{"id":2292,"date":"2023-04-09T19:48:08","date_gmt":"2023-04-09T15:48:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=2292"},"modified":"2023-04-09T19:53:57","modified_gmt":"2023-04-09T15:53:57","slug":"ayaqda-saxladi-t%c9%99k-q%c9%99l%c9%99m-bizi-elman-tovuzun-yeni-seirl%c9%99ri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/ayaqda-saxladi-t%c9%99k-q%c9%99l%c9%99m-bizi-elman-tovuzun-yeni-seirl%c9%99ri\/","title":{"rendered":"Ayaqda saxlad\u0131 t\u0259k, q\u0259l\u0259m bizi &#8211; Elman Tovuzun yeni \u015feirl\u0259ri"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em><strong>Elman TOVUZ<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nK\u00f6yn\u0259yimdi boz r\u0259ngind\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u00f6yn\u0259yimdi k\u00f6z r\u0259ngind\u0259.<br \/>\n\u00dcst\u00fcm-ba\u015f\u0131m g\u00f6z r\u0259ngind\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>Yuvayam, dam\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f,<br \/>\nD\u0259rdi i\u00e7in\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f&#8230;<br \/>\n(U\u015faq ik\u0259n, bir b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f<br \/>\nBel\u0259 g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m.)<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u0259l\u0259yib,<br \/>\nGec\u0259yn\u0259n x\u0259mir el\u0259yib,<br \/>\nSaat-saat k\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259yib &#8211;<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u00fc b\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0131xmay\u0131b f\u0259ryad\u0131m g\u00f6y\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u00f6yl\u0259r m\u0259nim deyil dey\u0259.<br \/>\nX\u0259lv\u0259t tap\u0131b, \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259y\u0259<br \/>\nQ\u0259lbi bilmi\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>Sar\u0131 simd\u0259 n\u0259 \u00e7alm\u0131\u015fam,<br \/>\nBirc\u0259 onda kam alm\u0131\u015fam.<br \/>\nBilmir\u0259m kim\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fam,<br \/>\nKim\u0259 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nBir \u201csevir\u0259m\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259<br \/>\ng\u00fcl bitirdim<br \/>\nyana\u011f\u0131nda \u2013<br \/>\nqarag\u00f6zl\u00fc lal\u0259 kimi&#8230;<br \/>\nBir \u201csevir\u0259m\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259<br \/>\nbax,<br \/>\ng\u0259tirdim doda\u011f\u0131na<br \/>\nt\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc \u2013<br \/>\ng\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u00fc jal\u0259 kimi&#8230;<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi,<br \/>\nbirc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259<br \/>\ns\u00f6zd\u0259 yanan bu nuru s\u0259n!<br \/>\nBilirs\u0259nmi,<br \/>\ns\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259<br \/>\nbu s\u00f6z kimi dumdurusan!<br \/>\nBir &#8220;sevir\u0259m&#8221; s\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259<br \/>\nqaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaxas\u0131na<br \/>\nd\u00fc\u015f\u0259n oddan<br \/>\nyarand\u0131 dan.<br \/>\nBax, bel\u0259c\u0259,<br \/>\ns\u0259n \u0259tirli bir ba\u011f oldun<br \/>\nm\u0259ns\u0259 ba\u011fban.<br \/>\n\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 od yand\u0131r\u0131b<br \/>\ndilimizi lal eyl\u0259y\u0259n,<br \/>\n\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc utand\u0131r\u0131b<br \/>\nduy\u011fumuzu bal eyl\u0259y\u0259n<br \/>\nbir s\u00f6zd\u0259ki i\u015f\u0131\u011fa bax,<br \/>\nq\u00fcdr\u0259t\u0259 bax!<br \/>\nN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi sevm\u0259k, Allah!<br \/>\nN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi sevgi, Allah!<br \/>\nM\u0259n olmasam n\u0259 olard\u0131<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nAh\u0131md\u0131rm\u0131 bu m\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n,<br \/>\nQ\u00f6vr el\u0259yir yaram, Allah.<br \/>\nS\u0131zlamayan, g\u00f6yn\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n<br \/>\nHaram qal\u0131b, haram, Allah?!<\/p>\n<p>Ax\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm \u015f\u00fc\u00e7 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc?<br \/>\nYolun azm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6\u00e7 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc?<br \/>\nYa\u015famad\u0131m he\u00e7 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc,<br \/>\nTap\u0131lmad\u0131 \u00e7aram, Allah&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n olmasam n\u0259 olard\u0131,<br \/>\nBir adam\u0131n azalard\u0131?..<br \/>\n&#8230;D\u0259rdin t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb qalard\u0131,<br \/>\nN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, varam, Allah!<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nN\u0259d\u0259n ox\u015far oldu talel\u0259rimiz&#8230;<br \/>\nBiz ki yaran\u0131\u015fdan ayr\u0131 q\u00fctbl\u0259rik.<br \/>\n\u015eaxta, ayaz geydi gec\u0259l\u0259rimiz,<br \/>\nG\u00fcnl\u00fc g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r\u0259 olmad\u0131q \u015f\u0259rik.<\/p>\n<p>Birc\u0259 biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc b\u0259lk\u0259 bu yaz\u0131,<br \/>\nT\u0259nhal\u0131q ad\u0131na sift\u0259 biz olduq.<br \/>\nQatd\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259n sevdas\u0131,<br \/>\nAmma \u00f6z qap\u0131m\u0131z c\u0259ft\u0259siz oldu.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6zg\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6pd\u00fcm telind\u0259n,<br \/>\nS\u0259n o\u011ful \u0259lind\u0259n tuta bilm\u0259din.<br \/>\nQo\u015fulub sa\u00e7 yolan analara s\u0259n,<br \/>\nOx\u015fad\u0131n boyunu ne\u00e7\u0259 \u015f\u0259hidin&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Azd\u0131ra bilm\u0259di d\u0259rd-\u0259l\u0259m bizi,<br \/>\nD\u00f6z\u00fcm mayak oldu qaranl\u0131qlara.<br \/>\nAyaqda saxlad\u0131 t\u0259k, q\u0259l\u0259m bizi,<br \/>\nH\u0259r k\u00f6n\u00fcl verdikc\u0259 a\u011f varaqlara.<\/p>\n<p>U\u011fur dediyimiz da\u015fdan-da\u015fad\u0131,<br \/>\n\u018fzab\u0131n h\u0259r yerd\u0259 dad\u0131n\u0131 bildik.<br \/>\nBu fani d\u00fcnyada n\u0259 g\u00fcn ya\u015fad\u0131q,<br \/>\nN\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fanan\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 bildik.<\/p>\n<p>Yand\u0131q dirig\u00f6zl\u00fc bu \u00e7ata\u00e7atda,<br \/>\nBiri-birimizd\u0259n yox x\u0259b\u0259rimiz.<br \/>\nH\u0259r\u0259 vaxt ke\u00e7irdi bir \u00e7at\u0131 altda,<br \/>\nAmma ox\u015far oldu talel\u0259rimiz&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nN\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r<br \/>\nqap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda<br \/>\nbir c\u00fct q\u0259bir<br \/>\n\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ntihardan ba\u015fqa yolu qalmayan<br \/>\nbir d\u0259st nimda\u015f kastyumsa<br \/>\na\u011f xall\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 qalstukla<br \/>\nasm\u0131\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dolabdan&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ymir<br \/>\natd\u0131\u011f\u0131m o, z\u0259hrimar\u0131n k\u00fclqab\u0131s\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nhans\u0131 k\u00fcnc\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb<br \/>\nm\u0259hbus \u00f6mr\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131r, n\u0259 bilim&#8230;<br \/>\nBirc\u0259, burnumda qoxusu qal\u0131b,<br \/>\nbir d\u0259, barmaqlar\u0131mda sar\u0131s\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00fcmidin\u0259 k\u00fcl olmu\u015f arabamsa<br \/>\ns\u0259daq\u0259tin\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri<br \/>\nqal\u0131b \u00e7aras\u0131z&#8230;<br \/>\nuzaq yol \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f y\u00fck kimi,<br \/>\n\u00e7\u0259kir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131<br \/>\nevin i\u00e7ind\u0259 o ba\u015f-bu ba\u015fa,<br \/>\npulsuz-paras\u0131z&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>b\u0259b\u0259yin\u0259 tor g\u0259lmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin<br \/>\nh\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n<br \/>\ntozlu kitablar\u0131 demir\u0259m h\u0259l\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\nqorxuram dindirm\u0259y\u0259,<br \/>\nxatir\u0259l\u0259r da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b evl\u0259 bir olar dey\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>saz\u0131ma bax h\u0259l\u0259 bir&#8230;<br \/>\n\u00e7\u0131x\u0131b yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b divar\u0131n yaxas\u0131ndan,<br \/>\nitd\u0259n qorxan u\u015faq kimi&#8230;<br \/>\nbirc\u0259 him\u0259 b\u0259nddir ki,<br \/>\nel\u0259 indic\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259 sar\u0131 simi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u0259kand\u0131r buras\u0131, deyilmi?!<br \/>\nh\u0259m qorxunc edam\u0131 var,<br \/>\nh\u0259m z\u0259hryaran m\u0259hb\u0259si;<br \/>\nh\u0259m s\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hmanl\u0131 m\u0259zarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var,<br \/>\nh\u0259m d\u0259 &#8230; eh, n\u0259 is\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>t\u0259kc\u0259, q\u0259l\u0259mimdir dimdik ayaqda,<br \/>\no da qapqara taleyimi<br \/>\nal\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 kimi,<br \/>\na\u011fappaq varaqlara yazmaqda&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>v\u0259 bir d\u0259, m\u0259n!<br \/>\n9.01.23<\/p>\n<p><strong>M\u0259nim \u015feirl\u0259rim<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>M\u0259nim \u015feir kimi balalar\u0131m var,<br \/>\nAnas\u0131 p\u0259rimdi, atas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259m.<br \/>\nHarda ki, x\u0259tal\u0131 misralar\u0131m var,<br \/>\nEl\u0259 onlar\u0131n da x\u0259tas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259m&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259nim \u015feirl\u0259rim &#8211; ikic\u0259 f\u0259sil,<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131ma qard\u0131.<br \/>\nK\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k misal\u0131, ruhun diqt\u0259si,<br \/>\nA\u011fl\u0131n dedikl\u0259rii da\u015fdan a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259rb\u0259st \u015feirl\u0259rim &#8211; q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n teli,<br \/>\nDa\u011f\u0131l\u0131r a\u011fappaq vara\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259.<br \/>\nS\u0259rrast \u015feirl\u0259rim &#8211; o\u011flumun \u0259li,<br \/>\nG\u0259zir \u0259sg\u0259r kimi, torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259.<\/p>\n<p>Fikrim hey yaral\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259rd\u0259dir,<br \/>\nOnlar da v\u0259t\u0259nt\u0259k b\u00f6l\u00fck-b\u00f6l\u00fckd\u00fc.<br \/>\nA\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 vaxt\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbd\u00fcr, n\u0259dir,<br \/>\nHavas\u0131 qaranl\u0131q, odu s\u00f6n\u00fckd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n do\u011fulur \u00f6z \u015feirl\u0259rim,<br \/>\nYen\u0259 ilham p\u0259rim ikicanl\u0131d\u0131r.<br \/>\nNazl\u0131d\u0131r, duzludur q\u0131z \u015feirl\u0259rim,<br \/>\nO\u011ful \u015feirl\u0259rim d\u0259liqanl\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259bim, yerind\u0259!<br \/>\nN\u0259 d\u0259 ki \u00fcr\u0259yim qorundan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir \u015feirl\u0259rim d\u0259, &#8211;<br \/>\nEl\u0259 bil, indic\u0259 burnumdan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.<br \/>\n01.01.23<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nYuxuda seyrin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m da\u011flar\u0131n,<br \/>\nOtlu c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131 p\u0259ri\u015fan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<br \/>\nU\u00e7an k\u00f6lg\u0259sini boz buludlar\u0131n,<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0131rp\u0131l\u0131b da\u015flara q\u0131r\u0131\u015fan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn qa\u015f\u0131-qaba\u011f\u0131,<br \/>\nYox bu g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin ucu-buca\u011f\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nTorpa\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 ulduzsaya\u011f\u0131,<br \/>\nQ\u0131z\u0131l l\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri sayr\u0131\u015fan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>G\u0259zdim aram-aram yamac\u0131, yal\u0131,<br \/>\nYen\u0259 xon\u00e7al\u0131yd\u0131 da\u011flar maral\u0131.<br \/>\nNazl\u0131 da\u011f \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n meh atan \u015fal\u0131<br \/>\nQayadan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259linc\u0259 sonal\u0131 g\u00f6ll\u0259,<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0259kdi \u015f\u0259klimizi q\u0131rx inc\u0259bell\u0259.<br \/>\nH\u0259r\u0259 bir g\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259&#8230; b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fc g\u00fcll\u0259,<br \/>\nAr\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Dola\u015fd\u0131m d\u00fczl\u0259ri, endim d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259,<br \/>\n\u015eahidlik eyl\u0259dim bir m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259y\u0259:<br \/>\nLilpar q\u0259d\u0259hini s\u00fcz\u00fcb h\u0259r\u0259y\u0259,<br \/>\nSular\u0131 qaynay\u0131b-qar\u0131\u015fan g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Ox\u015fad\u0131 ruhumu g\u00f6y bi\u00e7\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r,<br \/>\nS\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131 k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259r, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r.<br \/>\nGedib s\u00f6yl\u0259dil\u0259r a\u011fz\u0131g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r:<br \/>\nElman\u0131 \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nHe\u00e7 bilirs\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131q n\u0259? &#8211;<br \/>\ncan\u0131 di\u015find\u0259 ol, yet\u0259r.<br \/>\nQar i\u00e7ind\u0259 qaranl\u0131q n\u0259? &#8211;<br \/>\n\u00f6mr\u00fcn q\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ol, yet\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>Viran edib k\u00f6nl\u00fc, q\u00fcbar,<br \/>\nm\u0259n\u0259 qalan, bu divarlar.<br \/>\nBa\u015f qatma\u011fa a\u011fr\u0131lar var,<br \/>\ns\u0259n get i\u015find\u0259 ol, yet\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;U\u00e7a bilm\u0259z ki yerin\u0259n,<br \/>\nkeyfi g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n.<br \/>\nSon qatarsa o, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n,-<br \/>\nson gedi\u015find\u0259 ol, yet\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nDem\u0259 soyuq biriy\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\nsoyutdun, dey\u0259-dey\u0259.<br \/>\nBir \u00f6m\u00fcr \u0259ridir\u0259m &#8211;<br \/>\nbir can\u0131 isitm\u0259y\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bel\u0259c\u0259, ke\u00e7ir g\u00fcn\u00fcm,<br \/>\n\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fayam.<br \/>\nS\u0259nin yayad\u0131r y\u00f6n\u00fcn,<br \/>\nm\u0259ns\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc q\u0131\u015fayam.<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259r qula\u011f\u0131ma,<br \/>\ndilind\u0259 ad\u0131m bitm\u0259z.<br \/>\nBuz dolar ota\u011f\u0131ma,<br \/>\noduma odun yetm\u0259z.<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rar duy\u011fular,<br \/>\nn\u0259 araya qan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r&#8230;<br \/>\nN\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rin g\u00fcl a\u00e7ar,<br \/>\nn\u0259 \u0259lim g\u00fcldan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0259lbim sin\u0259mi d\u0259l\u0259r,<br \/>\ns\u0131zlad\u0131qca s\u0131n\u0131qlar&#8230;<br \/>\n\u00c7\u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259 vahim\u0259l\u0259r,<br \/>\ni\u00e7imd\u0259 h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259nim \u00fcz\u00fcm ax\u015fama&#8230;<br \/>\ng\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r, s\u0259ni.<br \/>\nUzaqdan da ox\u015fama,-<br \/>\nsa\u00e7\u0131m \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u0259r s\u0259ni&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nBu sevdada n\u0259 sirr var,<br \/>\nyolu da\u015f-k\u0259s\u0259k oldu.<br \/>\nBiz a\u00e7mayan c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar<br \/>\namma b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259k oldu.<\/p>\n<p>Tanr\u0131 b\u0259xti b\u00f6l\u0259rk\u0259n,<br \/>\nunutdu yoxsa bizi&#8230;<br \/>\n\u00dcmidimiz \u00f6l\u0259rk\u0259n,<br \/>\ntapd\u0131q bir-birimizi.<\/p>\n<p>Duy\u011fum\u00fcz da\u011f olanda<br \/>\nba\u011fland\u0131 qollar\u0131m\u0131z.<br \/>\nYaram\u0131z sa\u011falanda<br \/>\nayr\u0131ld\u0131 yollar\u0131m\u0131z&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bu bi\u00e7inl\u0259r bitm\u0259mi\u015f,<br \/>\nbitdi g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in \u00f6mr\u00fcn.<br \/>\n\u018flim \u0259l\u0259 yetm\u0259mi\u015f,<br \/>\nke\u00e7di \u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn, \u00f6mr\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259r\u0259 bir yanda yen\u0259:<br \/>\nm\u0259n burda,<br \/>\ns\u0259n uzaqda&#8230;<br \/>\nBir g\u00fcn \u00e7atacam s\u0259n\u0259 &#8211;<br \/>\ngedib yoxa \u00e7\u0131xmaqda&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\n\u018fz\u0259ld\u0259n dunyaya qumard\u0131 dedik,<br \/>\nBir ahl\u0131q vaxt\u0131 da udan olmad\u0131q.<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u00fc qara \u015fumt\u0259k el\u0259 d\u00fczl\u0259dik,<br \/>\nA\u011f g\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u015f\u0131q\u0131 m\u00fcdam olmad\u0131q.<\/p>\n<p>Yalan dey\u0259-dey\u0259 boy-boy ucald\u0131q,<br \/>\nQalx\u0131b ars\u0131z-ars\u0131z \u00e7\u0259pik d\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131q.<br \/>\nNe\u00e7\u0259 &#8220;badam\u0131&#8221;n\u0131n qadas\u0131n ald\u0131q,<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcz bir quru badam olmad\u0131q.<\/p>\n<p>\u00dcz tutduq dinsiz\u0259 qalanda bekar,<br \/>\nHac\u0131ya qul olduq, axunda n\u00f6k\u0259r.<br \/>\nBir tik\u0259 duz-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k, bir ovuc \u015f\u0259k\u0259r,<br \/>\nBundan art\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dadan olmad\u0131q.<\/p>\n<p>El\u0259 hey m\u0259sl\u0259ki xaraba \u00e7\u0259kdik,<br \/>\nHaram yey\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 araba \u00e7\u0259kdik&#8230;<br \/>\nFarsa, rusa \u00e7\u0259kdik, \u0259r\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdik,<br \/>\nT\u00fcrk o\u011flu olmad\u0131q, atam, olmad\u0131q.<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259 canlar qovruldu ehtiyac\u0131ndan,<br \/>\nKimi susuzluqdan, kimi ac\u0131ndan&#8230;<br \/>\nAs\u0131ld\u0131q h\u0259yat\u0131n dar a\u011fac\u0131ndan,<br \/>\nKim dey\u0259 bil\u0259r ki, edam olmad\u0131q?<\/p>\n<p>Bel\u0259c\u0259, d\u00fcnyadan olmad\u0131q agah,<br \/>\nBug\u00fcn n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck, n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259k sabah.<br \/>\nBiz ki, insan kimi g\u0259lmi\u015fdik, Allah,<br \/>\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 adamt\u0259k adam olmad\u0131q&#8230;<br \/>\n23.07.22<\/p>\n<p><strong>Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-2293\" src=\"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/04\/1681053090313-225x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"225\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/04\/1681053090313-225x300.jpg 225w, https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/04\/1681053090313-315x420.jpg 315w, https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/04\/1681053090313-640x853.jpg 640w, https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/04\/1681053090313-681x908.jpg 681w, https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/04\/1681053090313.jpg 720w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 225px) 100vw, 225px\" 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Yuvayam, dam\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, D\u0259rdi i\u00e7in\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f&#8230; (U\u015faq ik\u0259n, bir b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f Bel\u0259 g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m.) N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u0259l\u0259yib, Gec\u0259yn\u0259n x\u0259mir el\u0259yib, Saat-saat k\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259yib &#8211; \u00d6mr\u00fc b\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m. \u00c7\u0131xmay\u0131b f\u0259ryad\u0131m g\u00f6y\u0259, G\u00f6yl\u0259r m\u0259nim deyil dey\u0259. X\u0259lv\u0259t tap\u0131b, \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259y\u0259 Q\u0259lbi bilmi\u015f\u0259m, bilir\u0259m. 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