{"id":640,"date":"2021-02-10T19:19:51","date_gmt":"2021-02-10T15:19:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=640"},"modified":"2021-02-10T19:35:13","modified_gmt":"2021-02-10T15:35:13","slug":"yaddasimin-alt-qatinda-mina-kimi-xatir%c9%99l%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/yaddasimin-alt-qatinda-mina-kimi-xatir%c9%99l%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"Yadda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n alt qat\u0131nda mina kimi xatir\u0259l\u0259r…"},"content":{"rendered":"

G\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u00fcrk\u00fcn qan\u0131 var<\/strong><\/p>\n

Qar\u0131 d\u00fcnya, a\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc,
\novcunda T\u00dcRK\u00dcN qan\u0131 var.
\nQan qurudan oxlar\u0131n da
\nucunda
\nT\u00dcRK\u00dcN qan\u0131 var.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131l\u0131nclar diksinir q\u0131nda,
\nqan iyin\u0259 s\u0131n\u0131r q\u0131n da,
\nb\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131n taxt\u0131nda,
\ntac\u0131nda
\nT\u00dcRK\u00dcN qan\u0131 var.<\/p>\n

B\u0259sdi,
\ndondan dona girm\u0259,
\na\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 \u015feytana verm\u0259,
\ng\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259,-
\nG\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259
\nT\u00dcRK\u00dcN qan\u0131 var!..<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bir h\u0259kim, m\u00fcn\u0259ccim bilm\u0259z,
\nQara\u00e7\u0131ya a\u00e7\u0131m bilm\u0259z,
\nYax\u0131n, uzaq \u2013 he\u00e7 kim bilm\u0259z
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Hans\u0131 qara da\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131m,
\nTaca \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131m, ba\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131m?
\n\u00dcz\u00fc qarl\u0131 q\u0131\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131m
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n

Yollar \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n uzundu,
\nB\u0259xt-tale tanr\u0131 yazand\u0131.
\nM\u0259n el\u0259 bunu qazand\u0131m \u2013
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Co\u015fub-da\u015fsa da arazlar,
\nD\u0259rd\u0259 toy tutan bu azlar
\nQap\u0131lardan buraxmazlar
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

At\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00e7at\u0131na,
\nYer k\u00fcr\u0259sinin alt\u0131na.
\nYaz\u0131n bu yurdun ad\u0131na
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00fcll\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evirdim,
\nH\u0259m vuruldum, h\u0259m sevildim.
\n\u00dcz\u00fc qibl\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evirdim
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yoxumsa da dinar-dirh\u0259m,
\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259m\u0259n Sabir\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n girov qoyub gedir\u0259m
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131…<\/p>\n

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***
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131ram ham\u0131n\u0131n borcundan bir-bir,
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131ram Allah\u0131n borcundan bel\u0259.
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131ram torpa\u011f\u0131n, da\u015f\u0131n borcundan,
\nBu can\u0131, b\u0259d\u0259ni qaytarmaq il\u0259.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131ma min oyun a\u00e7an d\u00fcnyan\u0131n,
\nHe\u00e7 ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131 bu z\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n.
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131ram saralan a\u011f-qara \u015f\u0259klin
\nOvcumu yand\u0131ran q\u0131z \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259ni n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r sevdim, bilirs\u0259n?-
\nYad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259ks\u0259nir Allah.
\n\u00c7\u0131x\u0131ram \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259n ham\u0131n\u0131 bir-bir,
\nT\u0259k s\u0259ni \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131ram, t\u0259k S\u0259ni, Allah.<\/p>\n

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***
\nYadda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n alt qat\u0131nda
\nmina kimi xatir\u0259l\u0259r.
\nBundan sonra ya\u015fasaq da,
\nbuna kimi
\nxatir\u0259l\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259rd,
\nsevgi qucaq-qucaq,
\nde, hans\u0131ndan hara qa\u00e7aq?!
\n5,45 kimi qovacaq
\nsona kimi xatir\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcn i\u00e7i d\u0259 soyuqdu,
\n\u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259c\u0259l duyuqdu.
\nOndan sonra he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdu.
\nona kimi…
\nxatir\u0259l\u0259r!<\/p>\n

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***
\nN\u0259 \u0259limd\u0259 da\u015f-k\u0259s\u0259k,
\nn\u0259 h\u00fcr\u0259n o itl\u0259r var.
\nN\u0259 arx boyunca ke\u00e7\u0259n
\ns\u0131n\u0131q-salxaq qatarlar.<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 bir s\u0259s-s\u0259mir yox,
\nyen\u0259 sakit\u00e7ilikdi.
\n\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ill\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259n
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcm \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilikdi.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131m-bacam ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131,
\nk\u00f6hn\u0259 divar yerind\u0259.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n
\nbatan g\u00fcn\u00fcn birind\u0259?..<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 kim d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr yad\u0131ma,-
\nax\u0131, yen\u0259 niy\u0259 S\u018fN?!
\nQap\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7, soyu\u011fdu-
\nq\u0259lbim s\u0131n\u0131b dey\u0259s\u0259n…<\/p>\n

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***
\n\u018fll\u0259rinin be\u015f add\u0131ml\u0131q
\nh\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259 itir g\u00fcnl\u0259r.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 ki s\u0259nsiz \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc
\n\u0259l\u00e7im-\u0259l\u00e7im didir g\u00fcnl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Ovcumun i\u00e7i g\u00f6yn\u0259yir-
\nsa\u00e7lar\u0131na d\u0259nmi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb?!
\nYoxsa \u0259limin izin\u0259
\nyen\u0259 dara\u011f\u0131n ili\u015fib?<\/p>\n

Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 aram\u0131zdan
\nke\u00e7ilm\u0259y\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 ke\u00e7ir.
\nM\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 yaz, q\u0131\u015f birdi,
\noralarda nec\u0259 ke\u00e7ir.<\/p>\n

D\u0259niz hans\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 olur,
\n\u0130yd\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259?
\nD\u0259rdini kim\u0259 deyirs\u0259n
\nulduzlar g\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00f6y\u0259nd\u0259?<\/p>\n

K\u00f6lg\u0259n\u0259 soyuq olmur ki,
\ntaleyin\u0259 g\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbm\u00fc?
\nBarmaqlar\u0131m s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131r-
\nsa\u00e7lar\u0131na d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbm\u00fc?!<\/p>\n

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***
\nK\u0259sil\u0259-k\u0259sil\u0259 qal\u0131r
\nadam
\n\u00f6z imtahan\u0131ndan.
\nB\u0259xtin-taleyin t\u0259kb\u0259t\u0259k,
\n\u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz imtahan\u0131ndan.
\n…Hardan k\u0259sils\u0259n d\u0259 qorxma,
\nax\u0131r ke\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn
\nk\u0259f\u0259n-bez imtahan\u0131ndan…<\/p>\n

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***
\nQoruma\u011fa n\u0259yi var ki!-
\nolan\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259ndi…
\nKas\u0131b\u0131n ged\u0259ni \u015f\u0259hid,
\nqalan\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259ndi…<\/p>\n

Bitmir “niy\u0259”si, “nec\u0259”si,
\nbir cand\u0131- h\u0259r an ke\u00e7\u0259si.
\nQara g\u00fcn\u00fcn dar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si,
\ndalan\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259ndi…<\/p>\n

Aya\u011f\u0131 altda s\u0259lt\u0259n\u0259t,
\n\u00e7iyni \u00fcstd\u0259 ac m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259t.
\nOra yasaq, bura q\u00fcrb\u0259t,
\nqalan\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259ndi…<\/p>\n

K\u00f6hn\u0259 ki\u015fiy\u0259m<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox fikir verm\u0259,
\nbir az k\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015f ki\u015fiy\u0259m.
\nA\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n bel\u0259
\nd\u0259rdl\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259nmi\u015f ki\u015fiy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015fey k\u00f6hn\u0259lmi\u015f bayat\u0131,
\n\u00fcmid c\u00fcc\u0259rir, boy atm\u0131r.
\nH\u0259r hava k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259 yatm\u0131r,
\ns\u00f6z\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259nmi\u015f ki\u015fiy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn\u00fcm bir \u00f6mr\u0259 yet\u0259r,
\nbu \u00f6m\u00fcr d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn bit\u0259r.
\nD\u00fcnyada Allahdan bet\u0259r
\nt\u0259k\u0259m, t\u0259kl\u0259nmi\u015f ki\u015fiy\u0259m…<\/p>\n

Qara zolaq<\/strong><\/p>\n

Dualar\u0131m yan ke\u00e7ir,
\nm\u0259ni h\u0259r qar\u011f\u0131\u015f tutur.
\nH\u0259r dediyim ba\u015f tutmur,
\nh\u0259r at\u0131lan da\u015f tutur.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m,
\ntilov atsam bo\u015f g\u0259lir.
\nHarda axmaq d\u0259rd varsa,
\nqa\u00e7\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 tu\u015f g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

Yollar h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k toru –
\nili\u015fib ayaqlar\u0131m.
\nArzular g\u00f6yn\u0259n gedir,
\n\u00fcmidl\u0259r ayaqyal\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Hans\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 gets\u0259m,
\nyel tutur, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f tutur.
\nDualar\u0131m yan ke\u00e7ir,
\nm\u0259ni h\u0259r qar\u011f\u0131\u015f tutur.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnya il\u0259 he\u00e7-he\u00e7\u0259y\u0259m<\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259ni yax\u0131nlar \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\nq\u0131ra\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdu.
\nBiri d\u0259 s\u0259ns\u0259n, ay zal\u0131m
\nyara\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdu.<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 bilirs\u0259nmi nec\u0259y\u0259m?-
\nD\u00fcnya il\u0259 he\u00e7-he\u00e7\u0259y\u0259m.
\nOvcu g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli gec\u0259y\u0259m,-
\n\u00e7\u0131ra\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdu.<\/p>\n

Bu qara g\u00fcnl\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011fa
\nb\u00fck\u00fcb ver\u0259rl\u0259r torpa\u011fa.
\n\u00d6l\u00fcd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutma\u011fa,
\nsora\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdu.<\/p>\n

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***
\nDeyirs\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim yoxdu,
\nb\u0259 burda g\u00f6yn\u00fcy\u0259n n\u0259di?
\nAdam kimi ya\u015fama\u011fa,
\n\u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymayan n\u0259di?<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimin tutdu\u011fu s\u0259n,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yim tutub h\u0259b g\u0259tir.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin d\u0259risini
\nsoyma\u011fa g\u0259l,
\nH\u0259l\u0259b g\u0259tir.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yin yoxdu deyirs\u0259n,
\nb\u0259 bu saralan yarpa\u011f\u0131,
\nox\u015fay\u0131b a\u011fr\u0131yan kimdi?
\nYol q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 da\u015fa
\nboylan\u0131b a\u011flayan kimdi?!<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcm- \u00fcr\u0259yimin \u015f\u0259kli,
\nsevgi- tu\u015flanan bir oxmu\u015f.
\nDeyirs\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim yoxdu…
\nDey\u0259s\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim yoxmu\u015f!..<\/p>\n

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***
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm boyu yer el\u0259dim k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259,
\nK\u00fcl\u0259k vuran, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f tutan yerl\u0259ri.
\nNeyn\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 u\u00e7uq qald\u0131, \u00e7at qald\u0131
\nTaleyimin qar\u011f\u0131\u015f tutan yerl\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

\u018ft\u0259yind\u0259 arzu, \u00fcmid bitirdik…
\nO da\u011flar\u0131 hardan hara g\u0259tirdik.
\nOvuc-ovuc, qar\u0131\u015f-qar\u0131\u015f itirdik,
\nBoyumuza qam\u0131\u015f tutan yerl\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

Son n\u0259f\u0259sim-
\ndimdiyimd\u0259 d\u0259n, qald\u0131,
\nSin\u0259m da\u011f-da\u011f,
\nbulud-bulud,
\n\u00e7\u0259n qald\u0131.
\nK\u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n da\u015fdan r\u0259ng ald\u0131,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin nax\u0131\u015f tutan yerl\u0259ri…<\/p>\n

Yada d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc,
\nyad\u0131n oldu, q\u0131z, n\u0259l\u0259r!..
\nA\u00e7\u0131b des\u0259m, da\u011f ki\u015fn\u0259y\u0259r, d\u00fcz m\u0259l\u0259r.
\nDoda\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259k s\u00f6z\u00fcn gizl\u0259d\u0259r,
\nYana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131\u015f tutan yerl\u0259ri…<\/p>\n

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***
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, s\u0259nsiz d\u0259
\nax\u015fam olur, s\u0259h\u0259r olur.
\nS\u0259nsiz ya\u015famaq budursa,
\nb\u0259s \u00f6l\u00fcm n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r olur?!<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz dal\u011falan\u0131r d\u0259niz,
\ns\u0259nsiz d\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r \u0259sir.
\nBu k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259 s\u0259nsizliy\u0259
\nd\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k n\u0259 g\u0259zir.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni g\u0259z\u0259n fikirl\u0259rim
\nd\u00f6ng\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b qal\u0131r.
\nGec\u0259l\u0259r bir m\u0259n oluram,
\nbir d\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 varsa d\u0259yi\u015fir dad\u0131,
\nbu d\u00fcnya birt\u0259h\u0259r olur.
\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, s\u0259nsiz d\u0259
\nax\u015fam olur, s\u0259h\u0259r olur.<\/p>\n

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\nCan\u0131m\u0131z bir xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r\u0259,
\nsora\u011fa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131r.
\nB\u0259d\u0259n adl\u0131 dar q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259n
\nq\u0131ra\u011fa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b yalan\u0131m, d\u00fcz\u00fcm
\nkar\u0131x\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm.
\nQ\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n bo\u011fulan s\u00f6z\u00fcm
\nvara\u011fa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Suald\u0131 “\u00f6l\u00fcm-qal\u0131m”\u0131z,
\npisd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 hal\u0131m\u0131z.
\nArada batan qan\u0131m\u0131z
\nBAYRA\u011ea \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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