{"id":534,"date":"2021-01-08T15:37:39","date_gmt":"2021-01-08T11:37:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=534"},"modified":"2021-01-08T15:37:39","modified_gmt":"2021-01-08T11:37:39","slug":"m%c9%99lik-cahan-ayriligin-izl%c9%99ri-var-%c9%99ll%c9%99rimd%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/m%c9%99lik-cahan-ayriligin-izl%c9%99ri-var-%c9%99ll%c9%99rimd%c9%99\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u0259lik Cahan: Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n izl\u0259ri var \u0259ll\u0259rimd\u0259"},"content":{"rendered":"

Nakam g\u0259nc \u015faird\u0259n \u015feirl\u0259r…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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\nS\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bel\u0259y\u0259m m\u0259n
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm-g\u00fcn\u00fcm qarma\u015fad\u0131
\nBir quyunun i\u00e7ind\u0259y\u0259m
\nG\u0259l\u0259n-ged\u0259n bir da\u015f at\u0131r..<\/p>\n

N\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcm var, n\u0259 h\u00fcn\u0259rim,
\n\u00c7\u0131xd\u0131 getdi sevdikl\u0259rim..
\nS\u0259n ged\u0259li kirpikl\u0259rim
\nYanaqlar\u0131ma ya\u015f at\u0131r..<\/p>\n

H\u0259sr\u0259tin yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259rtdir,
\nD\u00f6zm\u0259k olmur, qiyam\u0259tdir
\nYoxlu\u011fun el\u0259 bir d\u0259rddir
\nN\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr, n\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131r..<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram<\/b><\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\nbahar\u0131n gedi\u015fin\u0259,
\npay\u0131z\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\ndo\u011fulacaq k\u00f6rp\u0259nin
\nbalaca s\u00fcd di\u015fin\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\nyolunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki
\nqar\u0131\u015fqan\u0131 \u0259zm\u0259y\u0259n
\ninsan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259.
\nS\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram,
\nM\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rin,
\n\u0130san\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\nkims\u0259siz m\u0259zarlar\u0131n
\n\u015f\u0259kilsiz ba\u015f da\u015f\u0131na.
\nS\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\noyunca\u011f\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131lan
\nu\u015fa\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131na.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\nbu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259,
\nbu torpa\u011f\u0131n \u0259trin\u0259.
\nS\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram
\nel\u0259 s\u0259nin x\u0259trin\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u00fctunsuz \u015feir..<\/b><\/p>\n

Burdan ayd\u0131nca g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr,
\nYer k\u00fcr\u0259si balacad\u0131,
\nlap balaca, qollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7, qucaqla.
\nBurdan s\u0259ni d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m,
\nd\u0259li \u015feytan deyir ki,
\nel\u0259 indi ona t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7, qucaqla.<\/p>\n

Amma…
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rin “amma”s\u0131 var.
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n izl\u0259ri var \u0259ll\u0259rimd\u0259,
\nbir d\u0259 s\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131mas\u0131, yanmas\u0131 var.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi \u0259n az \u015fimal q\u00fctb ulduzu q\u0259d\u0259r uzaq,
\nv\u0259 \u015fimal q\u00fctb\u00fc q\u0259d\u0259r soyuqsan.
\nF\u0259zalar aras\u0131 bo\u015fluqdayam, g\u0259zir\u0259m…
\nBa\u015fqa planetl\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f varm\u0131?
\n\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, yox! Hardan olsun?!
\nBa\u015fqa planetl\u0259rd\u0259 s\u0259n yoxsan.<\/p>\n

F\u0259zalar aras\u0131 bo\u015fluqdayam.
\nYer k\u00fcr\u0259sini tap\u0131ram
\nv\u0259 u\u015faqca bir \u00fcmidl\u0259 burdan
\ns\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l edir\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 narahat olma,
\ndey\u0259s\u0259n, tapm\u0131\u015fam unutma\u011f\u0131n yolunu.
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn Yer k\u00fcr\u0259sin\u0259 bax\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131ram,
\nhissl\u0259rimi g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131mla h\u0259ll edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00fctunsuz \u015feirdir
\nbir d\u0259f\u0259 oxusan da yet\u0259r,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yinin h\u0259r yerin\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lacaq.
\ns\u0259n dar\u0131xma, inan m\u0259n\u0259,
\nh\u0259r g\u00fcn qopartd\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaralar da
\nbir g\u00fcn m\u00fctl\u0259q sa\u011falacaq…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n<\/b><\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 \u0259s\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r
\nN\u0259 vaxtsa \u00fczd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz bir qad\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259si.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r ora-bura sovurur,
\nC\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri…Bir k\u00fcncd\u0259dir h\u0259r\u0259si.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 vaxts\u0131z ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar,
\nOta\u011f\u0131nda a\u011flayan bir qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar \u00e7oxald\u0131 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259,
\nO ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 gec\u0259l\u0259r yaln\u0131zlar\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131 bird\u0259f\u0259lik unudub,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015flara \u201coldu-ke\u00e7di\u201d dem\u0259li.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qad\u0131nlardan Allah\u0131n yox x\u0259b\u0259ri,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131nlar bir \u015feytan\u0131n \u0259m\u0259li.<\/p>\n

Ged\u0259nd\u0259<\/b><\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u011fa nec\u0259 gedir haz\u0131rl\u0131q?
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259ni dindir\u0259rs\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259?
\nSon bir d\u0259f\u0259 dala\u015far\u0131q s\u0259ninl\u0259,
\nCin at\u0131na mindir\u0259rs\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Anlamad\u0131n m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin dad\u0131n\u0131,
\nM\u0259ns\u0259 yazd\u0131m \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131,
\nAyaq\u00fcst\u00fc i\u00e7imd\u0259ki qad\u0131n\u0131,
\nBax\u0131\u015f\u0131nla \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259rs\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Biraz k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r\u0259 baxarsan,
\nN\u0259 vaxt \u00e7\u0131xsan,s\u0259s salmadan \u00e7\u0131xarsan,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259t qap\u0131n\u0131 da s\u0131xarsan,
\n\u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259rs\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259…<\/p>\n

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\nM\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n deyil\u0259m bir d\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya,
\n\u00d6l\u0259rk\u0259n unudun, yox say\u0131n m\u0259ni.
\nBir k\u00f6hn\u0259 paltarda,k\u00f6hn\u0259 geyimd\u0259.
\nTorpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131n arxay\u0131n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Qay\u0131dan deyil\u0259m \u00f6z \u0259vv\u0259lim\u0259,
\nG\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6km\u0259d\u0259n a\u011flas\u0131n ham\u0131.
\n\u015e\u0259klimi divardan asmay\u0131n nolar,
\nOnsuzda as\u0131rlar \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f adam\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyadan \u0259libo\u015f \u0259l \u00fczm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin.
\nBir \u00fcmid yeri var h\u0259r acizind\u0259.
\nBa\u015f da\u015f\u0131 qoyma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sin m\u0259n\u0259,
\nM\u0259nd\u0259 bir da\u015f olum,bu yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Adamlar unudur bu g\u00fcn d\u00fcn\u0259ni,
\n\u018fn sonda \u00e7evrilir,h\u0259yat daslara.
\n\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcmd\u0259 yax\u0131nlar xat\u0131rlar m\u0259ni,
\nQ\u0131rx\u0131mda d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259r\u0259m he\u00e7 yadda\u015flara….<\/p>\n

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\nM\u0259nd\u0259n ya\u015fl\u0131 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r var evimizd\u0259,
\nzaman-zaman bax\u0131r anam,
\nbax\u0131r atam..
\n\u015e\u0259kill\u0259rin ya\u015f f\u0259rql\u0259ri b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259
\nqocalmaqdan qorxur adam..<\/p>\n

H\u0259yatd\u0131 bu..
\nU\u015faql\u0131qdan qocal\u0131\u011fa ax\u0131b gedir,
\nax\u0131r h\u0259r g\u00fcn..
\nDivardak\u0131 o tablodan iki n\u0259f\u0259r
\notuz ilin \u00f6t\u0259sin\u0259 bax\u0131r indi,
\nbax\u0131r h\u0259r g\u00fcn..<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox hirsliy\u0259m m\u0259n zamana..
\nS\u0259ni bel\u0259 tez-t\u0259l\u0259sik
\nqocaltd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,ana.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn qocalacam..
\nSonra qalx\u0131b g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259
\nbuludlara qo\u015fulacam,
\nbu da\u011flar\u0131n qar\u0131 kimi.
\nBir g\u00fcn a\u011f g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacam,
\nanam\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131 kimi..<\/p>\n

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\nQorxunun \u0259c\u0259l\u0259 faydas\u0131 yoxdur,
\nbir g\u00fcn ruh t\u0259rk edir b\u0259d\u0259ni,
\nazad olur bir b\u0259d\u0259nlik \u0259sar\u0259td\u0259n.
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm son deyil,ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131cd\u0131r,
\nBir az sevgid\u0259n ibar\u0259tdir,
\nBir az da c\u0259sar\u0259td\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Ged\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259k getmirs\u0259n,
\nsavablar\u0131n yolda\u015fd\u0131,
\ng\u00fcnahlar\u0131n yolda\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bundan sonra bayramlar
\nil d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc olacaq.
\nxeyrl\u0259 \u015f\u0259r qarda\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259r aya d\u00f6n\u00fcr,
\naylar g\u0259lib il olur.
\n\u0130ll\u0259r d\u0259 yarpaq kimi
\nt\u0259k-t\u0259k t\u0259qvimd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u00d6yr\u0259\u015fir…Ham\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fir..<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn ruh t\u0259rk edir s\u0259ni,
\nqalx\u0131r,g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcz tutur.
\nZamanla yad\u0131r\u011fay\u0131rlar
\ns\u0259sini d\u0259 , s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259.
\nSonra..
\nBir g\u00fcn s\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259
\nunudur..
\nHam\u0131 unudur…<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn ruh t\u0259rk edir s\u0259ni,
\nruh s\u0259ni,s\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259si.
\nYax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 m\u0259scidd\u0259n
\ne\u015fidilir azan s\u0259si…<\/p>\n

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\nBilirs\u0259n d\u0259, uman yerd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259rl\u0259r,
\ns\u0259n ged\u0259li m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m,
\nba\u015fqa da bir umaca\u011f\u0131m yerim yox.
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 getdin, ham\u0131 kimi \u0259zizim…
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 getdin,qald\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,
\ny\u0131x\u0131landa tutaca\u011f\u0131m yerim yox.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n ged\u0259li veyl-veyl g\u0259zir\u0259m,
\nt\u0259rk etdiyin o k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259ni h\u0259r gec\u0259.
\nDar\u0131x\u0131ram yava\u015f-yava\u015f,
\nbir az-bir az, \u0259zizim.
\nBirc\u0259 Allah \u015fahidimdir
\ng\u0259lm\u0259yin\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259tta boyun alm\u0131\u015fam,
\nocaqlara n\u0259zir-niyaz, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m,
\ns\u0259n ged\u0259li xatir\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259r g\u00fcn yeyir,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimi, hisl\u0259rimi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259mi, beynimi…
\n\u018f\u015f\u015fi, n\u0259 is\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 fikir verm\u0259 s\u0259n,
\nbu g\u00fcn-sabah pay\u0131z gedir,q\u0131\u015f g\u0259lir.
\nQurban s\u0259n\u0259,
\ng\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259 qal\u0131n geyin \u0259ynini…<\/p>\n

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\nAxsayan t\u0259r\u0259fim s\u0259ns\u0259n,
\ns\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7ox getmir\u0259m.
\nGizl\u0259tm\u0259li n\u0259 qal\u0131b ki?
\nDar\u0131x\u0131ram, gizl\u0259tmir\u0259m.
\nS\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r apard\u0131n?
\n\u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259s etmir\u0259m.
\nS\u00f6zl\u0259r dilimin ucunda,
\nruh b\u0259d\u0259nd\u0259 girinc qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 b\u0259xti qarayam m\u0259n,
\nnec\u0259 \u0259lacs\u0131z insanam.
\nBilir\u0259m ki, d\u0259rdl\u0259rimi
\ngizli-gizli \u00e7\u0259kir anam.
\nAnam m\u0259nd\u0259n nigarand\u0131,
\nm\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n nigaranam.
\nKe\u00e7diyin tin dalanlarda
\nkim bilir ne\u00e7\u0259 bic qal\u0131b..<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz qala bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\n\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259rman verir\u0259m.
\nDamar\u0131m\u0131 do\u011fram\u0131\u015fam,
\n\u00fcmidim\u0259 qan verir\u0259m.
\nBiz ayr\u0131lsaq \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m m\u0259n,
\nyava\u015f-yava\u015f can verir\u0259m.
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n tamam qopma\u011f\u0131na
\nne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259rpic qal\u0131b?…<\/p>\n

Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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