{"id":1355,"date":"2021-12-12T22:56:03","date_gmt":"2021-12-12T18:56:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1355"},"modified":"2021-12-12T22:56:03","modified_gmt":"2021-12-12T18:56:03","slug":"%c9%99yal%c9%99t-sairinin-bir-gunu-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/%c9%99yal%c9%99t-sairinin-bir-gunu-hekay%c9%99\/","title":{"rendered":"\u018fyal\u0259t \u015fairinin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc – HEKAY\u018f"},"content":{"rendered":"

V\u00fcsal O\u011eUZ<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Yuxudan ay\u0131landa divardak\u0131 saatda ki\u00e7ik \u0259qr\u0259b 9 r\u0259q\u0259minin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 idi. Yat\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ay\u0131lsa da, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t yata\u011f\u0131ndan durmaq ist\u0259m\u0259di, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini geni\u015f a\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, bacarmad\u0131. <\/strong><\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131 partlay\u0131rd\u0131 az qala. \u201cAx\u015famk\u0131 m\u0259clisin zibill\u0259ridir” dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Evd\u0259 sakitlik idi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi o, yuxudan duranda yolda\u015f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 qoyub o\u011flu il\u0259 i\u015f yerin\u0259 \u2013 u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131na getmi\u015f olurdu. Ax\u015famlar da gec\u0259d\u0259n xeyli ke\u00e7mi\u015f g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n \u0259ks\u0259r\u0259n u\u015faqlar yatm\u0131\u015f olurdu.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r d\u0259 orda-burda, kafed\u0259-\u00e7ayxanada oldu\u011fundan b\u0259z\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 u\u015faqlar \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc onun. Xan\u0131m\u0131 u\u015faqlarla yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan o s\u0259ssizc\u0259 oz yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7\u0259rdi. Onun g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n \u00e7ox vaxt ancaq anas\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri olard\u0131…<\/p>\n

M\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. \u018fli il\u0259 \u00e7aydan\u0131 yoxlad\u0131, soyumu\u015fdu. \u00dcr\u0259yi \u00e7ay ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259rindi. Krant\u0131 a\u00e7araq soyuq sudan doyunca i\u00e7di. \u00dcr\u0259yinin yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u0259k bilmirdi. Ax\u015fam i\u00e7il\u0259n ara\u011f\u0131n t\u0259sirind\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yi az qal\u0131rd\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259. H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb bir siqaret yandrd\u0131. T\u0259miz havan\u0131 siqaret t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bir az \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u018fslind\u0259, dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn bel\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. \u0130ki il\u0259 yax\u0131nd\u0131 o da i\u015fsiz idi, \u00e7oxlar\u0131 kimi. Amma \u00e7oxlar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli olaraq, o, ali t\u0259hsilli i\u015fsiz idi.<\/p>\n

\u00dcst\u0259g\u0259l d\u0259, ad\u0131 az qala b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6lk\u0259ni dolanan \u015fair idi. B\u0259li, i\u015fsiz \u015fair. \u015eeirl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7oxlu mahn\u0131 b\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ns\u0259 d\u0259, toylarda tamadalar b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259 onun \u015feirl\u0259rini m\u0259clisd\u0259kil\u0259rin can\u0131na d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yib pul qazansa da, ona bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 i\u015f tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 rayon v\u0259 do\u011fuldu\u011fu k\u0259ndd\u0259 onu tan\u0131yanl\u0131ar\u0131n \u00e7oxu ad\u0131 il\u0259 deyil, \u201c\u015fair\u201d dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rard\u0131. He\u00e7 kiml\u0259 i\u015fi olmazd\u0131, toyda-yasda ham\u0131dan h\u00f6rm\u0259t g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131. Amma i\u015fsizlik b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qaraltm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259, i\u015fi vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Amma iki il \u0259vv\u0259l i\u015fl\u0259diyi m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t idar\u0259sin\u0259 ixtisar g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olaraq yerini ixtisara d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259si olan dul qad\u0131na ver\u0259r\u0259k \u0259riz\u0259sini yazd\u0131. \u00c7oxlar\u0131, el\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 da onun bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini d\u00fczg\u00fcn hesab etm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, o, i\u00e7ind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni etmi\u015fdi. O g\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 sanki qara zola\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Hara \u00fcz tutmu\u015fdusa, a\u00e7\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn qap\u0131lar \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 dostlar\u0131, tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif i\u015fl\u0259r v\u0259d ets\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, sonda bir q\u0259mb\u0259rqulu \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ortaya. Ax\u0131rda \u0259lacs\u0131z qal\u0131b \u00fcz tutmu\u015fdu Bak\u0131ya. Qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u0259diyi redaksiya, girm\u0259diyi ofis, a\u011f\u0131z a\u00e7mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131 qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sanki bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ona m\u00fcnasib b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259r ya i\u015f\u00e7i il\u0259 t\u0259min olnmu\u015fdu, ya da ona uy\u011fun i\u015f, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 yaranmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Aylarla gah o dostun, gah bu qohumun evind\u0259 qalaraq i\u015f axtarm\u0131\u015f, sonda h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k yen\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 k\u0259ndin\u0259.<\/p>\n

Rayona qay\u0131td\u0131qdan sonra h\u0259yat\u0131 lap c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m \u0259zab\u0131na \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. H\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t yaran\u0131rd\u0131 evd\u0259. H\u0259r g\u00fcn h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n kinay\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, soyuq davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259, onu q\u0131nam\u0131rd\u0131 da. Yaz\u0131q bu ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n ancaq problem g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r az-\u00e7ox d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc bu s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra tamam pozulmu\u015fdu \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri. El\u0259 bil hiss edirdi v\u0259ziyy\u0259tin d\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini. H\u0259rd\u0259n ona t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259k, h\u0259r \u015feyin d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Amma hiss edirdi he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 inanm\u0131r bu yalana. S\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259pl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb gedirdi yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 bac\u0131s\u0131gil\u0259. \u018fn pisi d\u0259 o idi ki, bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n firavan h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb geri ikiqat \u0259s\u0259b il\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259 anlarda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259nm\u0259sin. Bilirdi partlama\u011f\u0131 an m\u0259sl\u0259sidi.<\/p>\n

Bacana\u011f\u0131 polisd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn rayonda m\u0259\u015fhur idi al\u00e7aql\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiliyi il\u0259. Amma qay\u0131nanas\u0131 demi\u015f, \u201cb\u0259y kimi\u201d dolan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qay\u0131nanas\u0131 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bacana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 onun yan\u0131nda t\u0259rifll\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 az qal\u0131rd\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yumub, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7s\u0131n v\u0259 \u201cb\u0259y\u201din bildiyi \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsizliyini t\u00f6ks\u00fcn ortaya. Amma etmirdi. Bilirdi ki, sonda bacana\u011f\u0131 haql\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xacaq. Bacana\u011f\u0131 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259, k\u0259ndd\u0259 tay-tu\u015flar\u0131n aras\u0131nda h\u00f6rm\u0259ti olmayan biri idi.<\/p>\n

Doqquzuncu sinifd\u0259n qovmu\u015fdular m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n. Sonradan nec\u0259 olmu\u015fdusa, d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdi sistem\u0259. \u0130ndi evi, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131, obyekti… Pula pul demirdi. H\u0259r c\u00fcr \u0259yri yola getm\u0259yi vard\u0131. Di g\u0259l bunu yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda dem\u0259k olard\u0131m\u0131. O d\u0259qiq\u0259 el\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kdi ya pax\u0131ll\u0131qdan deyir, ya da q\u0259sd\u0259n \u015f\u0259r at\u0131r bacana\u011f\u0131na. S\u00f6hb\u0259t bununla bits\u0259ydi, n\u0259 vard\u0131… S\u00f6hb\u0259t uzand\u0131qca xan\u0131m\u0131 bac\u0131s\u0131gilin ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan el\u0259 misal g\u0259tirirdi, el\u0259 faktlar ortaya qoyurdu ki, stoldan m\u0259\u011flub durmaqdan ba\u015fqa \u0259lac\u0131 qalm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018flini cibin\u0259 atd\u0131, siqaretin sonuncusunu da yand\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fynini d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259r\u0259k k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259, hara ged\u0259c\u0259yini, kiminl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi yox idi. \u0130ndi \u2013 bu saat kiminl\u0259 des\u0259n, s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r idi. T\u0259ki o adam\u0131n siqareti olsun… \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fckan qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sirdi…<\/p>\n

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K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015f yan\u0131nda dayanan ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259n fikird\u0259n ay\u0131ld\u0131. Bacana\u011f\u0131 idi, a\u00e7\u0131q aynadan \u0259li il\u0259 \u201cotur ma\u015f\u0131na\u201d i\u015far\u0259sini verirdi. Minm\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Bu ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tez\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

A\u011f\u0131zucu \u201cm\u00fcbar\u0259kdi, xeyirli s\u00fcr\u201d dedi. Bacana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n x\u00fcsusi \u0259da il\u0259 \u201cs\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 qism\u0259t\u201d dem\u0259si ona istehza kimi g\u0259ldi. H\u0259r ikisi yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki, bu ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259k\u0259rini bel\u0259 alma\u011fa onun imkan\u0131 yoxdu, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, he\u00e7 zaman da olmayacaqd\u0131. Di\u015fi ba\u011f\u0131rsa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sirdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259rs kimi m\u0259rk\u0259zi yola da \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, bir b\u0259han\u0259 il\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn ma\u015f\u0131ndan. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259 sank\u0131 uzand\u0131qca uzan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 bacana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259linin penc\u0259yinin cibin\u0259 uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdi. C\u0259ld \u0259lini sal\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. Sar\u0131 \u0259llilik idi. Bacana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n iri\u015f\u0259-iri\u015f\u0259 \u201colanda qaytararsan\u201d dem\u0259si ona \u201cbilir\u0259m, cibind\u0259 q\u0259piyin d\u0259 yoxdur\u201d kimi g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

Bu saat bu pula \u00e7ox ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 nec\u0259. K\u0259skin bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 pulu oturaca\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ataraq qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131pd\u0131. \u00c7evrilib baxmasa da, bacana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n heyr\u0259tli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 hiss etdi.<\/p>\n

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Bu g\u00fcn n\u0259 i\u015f olsa, ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. D\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n d\u00fckan qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 tay-tu\u015flar\u0131na da demi\u015fdi. Tan\u0131\u015f ustalara da f\u0259hl\u0259lik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u0259b\u0259r etmi\u015fdi. Amma yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki, ustalar pul \u00f6zg\u0259y\u0259 qalmas\u0131n dey\u0259, ya \u00f6z u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259dirdil\u0259r yanlar\u0131nda, ya da qohum-\u0259qr\u0259badan olan birini. \u00dcmidini \u00fczm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 bu g\u00fcn n\u0259s\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131na inam\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7inar\u0131n dibind\u0259ki \u00e7ayxanaya yetirdi. \u00c7ay\u00e7\u0131 sinif yolda\u015f\u0131 idi. Onun v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259n \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 anlayan el\u0259 o idi. He\u00e7 vaxt ondan \u00e7ay\u0131n pulunu almazd\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn onun \u00e7ayxanas\u0131na getm\u0259y\u0259n kimi v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti bilirdi. Z\u0259ng edib \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 yan\u0131na. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb oturdu.<\/p>\n

Dalbadal iki st\u0259kan \u00e7ay v\u0259 siqaretd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 da \u00e7\u0259kildi. Kefi yerin\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Dostunun telefonuna g\u0259l\u0259n z\u0259ng ba\u015flad\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259ti yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoydu.<\/p>\n

Dostu telefondak\u0131 adamla s\u00f6hb\u0259tini bitirib \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ona tutaraq \u201c \u015eair, i\u015f var bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck, ged\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?\u201d dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. El\u0259 dedi ki, guya i\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn se\u00e7im \u015fans\u0131 da vard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq \u201cged\u0259r\u0259m\u201d dedi. He\u00e7 soru\u015fmad\u0131 da n\u0259 i\u015fdi. Bu g\u00fcn o\u011flunun arzusunu yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnl\u0259rdir u\u015fa\u011fa verdiyi s\u00f6z\u00fc tuta bilmirdi. O\u011flu ondan h\u0259rbi forma ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. Televizorda g\u00f6r\u00fcb beynin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n. Q\u0131z\u0131na da kukla s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi. Forma yax\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00fckanda vard\u0131. Sanki o\u011flunun \u0259yni \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tikilmi\u015fdi. \u0130ki d\u0259f\u0259 girib x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 bax\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nisy\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 utanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sat\u0131c\u0131 yox da dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n

Dostunun \u201cBak\u0131l\u0131 bir ail\u0259dir, bizim k\u0259ndd\u0259 villa tikdirb. Ax\u015fam g\u0259libl\u0259r. Amma h\u0259y\u0259t-bacan\u0131 kol bas\u0131b. T\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259k, qaydaya salmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Ba\u015fqa n\u0259 i\u015f \u00e7\u0131xacaq, bilmir\u0259m, imkanl\u0131 adamd\u0131r. \u0130ndil\u0259r\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131nla g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k bura\u201d dem\u0259si i\u00e7in\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q doldurdu.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015flar\u0131 yenid\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 nec\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, yanlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdir\u0259n adam\u0131 gec g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r. Orta ya\u015fl\u0131, a\u011fb\u0259niz, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 qism\u0259n a\u011farm\u0131\u015f, ortaboylu bir n\u0259f\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259qdim etm\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7ay\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fdu. Dostunun \u201cm\u0259n\u0259m\u201d dem\u0259si il\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n adam salams\u0131z-k\u0259lams\u0131z \u201cM\u0259n\u0259 telefonda dediyiniz f\u0259hl\u0259 hardad\u0131r?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. Dostunun \u0259li il\u0259 onu g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259si ona q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Sanki ill\u0259rdir bu g\u00fcn \u2013 f\u0259hl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn universitet oxumu\u015fdu. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 \u201cax\u0131r\u0131 ki, ali t\u0259hsilli f\u0259hl\u0259 d\u0259 olduq\u201d dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. G\u0259l\u0259n adam\u0131n quru, soyuq davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 da bir yandan kefin\u0259 so\u011fan do\u011frad\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 doldurmu\u015fdu ki, etiraz etsin, yad\u0131na o\u011fluna verdiyi s\u00f6z d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018flacs\u0131z qal\u0131b \u0259lind\u0259ki \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoyaraq ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f ged\u0259n bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rli adam\u0131n arxas\u0131nca getdi. Dostunun uzatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q siqaret qutusunu cibin\u0259 qoyanda etiraz etm\u0259k ist\u0259di, ed\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxa oturaca\u011f\u0131nda oturanda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc p\u0259rt olmu\u015f kimi hiss edirdi.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n h\u00fcnd\u00fcr hasarl\u0131, b\u00f6y\u00fck darvazal\u0131 bir h\u0259y\u0259tin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. K\u0259ndin bu hiss\u0259si da\u011fa yax\u0131n idi. Ad\u0259t\u0259n, k\u0259nardan g\u0259lib ev, torpaq alanlar bu \u0259trafdan al\u0131rd\u0131lar. Havas\u0131 t\u0259miz, m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259si g\u00f6z\u0259l. \u0130mkans\u0131z adamlar\u0131n bir \u00e7oxu burdak\u0131 torpaqlar\u0131n\u0131, evl\u0259rini yax\u015f\u0131 qiym\u0259t\u0259 sataraq k\u0259ndin \u201cyeni m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259\u201d deyil\u0259n hiss\u0259sind\u0259n daha ucuz qiym\u0259t\u0259 torpaq alaraq ora k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bu \u0259trafdak\u0131 evl\u0259rin \u00e7oxu bel\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr hasarl\u0131, bahal\u0131 darvazal\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259r idi. H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259, 3 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 ev sahibinin imkanl\u0131 biri oldu\u011funa \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 sevindi. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u201cdeyildiyi kimi d\u0259 var\u201d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Evin m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259mliyin\u0259 s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259zdi. B\u00f6y\u00fck hovuz, s\u0259liq\u0259li \u0259kil\u0259n a\u011fac v\u0259 g\u00fcl kollar\u0131, da\u015f d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015f c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar ev sahibinin t\u0259kc\u0259 imkan\u0131ndan deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259sind\u0259n v\u0259 z\u00f6vq\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qaraja yerl\u0259\u015fdirdikd\u0259n sonra ev sahibi ona g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yi i\u015fl\u0259ri ba\u015fa sald\u0131. Qaraj\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259mir seyfi a\u00e7araq b\u00fct\u00fcn al\u0259tl\u0259rin yerini g\u00f6rs\u0259tdi. \u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn geyim v\u0259 \u0259lc\u0259k d\u0259 verdi. \u00d6z\u00fc is\u0259 ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131. Az ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259nin balkonunda telefonla dan\u0131\u015fanda g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Dayanmadan i\u015fl\u0259di. \u00c7oxdand\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tez yoruldu. B\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259ni t\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. Ax\u015fama kimi i\u015fini bitirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Pulunu alan kimi d\u00fckana ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. Bu ax\u015fam o\u011fluna sevindirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Xozeyin insafl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xsayd\u0131, puldan q\u0131z\u0131na da kukla ala bil\u0259rdi. \u0130\u015f sabaha qalsayd\u0131, xozeyin pulu sabah ver\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. B\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir s\u00fckut var idi. Sanki burda he\u00e7 kim ya\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131 i\u015fin\u0259 nec\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, xozeyinin onu eyvandan s\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259sini gec e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

Nahara \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Yaln\u0131z indi acd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdi. Evin birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259ki s\u0259rin, s\u0259liq\u0259li m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yem\u0259k qoymu\u015fdular. Dem\u0259li, xozeyin evd\u0259 t\u0259k deyildi. Xozeyinin \u0259li il\u0259 divardak\u0131 i\u00e7kil\u0259ri g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k \u201ci\u00e7\u0259ns\u0259n\u201d sual\u0131na ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259r\u0259k \u201c yox\u201d dedi. Yox dem\u0259si \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

Nahardan sonra da eyni h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di. \u0130\u015f is\u0259 bitm\u0259k bilmirdi. \u00c7oxdand\u0131 \u0259l d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259n kollar quruyub s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. He\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 \u2013 kollar\u0131n c\u0131z\u0131q-c\u0131z\u0131q etdiyi qollar\u0131na, mi\u015far\u0131n d\u00f6y\u0259n\u0259k etdiyi \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 fikir verm\u0259d\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Ax\u015fam\u0131n tez d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin bataca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxurmu\u015f kimi dayanmadan, t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259r\u0259k i\u015fl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn i\u015fi bitir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n narahat idi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 xozeyin onu \u00e7aya d\u0259v\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259diyini des\u0259 d\u0259, ikinci t\u0259kidd\u0259n sonra susad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdi. \u018fl-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuyub m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 do\u011fru y\u00f6n\u0259ldi. Qeyri-ixtiyar\u0131 eyvana t\u0259r\u0259f baxanda bir anl\u0131q donub qald\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 inanmad\u0131 \u2013 ola bilm\u0259zdi. B\u0259li, o idi \u2013 ill\u0259rdir yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevgi \u015feirl\u0259rinin t\u0259k \u00fcnvan\u0131, s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131. Onun baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb eyvandan \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259yind\u0259n hiss etdi onun da tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131… \u00c7ay\u0131 nec\u0259 i\u00e7diyini hiss etm\u0259di. Xozeyinin suallar\u0131na cavab vers\u0259 d\u0259, fikri eyvanda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hiss edirdi ki, art\u0131q fikirl\u0259rini toplaya bilmir. \u018fli he\u00e7n\u0259 tutmurdu.<\/p>\n

\u00c7evrilib baxma\u011fa da \u00e7\u0259kinirdi. Xozeyinin n\u0259s\u0259 hiss ed\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kinirdi. A\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, ill\u0259r sonra onu g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k. H\u0259m d\u0259 do\u011fma k\u0259ndind\u0259. Amma bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259zdi. G\u00f6zucu eyvana t\u0259r\u0259f baxd\u0131. Orda idi, ona bax\u0131rd\u0131. Yox, bu t\u0259sad\u00fcf ola bilm\u0259zdi. Bu taleyin ona oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 n\u00f6vb\u0259ti oyun idi. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z onu hans\u0131 g\u00fcnahlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 bu c\u00fcr c\u0259zaland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 ill\u0259rdi ya\u015fayan sevgisi bir andaca sanki k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259ndi… K\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 onun eyvandan zill\u0259n\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdi. D\u00f6z\u0259 bilmirdi. Yox, bel\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u0130ndic\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, ad\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131racaqd\u0131. Di\u015fini di\u015fin\u0259 s\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259lilik ed\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxurdu. \u018fynini d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259r\u0259k getm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdi. Xozeyinin t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb dolu bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fckd\u0259 \u201cBu g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r, qalan\u0131n\u0131 da s\u0259h\u0259r g\u0259lib h\u0259ll ed\u0259c\u0259m” dedi.<\/p>\n

Xozeyinin naraz\u0131 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan hiss olunsa da, \u201cyax\u015f\u0131, onda s\u0259h\u0259r g\u0259l, yerd\u0259 qalan\u0131n\u0131 da h\u0259ll et, pulunu al\u201d \u2013 dedi. Dili dola\u015fa-dola\u015fa \u201colar\u201d deyib az qala y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc darvazan\u0131n alaqap\u0131s\u0131ndan k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 atd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na kimi az qala qa\u00e7araq g\u0259ldi. Sanki o evd\u0259n bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r tez uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Hava qaralmaq \u00fczr\u0259 idi. Hara ged\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi. Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 o\u011fluna \u201cd\u00fckan ba\u011fl\u0131 idi\u201d yalan\u0131n\u0131 dem\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ev\u0259 gec getm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldi.
\nO\u011flunun ist\u0259yini sabah da yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259h\u0259r yenid\u0259n o ev\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

V\u00fcsal O\u011eUZ Yuxudan ay\u0131landa divardak\u0131 saatda ki\u00e7ik \u0259qr\u0259b 9 r\u0259q\u0259minin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 idi. Yat\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ay\u0131lsa da, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t yata\u011f\u0131ndan durmaq ist\u0259m\u0259di, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini geni\u015f a\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, bacarmad\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131 partlay\u0131rd\u0131 az qala. \u201cAx\u015famk\u0131 m\u0259clisin zibill\u0259ridir” dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Evd\u0259 sakitlik idi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi o, yuxudan duranda yolda\u015f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 qoyub o\u011flu il\u0259 i\u015f yerin\u0259 \u2013 u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131na […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1356,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1355"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1355"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1355\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1357,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1355\/revisions\/1357"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/1356"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1355"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1355"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1355"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}