{"id":1471,"date":"2022-02-08T14:40:35","date_gmt":"2022-02-08T10:40:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1471"},"modified":"2022-02-08T14:40:35","modified_gmt":"2022-02-08T10:40:35","slug":"imdat-avsar-ana","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/imdat-avsar-ana\/","title":{"rendered":"\u0130mdat Av\u015far &#8211; ANA"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\n<em><strong>\u018fziz dostum, d\u0259y\u0259rli qarda\u015f\u0131m <\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em><strong>M\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131la&#8230;<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>Q\u0259fil a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fcll\u0259nin sal qayalarda \u0259ks-s\u0259das\u0131 kimi u\u011fulday\u0131r acl\u0131q ayinind\u0259ki qu\u015fun nal\u0259si&#8230; Qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259yin ixtiyar\u0131na t\u0259slim etmi\u015f qartal bir x\u0259nc\u0259rin iki \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259kk edilmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 yamaclar\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcr, ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 dair\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7izdiyi bo\u015flu\u011fun f\u00f6vq\u00fcn\u0259 varma\u011fa can at\u0131r&#8230; Qayalar\u0131 titr\u0259d\u0259n bu inilti sanki t\u0259bi\u0259tin h\u0259r n\u00f6qt\u0259sin\u0259 siray\u0259t edir. G\u00fccl\u00fc bir p\u0259nc\u0259nin caynaqlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda can verm\u0259 qorxusu&#8230; B\u00fct\u00fcn canl\u0131lar t\u0259dirgin, b\u00fct\u00fcn qu\u015flar qanads\u0131z&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Qar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 al-qan t\u0259r\u0259 bata-bata bir ceyran enir da\u011f yamac\u0131ndan. Yuvadan uzaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015f balas\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nca t\u0259l\u0259sir, \u0259lacs\u0131z \u00fcmidsiz bax\u0131\u015flarla yollara boylan\u0131r. A\u011fz\u0131nda bir tutam otun ac\u0131s\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 en\u0259n s\u00fcd\u00fcn s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131yla budaqlar\u0131 aralayaraq qar\u0131 yara-yara s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131r dar c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlardan. A\u011faclar\u0131n, budaqlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda gah g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, gah da g\u00f6zd\u0259n itir. Dik yamaclardan ovaya en\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qara bulud da, o qu\u015fun iniltisi d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ngah\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n duman\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 itir&#8230; Duman i\u00e7ind\u0259ki bu inc\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131r, balas\u0131n\u0131 qartallar, qurdlar \u0259lind\u0259n qurtaracaq c\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259&#8230; Da\u011f ayaz\u0131nda buz ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f kirpikl\u0259rinin d\u0259, n\u0259mli g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259 donu a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Daha s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 ir\u0259li at\u0131l\u0131r, da\u015fdan da\u015fa s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131r ana ceyran&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Gec\u0259l\u0259ri s\u00f6zl\u0259r u\u00e7u\u015fur otaqda&#8230; B\u0259z\u0259n s\u00f6z ya\u011fmuruna tutulur yetim o\u011flan, yuxu il\u0259 oyaql\u0131q aras\u0131nda duydu\u011fu s\u00f6zl\u0259rin bir r\u00f6ya oldu\u011funu z\u0259nn edir, sonra yar\u0131s\u0131 zehnind\u0259 qalan misralar\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131za k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcr&#8230; Qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259ki ya\u015f\u0131l alma a\u011fac\u0131, kolxoz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fcsadir\u0259 edilm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259ri olmayan t\u0259p\u0259l qoyun, m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 \u0259rini itir\u0259n dul qad\u0131n v\u0259 atas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xan bir u\u015faq boylan\u0131r v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r aras\u0131ndan:<\/p>\n<p>\u201c&#8230;Biz d\u00f6rd n\u0259f\u0259r idik<br \/>\nT\u0259p\u0259l qoyun idi,<br \/>\nG\u0259z\u0259l alma idi<br \/>\nAnamd\u0131, m\u0259ndim&#8230;<br \/>\nG\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131n xatir\u0259sin\u0259<br \/>\nBizi atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar Yer k\u00fcr\u0259sin\u0259&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini yand\u0131r\u0131b-yaxan, etiraf ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi gizli bir sevdan\u0131n yan\u011f\u0131n\u0131 boy g\u00f6st\u0259rir o v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rd\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u201c&#8230;G\u00f6r m\u0259nim qism\u0259tim n\u0259l\u0259r, n\u0259l\u0259rmi\u015f,<br \/>\nO uzaq sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m yax\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259rmi\u015f&#8230;<br \/>\nS\u0259n dem\u0259, da\u011flara qar \u0259l\u0259n\u0259rmi\u015f<br \/>\nDumandan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, \u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz&#8230;<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259ni sevmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Ad\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rs kitablar\u0131nda oxudu\u011fu adamlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda x\u0259yal edir. O s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yeni v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r\u0259 yaza-yaza bir z\u0259rf\u0259 qoyaraq g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in qanadlar\u0131yla \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir. K\u0259nd\u0259 on be\u015f g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0259zetl\u0259ri, d\u0259rgil\u0259ri h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 oxuyur, amma s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 o q\u0259zetl\u0259r od olub \u00fcr\u0259yini yand\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. Yenid\u0259n sar\u0131l\u0131r q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259, ka\u011f\u0131za&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u201c&#8230;Yar\u0131n soyuqlu\u011fu yara da\u011f olur<br \/>\n\u00dcr\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zs\u0259, unutmaq olur.<br \/>\nBilm\u0259m ki, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yas tutmaq olur,<br \/>\nQurumaz g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131 bir ildir&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Qu\u015f t\u00fck\u00fcnd\u0259n olan yataqda da uyumaz sevda&#8230; \u2013 deyir qad\u0131n. O\u011flunun ota\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidir, qula\u011f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n k\u0259sik-k\u0259sik s\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259si t\u0259ngiyir anan\u0131n, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki t\u0259dirginliyi he\u00e7 n\u0259 il\u0259 ovuda bilmir: \u201c\u0130lahi, S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn qoru balam\u0131! A\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 itirir o\u011flum&#8230; Qara sevdayam\u0131 tu\u015f g\u0259ldi? Oca\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcmidini xilas eyl\u0259, ya R\u0259bbim! S\u0259n onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax! M\u0259nim bu yetimd\u0259n ba\u015fqa kimim var?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Sonra xatir\u0259l\u0259rin kor at\u0259\u015find\u0259 yanma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r qad\u0131n: S\u0259f\u0259rb\u0259rlik \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidir sanki&#8230; Quca\u011f\u0131nda alt\u0131 ayl\u0131q o\u011flan il\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn bahar\u0131nda bir g\u0259lin g\u0259lib dayan\u0131r g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131nda&#8230; A\u011f\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ri g\u0259lir qula\u011f\u0131na&#8230; U\u011fultu, v\u0259lv\u0259l\u0259&#8230; M\u00fcharib\u0259nin h\u0259zin t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u0259yir r\u00fczgar. \u00dcmidl\u0259r\u0259 qar ya\u011f\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Qatar stansiyas\u0131&#8230; Vaqonlara minib \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 \u00fcz tutur o\u011fullar, atalar&#8230; G\u0259linin quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 son d\u0259f\u0259 baxmaq ist\u0259yir atas\u0131&#8230; O u\u011fultu i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz yuxudad\u0131r m\u0259sum k\u00f6rp\u0259&#8230; Bir g\u00fcn tale el\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ata r\u0259smi, \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 ata k\u00f6lg\u0259si olmayacaq&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Z\u0259ngl\u0259r \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131r. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259r \u0259mrl\u0259r ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131r. Havaya t\u00fcnd qara duman \u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259n qatar relsl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ir\u0259lil\u0259y\u0259-ir\u0259lil\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n itir. K\u00f6rp\u0259sini ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131b ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 uzaqlara bax\u0131r g\u0259lin&#8230; O qatar\u0131n da, o qatara minib ged\u0259nl\u0259rin d\u0259 bir daha geri g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini bilir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>O g\u00fcnl\u0259rin, o k\u00f6vr\u0259k xatir\u0259l\u0259rin at\u0259\u015find\u0259 qovrulan ana indi i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r, o\u011flu is\u0259 yan otaqda s\u00f6z il\u0259 sava\u015fdad\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in qanadlar\u0131yla \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259n v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rd\u0259n biri g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 q\u0259zet s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 geri qay\u0131d\u0131r. Sanki o q\u0259zet da\u011flar quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 unudulmu\u015f bu k\u0259ndi inc\u0259 bir yol il\u0259 yenid\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 ba\u011flay\u0131r. Bu yol getdikc\u0259 geni\u015fl\u0259nir o\u011flan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259&#8230; Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259r d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015f inc\u0259 torpaq yol, geni\u015f asfalt yollara \u00e7evrilib paytaxta q\u0259d\u0259r uzan\u0131r. Qad\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn qorxular\u0131 t\u0259rk edir can\u0131n\u0131, bu yolu yuxusuz gec\u0259l\u0259rin a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131r&#8230; K\u0259ndin a\u011fsaqqalar\u0131, a\u011fbir\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri alma a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6zayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131na toplan\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Sevinc g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na q\u0259rq olan Ana q\u0259zeti ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131r, d\u0259liqanl\u0131l\u0131\u011fa yenic\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259m qoyan o\u011flan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Bu qap\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 tan\u0131mayan, bu ev\u0259-e\u015fiy\u0259 yad bir adam yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r qap\u0131ya. Bir m\u0259ktub uzad\u0131r Anan\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259&#8230; \u0130ll\u0259rdi g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u0259rinin yolunda qalan qalan qad\u0131n b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259ldiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr&#8230; \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259ktubu g\u0259libs\u0259, m\u00fctl\u0259q bir g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, &#8211; deyir \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 s\u0259ssizc\u0259&#8230; \u018frinin \u00fcz cizgil\u0259ri o\u011flunun \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr. \u018frini c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131qlar\u0131nda g\u0259l\u0259n m\u0259ktubun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki m\u00f6h\u00fcrl\u0259 eyni m\u00f6h\u00fcr var z\u0259rfin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259&#8230; H\u0259y\u0259canla m\u0259ktubu a\u00e7\u0131r qad\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p>Bir \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f m\u0259ktubuna b\u0259nz\u0259dir onu. T\u0259la\u015flan\u0131r, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilmir&#8230; Yen\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259mi d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259k qap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131?! \u2013 z\u0259rfi a\u00e7a-a\u00e7a \u0259ll\u0259ri kimi \u00fcr\u0259yi d\u0259 \u0259sir bi\u00e7ar\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBu, d\u0259v\u0259tnam\u0259dir\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir o\u011flan&#8230; D\u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259n q\u0259lbi rahatlay\u0131r qad\u0131n\u0131n. Bu d\u0259v\u0259tnam\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259ri otaqda s\u00f6zl\u0259rin a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolun bitdiyi yerd\u0259n &#8211; \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259lir. O\u011flan m\u0259ktubu oxuyunca az qal\u0131r ki, \u00fcr\u0259yi k\u00f6ks\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n&#8230; Anl\u0131-\u015fanl\u0131 \u015fairl\u0259rin h\u00fczuruna \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rlar onu.<\/p>\n<p>Arzular\u0131n qanad\u0131nda u\u00e7ur, x\u0259yal \u00f6lk\u0259sind\u0259 at \u00e7ap\u0131r o\u011flan, \u015feirl\u0259rini oxuyur&#8230; Zalda oturanlar s\u00f6zl\u0259rini yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q k\u0259sib alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131rlar onu. Q\u00fcdr\u0259tli bir \u015fair aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b m\u0259dh edir oxuduqlar\u0131n\u0131&#8230; D\u0259ft\u0259rind\u0259ki \u015feirl\u0259r kitaba \u00e7evrilir, \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 ad\u0131 yaz\u0131lan kitab\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131r, \u00fcz qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131, s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rini \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259-\u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131r.<br \/>\nAnas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr m\u0259ktubun \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259. Sanki bu g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131, ka\u011f\u0131zlardak\u0131 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bi poza-poza indiy\u0259c\u0259n qara g\u0259lmi\u015f taleyin, nakam b\u0259xtin al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 silir, yeni bir yaz\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131r, bir yetimin a\u011faran b\u0259xtinin i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6z ota\u011fa yay\u0131l\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Bir sevinc h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr evi&#8230; Qon\u015fu u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n birind\u0259n \u015falvar, birind\u0259n k\u00f6yn\u0259k ist\u0259yir Ana&#8230; birinin jaketi dar g\u0259lir o\u011flan\u0131n \u0259ynin\u0259, birinin \u015falvar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck olur belin\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>O gec\u0259 yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na qoyur o\u011flan \u015feirl\u0259rini yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259ft\u0259ri. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu d\u0259ft\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 tutunaraq \u00e7\u0131xacaq i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya&#8230;<br \/>\nDan yeri s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcnc\u0259y\u0259d\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 yuxu getmir Anan\u0131n. Sabah azan\u0131nda oyand\u0131racaq o\u011flunu, me\u015f\u0259d\u0259n odun da\u015f\u0131yan kamazlardan birin\u0259 mindirib rayona g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k. O\u011flunun o gedi\u015fi \u0259rinin gedi\u015fi kimi olmayacaq, qad\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259lbiyl\u0259 hiss edir bunu&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Qar ya\u011f\u0131r. Ana-bala g\u00fcndo\u011fmam\u0131\u015f yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rlar. Sulu qar yolu el\u0259 hala sal\u0131b ki, ikisi d\u0259 yerim\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r. Bu da\u011f yamac\u0131ndan d\u00fcz\u0259 en\u0259n yolun be\u015f-alt\u0131 kilometrliyind\u0259dir rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zi&#8230; S\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m yamaclardan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 en\u0259 bils\u0259l\u0259r, gerisi asan olar. H\u0259l\u0259 g\u00fcn do\u011fmam\u0131\u015f olsa da, yoldan ke\u00e7\u0259n kamazlar\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131r. S\u0259h\u0259rin alaqaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda be\u015f-on kamazdan ba\u015fqa bu yoldan ke\u00e7\u0259n olmur. Ta ki sabah ged\u0259n o ma\u015f\u0131nlar ax\u015fam geri qay\u0131dana q\u0259d\u0259r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Ana-bala yolun k\u0259nar\u0131nda bir-birin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b odun y\u00fckl\u0259nmi\u015f kamazlara saxlamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259l qald\u0131r\u0131rlar. Kamazlar\u0131n saxlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n qad\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 k\u0259silmi\u015f toyuq kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259r iki \u0259lini yanlara a\u00e7\u0131b yollar\u0131na davam edirl\u0259r. N\u0259 bi\u00e7ar\u0259 qad\u0131n, n\u0259 d\u0259 o\u011flu bu i\u015far\u0259nin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu anlaya bilmir. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 d\u0259li bir h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n at\u0259\u015fi yansa da \u0259ll\u0259ri \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr o\u011flan\u0131n. Qad\u0131n: \u201cD\u0259ft\u0259rini m\u0259n\u0259 ver, s\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rini cibin\u0259 qoy, \u0259ll\u0259rini isit, balam!\u201d \u2013 deyir. O\u011flan anas\u0131n\u0131n dediyi kimi edir. Ana d\u0259ft\u0259ri m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s bir \u0259man\u0259t kimi k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131r. Zaman daral\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Rayona vaxt\u0131nda yeti\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259k qorxusu o\u011flan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 k\u00f6z kimi yan\u0131r. Fikri qaranl\u0131qla\u015f\u0131r, g\u00fcnl\u0259rdir \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan yollar getdikc\u0259 daral\u0131r, qapan\u0131r, qar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259riyib yox olur&#8230;<br \/>\nQaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaran sonuncu kamaz\u0131n i\u015fart\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259ki son \u00fcmidini \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymur o\u011flan\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Ana az qala \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na at\u0131r, amma yollar qarla \u00f6rt\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n saxlamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmur. Yavrusunu itirmi\u015f qurd kimi ulay\u0131r qad\u0131n. F\u0259ryad edir. Ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259n sonuncu ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nca baxa-baxa qal\u0131r. O anda sanki b\u0259xt ulduzu yenid\u0259n do\u011fur \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 y\u00fcz metr ir\u0259lil\u0259yib d\u00fcz\u0259ngaha \u00e7atan kamaz q\u0259za dayanma i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131raraq bir k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kilir. Kamazdan en\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc \u201cG\u0259lin!\u201d- dey\u0259 \u0259l eyl\u0259yir. O anda \u0259ll\u0259rini havaya qald\u0131ran qad\u0131n: \u201c\u0130lahi!\u201d deyir, \u201cS\u0259n bu yetimin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131n! \u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na qurban olum!\u201d Sonra o\u011fluna t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k: \u201cTez ol, qa\u00e7, get balam! Allah aman\u0131nda ol!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Qarl\u0131 yolu heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131r o\u011flan, bir az da ir\u0259lil\u0259s\u0259, birc\u0259 o kamaza min\u0259 bils\u0259, bu qarl\u0131, \u00e7amurlu yollar onu b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 onu zirv\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaracaq\u2026 \u201cQa\u00e7, c\u0259ld ol\u201d deyir kamaz s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc. \u201c\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri doludu. Cavan o\u011flansan, ma\u015fallah! Qalx yuxar\u0131 odunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 otur!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Da\u011f ayaz\u0131 ilikl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dondurmu\u015f olsa, o\u011flan h\u0259r hal\u0131ndan xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Min k\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ed\u0259-ed\u0259 kamaza qalx\u0131r, qon\u015fu u\u015faqdan borc ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 paltonun yaxas\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri sal\u0131r. Kamaz s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259ndikc\u0259 i\u00e7ini g\u0259mir\u0259n ayaza tutulsa da, \u015feirl\u0259rini oxuyaca\u011f\u0131 salonun isti havas\u0131 ruhunu isidir. \u0130l\u0131q bir bahar havas\u0131 yay\u0131l\u0131r b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259&#8230; Sanki dua edirmi\u015f kimi \u015feir oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r:<\/p>\n<p>\u201c&#8230;Fikrinin \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s<br \/>\nMayas\u0131ndan do\u011fmu\u015fam.<br \/>\nDa\u015f\u0131ndan, torpa\u011f\u0131ndan<br \/>\nQayas\u0131ndan do\u011fmu\u015fam.<br \/>\nM\u0259n anam\u0131n Tanr\u0131ya<br \/>\nDuas\u0131ndan do\u011fmu\u015fam<br \/>\nM\u0259n\u0259m dua oxuyan&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Rayonun uca binalar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr uzaqdan. N\u0259f\u0259siyl\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini isitm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r o\u011flan, \u0259ll\u0259rini qoynuna sal\u0131r. Bird\u0259n \u015feirl\u0259rini yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259ft\u0259ri g\u0259lir a\u011fl\u0131na. Cibl\u0259rini yoxlay\u0131r, qoynunu, qoltu\u011funu&#8230; D\u0259ft\u0259ri tapmay\u0131nca \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259ni qan t\u0259r\u0259 bat\u0131r, i\u00e7ind\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 bir s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 ke\u00e7ir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>O\u011flunun getdiyi yollara baxa-baxa sevinc i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini g\u00f6y\u0259 a\u00e7araq \u015f\u00fckr ed\u0259n Ana duas\u0131n\u0131 bitirinc\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00e7arpaz ba\u011flay\u0131b barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qoltu\u011funun alt\u0131na qoyur. El\u0259 o an \u0259ll\u0259ri qoynundak\u0131 d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 toxunur.<\/p>\n<p>Ana O\u011flunun ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ra-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131ra el\u0259 f\u0259ryad qopar\u0131r ki, uzaq da\u011f yamaclar\u0131ndan d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r iniltisi \u0259ks-s\u0259da verir\u2026 O f\u0259ryad g\u00f6y\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lib Tanr\u0131 qat\u0131na \u00e7atsa da, bu s\u0259si n\u0259 qarl\u0131 yollarda sars\u0131la-sars\u0131la ged\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc e\u015fidir, n\u0259 d\u0259 kamazdak\u0131 odunlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturub ayaza, \u015faxtaya r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259ki \u00fcmidl\u0259 isin\u0259n o\u011flan e\u015fidir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Yaral\u0131 qu\u015f kimi inl\u0259y\u0259n Anan\u0131n nal\u0259si da\u011flara yay\u0131laraq \u0259ks-s\u0259da ver\u0259-ver\u0259 g\u0259lib qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z qulaqlar\u0131nda u\u011fulday\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na yeti\u015firl\u0259r. Kamazdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 atlanan o\u011flan\u0131n soyuqdan \u00fcy\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u0259ll\u0259ri, ayaqlar\u0131 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t key kimi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz qal\u0131r, o\u011flan b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z bir a\u011fr\u0131 hiss edir. \u018fll\u0259rini cibl\u0259rin\u0259 atanda nitqi tutulur. Gec\u0259l\u0259ri yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na qoyub h\u0259r sabah yenid\u0259n oxudu\u011fu o d\u0259ft\u0259ri cibl\u0259rind\u0259 tapa bilmir.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259zb\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi \u015feirl\u0259r bir\u0259r-bir\u0259r hafiz\u0259sind\u0259n u\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. Yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n divarlar\u0131 sanki himi u\u00e7mu\u015f divar kimi bir-bir y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r. \u015e\u0259klini, s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rini \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259diyi d\u0259ft\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, o yaz\u0131lardan yadda\u015f\u0131nda bir \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t tapa bilmir. \u0130ndi bu r\u0259smi adamlar\u0131n, bu izdiham\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 olmasayd\u0131, o \u015feirl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u0259zb\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. F\u0259q\u0259t bu t\u0259la\u015f onun beynind\u0259 izahs\u0131z bir xaos yarad\u0131r. Onu h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131nda qorudu\u011funa inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 Tanr\u0131ya yalvar\u0131r. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u00f6zl\u0259r \u0259ksik, b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u00f6zl\u0259r yar\u0131m, \u015feirl\u0259rin ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 xat\u0131rlaya bilmir.<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Ana f\u0259ryad qopar\u0131r, qar\u0131 yara-yara ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r, arabir yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b yell\u0259yir ba\u015fqa bir ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>Da\u011f\u0131n yamac\u0131ndan d\u00fcz\u0259ngaha do\u011fru can\u0131n\u0131 di\u015fin\u0259 tutub s\u0259kir bir ana ceyran\u2026 Qara bulud kimi g\u00f6yd\u0259 dola\u015fan qartal\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259si d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar, alq\u0131\u015flar, t\u0259rifl\u0259r&#8230; Salonun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda iki b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259kil, \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 qurulmu\u015f protokol masas\u0131&#8230; \u0130ki \u015f\u0259kil aras\u0131nda q\u0131z\u0131l bayraq, bayra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oraq v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kic&#8230; O\u011flan\u0131n keyiy\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259ninin donu a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r yava\u015f-yava\u015f, islanan pal-paltarlar\u0131ndan buxar qalx\u0131r. Gec\u0259l\u0259r s\u00fcbh\u0259 kimi \u0259zb\u0259rl\u0259diyi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri toparlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r zehnind\u0259&#8230; Bahar buludu kimi dolub, el\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lib ki, toxunsalar, a\u011flayacaq\u2026 Salonun istiliyi sanki s\u0259rxo\u015f edir o\u011flan\u0131, h\u0259zin bir yuxu \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qapan\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Salondaki n\u0259h\u0259ng \u015f\u0259klin i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u0259t\u0259-qana dolan qal\u0131n b\u0131\u011fl\u0131 bir adam g\u0259lir yan\u0131na. Atas\u0131n\u0131 c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259n adamd\u0131r o. \u015eeirl\u0259rini yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259ft\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259kib \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131r, sanki o \u015feirl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndan bir g\u00fcnahkar misra axtar\u0131r. O\u011flan \u00fcrk\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ona bax\u0131r. B\u0259dheyb\u0259t ki\u015fi qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ataraq d\u0259ft\u0259rin s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rini \u00e7evirir.<\/p>\n<p>Onun \u00e7evirdiyi h\u0259r s\u0259hif\u0259d\u0259n q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b ax\u0131r v\u0259 qan i\u00e7ind\u0259ki h\u0259rfl\u0259r bir-bir qar\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr. Ki\u015fi iri di\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dikc\u0259 daha da eyb\u0259c\u0259rl\u0259\u015fir, d\u0259ft\u0259ri yenid\u0259n o\u011flana qaytar\u0131r. O\u011flan d\u0259ft\u0259rin\u0259 qovu\u015fma\u011f\u0131n sevinciyl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131r s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259ri, amma b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r qar kimi b\u0259mb\u0259yaz&#8230;he\u00e7 bir yaz\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259ymir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Gurultulu alq\u0131\u015flar qopur, o\u011flan diksin\u0259r\u0259k yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131r. Az \u00f6nc\u0259 \u0259zb\u0259rd\u0259n oxudu\u011fu \u015feirl\u0259r d\u0259 silinir hafiz\u0259sind\u0259n. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 b\u0259dheyb\u0259t g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc adam\u0131n \u015f\u0259kli g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259. Az \u00f6nc\u0259 d\u0259ft\u0259rind\u0259ki \u015feirl\u0259ri bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla sil\u0259n adam indi d\u0259 o\u011flan\u0131n hafiz\u0259sini silir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAd\u0131m oxunanda aya\u011fa qalxmaram, m\u0259ni kim tan\u0131y\u0131r ki? G\u0259lm\u0259diyimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rl\u0259r, sonra bir m\u0259ktub yazaram, ma\u015f\u0131n tapa bilm\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lm\u0259diyimi s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. H\u0259r g\u0259nc \u015fair s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda alq\u0131\u015flar\u0131n ard\u0131nca d\u0259rin bir s\u0259ssizlik \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr salona. Zaman ke\u00e7ir, o\u011flan\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. Yeni bir g\u0259nc \u015fair s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmadan \u00f6nc\u0259 oturdu\u011fu yerd\u0259c\u0259 \u0259riy\u0259n, buxar olub salondan \u00e7\u0131xan o\u011flan ba\u015fqa bir ad \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259 yenid\u0259n salonda z\u00fchur edir.<br \/>\nS\u0259ssizlik\u2026 az \u00f6nc\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n en\u0259n g\u0259nc \u015fairin \u015feirl\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda ustad bir \u015fair dan\u0131\u015facaq, salonda n\u0259f\u0259s s\u0259si bel\u0259 e\u015fidilmir.<\/p>\n<p>Bay\u0131rda bir gurultu qopur. Sanki qurdlar\u0131n h\u00fccumundan sonra yenid\u0259n yavrusuna qovu\u015fan, inl\u0259y\u0259n bir Ana ceyran\u0131n s\u0259si&#8230;<br \/>\nHavaya bir g\u00fcll\u0259 at\u0131l\u0131r el\u0259 bil. Qap\u0131 guppultu a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Salondak\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259s qap\u0131ya y\u00f6n\u0259lir. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 p\u0259ri\u015fan, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fl\u0131 bir Ana ceyran girir i\u00e7\u0259ri. \u00dcst\u00fc-ba\u015f\u0131 islanm\u0131\u015f a\u011f\u00e7ir\u00e7\u0259k bir qad\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcr o ceyran\u2026 A\u011fz\u0131ndak\u0131 bir tutam ot da qara cildli bir d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259\u2026.<\/p>\n<p>V\u0259h\u015fi y\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131dan \u00fcrkm\u00fc\u015f kimi ir\u0259li at\u0131l\u0131r ceyran balas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Ana sin\u0259sind\u0259ki ilk s\u00fcd\u00fcn s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yenid\u0259n hiss ed\u0259r\u0259k d\u0259ft\u0259ri balas\u0131na uzad\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n<p><strong>T\u00fcrkc\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7evir\u0259ni: X\u0259yal\u0259 Z\u0259rrabq\u0131z\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u018fziz dostum, d\u0259y\u0259rli qarda\u015f\u0131m M\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131la&#8230; Q\u0259fil a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir g\u00fcll\u0259nin sal qayalarda \u0259ks-s\u0259das\u0131 kimi u\u011fulday\u0131r acl\u0131q ayinind\u0259ki qu\u015fun nal\u0259si&#8230; Qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259yin ixtiyar\u0131na t\u0259slim etmi\u015f qartal bir x\u0259nc\u0259rin iki \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259kk edilmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 yamaclar\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcr, ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 dair\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7izdiyi bo\u015flu\u011fun f\u00f6vq\u00fcn\u0259 varma\u011fa can at\u0131r&#8230; Qayalar\u0131 titr\u0259d\u0259n bu inilti sanki t\u0259bi\u0259tin h\u0259r n\u00f6qt\u0259sin\u0259 siray\u0259t edir. 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