{"id":672,"date":"2021-02-19T14:09:28","date_gmt":"2021-02-19T10:09:28","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=672"},"modified":"2021-05-02T00:55:42","modified_gmt":"2021-05-01T20:55:42","slug":"omur-muncuq-kimidir-q%c9%99fil-dagila-bil%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/omur-muncuq-kimidir-q%c9%99fil-dagila-bil%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00d6m\u00fcr muncuq kimidir, q\u0259fil da\u011f\u0131la bil\u0259r.."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em><strong>F\u0259rqan\u0259 Mehdiyeva<\/strong><\/em><!--more--><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u015e\u0259kildi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>H\u0259rd\u0259n yana-yana t\u00f6k\u00fcb bax\u0131ram,<br \/>\nDeyir\u0259m eh, bu da filan \u015f\u0259kildi.<br \/>\nG\u0259nclik h\u0259sr\u0259til\u0259 yan\u0131b qovrulan,<br \/>\nB\u0259nizi saralan solan \u015f\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n<p>Ay\u0131l x\u0259yallardan, azca b\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f,<br \/>\nH\u0259r\u0259si bir c\u00fcr\u0259 sif\u0259ti d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f,<br \/>\n\u00c7iynind\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r var anas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f,<br \/>\n\u0130ll\u0259rd\u0259n ill\u0259r\u0259 qalan \u015f\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n<p>Birc\u0259 s\u00f6z soru\u015fdum g\u00f6r n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k,<br \/>\nS\u00f6z\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k, \u015feir\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259k,<br \/>\nN\u0259 vaxtsa da\u015f \u00fcst\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,<br \/>\n\u0130ndid\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolan \u015f\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cG\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 eyn\u0259k yox, \u0259lind\u0259 \u0259sa\u201d,<br \/>\nAtam \u00e7\u0259kdirmi\u015fdi bir vaxt hardasa,<br \/>\nAnam yox qald\u0131r\u0131b divardan asa,<br \/>\nRuhu ya\u011fmalanm\u0131\u015f talan \u015f\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n<p>A\u011fz\u0131m uzun \u00f6mr\u0259 suland\u0131 vallah,<br \/>\nQar\u015f\u0131mda ocaqt\u0259k qaland\u0131 vallah,<br \/>\nD\u00fcnyada n\u0259 varsa yaland\u0131 vallah,<br \/>\nD\u00fcnyada t\u0259k birc\u0259 qalan \u015f\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Yara\u015fd\u0131 b\u0259xtim\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng ayr\u0131l\u0131q<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Da\u011flara, da\u015flara dedim d\u0259rdimi,<br \/>\nQar\u0131\u015f\u0131q yuxumu yozan olmad\u0131.<br \/>\nH\u0259r \u00e7atan bir pozan ald\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259,<br \/>\nS\u0259ni taleyim\u0259 yazan olmad\u0131 \u2013<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7mad\u0131 o yaz\u0131n yolu,<br \/>\nDoland\u0131 boynuma Araz\u0131n qolu.<br \/>\nTutub \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n upuzun yolun \u2013<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0259kdi \u00fcr\u0259yimi \u015fi\u015f\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131q,<br \/>\nS\u0131nd\u0131 \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131q,<br \/>\nYara\u015fd\u0131 b\u0259xtim\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng ayr\u0131l\u0131q,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0259lbi q\u0131r\u0131q, para \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fad\u0131m,<br \/>\nAllah, \u00fcz\u00fc qara \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fad\u0131m,<br \/>\nQ\u0131zara-q\u0131zara \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fad\u0131m \u2013<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fcm, qa\u00e7d\u0131m min d\u0259f\u0259,<br \/>\nBa\u011fl\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259mi a\u00e7d\u0131m min d\u0259f\u0259.<br \/>\n\u00c7ox da \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7dim min d\u0259f\u0259,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rm\u0131p\u0131nda itib qay\u0131td\u0131m,<br \/>\nD\u0259niz g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 bat\u0131b qay\u0131td\u0131m,<br \/>\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n axr\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131b qay\u0131td\u0131m,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<p><strong>M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Musiqisi Tahir \u018fkb\u0259rindir<\/p>\n<p>A\u00e7\u0131lan s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fc ax\u015fama,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<br \/>\nBir bahar ax\u015fam\u0131 s\u00f6yk\u0259ni\u00f6 \u015fama,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259sr\u0259tin g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ax\u0131b s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r,<br \/>\nBu varaq \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u0259 misram d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r.<br \/>\n\u0130kimiz dar\u0131xsaq d\u00fcnya d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc al\u0131ram ac \u00fcmidl\u0259rin,<br \/>\nM\u0259n\u0259 taq\u0259t verin, m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcc verin.<br \/>\nD\u00f6\u015f\u0259nib \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 xatir\u0259l\u0259rin,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>T\u00f6k\u00fcb g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n yaz ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131,<br \/>\nG\u00f6y\u0259rdim m\u0259n sar\u0131 xo\u015f bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131.<br \/>\nDizimin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>Qorxuram, g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259m, g\u00fcv\u0259ncim s\u0131na,<br \/>\nYaman dir\u0259\u015fibdi q\u0131l\u0131nc\u0131m q\u0131na,<br \/>\n\u0130\u015fimi, g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc at\u0131b bir yana,<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmaq \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Pay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Ay \u00f6m\u00fcr yar\u0131da k\u00f6n\u00fcl q\u0131ran\u0131m,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<br \/>\nM\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 yer axtaran\u0131m,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc ovuda-ovuda g\u0259lib,<br \/>\nG\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n yerl\u0259r\u0259 piyada g\u0259lib.<br \/>\nH\u0259min o \u00fcnvana, o ada g\u0259lib,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n<p>Yara\u015fm\u0131r bu yerim, g\u00f6y\u00fcm \u0259ynim\u0259,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z don bi\u00e7dirsin deyim \u0259ynim\u0259.<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n donunu geyim \u0259ynim\u0259,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n tutub pay\u0131z\u0131n,<br \/>\nK\u00fcs\u0259y\u0259n k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 yat\u0131b pay\u0131z\u0131n.<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 qat\u0131b pay\u0131z\u0131n,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n<p>Ay \u00f6m\u00fcr yar\u0131da k\u00f6n\u00fcl qar\u0131nam,<br \/>\nS\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n yollara \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m, sar\u0131n\u0131m,<br \/>\nM\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 yer axtaran\u0131m,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Olacaqsan<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>S\u0259n m\u0259nim b\u0259xtim\u0259 do\u011fan bir g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f,<br \/>\nS\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcn olacaqsan.<br \/>\nQal\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 arzu da, kam da,<br \/>\nB\u0259s n\u0259 vaxt arzuma t\u0259n olacaqsan?<\/p>\n<p>Taleyin h\u00f6km\u00fcd\u00fc ya bahar, ya q\u0131\u015f,<br \/>\n\u0130st\u0259s\u0259n k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn oduna qar\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\nKim bilir b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 aln\u0131ma q\u0131r\u0131\u015f,<br \/>\nSa\u00e7\u0131ma v\u0259d\u0259siz d\u0259n olacaqsan.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eirin bir arzuya d\u00f6n\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131n,<br \/>\nKa\u015f ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259 v\u00fcsal\u0131n,<br \/>\nQa\u00e7ard\u0131m yoluna aya\u011f\u0131yal\u0131n,<br \/>\nBils\u0259m ki, qism\u0259tim s\u0259n olacaqsan.<\/p>\n<p><strong>H\u0259l\u0259 a\u00e7amm\u0131ram dola\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fc<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u0130lahi, \u015fam\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn vermis\u0259n,<br \/>\nYand\u0131r\u0131m dam altda bu i\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fc.<br \/>\nMacal\u0131m yoxuydu salam sahmana,<br \/>\nDurum y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131m qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Bu cand\u0131, bu da ki qurdu\u011fum yuva,<br \/>\nG\u00f6y\u0259rm\u0259z \u00fcmidi g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n suvar.<br \/>\n\u018flimd\u0259n n\u0259 g\u0259lir, \u00f6zg\u0259 n\u0259yim var,<br \/>\nD\u00fcz\u00fcm s\u0259tirl\u0259r\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ll\u0259rdi\u2026 arxamca g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb qal\u0131b,<br \/>\nD\u0259rdini-s\u0259rini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb qal\u0131b.<br \/>\nNec\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259 ili\u015fib qal\u0131b,<br \/>\nH\u0259l\u0259 a\u00e7amm\u0131ram dola\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>Yeris\u0259m qurtarmaz bu yol, bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259,<br \/>\nQo\u015fula bilm\u0259dim ba\u015f alan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259.<br \/>\nDindirm\u0259 kirim\u0259z q\u0131rx g\u00fcn, q\u0131rx gec\u0259,<br \/>\nQoyma dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131m bu a\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Da\u015fyonanla s\u00f6hb\u0259t<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Usta, alverin \u00e7ox olar,<br \/>\nBu qara r\u00fczgarla \u00e7a\u011fla.<br \/>\n\u0130st\u0259yirm\u0259n bir beh verim,<br \/>\nYax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 saxla.<\/p>\n<p>Hardan g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m bura,<br \/>\nBir \u00f6zg\u0259 yolum olmad\u0131?<br \/>\n\u0130ndid\u0259n al\u0131m, sonralar<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 pulum olmad\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Bax \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131r o da\u015f,<br \/>\nS\u0131nd\u0131rma k\u00f6nl\u00fc xo\u015f olsun.<br \/>\nEl\u0259sini saxla, qarda\u015f,<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131ma yara\u015fan olsun.<\/p>\n<p>B\u0259lk\u0259 almasam da olar,<br \/>\nBu ehtiyac bir h\u0259v\u0259sdi.<br \/>\nQ\u0259brimin \u00fcst\u0259 qoymaya<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n da\u015f b\u0259sdi!<\/p>\n<p>Birin behl\u0259, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m gedim,<br \/>\nKims\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k olmas\u0131n.<br \/>\nN\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 pe\u015f\u0259n varm\u0131\u015f,<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u00fcm, m\u00fcbar\u0259k olmas\u0131n!<\/p>\n<p>Yondu\u011fun m\u0259zar da\u015flar\u0131,<br \/>\nS\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259rd, azar verm\u0259sin.<br \/>\nA m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nim,<br \/>\nHe\u00e7 Allah bazar verm\u0259sin!<\/p>\n<p><strong>Xatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7oxaldacam q\u0259min birin d\u0259,<br \/>\n\u00c7alacaq qula\u011f\u0131 des\u0259m yerin d\u0259.<br \/>\nG\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259, g\u00fcn\u00fcn birind\u0259,<br \/>\nXatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259lah\u0259t \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k d\u0259st\u0259si,<br \/>\nDostlar\u0131n m\u0259n ollam el\u0259 sift\u0259si,<br \/>\nYax\u0131b-yand\u0131racam g\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259si,<br \/>\nXatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar.<\/p>\n<p>Kim dey\u0259r, ke\u00e7irdi bir \u00f6mr\u00fc h\u0259d\u0259r,<br \/>\n\u00dczl\u0259ri b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259r q\u0259rib\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r,<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n savay\u0131 \u015f\u0259klim\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r,<br \/>\nXatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar.<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7oxunu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r bu q\u0259rib\u0259lik,<br \/>\nAnam t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259c\u0259k \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7\u0259lik.<br \/>\nB\u00fct\u00fcn zal susacaq bir d\u0259qiq\u0259lik,<br \/>\nXatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar.<\/p>\n<p>Yanacaq, astaca bir \u015fam yanacaq,<br \/>\nYanacaq s\u0259n\u0259tim, pe\u015f\u0259m yanacaq,<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259, ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox Q\u0259\u015f\u0259m yanacaq,<br \/>\nXatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar.<\/p>\n<p>Torpa\u011f\u0131m titr\u0259y\u0259r varaq saya\u011f\u0131,<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0259kib sin\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7al-\u00e7arpaz da\u011f\u0131,<br \/>\nAy Allah, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00fcnorta \u00e7a\u011f\u0131,<br \/>\nXatir\u0259 gec\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dostlar.<\/p>\n<p><strong>G\u00f4r\u0259s\u0259n dostlar\u0131m q\u0259ribs\u0259m\u0259zki&#8230;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Vallah..bir kims\u0259d\u0259n umaca\u011f\u0131m yox..<br \/>\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6yl\u0259rin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr..<br \/>\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259zir\u0259m..ba\u015f\u0131yuxar\u0131..<br \/>\nO q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259ll\u0259rim a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr..<\/p>\n<p>B\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131na bu gen \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin.<br \/>\nHava ist\u0259yir\u0259m..bir hava udum&#8230;<br \/>\nQuyruq bulama\u011fa istedad\u0131m yox&#8230;<br \/>\nB\u0259s hans\u0131 bir i\u015fin qulpundan tutum..?<\/p>\n<p>Yoxsa ki..qo\u015fulum d\u0259li \u015feytana..<br \/>\nBir az uzaq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm G\u00f6y il\u0259 Yerd\u0259n..<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n dostlar\u0131m q\u0259ribs\u0259m\u0259z ki..<br \/>\nBir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda its\u0259m \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p><strong>A\u011flama, \u015f\u0259hid anas\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bu n\u0259 nal\u0259, bu n\u0259 yan\u011f\u0131,bu n\u0259 s\u0259s,<br \/>\n\u018fv\u0259zin\u0259 de \u00e7atarm\u0131 bir \u0259v\u0259z?<br \/>\n\u00cdndiy\u0259d\u0259k a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n b\u0259sdi,b\u0259s,<br \/>\nA\u011flama, \u015f\u0259hid anas\u0131, a\u011flama .<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259l\u0259r qald\u0131 pay\u0131z\u0131nda, yay\u0131nda,<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcn qald\u0131 qam\u0259tind\u0259, boyunda,<br \/>\nQol a\u00e7mad\u0131n dam dolusu toyunda,<br \/>\nA\u011flama, \u015f\u0259hid anas\u0131, a\u011flama.<\/p>\n<p>Az\u0259rbaycan \u00f6z\u00fc ona t\u0259m &#8211; t\u0259raq,<br \/>\nM\u0259zar\u0131na \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k tutaq, g\u00fcl tutaq,<br \/>\n\u015e\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 bir K\u0259r\u0259mi \u00e7ald\u0131raq,<br \/>\nA\u011flama, \u015f\u0259hid anas\u0131, a\u011flama<\/p>\n<p>Ucaliqda uca da\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcbs\u0259,<br \/>\nYaz\u0131lmayan bir vara\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcbs\u0259,<br \/>\nS\u0259nin balan bu torpa\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcbs\u0259,<br \/>\nA\u011flama, \u015f\u0259hid anas\u0131, a\u011flama.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Hayana gedib anam<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>G\u0259zir\u0259m q\u0259rib-q\u0259rib<br \/>\nN\u0259 \u00fcmid var, n\u0259 inam.<br \/>\nAdam qalm\u0131r soru\u015fum\u2013<br \/>\nHayana gedim anam.<\/p>\n<p>U\u015faqlar\u0131 yan\u0131nda<br \/>\nCan\u0131n\u0131 qoyub gedib;<br \/>\nAtam t\u0259z\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131<br \/>\nDonunu qoyub gedib.<\/p>\n<p>Qaranl\u0131qda it\u0259nim<br \/>\n\u0130\u015f\u0131\u011fa ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131;<br \/>\nEl\u0259 qocalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki,<br \/>\nU\u015fa\u011fa ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Yeddi u\u015faq yell\u0259d\u0259n<br \/>\nBe\u015fiyi qal\u0131b bel\u0259.<br \/>\nK\u0259ndi-k\u0259s\u0259yi, evi,<br \/>\nE\u015fiyi qal\u0131b bel\u0259.<\/p>\n<p>Dindir\u0259nd\u0259 can dey\u0259n<br \/>\nAd\u0131m\u0131 qoyub gedib.<br \/>\nM\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259y\u0259 bax, Allah,<br \/>\nD\u0259li kimi sevdiyi<br \/>\nAtam\u0131 qoyub gedib.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00f6z\u0259mmir yoxlu\u011funa,<br \/>\nH\u0259y\u0259t-baca a\u011flay\u0131r.<br \/>\nH\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259n s\u0259pdiyi,<br \/>\nToyuq-c\u00fcc\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 dolu su da,<br \/>\nS\u0259n\u0259yi k\u00fcs\u00fcb, Allah.<br \/>\nNe\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr s\u00fcd vermir<br \/>\n\u0130n\u0259yi k\u00fcs\u00fcb, Allah.<\/p>\n<p>Doyunca geym\u0259diyi<br \/>\nToylu\u011fu qal\u0131b orda.<br \/>\nAnas\u0131ndan yadigar<br \/>\nYayl\u0131\u011f\u0131 qal\u0131b orda.<\/p>\n<p>B\u0259lk\u0259 u\u00e7ub g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fl\u0259, Ayla gedib?<br \/>\n\u00dcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 bayat\u0131,<br \/>\nDilind\u0259 layla gedib.<\/p>\n<p>G\u0259zir\u0259m q\u0259rib-q\u0259rib<br \/>\nN\u0259 \u00fcmid var, n\u0259 inam.<br \/>\nSiz deyin ay adamlar,<br \/>\nHayana gedib anam?..<\/p>\n<p><strong>Bilirs\u0259n s\u00f6z adam\u0131yam<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Ay sin\u0259m\u0259 da\u011f \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nim,<br \/>\nG\u0259l m\u0259ni d\u00fczl\u0259 aldatma.<br \/>\nYoxsa s\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcz vermi\u015f\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc \u00fczl\u0259 aldatma.<\/p>\n<p>Donmu\u015fam yum\u015faq deyil\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u018fyilmi\u015f\u0259m \u015fax deyil\u0259m,<br \/>\nM\u0259n daha u\u015faq deyil\u0259m,<br \/>\nDeyib d\u0259 \u201cg\u00f6zl\u0259\u201d aldatma.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u00fcz adam\u0131yam,<br \/>\nTanr\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z adam\u0131yam,<br \/>\nBilirs\u0259n S\u00f6z adam\u0131yam,<br \/>\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni s\u00f6zl\u0259 aldatma.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Divardan<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bu d\u0259rdi \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259zi yoxdu,<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0259kir \u00fcr\u0259yimi izin divardan.<br \/>\nBel\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zi yoxdu,<br \/>\nYaz\u0131m s\u0259tirl\u0259ri d\u00fcz\u00fcm divardan.<\/p>\n<p>Bu geni\u015f h\u0259sr\u0259ti dar el\u0259m\u0259di,<br \/>\nA\u00e7d\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi kor el\u0259m\u0259di,<br \/>\n\u015e\u0259klini asma\u011fa yer el\u0259m\u0259di,<br \/>\nQoy bir az inciyim k\u00fcs\u00fcm divardan.<\/p>\n<p>Bu q\u0259m d\u0259 yeti\u015fdi d\u0259r\u0259n tap\u0131lm\u0131r,<br \/>\nU\u00e7uq evimiz\u0259 gir\u0259n tap\u0131lm\u0131r,<br \/>\nS\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa g\u00f6r\u0259n tap\u0131lm\u0131r,<br \/>\nNiy\u0259 boylan\u0131rsan bizim divardan.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u0130ndid\u0259n<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>O nakam n\u0259 yatd\u0131 n\u0259 yuxu g\u00f6r\u0259,<br \/>\nBir yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yozun indid\u0259n.<br \/>\nA\u011fla\u011fan \u015feirimin s\u0259tirl\u0259rind\u0259n,<br \/>\nG\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u015f\u0259klini as\u0131m indid\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>Deyin biri yoxdu biri var idi,<br \/>\nYolunda boran\u0131 qar\u0131 var idi,<br \/>\nDey\u0131n c\u0259rg\u0259mizd\u0259 yeri var idi,<br \/>\nTutun q\u0259lbinizd\u0259 yas\u0131n indid\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>Bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131m ist\u0259yi solar he\u00e7 olar,<br \/>\nN\u0259 boyda arzusu ged\u0259r k\u00f6\u00e7 olar,<br \/>\nOna n\u0259 des\u0259niz sonra gec olar,<br \/>\nOna n\u0259 yaz\u0131rs\u0131z yaz\u0131n indid\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p><strong>T\u0259ndir<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Ke\u00e7ib bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131z g\u0259lib k\u0259ndir\u0259,<br \/>\nD\u0259rdimiz b\u0259llidir, d\u0259rman tap\u0131lm\u0131r.<br \/>\nEvin dal\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259rib t\u0259ndir\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 zamand\u0131r \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yap\u0131lm\u0131r<\/p>\n<p>Bu uzun-uzad\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcr yolunda,<br \/>\nAnamla qo\u015faca \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b t\u0259ndir.<br \/>\n\u018fl\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 kibrit \u0259v\u0259zi<br \/>\nAnam\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n al\u0131\u015f\u0131b t\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n<p>Qa\u00e7anda a\u011flayan u\u015faq s\u0259sin\u0259,<br \/>\n\u018flind\u0259n birb\u0259bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb k\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259r.<br \/>\nBel\u0259c\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb anam bizl\u0259ri,<br \/>\nQ\u0259lbinin odunda bi\u015fib k\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259r<\/p>\n<p>T\u0259ndirin t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xanda ba\u015fdan,<br \/>\nAnam g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n su \u00e7il\u0259yibdi.<br \/>\nK\u00fct ged\u0259n k\u00fcnd\u0259ni ovutmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,<br \/>\n\u018frkyana t\u0259ndiri \u015fill\u0259l\u0259yibdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u018fynin\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259 don geym\u0259y\u0259n anam,<br \/>\nT\u0259ndir t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n y\u00fcz don geyinib.<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir k\u0259s\u0259 \u0259ym\u0259y\u0259n anam,<br \/>\nT\u0259ndir\u0259 \u00e7atanda min yol \u0259yilib.<\/p>\n<p>Do\u011fma anas\u0131t\u0259k sevib t\u0259ndiri,<br \/>\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 \u015fip\u015firin ovqat olubdu.<br \/>\nAnam getm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259ndir\u0259 yax\u0131n,<br \/>\nT\u0259ndirin sin\u0259si \u00e7at-\u00e7at olubdu.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00fcnd\u0259l\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131lan \u0259ll\u0259r,<br \/>\nB\u0259s bu g\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259ri an\u0131r?<br \/>\nBir zaman t\u0259ndird\u0259 qovrulan \u0259ll\u0259r,<br \/>\n\u0130ndi ehtiyacdan al\u0131\u015f\u0131b-yan\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Analar neyl\u0259sin, Allah\u0131n altda<br \/>\nBir az da \u00e7oxal\u0131b um-k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u0259ri.<br \/>\n\u018friy\u0259n, azalan \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rit\u0259k,<br \/>\nAzal\u0131r dam altda un kis\u0259l\u0259ri<\/p>\n<p>T\u0259ndir anam kimi do\u011fmad\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259,<br \/>\nM\u0259n onu m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ocaq sanacam.<br \/>\nG\u00fcn g\u0259ls\u0259 olmasa anam h\u0259yatda,<br \/>\nG\u00fcnb g\u0259ls\u0259 olmasa anam h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259<br \/>\nM\u0259n yan\u0131b, k\u00f6z\u0259rib t\u0259ndird\u0259n bet\u0259r,<br \/>\nQa\u00e7\u0131b o t\u0259ndiri qucaqlayacam.<\/p>\n<p>Anam b\u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259r bir tik\u0259sini,<br \/>\nAnam m\u0259rd \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 dizin qatlayar.<br \/>\nDamdan \u0259skiltm\u0259yin un kis\u0259sini,<br \/>\nAman\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fc, anamdan qabaq<br \/>\nH\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 t\u0259ndirin ba\u011fr\u0131 \u00e7atlayar.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Siz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bu da xasiyy\u0259tdi, c\u0259h\u0259tdi deyin,<br \/>\nS\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z dey\u0259nin n\u0259 h\u0259ddi, deyin.<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131na bir s\u0259n\u0259t q\u0259h\u0259tdi, deyin,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/p>\n<p>Yand\u0131r\u0131n ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 yanacaq edin,<br \/>\nS\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131n q\u0259l\u0259mi oyuncaq edin.<br \/>\n\u00dc\u00e7b\u0259ndli \u015ferimi \u00fc\u00e7bucaq edin,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/p>\n<p>Ke\u00e7in qaba\u011f\u0131ma yolumu tutun,<br \/>\nBir az \u0259rk el\u0259yib qolumu tutun.<br \/>\nH\u0259r\u0259niz bir yandan \u0259limi tutun,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/p>\n<p>Bacar\u0131n i\u00e7imd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131n m\u0259ni,<br \/>\nBir az da incidib \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131n m\u0259ni,<br \/>\nGirdiyim k\u00fcnc\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131n m\u0259ni,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0259brinin qapa\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131, deyin,<br \/>\nQurdu\u011fun yurd-yuva u\u00e7uqdu, deyin.<br \/>\nAy ana, atam\u0131z yaz\u0131qd\u0131, deyin,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/p>\n<p>\u015eairl\u0259r b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259z, b\u00fct\u00fcn olurlar,<br \/>\nT\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xmayan t\u00fct\u00fcn olurlar.<br \/>\n\u015eair balalar\u0131 yetim olurlar,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa<\/p>\n<p>Taleyin k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcm\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fc \u00e7atmad\u0131,<br \/>\n\u0130st\u0259dim \u201cbe\u015f\u201d alam, \u201c\u00fc\u00e7\u201d\u00fc \u00e7atmad\u0131.<br \/>\nAtam\u0131n, Anam\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atmad\u0131,<br \/>\nSiz m\u0259ni qoymay\u0131n \u015fair olma\u011fa.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Atam\u0131, anam\u0131 sevgi aldad\u0131b<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>G\u0259l m\u0259ni aldatma ay d\u0259li \u015feytan,<br \/>\nOnsuz da qovrulub dilim sevgid\u0259n.<br \/>\nQo\u015fa \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 tutub ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131<br \/>\nH\u0259l\u0259 ki, \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m z\u00fcl\u00fcm sevgid\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>Sevgili \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131m b\u0259lk\u0259 daldad\u0131,<br \/>\nBu sevgi \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n el\u0259 bal dad\u0131b.<br \/>\nAtam\u0131, anam\u0131 sevgi aldad\u0131b,<br \/>\nBalam da d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lib sevgid\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7an da sevgid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\nS\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan da sevgid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\nD\u00fcnyada n\u0259 can var sevgid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\nDeyirs\u0259n bu ya\u015fda \u00f6l\u00fcm sevgid\u0259n?<br \/>\nG\u0259l m\u0259ni aldatma, ay d\u0259li \u015feytan!<br \/>\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni aldatma, ay d\u0259li \u015feytan!<\/p>\n<p><strong>S\u0259n vark\u0259n \u00fcmidim Allaha qalmaz<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u0259lim- aya\u011f\u0131m,<br \/>\nH\u0259sr\u0259tin uzanan qolu oluram.<br \/>\nS\u0259nin add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u0259n yerl\u0259ri,<br \/>\nG\u0259z\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi dolu oluram&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn \u0259riy\u0259n bu can b\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259m,<br \/>\nKa\u011f\u0131za, q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 hopan b\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259m.<br \/>\nM\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131b qopan b\u0259nd\u0259y\u0259m,<br \/>\nOnun\u00e7un, a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131n qulu oluram&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Birini dey\u0259nd\u0259 be\u015fin demir\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u018fg\u0259r d\u00f6z\u00fcr\u0259ms\u0259 da\u015fam, d\u0259mir\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcn olmayanda ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m,<br \/>\nS\u0259sin g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259li oluram&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6mr\u00fc kim bil\u0259r, n\u0259 \u00e7oxdu, n\u0259 az,<br \/>\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr xatir\u0259mi g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n as,<br \/>\nS\u0259n vark\u0259n \u00fcmidim, Allah&#8217;a qalmaz,<br \/>\nE\u015fqimd\u0259 Tanr\u0131t\u0259k ulu oluram&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>***<br \/>\nYola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m \u015f\u0259r vaxt\u0131<br \/>\nYoluma \u00e7\u0131xan tap\u0131la.<br \/>\n\u00d6t\u00fcr\u00fcm birt\u0259h\u0259r vaxt\u0131<br \/>\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0131xan tap\u0131la.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6m\u00fcr \u0259kib n\u0259 d\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m.<br \/>\nM\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259lib ged\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m.<br \/>\n\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m.<br \/>\n\u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxan tap\u0131la.<\/p>\n<p>Ad\u0131mca ax\u0131n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u0259lib bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259.<br \/>\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n yuxum t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259<br \/>\n\u018fyilib y\u0131\u011fan tap\u0131la.<\/p>\n<p><strong>M\u0259ni ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda saxla<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0131xaq eni\u015f\u0259 do\u011fru,<br \/>\nDur g\u0259l yoxu\u015fda saxla.<br \/>\nA\u00e7 k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn qap\u0131s\u0131n,<br \/>\nM\u0259ni \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015fda saxla.<\/p>\n<p>Q\u0131\u015f\u0131 biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di,<br \/>\nXo\u015fu biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di,<br \/>\nYa\u015f\u0131 biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di,<br \/>\nQuru bax\u0131\u015fda saxla.<\/p>\n<p>O q\u0259d\u0259r xatir\u0259 var,<br \/>\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimdi suvarar,<br \/>\nYaz ad\u0131m\u0131 divara,<br \/>\nTorpaqda da\u015fda saxla.<\/p>\n<p>Ocaq haqq\u0131 od haqq\u0131,<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0259m\u0259n haqq\u0131 ot haqq\u0131,<br \/>\nAy\u0131r haqdan nahaqq\u0131,<br \/>\n\u00d6m\u00fcrd\u0259 ya\u015fda saxla.<\/p>\n<p>\u00dc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcki bu ocaq,<br \/>\nDamlalar sa\u00e7aq-sa\u00e7aq,<br \/>\n\u0130slanm\u0131\u015f\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan ,<br \/>\nN\u0259 qorxusu olacaq,<br \/>\nM\u0259ni ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda saxla.<\/p>\n<p><strong>19 fevral\u0131n \u015feiri<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Hans\u0131 g\u00fcn do\u011fuldum el\u0259,<br \/>\nO dad han\u0131, o tam han\u0131?<br \/>\nG\u0259li\u015fim\u0259 qurban k\u0259s\u0259n,<br \/>\nAnam han\u0131, Atam han\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>Han\u0131 m\u0259nim o xo\u015f \u00e7a\u011f\u0131m,<br \/>\nHan\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131m,<br \/>\nHan\u0131 s\u0131n\u0131q oyunca\u011f\u0131m,<br \/>\nHan\u0131 k\u00f6vr\u0259k u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Qu\u015f qanadl\u0131 \u00f6td\u00fc g\u00fcnl\u0259r,<br \/>\n\u015eirin han\u0131, ac\u0131 han\u0131?<br \/>\nYarpa\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m,<br \/>\nHan\u0131 tut a\u011fac\u0131 han\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 bir sirr qal\u0131b,<br \/>\nQoy \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131m yar\u0131m g\u0259lsin.<br \/>\n\u00c7iling a\u011fac oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m,<br \/>\nU\u015faql\u0131q dostlar\u0131m g\u0259lsin.<\/p>\n<p>G\u0259lsin g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259,<br \/>\nCo\u015fub qaynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnl\u0259r.<br \/>\nBilm\u0259yib d\u00fcnya be\u015f g\u00fcnd\u00fc,<br \/>\nBe\u015f da\u015f oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnl\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>Hans\u0131 g\u00fcn do\u011fuldum el\u0259,<br \/>\nO dad han\u0131, o tam han\u0131?<br \/>\nG\u0259li\u015fim\u0259 qurban k\u0259s\u0259n,<br \/>\nAnam han\u0131, Atam han\u0131?<\/p>\n<p><strong>Eh..dilim qu\u015f dilidi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Sald\u0131m al\u0259m\u0259 soraq,<br \/>\nBir ka\u011f\u0131zd\u0131, bir varaq.<br \/>\nBu d\u00fcnyan\u0131 \u0259n\u0259lh\u0259q-<br \/>\nSand\u0131m N\u0259simi kimi\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Doland\u0131m \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131na,<br \/>\nSar\u0131ld\u0131m vara\u011f\u0131na.<br \/>\nT\u0259k Tanr\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131na-<br \/>\nEndim N\u0259simi kimi..<\/p>\n<p>Misra qovuran sacam,<br \/>\nH\u0259r \u015fer\u0259,s\u00f6z\u0259 acam.<br \/>\nKa\u015f olayd\u0131 bir hecam-<br \/>\nB\u0259ndim N\u0259simi kimi..<\/p>\n<p>S\u00fcr \u00f6mr\u00fc.. aln\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q..<br \/>\nYerin yoxsa, G\u00f6y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x.<br \/>\n\u015e\u0259h\u0259rim dar a\u011fac\u0131-<br \/>\nK\u0259ndim N\u0259simi kimi..<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259sr\u0259tim m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u00fcd\u00fc,<br \/>\nD\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcm da\u015f k\u00fcl\u00fcd\u00fc..<br \/>\nEh..dilim qu\u015f dilidi-<br \/>\nDindim N\u0259simi kimi..<\/p>\n<p>Yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131m g\u0259r\u0259yimd\u0259n,<br \/>\nOxland\u0131m k\u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n,<br \/>\nSoyuldum \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n-<br \/>\nYand\u0131m N\u0259simi kimi!!!<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u00d6m\u00fcr ipdi tutmu\u015fuq<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>\u00d6m\u00fcr ipdi tutmu\u015fuq<br \/>\n\u00c7\u0259kib ba\u011flayar bizi.<br \/>\nVallah Tanr\u0131d\u0131 d\u00f6z\u0259n<br \/>\nDe, kim saxlayar bizi?<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259l\u0259 yay, q\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00e7oxdu,<br \/>\nG\u0259li\u015fi-gedi\u015fi \u00e7oxdu.<br \/>\nAllah\u0131n i\u015fi \u00e7oxdu,<br \/>\nBir g\u00fcn yoxlayar bizi.<\/p>\n<p>A\u00e7 d\u0259rdini, a\u00e7, dan\u0131\u015f,<br \/>\nNec\u0259 udur acmam\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\nHaqq qap\u0131s\u0131n a\u00e7mam\u0131\u015f,<br \/>\n\u018fc\u0259l haqlayar bizi.<\/p>\n<p>A\u011fa a\u011f de, balan var,<br \/>\nDo\u011fru boyda yalan var.<br \/>\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr bizd\u0259n olan var,<br \/>\nB\u0259s kim a\u011flayar bizi?<\/p>\n<p><strong>B\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259dim u\u015faq qald\u0131m<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>N\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131m bu d\u00fcnyayla,<br \/>\nN\u0259 d\u0259 bir yol k\u00fcsd\u00fcm anam.<br \/>\nVerdiyin \u00f6mr\u00fc vara\u011fa,<br \/>\nMisra-misra d\u00fczd\u00fcm anam.<\/p>\n<p>Qald\u0131m nec\u0259,\u00f6ld\u00fcm nec\u0259,<br \/>\nAx\u0131r\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm he\u00e7-he\u00e7\u0259,<br \/>\nBaxd\u0131m g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bir gec\u0259,<br \/>\n\u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u00fczd\u00fcm anam.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcn kimi qara-a\u011f qald\u0131m,<br \/>\nD\u0259rdin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u015fax qald\u0131m,<br \/>\nB\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259dim u\u015faq qald\u0131m,<br \/>\nO ki var uduzdum anam.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Tanr\u0131d\u0131, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b yiy\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>He\u00e7 bekar vaxt\u0131 yoxdu,<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qat\u0131r adam.<br \/>\nBazar\u0131 ba\u011flananda<br \/>\nAdam\u0131 sat\u0131r adam.<\/p>\n<p>\u018fl at\u0131r, ayaq qal\u0131r<br \/>\nOd tutur soyuq qal\u0131r.<br \/>\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 ay\u0131q qal\u0131r?<br \/>\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 yat\u0131r adam?<\/p>\n<p>Deyir s\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc,<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u0259 bax\u0131r \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr,<br \/>\n\u00d6zg\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc<br \/>\nEl\u0259 aldad\u0131r adam.<\/p>\n<p>Min yoxu\u015f \u0259zib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\nDola\u015f\u0131b, g\u0259zib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\nSulardan \u00fcz\u00fcb \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\nQuruda bat\u0131r adam.<\/p>\n<p>Tanr\u0131d\u0131, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b yiy\u0259,<br \/>\n\u018flini a\u00e7\u0131r g\u00f6y\u0259,<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7ini yey\u0259-yey\u0259,<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u0259n n\u0259 dad\u0131r adam?<\/p>\n<p><strong>G\u00f6yl\u0259r \u015fairl\u0259rindi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>O\u011fluma<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0131xar, qadas\u0131, \u00e7\u0131xar,<br \/>\n\u015eeytan atas\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xar.<br \/>\nSonra xatas\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar<br \/>\nB\u0259yn\u0259n, oynama, bala\u2026<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6z-qa\u015f\u0131n yer s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcr,<br \/>\n\u00d6m\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 adam s\u00fcr\u00fcr \u2013<br \/>\nZ\u00fclm\u0259ti kor da g\u00f6r\u00fcr,<br \/>\nAynan, oynama, bala.<\/p>\n<p>Bu yer ki, var d\u0259rindi,<br \/>\nYerl\u0259\u015fmis\u0259n yerindi,<br \/>\nG\u00f6yl\u0259r \u015fairl\u0259rindi \u2013<br \/>\nG\u00f6yn\u0259n, oynama bala.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Y\u0131x\u0131lan bils\u0259&#8230;<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>He\u00e7 kim bilmir qism\u0259ti,<br \/>\nS\u0131nacaq, \u0259yil\u0259c\u0259k.<br \/>\nBu g\u00fcnd\u0259n sabahad\u0259k<br \/>\nBa\u015f\u0131na n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k?<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259yat sirdi, na\u011f\u0131ld\u0131,<br \/>\nBat\u0131b bo\u011fula bil\u0259r.<br \/>\n\u00d6m\u00fcr muncuq kimidir,<br \/>\nQ\u0259fil da\u011f\u0131la bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>D\u0259rdin d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r\u0131 var,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z y\u0131xar, q\u0131\u015f \u0259y\u0259r.<br \/>\nY\u0131x\u0131lan bils\u0259 yer\u0259,<br \/>\nYor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k d\u00f6\u015f\u0259y\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p><strong>A\u011faca s\u00f6yk\u0259n dar\u0131x<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Biri oda d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259,<br \/>\nBiri d\u00f6n\u00fcb su olar.<br \/>\nArabir vaxt tapanda,<br \/>\nDar\u0131x m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn, nolar.<\/p>\n<p>Bir az ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni,<br \/>\nBel\u0259 s\u0259hvin i\u00e7ind\u0259.<br \/>\nDar\u0131x \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259,<br \/>\nDar\u0131x evin i\u00e7ind\u0259.<\/p>\n<p>Piyada yol ged\u0259nd\u0259,<br \/>\nLap q\u0259fil s\u0259ks\u0259n, dar\u0131x.<br \/>\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax,<br \/>\nA\u011faca s\u00f6yk\u0259n, dar\u0131x.<\/p>\n<p>Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259ktublar\u0131,<br \/>\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f.<br \/>\nDar\u0131x ax\u015fam t\u0259r\u0259fi,<br \/>\nDar\u0131x s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n<p>Biri oda d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259,<br \/>\nBiri d\u00f6n\u00fcb su olar.<br \/>\nArabir vaxt tapanda,<br \/>\nDar\u0131x m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn, nolar.<\/p>\n<p><strong>Dem\u0259 cans\u0131z ka\u011f\u0131zd\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 da\u011fd\u0131 b\u0259lk\u0259,<br \/>\nBu t\u0259z\u0259 d\u0259rdim s\u0259n\u0259.<br \/>\n\u0130ndic\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdirmi\u015f\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u015e\u0259kil g\u00f6nd\u0259rdim s\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n<p>Vaxts\u0131z g\u0259l\u0259n qonaqd\u0131,<br \/>\nG\u00f6r\u0259n n\u0259 deyir indi?<br \/>\n\u015e\u0259klim acd\u0131 bilir\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fc yeyir indi.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bax,<br \/>\nG\u00f6r bir nec\u0259 saral\u0131b.<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 yuxusu g\u0259lir,<br \/>\nYol g\u0259libdi yorulub.<\/p>\n<p>Dem\u0259 cans\u0131z ka\u011f\u0131zd\u0131,<br \/>\nH\u0259rar\u0259ti, odu var.<br \/>\nO q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kib,<br \/>\nB\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nin ad\u0131 var.<\/p>\n<p>D\u00f6n\u00fcb qay\u0131da bilm\u0259z,<br \/>\nH\u0259r yerd\u0259n yolu ba\u011fl\u0131.<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259,<br \/>\nBoynu b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n<p>K\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 da\u011fd\u0131 b\u0259lk\u0259,<br \/>\nBu t\u0259z\u0259 d\u0259rdim s\u0259n\u0259.<br \/>\n\u0130ndic\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdirmi\u015f\u0259m,<br \/>\n\u015e\u0259kil g\u00f6nd\u0259rdim s\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n<p><strong>\u015eairin ya\u015f\u0131 olmur<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Hara harad\u0131 bilmir,<br \/>\nA\u011fd\u0131, qarad\u0131 bilmir.<br \/>\n\u00d6m\u00fcr indi ba\u015flay\u0131b<br \/>\nYoxsa yar\u0131d\u0131 bilmir<br \/>\n\u015eairin ya\u015f\u0131 olmur.<\/p>\n<p>Bahara gend\u0259n bax\u0131r,<br \/>\nPay\u0131z\u0131, q\u0131\u015f\u0131 olur.<br \/>\nD\u00fcnyada \u015firin n\u0259 var\u2013<br \/>\nDadma\u011fa na\u015f\u0131 olur<br \/>\n\u015eairin ya\u015f\u0131 olmur.<\/p>\n<p>Da\u011f boyda \u0259zab\u0131na,<br \/>\nTab g\u0259tir\u0259n sin\u0259di.<br \/>\nYaran\u0131\u015fdan itirir<br \/>\n\u00d6m\u00fcr adl\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259di<br \/>\n\u015eairin ya\u015f\u0131 olmur.<\/p>\n<p>\u018fyilmir nak\u0259sl\u0259r\u0259,<br \/>\n\u015eam\u015fax qal\u0131r el\u0259c\u0259.<br \/>\n\u00c7iynind\u0259 ill\u0259r yat\u0131r<br \/>\nU\u015faq qal\u0131r el\u0259c\u0259.<br \/>\n\u015eairin ya\u015f\u0131 olmur.<\/p>\n<p>Bu gedimli d\u00fcnyada,<br \/>\n\u00d6ls\u0259 d\u0259 diri olur,<br \/>\n\u00d6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fc<br \/>\nAprelin 1-i olur<br \/>\n\u015eairin ya\u015f\u0131 olmur.<\/p>\n<p><strong>M\u0259nzilin m\u00fcbar\u0259k<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Dem\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm-itim n\u0259di<br \/>\nYen\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm yetiml\u0259di.<br \/>\n\u018fvv\u0259lim\u0259 yet\u0259nm\u0259din<br \/>\n\u0130ndi sonuma ke\u00e7mis\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6m\u00fcr tar\u0131-mar idis\u0259,<br \/>\nD\u00fcnya s\u0259n\u0259 dar idis\u0259,<br \/>\n\u0130st\u0259diyin yar 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