Olmazlara meyilli ruhuma toxunan \u0259n qada\u011fan olunmu\u015f r\u0259ngs\u0259n…<\/p>\n
Bir az q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, azca laciv\u0259rd…<\/p>\n
Azca yal\u0131n, azca yalq\u0131z…<\/p>\n
B\u00fct\u00fcn bo\u015fluqlar\u0131ma birn\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 doldurdu\u011fum yalan\u0131m, z\u0259iflikl\u0259rim, ba\u015f\u0131ma b\u0259la s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rim, qalmaqallar\u0131m\u0131n a\u00e7mas\u0131,<\/p>\n
A\u011flas\u0131\u011fmaz g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bis\u0259n…<\/p>\n
Antidepresant\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Morfinvar\u0131 bas\u0131ram yaralar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259ni, say\u0131qlad\u0131rsan…<\/p>\n
G\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131n qar\u0131!<\/p>\n
Qorxuram, ham\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131, \u00e7iynimd\u0259ki m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rim \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rib t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r m\u0259ni…<\/p>\n
Bilir\u0259m, inanmayacaq t\u00f6vb\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 Tanr\u0131, l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, ba\u011flayacaq \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259rgah\u0131n\u0131… Bizi ilk s\u0259n unutmu\u015fdun…<\/p>\n
Xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram, bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk \u00e7obanyast\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutmu\u015fdun.<\/p>\n
G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 dolmu\u015fdu q\u0259mz\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259, o r\u0259smd\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 bax bel\u0259c\u0259, do\u011fma g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn…<\/p>\n
S\u0259nin g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 par-par yanan ulduzlar\u0131n, M\u0259nim nimda\u015f, bomboz d\u00fcnyam…<\/p>\n
A\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m, birc\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m r\u0259ngar\u0259ngdir.<\/p>\n
S\u0259kkizgu\u015f\u0259li bir q\u0131zmar m\u00f6h\u00fcr kimi bas\u0131l\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259… Da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r z\u0259rr\u0259l\u0259rimi qada\u011fan olunmu\u015f yad bir hiss… U\u00e7urumlar\u0131mdan \u0259n amans\u0131z intihar\u0131m…<\/p>\n
B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 x\u0259talar\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi m\u0259n\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t etm\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m. Oksigensiz qal\u0131ram, g\u00fclm\u0259! Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrs\u0259n, m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 “getm\u0259” – dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m!<\/p>\n
Amma getm\u0259!!!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Olmazlara meyilli ruhuma toxunan \u0259n qada\u011fan olunmu\u015f r\u0259ngs\u0259n… Bir az q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, azca laciv\u0259rd… Azca yal\u0131n, azca yalq\u0131z… B\u00fct\u00fcn bo\u015fluqlar\u0131ma birn\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 doldurdu\u011fum yalan\u0131m, z\u0259iflikl\u0259rim, ba\u015f\u0131ma b\u0259la s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rim, qalmaqallar\u0131m\u0131n a\u00e7mas\u0131, A\u011flas\u0131\u011fmaz g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bis\u0259n… Antidepresant\u0131m… Morfinvar\u0131 bas\u0131ram yaralar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259ni, say\u0131qlad\u0131rsan… G\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim da\u011flar\u0131m\u0131n qar\u0131! Qorxuram, ham\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131, \u00e7iynimd\u0259ki m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rim \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rib t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r m\u0259ni… Bilir\u0259m, inanmayacaq t\u00f6vb\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":397,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/396"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=396"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/396\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":398,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/396\/revisions\/398"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/397"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=396"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=396"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=396"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}