram m\u00fcrg\u00fcd\u0259n…
\nN\u0259 o nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f var,
\nn\u0259 o \u00e7iskinli ba\u011f\u00e7a,
\nn\u0259 d\u0259 ki, \u0259li \u0259limd\u0259ki s\u0259n.
\nVaxt ke\u00e7ir,
\ngec\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcr.
\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k
\nyap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam
\nruhuma dayaq olan
\ndaimi h\u0259md\u0259mimd\u0259n–
\nq\u0259l\u0259md\u0259n…<\/p>\n

BU QAPI, BU P\u018fNC\u018fR\u018f<\/b><\/p>\n

A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 yen\u0259
\nbu qap\u0131, bu p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259,
\ntamam bo\u015f yer\u0259.
\nHa bax, boylan i\u00e7\u0259ri,
\nhe\u00e7 kimi,
\nhe\u00e7 n\u0259yi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.
\nD\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 gedib qay\u0131dacaqsan.
\n\u00c7oxdan yuxuya verdiyin hissl\u0259ri
\nh\u0259d\u0259r yer\u0259 oyadacaqsan,
\nbo\u015f yer\u0259 vaxt\u0131n ged\u0259c\u0259k.
\nTa yorulana,
\ninam\u0131n qirilana t\u0259k.
\nGedi\u015f haqq\u0131
\nne\u00e7\u0259y\u0259dir, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, taksiyl\u0259
\nbizd\u0259n siz\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r.
\nLap el\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n H\u00f6vsana–
\nd\u0259n\u0131z\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r.
\n\u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, ged\u0259k.
\nAncaq orda
\nn\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131,
\nn\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n,
\nyar\u0131\u015fan dal\u011falardan,
\nsar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qumlardan,
\nmehd\u0259n, k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n,
\nxo\u015f pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc
\nsahild\u0259 oynayan
\nu\u015faqlardan ba\u015fqa.
\nAncaq sonra
\nq\u0131nama m\u0259ni,
\n\u00e7\u00fcnki tamam itir\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n
\nolan-qalan \u00fcmidini…<\/p>\n

H\u018fSR\u018fT\u018f DO\u011eRU<\/b><\/p>\n

H\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r
\nk\u00fcs\u00fcb barmaqlar\u0131n
\ndodaqlar\u0131mdan.
\n\u018fll\u0259riin
\naz\u0131b dey\u0259s\u0259n,
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn dola\u015f\u0131q,
\nnarahat c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131nda.
\nBir q\u0259rib axarsan
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin qan da\u015f\u0131yan
\nkir\u0259cl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f damarlar\u0131nda.
\n\u00c7oxdan, lap \u00e7oxdan
\ndey\u0259s\u0259n, bel\u0259ymi\u015f.
\nM\u0259n bunu indi duyuram v\u0259
\nq\u0259mgin-g\u0259mgin boylar\u0131nam
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn q\u00fcrubuna.
\nQ\u00fcrub
\ns\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr t\u0259p\u0259liy\u0259-
\nt\u0259nhal\u0131\u011fa, t\u0259kliy\u0259.
\nKe\u00e7ir s\u0259rh\u0259d \u00e7ay\u0131ndan
\no tayda s\u0131zlayan
\nh\u0259sr\u0259tim\u0259 do\u011fru
\nim\u0259kliy\u0259-im\u0259kliy\u0259…<\/p>\n

ZAB\u0130T QADIN<\/b><\/p>\n

N\u0259v\u0259l\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\nBu qap\u0131 n\u0259d\u0259n ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r,
\nb\u0259lk\u0259,
\na\u00e7an\u0131 yoxdur?
\nYa da ki,
\nq\u0131f\u0131l\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n
\na\u00e7ar\u0131 yoxdur?
\n\u00d6t\u00fcr\u0259m h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r
\nbu evin yan\u0131ndan.
\nH\u0259yat \u0259lam\u0259ti
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ymir
\nn\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n,
\nn\u0259 eyvan\u0131ndan.
\nG\u00fcnl\u0259r
\n\u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7ir bel\u0259c\u0259,
\nm\u0259nim d\u0259
\nt\u0259rslikd\u0259n yolum d\u0259yi\u015fmir.
\nBu evin qula\u011f\u0131 kar olub sanki,
\nhe\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitmir.
\nBir s\u0259h\u0259r
\nevin qaba\u011f\u0131nda tabut,
\nyan\u0131nda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259rbi\u00e7i g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.
\nS\u0259n dem\u0259, bu evin sahibi
\nqoca bir qad\u0131n
\nikinci cahan sava\u015f\u0131nda
\nh\u0259kim olubmu\u015f.
\nBu kims\u0259siz qad\u0131n
\nill\u0259rdir bu evd\u0259
\nt\u0259k ya\u015fay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.
\nH\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 ba\u015f \u0259ydim
\nonun tabutu \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim ya\u015fard\u0131
\nbu zabit qad\u0131n\u0131n
\nsin\u0259sini b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259n
\norden, medallar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259.
\nQoy bu anlar yaz\u0131ls\u0131n
\nAzad Qaraba\u011f ad\u0131na.
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki bu olay
\nc\u0259sur \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizi,
\nzabit qad\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131,
\n\u015f\u0259hid analar\u0131n\u0131
\nt\u0259krar-t\u0259krar
\nsald\u0131 yad\u0131ma…<\/p>\n

S\u018fHV<\/b><\/p>\n

Ba\u011fland\u0131
\ngec\u0259nin qap\u0131lar\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259
\nmetro qap\u0131lar\u0131 t\u0259k.
\nQald\u0131m bay\u0131rda.
\nV\u0259d\u0259siz bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f
\ng\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n,
\n\u00e7oxmu \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k?
\nB\u0259lk\u0259, s\u0259n dey\u0259s\u0259n,
\nsoyuqdan titr\u0259y\u0259n,
\na t\u0259nha \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k?
\nS\u0259pildi q\u0259lbim\u0259
\n\u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 toxumu.
\nBilmir\u0259m,
\nbu hissl\u0259r
\n\u00f6t\u0259ri bir hal,
\nyoxsa qorxumu ?
\nQaranl\u0131q b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb
\nh\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fimi.
\nYollar\u0131m ba\u011fl\u0131.
\nBu m\u0259nim,
\nyoxsa,
\namans\u0131z taleyin
\nq\u0259fil z\u0259rb\u0259si,
\ns\u0259hvimi?..<\/p>\n

U\u011eURSUZLUQ<\/b><\/p>\n

Getm\u0259,
\nbu yolu birba\u015fa,
\nh\u0259m d\u0259 t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na.
\nUzaqd\u0131r,
\nyorulacaqsan.
\nHardasa,
\ndinclni almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\ndayanacaqsan.
\n\u018flin, aya\u011f\u0131n
\nbaxmayasaq s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259.
\nKe\u00e7diyin yol
\nyar\u0131qaranl\u0131q,
\ntor g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259.
\nSusacaqsan,
\nb\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259,
\n\u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259ri sal\u0131b yad\u0131na
\nk\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k,
\na\u011flayacaqsan…<\/p>\n

YUXU<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc
\nx\u0259tt-x\u0259tt s\u0259pdim vara\u011fa,
\ns\u00f6z-s\u00f6z oxudum.
\nYuxudayd\u0131m el\u0259 bil,
\nsanki yox idim.
\nBir \u0259l toxunanda b\u0259d\u0259nim\u0259
\n\u0259vv\u0259l duymad\u0131m,
\no yuxudan geriy\u0259
\nbilm\u0259dim nec\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131m.
\nAnlamad\u0131m,
\npay\u0131z idi, q\u0131\u015f idi
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bulan\u0131q tor,
\nb\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, ya\u015f idi,
\nyuxuda a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim oyuq-oyuq,
\nb\u0259d\u0259nim su idi.
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fcm,
\nbu nec\u0259 yuxu,
\n\u0259ll\u0259r
\nnec\u0259 d\u0259 soyuq idi…<\/p>\n

H\u018fR \u015eEY \u00d6L\u00c7\u00dcS\u00dcZ-B\u0130\u00c7\u0130S\u0130Z<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00d6t\u0259\u00e7\u0259k
\nyand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 istil\u0259r d\u0259.
\nSoyuyacaq
\ntorpaq da, da\u015f da.
\nYarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6k\u0259c\u0259k
\nbu qoca a\u011fac da.
\nG\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn
\nq\u0131salacaq \u00f6m\u00fcr, g\u00fcn.
\nBay\u0131rda
\nazalacaq s\u0259s-s\u0259mir.
\nAncaq q\u0259rib\u0259dir,
\n\u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir,
\ng\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259nd\u0259n
\nt\u0259z\u0259 bir x\u0259b\u0259r.
\nBu bir h\u0259qiq\u0259tdir,
\nuzaqla\u015f\u0131rsan m\u0259nd\u0259n
\nanbaan,
\nzaman-zaman.
\nG\u00fcnd\u0259
\nxeyli x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259lir
\nyadlardan, do\u011fmalardan,
\nx\u0259st\u0259xanalardan.
\n\u00c7oxal\u0131r
\n\u00e7ar\u0259siz d\u0259rdl\u0259r.
\nHam\u0131 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t verir,
\nitirir m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6y\u00fcdl\u0259r.
\nQ\u0259mgin-q\u0259mgin
\nba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dikir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131
\nadamlar, a\u011faclar,
\nM\u0259cnun s\u00f6y\u00fcdl\u0259r.
\nD\u00f6vr\u0259md\u0259 is\u0259
\nh\u0259r \u015fey t\u0259rsin\u0259,
\n\u00e7ar\u0259siz,
\n\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcz-bi\u00e7isiz…<\/p>\n

QU\u015e YUVASI<\/b><\/p>\n

\u018flini
\ntoxundurma m\u0259n\u0259-
\nb\u0259d\u0259nim\u0259,
\nhe\u00e7 \u0259lim\u0259 d\u0259.
\nSonra gedib o yanda
\ngileyl\u0259nm\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n.
\nDan\u0131\u015fma bo\u015f-bo\u015funa,
\nguya olub-ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n.
\nAx\u0131,
\nn\u0259 olub, s\u00f6yl\u0259,
\ns\u0259nl\u0259 aram\u0131zda?
\nN\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259n ortaya
\nbu \u00e7\u0259tin vaxtda,
\nbu hay-harayda.
\nBir qu\u015f yuvas\u0131 vard\u0131
\nk\u00f6hn\u0259 eyvan\u0131m\u0131zda.
\nO da u\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131
\nkimins\u0259 ucbat\u0131ndan.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259,
\ns\u0259nin dedi-qodundan.
\nFikirli-fikirli
\n\u00e7iynimi s\u00f6yk\u0259m\u0131\u015f\u0259m
\nqoca tutun g\u00f6vd\u0259sin\u0259.
\n\u018fg\u0259r,
\ns\u0259s ver\u0259n olsa s\u0259sim\u0259
\nm\u00fctl\u0259q \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam
\nbu c\u0259f\u0259ng s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rin
\nax\u0131r\u0131na,
\nsonuna…<\/p>\n

KORONA<\/b><\/p>\n

“Uzun s\u00fcr\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r…”
\nBu ifad\u0259,
\nbu c\u00fcml\u0259
\ndaha \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b yaddan,
\nsilinib yadda\u015fdan.
\n\u0130ndi
\n“Korona”d\u0131r d\u0259bd\u0259
\nYer \u00fcz\u00fc dediyimiz m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259.
\nEl\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k
\ng\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259 var,
\nged\u0259n d\u0259.
\nF\u0259rq budur ki,
\ng\u0259l\u0259n azal\u0131b,
\nged\u0259n is\u0259 art\u0131r g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn.
\nKarona-
\n\u0259n son silah,
\n\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcn.
\nG\u00f6yd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr,
\nyerd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,
\nbil\u0259n yoxdur.
\nAncaq \u00e7ox ay\u0131q-say\u0131qd\u0131r.
\nKimisini yaxalay\u0131r yolda,
\nkimisini evd\u0259.
\nQol-qanad a\u00e7\u0131r,
\n\u00e7oxal\u0131r h\u0259r yerd\u0259.
\nBir az s\u0259birli olaq
\n\u00f6m\u00fcrd\u00fcr d\u0259
\nbir t\u0259h\u0259r vuraq ba\u015fa.
\nBir-birimizin
\nhal\u0131na yana-yana,
\nd\u0259rd-s\u0259rini
\nsoru\u015fa-soru\u00e7a…<\/p>\n

\u00c7AT<\/b><\/p>\n

Bu,
\nodlu-alovlu g\u00fcnd\u0259,
\navqustun vurhavurunda
\nistid\u0259n, susuzluqdan
\n\u00e7at-\u00e7at olan torpaq kimi
\n\u0259zabdan, k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n
\n\u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 ba\u011fr\u0131,
\nsonra is\u0259
\nq\u0259bri \u00e7atlad\u0131 \u015fairin.
\nQara m\u0259rm\u0259rin \u00e7at\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin b\u0259yaz \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131
\nyay\u0131ld\u0131 m\u0259zar\u0131n \u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0259.
\nAz da olsa,
\nayd\u0131nland\u0131 qaranl\u0131q.
\nS\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131 bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni
\ng\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259rin \u00fcr\u0259yi.
\n\u00c7oxlar\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fck\u0259nd\u0131 s\u0259bri.
\nX\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7atanda
\n\u015fairin ail\u0259sin\u0259,
\ndo\u011fmalar, yax\u0131nlar
\ny\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015farlar q\u0259brin d\u00f6vr\u0259sin\u0259.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n axan ya\u015f da
\ns\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259k
\nm\u0259zar\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259
\nS\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t
\nyay\u0131ld\u0131 h\u0259r yana.
\nYax\u015f\u0131 ki, adamlar
\ntez g\u0259ld\u0131l\u0259r q\u0259rara.
\nD\u0259yi\u015fd\u0131l\u0259r
\nq\u0259brin sin\u0259 da\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nt\u0259mizl\u0259dil\u0259r \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131,
\nsilindi ba\u015f da\u015f\u0131.
\nAz da olsa,
\n\u00f6td\u00fc h\u0259y\u0259can, t\u0259la\u015f.
\nVaxt ke\u00e7dikc\u0259,
\nunutdu
\nbu q\u0259rib\u0259 hadis\u0259ni
\nbir \u00e7oxlar\u0131
\nyava\u015f-yava\u015f…<\/p>\n

QAPI<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bildiyim n\u0259s\u0259 varsa,
\n\u0259slind\u0259,
\nbilm\u0259dikl\u0259rimdir.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin h\u0259nd\u0259v\u0259rind\u0259n
\n\u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7oxsa,
\n\u0259slind\u0259,
\ng\u00f6rm\u0259dikl\u0259rimdir.
\nB\u0259z\u0259n,
\ng\u00f6r\u0259-g\u00f6r\u0259,
\nya da ki,
\nf\u0259hm\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259
\ngedir\u0259m bu yolu.
\nYaz\u0131b-oxuyuram
\nq\u0259lbimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri
\n\u0259g\u0259r laz\u0131ml\u0131 s\u00f6zs\u0259.
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n-h\u0259rd\u0259n e\u015fitdikl\u0259rim\u0259
\ncavab ver\u0259m g\u0259r\u0259k
\nayd\u0131n, aram-aram.
\nGec olar sonra,
\nbiryolluq unudularam.
\nGedir\u0259m a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r
\nt\u00f6v\u015f\u00fcy\u0259-t\u00f6v\u015f\u00fcy\u0259
\nHaqq\u0131n d\u0259rgah\u0131na,
\nOna sar\u0131.
\n\u015e\u0259ksiz
\nuca\u00e7ar\u0131n-ucas\u0131,
\ng\u0259lir\u0259m yan\u0131na
\nvacib s\u00f6z\u00fcm var.
\n\u00dcmidsiz qaytarma m\u0259ni
\nd\u0259rgah\u0131ndan,
\ny\u0259ni,
\n\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 \u00fcz tutdu\u011fum qap\u0131ndan…<\/p>\n

G\u00dcN\u018f\u015e V\u018f D\u018fN\u0130Z<\/strong><\/p>\n

L\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r
\n\u00e7\u0131rpilir sahil\u0259
\n\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131lir \u015fapalaq t\u0259k.
\nQorxudan v\u0259 agr\u0131dan
\n\u00e7\u0259kilir sahil geriy\u0259-
\nilbiz q\u0131n\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n t\u0259k.
\nOd \u00e7il\u0259nir dan yerin\u0259
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin alovundan.
\nQumlar
\nal\u0131\u015f\u0131r at\u0259\u015fin odundan.
\nTutub
\nbu isti qumlar\u0131n
\nv\u0259 il\u0131q d\u0259nizin \u0259lind\u0259n
\n\u00fcz\u00fc pay\u0131za
\ngetm\u0259k \u00fcmidi
\nba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r i\u00e7imd\u0259…<\/p>\n

BA\u011eLI QAPI<\/strong><\/p>\n

Kims\u0259nin d\u00f6ym\u0259diyi
\nbu q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 qap\u0131
\nn\u0259 vaxta kimi ba\u011fl\u0131 qalacaq
\ninsan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259?
\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rinin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri
\nha\u00e7ansa s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kmi
\nu\u015faqlar\u0131n il\u0131q s\u0259sin\u0259?
\n…Yan\u0131ndan qatarlar ke\u00e7ir
\nbu k\u00f6hn\u0259 evin.
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n divarlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131rm\u0131
\nd\u0259mir yollar\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259mir t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259ri?
\nBu sirli qap\u0131,
\ntozlu-torpaql\u0131, kirli qap\u0131
\nhe\u00e7 olmasa, sahibinin yuxusuna girirmi,
\nonu \u0259b\u0259di yuxusundan diksindirirmi?<\/p>\n

Q\u00dcRUB \u00c7A\u011eINA<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu da
\nax\u015fam \u00e7a\u011f\u0131.
\nG\u0259l yollanaq
\nq\u00fcruba sar\u0131.
\nAparaq \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczl\u0259
\nson vaxtlar
\nruhumuzu incid\u0259n
\nk\u00f6vr\u0259k a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131.
\nFikir verm\u0259,
\ntoranla\u015fan,
\n\u00e7iskinli havaya.
\nArxam\u0131zca boylanan
\nyollara,
\nd\u00fcnyaya…<\/p>\n

B\u018f\u015e\u018fR \u00d6VLADINA<\/strong><\/p>\n

B\u0259\u015f\u0259r \u00f6vlad\u0131,
\nd\u00fcnyaya fani dediyin n\u0259,
\niki\u0259lli yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n n\u0259dir?
\nB\u0259lk\u0259,
\nbunlar ham\u0131s\u0131-
\ndilin\u0259 al\u0131b s\u00f6yl\u0259diyin d\u0259,
\n\u0259linl\u0259 ucaltd\u0131\u011f\u0131n da,
\nsad\u0259c\u0259,
\nbir add\u0131m atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n da
\naldan\u0131\u015f, b\u0259han\u0259dir.
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn
\n\u00f6z \u0259linl\u0259
\nba\u011flama qap\u0131n\u0131,
\nc\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131.
\nGed\u0259n ged\u0259c\u0259k,
\ng\u0259l\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.
\nH\u0259r k\u0259s
\nbir c\u00fcr anlayacaq bu h\u0259qiq\u0259ti.
\nKimi daimi,
\nkimi m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti.
\nS\u00f6yl\u0259,
\nhardan g\u0259ldiyini,
\nhara getdiyini bilirs\u0259nmi?
\nDediyini,
\ncavab\u0131nda e\u015fitdiyini anlay\u0131rsanm\u0131?
\nBunlardan
\nd\u0259rk etdiyin n\u0259-
\nvarsanm\u0131, yoxsanm\u0131?
\nQalacaq,
\nyoxsa qay\u0131dacaqsanm\u0131?
\nB\u0259\u015f\u0259r \u00f6vlad\u0131,
\nn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n,
\nfikrin hardad\u0131?!…<\/p>\n

SON<\/b><\/p>\n

T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn
\n\u00e7\u0259kilir g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn
\nz\u0259rif dodaqlar\u0131ndan.
\n\u0130lahi bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n
\nsilinir g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n,
\n\u018fyilir \u015fux qam\u0259tin,
\nk\u0259d\u0259r qonur \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259.
\nQ\u0131\u0131r\u0131\u015flar
\nyol tap\u0131r asta-asta
\no parlaq b\u0259nizin\u0259.
\nYava\u015f-yava\u015f quruyan
\n\u00e7aya,
\na\u011faca b\u0259nz\u0259yirs\u0259n.
\nDad\u0131na yetmir daha,
\nsevimli x\u0259yallar\u0131n.
\n\u018fg\u0259r
\ng\u00fcc\u00fcn \u00e7at\u0131rsa,
\nzaman\u0131 sal at\u0131ndan,
\ny\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nd\u0259r geri.
\nH\u0259yat
\n\u00f6z axar\u0131nda
\nxo\u015f,
\nnaxo\u015f anlar\u0131yla.
\n\u00dcr\u0259k
\nbo\u015fal\u0131r, dolur
\nsevgi il\u0259,
\na\u011fr\u0131yla.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 ki dayanm\u0131san
\ns\u00f6yk\u0259nib \u00fcmidin\u0259.
\nH\u0259tta,
\nbir ulduz bel\u0259
\ni\u015farm\u0131r olacaqlar\u0131n
\nsonunda, ax\u0131r\u0131nda…<\/p>\n

YA\u015eIL X\u018fYALLARA<\/b><\/p>\n

Budaqdak\u0131 qu\u015flar\u0131n
\nxo\u015f s\u0259si,
\nn\u0259\u011fm\u0259sidir
\nya\u015fadan bu a\u011fac\u0131.
\nM\u0259niml\u0259 tay-tu\u015f olan
\nya\u015f\u0131d\u0131m bu a\u011fac\u0131.
\nOnun
\nanbaan b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n, qanadlanan
\ng\u00fcnl\u0259ri yad\u0131mdad\u0131r.
\nB\u0259z\u0259n unuduram,
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ymir,
\nduymuram yan\u0131mdad\u0131r.
\nQ\u0131\u015f\u0131n astanas\u0131nda,
\npay\u0131z\u0131n sonundayam.
\nO is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259
\nucal\u0131q sevdas\u0131nda
\nya\u015f\u0131l x\u0259yallardad\u0131r…<\/p>\n

X\u018fB\u018fR<\/b><\/p>\n

Ba\u015f a\u00e7mad\u0131m
\nbu g\u0259li\u015fd\u0259n, gedi\u015fd\u0259n.
\nA\u011fr\u0131 dolu bu yoldan,
\nq\u0259m y\u00fckl\u00fc ismar\u0131cdan.
\nAr\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdi \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin
\n\u015fir\u0259sini, \u015f\u0259hdini,
\nd\u00fcnya dolu \u0259trini
\nc\u0259ml\u0259di yuvas\u0131na.
\nYey\u0259n yedi,
\nyemiy\u0259nl\u0259r
\nbir-birin\u0259
\nbaxa-baxa kiridi.
\nB\u0259d x\u0259b\u0259rin
\nyolu rahat, yax\u0131nd\u0131r.
\nMin oyundan \u00e7ixanlar
\nyamanca arxay\u0131nd\u0131r.
\nAmma \u00e7oxu unudub
\nged\u0259c\u0259yi s\u0259mtini.
\nEl\u0259 bilir
\nadlay\u0131b g\u0259dikl\u0259r\u0131,
\ndalda qal\u0131b
\nyoxu\u015flar\u0131n \u00e7\u0259tini.
\nO qara qu\u015f
\nn\u0259di el\u0259,
\nu\u00e7ur bizl\u0259r\u0259 sar\u0131,
\ndimdiyind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 var.
\nBix\u0259b\u0259rdir
\nbu olaydan adamlar.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 ki sevinirl\u0259r,
\ndeyirl\u0259r ki,
\nqar\u015f\u0131da \u00e7al-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131r var…<\/p>\n

BU \u015eE\u0130R<\/b><\/p>\n

o biri \u015feirl\u0259r\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259z
\nm\u0259tni,
\nritmi,
\nah\u0259ngiyl\u0259.
\nSe\u00e7il\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259lkil\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nmisra-misra
\ng\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259madan-
\nd\u0259rinlikl\u0259rd\u0259n.
\nQanad taxar
\nk\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n, mehd\u0259n.
\nBu q\u0259l\u0259m
\nh\u0259mi\u015f\u0259
\nilahi s\u00f6z sora\u011f\u0131nda.
\nYazar g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri,
\nqula\u011f\u0131ma
\np\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla deyil\u0259nl\u0259ri.
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n,
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259ni\u0131m\u0259d\u0259n
\ns\u00f6zl\u0259rin
\nk\u0259sil\u0259r ard\u0131.
\nSusar
\nhiss olunmadan
\nhaqqa
\ndaim can atan q\u0259l\u0259m.
\nAnm\u0131 \u00f6t\u0259r,
\ng\u00fcnm\u00fc?
\nYenid\u0259n
\ncalanar s\u00f6z-s\u00f6z\u0259.
\nZaman
\nboylanar yuxulardan,
\n\u0259riy\u0259r gec\u0259,
\ns\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259r dan.
\n\u015e\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259r
\nq\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 durar g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259.
\nDo\u011fular
\nt\u0259z\u0259 bir s\u0259tir.
\nBu \u015feir
\nbel\u0259c\u0259,
\nhay-k\u00fcys\u00fcz,
\nsakitc\u0259 bit\u0259r…<\/p>\n

O S\u018fS\u018f<\/b><\/p>\n

Susdum,
\nbudaqda
\ns\u0131x yarpaqlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259 se\u00e7ilm\u0259y\u0259n
\nqu\u015fun s\u0259si
\nq\u0259fild\u0259n k\u0259sil\u0259n kimi.
\nHaldan-hala d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm
\no s\u0259sin yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131na
\nsusayan kimi.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm, qula\u011f\u0131m
\no buda\u011f\u0131n,
\nbudaqdak\u0131
\no s\u0259sin sora\u011f\u0131nda,
\nhay\u0131ndayk\u0259n,
\nel\u0259 bil
\nq\u0131f\u0131lland\u0131 dilim,
\nsusdum…
\nSusdum
\n\u015fehli alatoranda
\nduy\u011fular\u0131m\u0131n
\nsirli bir qat\u0131nda.
\nSusdum
\nm\u0259ni u\u00e7uran,
\no s\u0259s\u0259 do\u011fru aparan
\nruhumun qanadlar\u0131nda.
\nBel\u0259 bir an-
\nsusqun bir hal
\nya\u015famam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m
\nbu uzun h\u0259yat\u0131mda…<\/p>\n

YAY \u015eE\u0130R\u0130<\/b><\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbind\u0259
\nil\u0131q bir d\u0259niz havas\u0131
\nbu b\u00fcrk\u00fcd\u0259, istid\u0259.
\nBa\u015f\u0131nda
\nbir yuxu qov\u011fas\u0131
\n\u00e7\u0259kir s\u0259ni s\u00fcstl\u00fcy\u0259.
\nBu c\u0131\u011f\u0131rdan
\n\u00f6t\u0259n \u00e7apar,
\nbu yoldan
\n\u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n
\n\u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik ed\u0259c\u0259k
\nbuz ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f s\u00fckutu.
\nHa \u0259l-qol at,
\nha \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n,
\nd\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n
\nyolundan bu h\u0259yat\u0131.
\nBu b\u00fcrk\u00fc, bu isti,
\nbu c\u0131\u011f\u0131r, bu yol,
\nbu s\u00fckut, bu h\u0259yat
\nd\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 f\u0131rlanacaq
\nd\u00fcnyan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na.
\nS\u0259ns\u0259
\n\u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259,
\nh\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz.
\nG\u00f6r n\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r
\nd\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcr qap\u0131n,
\nbir g\u00f6r kimdir,
\nhe\u00e7 olmasa,
\nqar\u015f\u0131la…<\/p>\n

CAVAB<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcld\u00fc
\ns\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rim.
\nEl\u0259 bil,
\ny\u00fcz ildi
\nyalq\u0131zam, t\u0259k\u0259m.
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n
\nxeyli uza\u011fam.
\nKim bilir
\nbu uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n
\nm\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt qay\u0131daca\u011fam?
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131r
\nd\u0259rd\u0259, \u0259zaba
\ntorpaq
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015flara \u0259l a\u00e7an kimi.
\nK\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r
\nana k\u0259lm\u0259sil\u0259 dil a\u00e7an kimi.
\nAncaq
\nbu q\u0259riblikd\u0259
\nh\u0259r ax\u015fam
\n\u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 qap\u0131m,
\nsonra da
\nq\u0259lbim d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\nBu, s\u0259nin \u0259lindir,
\nyoxsa,
\nyalq\u0131z Tanr\u0131n\u0131n?
\nG\u00f6r,
\nn\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r g\u0259zir\u0259m
\nruhuma hakim k\u0259sil\u0259n
\nbu a\u011f\u0131r sual\u0131n
\nsirli cavab\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n

YARPAQLAR, SEVG\u0130 V\u018f A\u011eACLAR<\/b><\/p>\n

Dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r
\nyarpaq dilind\u0259
\ntorpaqdan,
\nsudan,
\nhavadan
\ng\u00fcc alan a\u011faclar.
\nSevi\u015fir
\nbahar dilind\u0259
\nqol-budaqlar\u0131
\nsevincd\u0259n
\ns\u0259maya
\nucalan a\u011faclar.
\nYarpaqlar,
\nbudaqlar,
\nsevgi
\nv\u0259 a\u011faclar
\nsol\u011fun pay\u0131zda,
\nqarda, sazaqda
\ns\u00f6n\u00fcks\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259,
\nunutmayaq ki
\nh\u0259rar\u0259tli baharda
\nt\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ay\u0131lacaqlar.
\nBir-birini,
\nmavi s\u0259man\u0131
\nyenid\u0259n
\nv\u0259 q\u0259lb\u0259n
\nox\u015fayacaqlar…<\/p>\n

SON M\u018fNZ\u0130L\u018f GED\u018fN YOL<\/b><\/p>\n

Bu yol
\n\u00fcz\u00fc q\u00fcruba,
\nel\u0259 yol\u00e7ular\u0131 da.
\n\u00c7iyinl\u0259rd\u0259ki tabut,
\n\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131,
\nniskil, k\u0259d\u0259r
\nqo\u015fulub bu ax\u0131na.
\nUzaq deyil son m\u0259nzil,
\nyax\u0131nd\u0131r, \u00e7ox yax\u0131nd\u0131r.
\nBu yol
\n\u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259c\u0259
\naram-aram apar\u0131b.
\nElind\u0259n, obas\u0131ndan,
\n\u0259zizl\u0259rind\u0259n, do\u011fmas\u0131ndan,
\nayr\u0131 sal\u0131b, qopar\u0131b.
\nBu yol
\nhaqqa ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi,
\nq\u00fcrub kimi.
\nSevgi,
\nayr\u0131l\u0131q kimi.
\nH\u0259r vaxt
\nyerind\u0259, m\u0259kan\u0131nda
\nh\u00f6kmrand\u0131r.
\nGedib-g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r\u00e7\u00fcn
\nruh\u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin,
\na\u011f\u0131r olsa da,
\n\u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc-bi\u00e7ili vaxt,
\nsonsuz zamand\u0131r…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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