{"id":2187,"date":"2023-03-03T16:29:22","date_gmt":"2023-03-03T12:29:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=2187"},"modified":"2023-03-03T16:29:42","modified_gmt":"2023-03-03T12:29:42","slug":"qamasdirir-gozl%c9%99rimi-hec-oyanmadigim-s%c9%99h%c9%99rl%c9%99rin-ilk-isiq-suzm%c9%99l%c9%99ri-aysel-ibrahimova-seirl%c9%99ri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/qamasdirir-gozl%c9%99rimi-hec-oyanmadigim-s%c9%99h%c9%99rl%c9%99rin-ilk-isiq-suzm%c9%99l%c9%99ri-aysel-ibrahimova-seirl%c9%99ri\/","title":{"rendered":"“Qama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi he\u00e7 oyanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin ilk i\u015f\u0131q s\u00fczm\u0259l\u0259ri”- Aysel \u0130brahimova \u015feirl\u0259ri"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Dilimizvarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z.az<\/strong> g\u0259nc \u015fair Aysel \u0130brahimova<\/strong>n\u0131n yeni \u015feirl\u0259rini t\u0259qdim edir.<\/div>\n
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23 ya\u015fl\u0131 Aysel \u0130brahimova Az\u0259rbaycan Tibb Universiteti M\u00fcalic\u0259 i\u015fi fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin sonuncu kurs t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sidir.\u00a0 100-\u0259 yax\u0131n \u015feir v\u0259 hekay\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llifidir.<\/div>\n
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M\u0259n yoxam.<\/div>\n
Milyonlarca galaktikalardan birinin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 z\u0259rr\u0259cikd\u0259n f\u0259rqsizdir yoxlu\u011fum,<\/div>\n
Ya da var olmam,<\/div>\n
N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mlidir?<\/div>\n
Skripkan\u0131n siml\u0259rinin israrla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259lak etm\u0259sini,<\/div>\n
Fleytan\u0131n zil s\u0259sini,<\/div>\n
Gitar\u0131n h\u0259r p\u0259rd\u0259sini,<\/div>\n
B\u0259st\u0259kar\u0131n b\u0259st\u0259sini duyuram.<\/div>\n
Quru \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259ki t\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcn rayih\u0259sini,<\/div>\n
Dal\u011falar\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi k\u00fcl\u0259yin,<\/div>\n
Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra bo\u015f k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin n\u0259f\u0259sini duyuram.<\/div>\n
\u015eairin h\u0259r s\u0259tirini,<\/div>\n
\u018fsar\u0259ti,<\/div>\n
Z\u0259ncirl\u0259rin \u0259sirini,<\/div>\n
D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nin \u0259sirini,<\/div>\n
50 ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015finin 15 ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u0259linini,<\/div>\n
Son n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259ki adam\u0131n intihar k\u0259ndirini,<\/div>\n
Ba\u011f\u0131ran insanlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xmayan s\u0259mirini duyuram.<\/div>\n
G\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259r\u0259m,<\/div>\n
Qulaqlar\u0131m e\u015fitm\u0259z,<\/div>\n
A\u011fl\u0131m bilm\u0259z.<\/div>\n
Ruhum duyar, g\u00f6r\u0259r, e\u015fid\u0259r, dinm\u0259z.<\/div>\n
M\u0259n yoxam,<\/div>\n
Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m, ya da olmamam<\/div>\n
N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mlidir?<\/div>\n
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Add\u0131m-add\u0131m \u00e7\u0259tinl\u0259\u015fir ya\u015famaq,<\/div>\n
\u00dczl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k ke\u00e7mi\u015finl\u0259,<\/div>\n
G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 al\u0131\u015fmaq,<\/div>\n
Ya\u015flanmaq,<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 bilm\u0259diyin bir m\u0259kanda,<\/div>\n
Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir adam\u0131n qollar\u0131nda,<\/div>\n
Sakitc\u0259 baxmaq h\u0259yata,<\/div>\n
Xat\u0131rlamaq do\u011fma olan\u0131.<\/div>\n
Sar\u0131lmaq biraz daha ruhuna,<\/div>\n
Daha do\u011fma, daha d\u0259rin,<\/div>\n
Daxilin\u0259 dalmaq \u0259trafdak\u0131 yadlardan qa\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,<\/div>\n
D\u0259rin, biraz v\u0259 biraz da d\u0259rin,<\/div>\n
Ruhsuzca baxmaq h\u0259yata,<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 bilm\u0259diyin bir m\u0259kanda,<\/div>\n
Tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir qad\u0131n\u0131n qollar\u0131nda.<\/div>\n
Qa\u00e7 g\u0259l, s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259yim q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7aydan\u0131mda,<\/div>\n
Biraz k\u00f6hn\u0259, \u00fcz\u0259ri g\u00fcll\u00fc nax\u0131\u015fl\u0131,<\/div>\n
Na\u011f\u0131l da dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q,<\/div>\n
G\u00f6yd\u0259n 3 alma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r,<\/div>\n
Biri s\u0259nin, biri m\u0259nim, biri d\u0259 u\u015faq ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n.<\/div>\n
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Kim\u0259, n\u0259y\u0259, niy\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259diyim bir h\u0259sr\u0259t yat\u0131r i\u00e7imd\u0259,<\/div>\n
G\u00f6rm\u0259diyim bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin, add\u0131mlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir yol ayr\u0131c\u0131nda kimi<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 duymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u0259trin havada yay\u0131lan z\u0259rr\u0259l\u0259ri kimi<\/div>\n
Dolur n\u0259f\u0259sim\u0259,<\/div>\n
Qama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi he\u00e7 oyanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin ilk i\u015f\u0131q s\u00fczm\u0259l\u0259ri<\/div>\n
\u0130slad\u0131r \u00e7\u0131lpaq ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 he\u00e7 \u00fcf\u00fcq\u00fcn\u0259 seyr\u0259 dalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u0259nizl\u0259rin l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259ri.<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 qoxlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcll\u0259rin tikanlar\u0131 bat\u0131r barmaqlar\u0131ma,<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 i\u00e7m\u0259diyim i\u00e7kil\u0259rin s\u0259rxo\u015flu\u011fu var ruhumda,<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 hiss etm\u0259diyim k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin \u0259sintisi r\u0259qs edir sa\u00e7lar\u0131mda.<\/div>\n
Qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m qatar\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n buludlar\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259tidir b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259,<\/div>\n
Sevgisini he\u00e7 dadmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir adam\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin h\u0259sr\u0259tidir,<\/div>\n
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 tumarlayan anam\u0131n dizl\u0259rinin h\u0259sr\u0259tidir,<\/div>\n
Q\u0131zmar iyun g\u00fcn\u0259\u015finin, istisinin h\u0259sr\u0259tidir,<\/div>\n
\u00c7\u0259km\u0259diyim siqaretin t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259sr\u0259tidir.<\/div>\n
Kim\u0259, n\u0259y\u0259, niy\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259diyim bir h\u0259sr\u0259t yat\u0131r i\u00e7imd\u0259,<\/div>\n
He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 anlam\u0131ram.<\/div>\n
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N\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259r kar edir hissl\u0259rimi dill\u0259ndirm\u0259y\u0259,<\/div>\n
N\u0259 s\u0259tirl\u0259r, n\u0259 s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259r.<\/div>\n
N\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r s\u0131\u011f\u0131r s\u0259nli x\u0259yallar\u0131ma, n\u0259 ulduzsuz gec\u0259l\u0259r,<\/div>\n
N\u0259 d\u0259niz susa bilir, g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 olan e\u015fqind\u0259n,<\/div>\n
N\u0259 m\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fa bilir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
S\u00fcd yolundak\u0131 h\u0259r ulduz q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131nsan m\u0259n\u0259,<\/div>\n
H\u0259r n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131\u015f\u0131mda,<\/div>\n
H\u0259r g\u00f6y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f\u0131mda,<\/div>\n
H\u0259r ad\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131\u015f\u0131mda<\/div>\n
M\u0259niml\u0259s\u0259n,<\/div>\n
G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259 s\u0259n,<\/div>\n
Ulduzlar biraz da g\u00f6z\u0259l parlas\u0131n.<\/div>\n
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Q\u0131\u015f\u0131n ayaz\u0131,<\/div>\n
Ay\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259bs ed\u0259n qaranl\u0131q,<\/div>\n
Bir d\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir dalanl\u0131q.<\/div>\n
Bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 lampas\u0131 bir d\u0259 m\u0259n,<\/div>\n
Dayanm\u0131\u015f\u0131q k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259,<\/div>\n
N\u0259 o dinmir, n\u0259 m\u0259n dinmir\u0259m.<\/div>\n
Saniy\u0259l\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259mir,<\/div>\n
Qar d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri donub havada, t\u0259rp\u0259nmir,<\/div>\n
K\u00fcl\u0259yin \u015faxtas\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0259sir,<\/div>\n
M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131ram.<\/div>\n
Add\u0131m-add\u0131m ke\u00e7irs\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259ni,<\/div>\n
Bir qolunda \u00e7anta,<\/div>\n
K\u00fcl\u0259yin \u0259ll\u0259ri sa\u00e7lar\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kir,<\/div>\n
\u015earf\u0131n u\u00e7u\u015fur, \u00fcr\u0259yim \u0259sir,<\/div>\n
Birc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 baxarsan dey\u0259.<\/div>\n
E\u015fqdir bu, ba\u015fqa n\u0259 olar?<\/div>\n
Q\u0131\u015f\u0131n \u015faxtas\u0131 il\u0259 vuru\u015fan sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndak\u0131 bahar,<\/div>\n
Q\u0259hv\u0259 r\u0259ngli dodaq boyan,<\/div>\n
Bir d\u0259 q\u0259hv\u0259 r\u0259ngli baxan g\u00f6zl\u0259rin,<\/div>\n
Cibl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015f \u0259ll\u0259rin,<\/div>\n
Ka\u015f ki onlar\u0131 tutub isid\u0259 bils\u0259m,<\/div>\n
Ka\u015f ki bir k\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259 bils\u0259n.<\/div>\n
Gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131yam m\u0259n,<\/div>\n
S\u00fcbh\u00fcn ilk i\u015fart\u0131s\u0131,<\/div>\n
Ota\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n ilk g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcas\u0131,<\/div>\n
S\u0259n m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259, dahas\u0131,<\/div>\n
S\u0259n m\u0259ni sevm\u0259,<\/div>\n
Sevm\u0259k \u00f6lm\u0259kdir,<\/div>\n
S\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259,<\/div>\n
M\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m,<\/div>\n
Sevm\u0259yi buraxacaq q\u0259d\u0259r<\/div>\n
C\u0259sur biri deyil\u0259m.<\/div>\n
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Haz\u0131rlad\u0131: Ay\u015f\u0259n R\u0259him<\/div>\n
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Dilimizvarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z.az g\u0259nc \u015fair Aysel \u0130brahimovan\u0131n yeni \u015feirl\u0259rini t\u0259qdim edir. 23 ya\u015fl\u0131 Aysel \u0130brahimova Az\u0259rbaycan Tibb Universiteti M\u00fcalic\u0259 i\u015fi fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin sonuncu kurs t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sidir.\u00a0 100-\u0259 yax\u0131n \u015feir v\u0259 hekay\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llifidir. *********** M\u0259n yoxam. Milyonlarca galaktikalardan birinin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 z\u0259rr\u0259cikd\u0259n f\u0259rqsizdir yoxlu\u011fum, Ya da var olmam, N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mlidir? Skripkan\u0131n siml\u0259rinin israrla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259lak etm\u0259sini, Fleytan\u0131n zil s\u0259sini, Gitar\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":2188,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20,24],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2187"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2187"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2187\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2190,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2187\/revisions\/2190"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/2188"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2187"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2187"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2187"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}