{"id":1486,"date":"2022-02-13T18:43:02","date_gmt":"2022-02-13T14:43:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=1486"},"modified":"2022-02-13T18:50:07","modified_gmt":"2022-02-13T14:50:07","slug":"cox-c%c9%99tindi-sair-kimi-dogulmaq-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/cox-c%c9%99tindi-sair-kimi-dogulmaq-seirl%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tindi \u015fair kimi do\u011fulmaq &#8211; \u015eeirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em><strong>Rafiq H\u00dcMM\u018fT<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><strong>&#8230;Anam sa\u011f idi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>H\u0259r \u015feyi sinir\u0259 bilirdim, Allah,<br \/>\nH\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcm q\u0259hr\u0259man kimi.<br \/>\nM\u0259ni qoruyurdu, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc \u2013<br \/>\nM\u0259l\u0259yim var idi \u00f6z anam kimi.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259l\u0259yim var idi \u00f6z anam kimi,<br \/>\nDuas\u0131 can\u0131mda, ad\u0131 ruhumda.<br \/>\nO son n\u0259f\u0259sinin, son a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n<br \/>\nH\u0259sr\u0259ti ruhumda, dad\u0131 ruhumda.<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259sr\u0259ti ruhumda, dad\u0131 ruhumda,<br \/>\nEl\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131ram, el\u0259 yan\u0131ram&#8230;<br \/>\nDarvaz\u0131n yollar\u0131 el\u0259 uzan\u0131b,<br \/>\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 y\u00fcz dayan\u0131ram.<\/p>\n<p>Bir d\u0259f\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 y\u00fcz dayan\u0131ram,<br \/>\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni anama ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, atam.<br \/>\nO ay\u00fczl\u00fc anam ged\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri,<br \/>\nEl\u0259 bil ham\u0131ya q\u0259rib\u0259m, yadam.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;M\u0259n indi bilir\u0259m, anam sa\u011f ik\u0259n,<br \/>\nO qara bildiyim g\u00fcnl\u0259r a\u011f idi.<br \/>\nH\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcm, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259, Allah \u2013<br \/>\nOf&#8230; Anam sa\u011f idi, anam sa\u011f idi!..<br \/>\n20.11.2021<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u015e\u0259hid n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcll\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kins\u0259m, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxsam,<br \/>\nXar\u0131b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fcz \u0259b\u0259di solar.<br \/>\nBir g\u00fcn qayalardan \u015eu\u015faya qalxsam,<br \/>\nAna, \u015f\u0259hid olsam, a\u011flama, nolar.<\/p>\n<p>Muraz\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 bir \u0259sg\u0259r\u0259m m\u0259n,<br \/>\nQan\u0131m hara d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, ora yurd olar.<br \/>\nT\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u0259\u015fsin yaral\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259n,<br \/>\nAna, \u015f\u0259hid olsam, a\u011flama, nolar.<\/p>\n<p>Biz r\u0259hmli olduq, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ns\u0259 cani,<br \/>\nAmma igid do\u011fdu bizi analar.<br \/>\nV\u0259t\u0259n \u0259b\u0259didir, \u00f6m\u00fcrs\u0259 fani,<br \/>\nAna, \u015f\u0259hid olsam, a\u011flama, nolar.<\/p>\n<p>Neynim, daha s\u0131\u011fm\u0131r bu ruh bu cana,<br \/>\nTarixd\u0259 \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli ad\u0131m\u0131z qalar.<br \/>\nCan\u0131m qurban olsun Az\u0259rbaycana,<br \/>\nAna, \u015f\u0259hid olsam, a\u011flama, nolar.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnahs\u0131z n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ax\u0131b qan\u0131m\u0131z,<br \/>\n\u018fsg\u0259r qisas alar, \u0259sg\u0259r qan alar.<br \/>\nS\u0259n\u0259 f\u0259da olsun bizim can\u0131m\u0131z,<br \/>\nAna, \u015f\u0259hid olsam, a\u011flama, nolar&#8230;<br \/>\n04.12.2020<\/p>\n<p><b>\u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tindi \u015fair kimi do\u011fulmaq<\/b><\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n do\u011fuldum q\u0131\u015f\u0131n ayaz, n\u0259s g\u00fcn\u00fc,<br \/>\n13 fevral \u2013 boz ay\u0131n boz g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259.<br \/>\nQ\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm \u2013 Sibir s\u00fcrg\u00fcn\u00fc,<br \/>\n\u00d6l\u00fcm d\u0259 xo\u015f bir il\u0131q yaz g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259.<\/p>\n<p>Pay\u0131z vaxt\u0131 \u015feytan yaman i\u015fl\u0259yir,<br \/>\nXain k\u0259sl\u0259r boz d\u0259v\u0259 t\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131rlar.<br \/>\nPay\u0131z vaxt\u0131 dost d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259 birl\u0259\u015fir,<br \/>\nQ\u0131\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f m\u0259n\u0259 quyu qaz\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0131\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f m\u0259n\u0259 quyu qaz\u0131rlar,<br \/>\nTanr\u0131 m\u0259ni o quyudan qoruyur.<br \/>\nYaz\u0131n ruhu qonan kimi torpa\u011fa,<br \/>\nD\u00f6rd yan\u0131mda m\u00fcx\u0259nn\u0259tl\u0259r zar\u0131y\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Do\u011fulsam da q\u0131\u015f\u0131n ayaz, don g\u00fcn\u00fc,<br \/>\nBu y\u0131\u011fvaldan, bu murazdan raz\u0131 m\u0259n.<br \/>\nD\u0259lil\u0259r t\u0259k ilk bahar\u0131n son g\u00fcn\u00fc,<br \/>\n\u00d6zl\u0259yir\u0259m, s\u0259sl\u0259yir\u0259m yaz\u0131 m\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>Tiflis, Bak\u0131, bir d\u0259 qoca \u0130stanbul,<br \/>\nM\u0259nim \u00f6m\u00fcr \u00fc\u00e7buca\u011f\u0131m, \u0259zizim.<br \/>\nE\u015fqim olan \u00fc\u00e7 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n yaln\u0131zca<br \/>\nKir\u0259l\u0259rdi \u00f6z buca\u011f\u0131m, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6l\u00fcmc\u00fcld\u00fc bulaq kimi so\u011fulmaq,<br \/>\nM\u0259nim e\u015fqim h\u0259l\u0259 tamd\u0131, m\u0259tindi.<br \/>\n\u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tindi \u015fair kimi do\u011fulmaq,<br \/>\n\u015eair kimi \u00f6lm\u0259k ondan \u00e7\u0259tindi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><b>\u015eair<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Ahd\u0131, \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcr,<br \/>\n\u015eairin ah\u0131 bilinm\u0259z.<br \/>\nGec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q,<br \/>\nAx\u015fam-sabah\u0131 bilinm\u0259z.<\/p>\n<p>Ya\u015fayar \u2013 d\u0259li say\u0131lar,<br \/>\n\u00d6l\u0259r \u2013 heyk\u0259li qoyular.<br \/>\n\u00d6z i\u00e7in\u0259 s\u00fcrg\u00fcn olar,<br \/>\nG\u00fcnah\u0131-su\u00e7u bilinm\u0259z.<\/p>\n<p>Baxt\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00fcz durar.<br \/>\nTanr\u0131ynan \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz durar,<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fc \u00f6z boynunu vurar,<br \/>\nC\u0259llad\u0131-\u015fah\u0131 bilinm\u0259z.<\/p>\n<p>Qu\u015fdu \u2013 budaq \u00fcst\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259r,<br \/>\nDumand\u0131 \u2013 da\u011f \u00fcst\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259r,<br \/>\n\u015eair ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259r,<br \/>\n\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc, Yahu, bilinm\u0259z.<\/p>\n<p><b>Divan\u0259 e\u015fq il\u0259&#8230;<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Divan\u0259 e\u015fq il\u0259 sevib ayr\u0131ld\u0131q,<br \/>\nAyr\u0131ld\u0131q. Bir b\u0259d\u0259n az oldu biz\u0259?<br \/>\nTanr\u0131 sevgisini bol eyl\u0259mi\u015fdi,<br \/>\nVallah, n\u0259 oldusa, d\u00fcz oldu biz\u0259!<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259n m\u0259nim, m\u0259n s\u0259nin, d\u00fcnya \u2013 bizimdi,<br \/>\nE\u015fqin bollu\u011funa \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131q etdik.<br \/>\nTanr\u0131 ist\u0259yini unutduq , f\u0259q\u0259t,<br \/>\n\u015eeytan ist\u0259yin\u0259 yaltaql\u0131q etdik.<\/p>\n<p>Sevgid\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259k d\u0259 \u015f\u0259hidlik imi\u015f,<br \/>\nN\u0259 e\u015fqi qoruduq, n\u0259 \u015f\u0259hid olduq.<br \/>\nAyr\u0131ld\u0131q. H\u0259sr\u0259tin m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259<br \/>\nH\u0259m m\u00fctt\u0259him olduq, h\u0259m \u015fahid olduq.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ll\u0259r f\u0131rf\u0131rad\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nSevgid\u0259n uzaq<br \/>\nNe\u00e7\u0259 qucaq ald\u0131, ne\u00e7\u0259 qol bizi.<br \/>\nBu ki\u00e7ik \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259, \u00e7ox ist\u0259s\u0259k d\u0259,<br \/>\nTanr\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcrm\u00fcr birc\u0259 yol bizi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><b>M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz olanda<\/b><\/p>\n<p>H\u0259rd\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m, h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m,<br \/>\nN\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yi, n\u0259 nahar, n\u0259 \u015fam!?<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nsiz olanda el\u0259 bilir\u0259m,<br \/>\nQaranl\u0131q me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259nha qalm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259 aciz deyil\u0259m, n\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259xti k\u0259m,<br \/>\nN\u0259yim var g\u00fcnahs\u0131z g\u00fcnahdan ba\u015fqa?!<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nsiz olanda el\u0259 bilir\u0259m,<br \/>\nHam\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcb gedib, Allahdan ba\u015fqa.<\/p>\n<p>Bir anda y\u00fcz d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bilir\u0259m,<br \/>\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yan\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131r.<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nsiz olanda el\u0259 bilir\u0259m,<br \/>\nAnam \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc san\u0131b, a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6l\u00fcb q\u0131sqancl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, kinim yox daha,<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f saat\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 say\u0131rsanm\u0131?<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nsiz olanda ya\u015fam\u0131ram ha,<br \/>\nS\u0259n m\u0259nsiz olanda ya\u015fay\u0131rsanm\u0131?..<\/p>\n<p><b>S\u0259n getdin&#8230;<\/b><\/p>\n<p>Leysan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 t\u0259k ya\u011f\u0131r i\u00e7im\u0259,<br \/>\nHaraya s\u0131\u011fd\u0131r\u0131m bu k\u0259d\u0259ri m\u0259n?<br \/>\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r q\u0259fild\u0259n tamam bo\u015fald\u0131,<br \/>\nS\u0259n getdin, neynir\u0259m bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n?<\/p>\n<p>Ulduzlar batmadan can\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xayd\u0131,<br \/>\nKa\u015f he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259dim bu s\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n.<br \/>\n\u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259fild\u0259n qaranl\u0131q ya\u011fd\u0131,<br \/>\nS\u0259n getdin, neynir\u0259m bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n?<\/p>\n<p>Astmadan t\u0259ntimi\u015f x\u0259st\u0259 kimiy\u0259m,<br \/>\nEv\u0259mi apar\u0131m bu q\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n?<br \/>\nOff&#8230; m\u0259n bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri nec\u0259 sevirdim!<br \/>\nS\u0259n getdin, neynir\u0259m bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n?<\/p>\n<p>Nec\u0259 z\u0259ifmi\u015f\u0259m, Allah!.. Ya\u015fad\u0131m<br \/>\nKi\u00e7ik bir h\u0259sr\u0259td\u0259 bir m\u0259h\u015f\u0259ri m\u0259n.<br \/>\nSibir tayqas\u0131 t\u0259k buz k\u0259sdi can\u0131m,<br \/>\nS\u0259n getdin, neynir\u0259m bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n?<\/p>\n<p>D\u0259li t\u0259k g\u0259zir\u0259m bo\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259,<br \/>\nBir e\u015fq dil\u0259n\u00e7isi, bir s\u0259rs\u0259ri m\u0259n.<br \/>\n&#8230;Qay\u0131t, sin\u0259m \u00fcst\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0259r\u0259nfil qoy,<br \/>\nQay\u0131t, t\u0259zd\u0259n sevim bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Rafiq H\u00dcMM\u018fT &#8230;Anam sa\u011f idi H\u0259r \u015feyi sinir\u0259 bilirdim, Allah, H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcm q\u0259hr\u0259man kimi. M\u0259ni qoruyurdu, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc \u2013 M\u0259l\u0259yim var idi \u00f6z anam kimi. M\u0259l\u0259yim var idi \u00f6z anam kimi, Duas\u0131 can\u0131mda, ad\u0131 ruhumda. O son n\u0259f\u0259sinin, son a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n H\u0259sr\u0259ti ruhumda, dad\u0131 ruhumda. H\u0259sr\u0259ti ruhumda, dad\u0131 ruhumda, El\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131ram, el\u0259 yan\u0131ram&#8230; Darvaz\u0131n yollar\u0131 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1488,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1486"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1486"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1486\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1490,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1486\/revisions\/1490"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/1488"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1486"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1486"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1486"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}