{"id":856,"date":"2021-04-04T21:51:19","date_gmt":"2021-04-04T17:51:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=856"},"modified":"2021-04-04T21:51:19","modified_gmt":"2021-04-04T17:51:19","slug":"m%c9%99nim-sevimli-yaddasim-muharib%c9%99-hekay%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/m%c9%99nim-sevimli-yaddasim-muharib%c9%99-hekay%c9%99si\/","title":{"rendered":"M\u0259nim sevimli yadda\u015f\u0131m – M\u00fcharib\u0259 hekay\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hospitaldan ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n qazini qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7r\u0259ngli bayraqlar\u0131 yell\u0259d\u0259-yell\u0259d\u0259 \u015f\u0259nl\u0259nir, gah t\u0259k-t\u0259k aramla, gah da ham\u0131s\u0131 bira\u011f\u0131zdan q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131: “\u0130gid \u0259sg\u0259r, s\u0259ninl\u0259 q\u00fcrur duyuruq!\u201d, “Qaraba\u011f-Az\u0259rbaycand\u0131r!\u201d, “Qazimiz\u0259 e\u015fq olsun!\u201d, “\u015e\u0259hidl\u0259r \u00f6lm\u0259z, V\u0259t\u0259n b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259z!\u201d. <\/strong><\/p>\n

X\u0259fif, lakin t\u0259pt\u0259z\u0259 ovqatla n\u0259f\u0259s alan camaat, qonum-qon\u015fu, qohum-\u0259qraba aras\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131 b\u0259yaz \u00f6rp\u0259kli b\u0259st\u0259boy bir q\u0131z da vard\u0131; o, g\u00fclm\u00fcrd\u00fc, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131, izdiham\u0131n arxas\u0131nda, qon\u015fu arvadlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131la-s\u0131x\u0131la durub \u0259l-qol a\u00e7anlara bax\u0131r, arabir x\u0131rda yumru burnundan s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb boyas\u0131z dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n a\u011f maskas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ldirdi. Maskan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 sanki \u00e7oxalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, son aylarda yuxuya getmi\u015f bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259 oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fk\u0259n v\u0259 \u0259xlaqs\u0131z d\u00fcnyayi-al\u0259m pandemik virusa tutulandan k\u0259ndd\u0259 d\u0259 adamlar\u0131n s\u0131x topla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerl\u0259rd\u0259 maskas\u0131z \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa icaz\u0259 verilmirdi. Amma bu g\u00fcn t\u0259k-t\u00fck adam maska taxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131; camaat maska hay\u0131nda deyildi, k\u0259nd q\u0259hr\u0259man qazisini qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131raqlar\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259rl\u0259 nax\u0131\u015flanm\u0131\u015f qara \u00f6rp\u0259kli qad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259liq\u0259siz g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bir\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini, sevinc dolu \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k, h\u0259m d\u0259 o f\u0259xar\u0259tin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar i\u00e7ind\u0259 bo\u011fuldu\u011funa sakitc\u0259 baxmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi, adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi kabab olurdu. Qad\u0131n qazinin anas\u0131yd\u0131, \u0259ll\u0259rini uzad\u0131b ham\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259sum u\u015faq kimi g\u00fcl\u0259n o\u011flunun boynunu qucaqlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ev\u0259 yax\u0131n adamlar da bir-birinin ard\u0131nca o\u011flan\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Kims\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini k\u0259ndin t\u0259rt\u0259miz g\u00f6yl\u0259rin\u0259 (k\u0259ndd\u0259 yer d\u0259, g\u00f6y d\u0259 t\u0259mizdi!) tutub dua el\u0259di:<\/p>\n

-\u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr! Buna da \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, P\u0259rv\u0259rdigara! Ay M\u0259sm\u0259, o\u011flun evin\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fc, sa\u011f-salamatd\u0131!<\/p>\n

Darvaza taybatay a\u00e7\u0131q idi; boz r\u0259ngli “Volqa” adamla dolu h\u0259y\u0259tin i\u00e7in\u0259 girmi\u015fdi. Ya\u015f\u0131l da\u011flar\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yin\u0259d\u0259k uzanan \u00f6r\u00fc\u015f sah\u0259sind\u0259n h\u00fcnd\u00fcrboylu saqqal\u0131 ki\u015fi (g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, evin yax\u0131n adam\u0131yd\u0131!) boynuna q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 lent ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f erk\u0259yi \u0259rkl\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f, qazinin ayaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131na s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yirdi. Q\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u0259\u015finin h\u0259y\u0259t-bacan\u0131 yalayan il\u0131q \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri qo\u00e7un g\u00f6zl\u0259rini i\u015f\u0131ldad\u0131rd\u0131; heyvan\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan od t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, ya da, b\u0259lk\u0259 qurbanl\u0131q olmaq ist\u0259mirdi dey\u0259, saqqall\u0131 ar\u0131q ki\u015fini g\u00fcc\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259hay\u0259t, qo\u00e7 k\u0259sildi, ya\u015fl\u0131 arvadlardan biri barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qana bat\u0131r\u0131b qazinin aln\u0131na s\u00fcrtd\u00fc, kims\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rlik d\u0259 yand\u0131rd\u0131, t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u00fc v\u0259 \u0259tirli qoxunu o\u011flan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 p\u00fcfl\u0259di. O, is\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, ham\u0131ya g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, el\u0259 bil on doqquz ild\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi bu ev\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259m bas\u0131rd\u0131, bu q\u0259d\u0259r adam g\u00f6r\u00fcr, s\u0259s-k\u00fcy e\u015fidirdi.<\/p>\n

Qon\u015fu arvadlardan biri maskal\u0131 q\u0131za t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-Yaz\u0131q M\u0259sm\u0259! Bel\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259rd olar?! Yen\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha ki, \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259di. Deyir, yadda\u015f\u0131 da get-ged\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n

-\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, – q\u0131z \u0259min p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

-Vallah, m\u0259n he\u00e7 inanm\u0131ram, – soyuqdan b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f o biri qon\u015fu da s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u2013 Deyir, h\u0259kim qalmad\u0131 g\u0259tiribl\u0259r, xeyri d\u0259 olmay\u0131b. G\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n adamlara s\u0259m\u0259 kimi bax\u0131r?! Yadda\u015f\u0131n itm\u0259yinin \u0259lam\u0259tidi d\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0259d\u0259r aral\u0131da qara maska v\u0259 eyn\u0259k taxm\u0131\u015f cavan qad\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 qalstuklu b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259sin\u0259 ucadan deyirdi:<\/p>\n

-Bilirsiz, Mamed m\u00fc\u0259llim, unutqanl\u0131q ad\u0259t\u0259n qocalara m\u0259xsus olur. Onlar \u00e7ox vaxt h\u0259yat\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131l\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rini cavanl\u0131qdan \u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rlar, ya\u015fa dolanda beyind\u0259ki yadda\u015f h\u00fcceyr\u0259l\u0259ri bu y\u00fck\u0259 tab g\u0259tirmir\u2026<\/p>\n

A\u011f maskal\u0131 q\u0131z d\u0259rhal geriy\u0259 boyland\u0131: g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 i\u015f\u00e7isi b\u00fct\u00fcn diqq\u0259tini izdihama y\u00f6n\u0259lts\u0259 d\u0259, guya qad\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 hey t\u0259rp\u0259dir; qad\u0131n t\u0259xmin\u0259n otuz-otuz be\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131nda olard\u0131, k\u0259nd adam\u0131 deyildi, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. “\u00c7\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r! \u0130nan Allaha, \u0259ynind\u0259 qara isti g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259si olmasa, dey\u0259rdin b\u0259s, ill\u0259rdi \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yem\u0259yib!\u201d A\u011f maskal\u0131 q\u0131z qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131 pi\u015fik kimi \u015f\u0259kl\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

-\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n biridi bu,- yad qad\u0131n davam el\u0259di.- \u0130lham Teymurovun durumu bamba\u015fqad\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259lik bel\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 – beyin bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sakitl\u0259\u015f\u0259r; ax\u0131 g\u0259ncdi, g\u0259ncl\u0259rin unutma\u011fa a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckl\u00fc xatir\u0259l\u0259ri olmur. Onlar yadda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 pis \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n t\u0259mizl\u0259yib g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 getm\u0259lidi\u2026<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259can qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q maraq b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Az sonra o, “Niva\u201dya minib izdihamdan uzaqla\u015fan b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 i\u015f\u00e7isiyl\u0259 qara maskal\u0131 yad qad\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131nca (kim bilir, hans\u0131 hissl\u0259rl\u0259!) uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259tin nisb\u0259t\u0259n sakit gu\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 is\u0259 qazi atas\u0131 daha ciddi i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful idi, yerli televiziya kanal\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcxbirin\u0259 m\u00fcsahib\u0259 verirdi.<\/p>\n

-On o\u011flum olsayd\u0131 ha, vallahi-billahi, onunu da g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rdim, t\u0259ki torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z azad olsun, otuz illik h\u0259sr\u0259timiz sona yetsin\u2026<\/p>\n

-\u0130gid o\u011fullar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n v\u0259 \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rimizin qan\u0131 bahas\u0131na q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131q, – dizl\u0259ri y\u0131rt\u0131lm\u0131\u015f cins \u015falvarl\u0131 m\u00fcxbir q\u0131z ataya fikrini tamamlama\u011fa aman vermirdi. – O\u011flunuzun m\u00fcalic\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn “Ya\u015fat\u201d fonduna m\u00fcraci\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259ksiz?<\/p>\n

-Yox, ay q\u0131z\u0131m, – g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, ata sual\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 anlamad\u0131, t\u0259l\u0259sik cavab verdi. \u2013 Sa\u011f olsun h\u00f6kum\u0259timiz v\u0259 h\u0259kiml\u0259rimiz, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni el\u0259dil\u0259r. K\u0259nd u\u015fa\u011f\u0131d\u0131, can\u0131 b\u0259rkdi, he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmaz. Allah qoysa, yadda\u015f\u0131 da d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r!<\/p>\n

Noyabr\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fc \u015eu\u015fa yolunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 onun be\u015f add\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131nda rus m\u0259rmisi partlad\u0131; q\u0259lp\u0259l\u0259r bir ne\u00e7\u0259 yerd\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259nini d\u0259lik-d\u0259lik el\u0259mi\u015fdi, \u0259n iri q\u0259lp\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na girmi\u015fdi. V\u0259 bundan sonra o, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi xat\u0131rlamad\u0131: d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7iynind\u0259 s\u0259hra hospital\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259si, ilk yard\u0131m, vertalyotla Bak\u0131ya u\u00e7mas\u0131, hospitalda tibb bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n “apar\u0131n morqa, \u00f6l\u00fcb!\u201d k\u0259d\u0259rli-k\u0259d\u0259rli ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulamas\u0131, n\u0259hay\u0259t, t\u00fcrk c\u0259rrah\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259hlizd\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n ayaq saxlay\u0131b onun bil\u0259yind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fmas\u0131, x\u0259r\u0259yi aparanlara “durun! geriy\u0259, c\u0259rrahiyy\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131na apar\u0131n!\u201d dem\u0259si d\u0259 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. O, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u0259m\u0259liyyatdan sonra da ay\u0131lmad\u0131, komaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcz q\u0131rx g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda b\u00fct\u00fcn hospital bayram el\u0259di. Ham\u0131 sevinirdi, amma sevinc \u00e7ox uzun s\u00fcrm\u0259di, m\u0259lum oldu ki, yaral\u0131 he\u00e7 kimi tan\u0131m\u0131r, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi xat\u0131rlam\u0131r, nitqind\u0259 q\u00fcsur yaran\u0131b. \u0130zmirli beyin c\u0259rrah\u0131 ataya dedi:<\/p>\n

-\u00d6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259tind\u0259 bel\u0259 hallar olur, t\u0259dric\u0259n yadda\u015f\u0131 da qay\u0131dar…amma qay\u0131tmaya da bil\u0259r!<\/p>\n

H\u0259min g\u00fcnd\u0259n ail\u0259 \u00e7ox qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q duy\u011fularla ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131; sevinc, q\u00fcrur, k\u0259d\u0259r, \u00fcmid, t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf, a\u011fr\u0131, \u0259zab, b\u0259z\u0259n inam, b\u0259z\u0259n is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131 qar\u011f\u0131yan ah-nal\u0259 ail\u0259y\u0259, illah da anaya dinclik vermirdi. Bu o zaman ba\u015f verdi ki, o\u011flu onu tan\u0131mad\u0131; el\u0259 hey ham\u0131ya g\u00fcl\u00fcr, gah g\u00f6zl\u0259rini tavana zill\u0259yir, gah q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r, say\u0131qlay\u0131r, gah da uyuyur, saatlarla yat\u0131rd\u0131.Q\u0259rib\u0259 buydu ki, bel\u0259 vaxtlarda M\u0259sm\u0259 erm\u0259ni analar\u0131na yox, rus analar\u0131na qar\u011f\u0131\u015f edirdi. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, arvad\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6yr\u00fckm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, Ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na hav\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Yerli q\u0259zetl\u0259r, saytlar is\u0259 qazid\u0259n yaz\u0131rd\u0131, onun d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f \u015f\u00fcca\u0259tind\u0259n, orden v\u0259 medallar\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r yay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ax\u0131r ki, ata-anas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131, daha he\u00e7 kimi v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259yi xat\u0131rlaya bilm\u0259di. Harda v\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oldu\u011funu bel\u0259 unutmu\u015fdu, yax\u0131n ke\u00e7mi\u015fini d\u0259 unutmu\u015fdu. V\u0259t\u0259n m\u00fcharib\u0259sini, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u015f\u0259hid olan dostlar\u0131n\u0131, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n tanklar\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259ng\u0259rl\u0259rini darmada\u011f\u0131n etm\u0259yini, azad etdikl\u0259ri rayonlarda \u00fc\u00e7r\u0259ngli bayraqlar\u0131n dalbadal sanc\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131, d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f dostlar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r z\u0259f\u0259r sevincind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131b d\u00f6vr\u0259 vura-vura r\u0259qs etm\u0259sini, oxumas\u0131n\u0131…h\u0259r \u015feyi v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259si unutdu.<\/p>\n

Hay-k\u00fcyl\u00fc t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259d\u0259n sonra qa\u015f qaralar-qaralmaz el-oba da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259nd q\u0131\u015f\u0131n son gec\u0259sinin ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan do\u011fan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki qulaq\u00e7\u0259k\u0259n s\u00fckuta q\u0259rq oldu.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kir\u0259mitli aynab\u0259ndli ev Lovay\u0131n g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131, d\u0259d\u0259-baba qaydas\u0131yla tikilmi\u015fdi. Ail\u0259 varl\u0131 deyildi, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u0259lik qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131ndan qopa bilm\u0259y\u0259n milyon-milyon adi k\u0259ndli ail\u0259sind\u0259n biriydi. Evin arxa hiss\u0259sind\u0259 t\u0259p\u0259likl\u0259rin \u0259t\u0259yin\u0259 dir\u0259n\u0259n t\u0259xmin\u0259n d\u00f6rd sotluq sah\u0259d\u0259 sitrus ba\u011f\u0131 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. H\u0259r il q\u0131\u015f gir\u0259r-girm\u0259z ba\u011fdan y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan meyv\u0259l\u0259ri rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259n g\u0259lib topdansat\u0131\u015f qiym\u0259t\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ail\u0259 sat\u0131lan m\u0259hsuldan g\u0259l\u0259n g\u0259lirl\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259bat\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259yirdi. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay \u0259vv\u0259l o\u011flunu h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t\u0259 yola salanda ata \u00f6z \u00f6hd\u0259liyini d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdir\u0259r\u0259k arvad\u0131na demi\u015fdi:<\/p>\n

– Meyv\u0259 bol olsa, h\u0259y\u0259tin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0130li\u015f\u00e7\u00fcn ev tik\u0259rik, sonra evl\u0259ndir\u0259rik. Dar\u0131sqal ev\u0259 g\u0259lin g\u0259tirm\u0259k olmaz.<\/p>\n

– \u0130n\u015fallah! -M\u0259sm\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Qazi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si da\u011flara baxan sa\u011f tind\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik ota\u011f\u0131 ay\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 orta otaqda yat\u0131rd\u0131, ata-ana m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 biti\u015fik otaqda yerl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. Evin qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00e7ox da geni\u015f olmayan \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259li art\u0131rma qonaq ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z edirdi. Ad\u0259t\u0259n ail\u0259 daha \u00e7ox burada vaxt ke\u00e7irirdi.<\/p>\n

Bazar ert\u0259si s\u0259h\u0259r ev\u0259 yerli b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259nin s\u0259driyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 h\u0259kim-psixoterapevt g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

-Xo\u015f g\u0259libsiz! Allah k\u00f6m\u0259yiniz olsun! U\u015faq el\u0259 bil q\u0131\u015f yuxusuna gedib. \u0130ndil\u0259rd\u0259 durar…Ke\u00e7in i\u00e7\u0259ri,- ana qonaqlar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

-Narahat olma, M\u0259sm\u0259 bac\u0131! \u018fslind\u0259 \u00e7ox yatma\u011f\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131, – b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 s\u0259dri bil\u0259n adam kimi dedi, d\u0259rhal \u015f\u0259h\u0259rli qad\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259qdim el\u0259di: \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m Bak\u0131dan g\u0259lib, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bizim k\u0259nd x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. K\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fcd\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

-\u00c7ox xo\u015f g\u0259lib doktor xan\u0131m! – ata dedi. \u2013 Vallah, m\u00fcharib\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 sal\u0131b…Buyurun, uzaq yol g\u0259libsiz, yor\u011funsuz, dincinizi al\u0131n…<\/p>\n

-Yox, yox, \u0259ziyy\u0259ti-filan\u0131 yoxdu, borcumuzdu. \u0130lham kimi igid o\u011flanlar\u0131m\u0131zah\u0259r \u015fey halald\u0131, t\u0259ki sa\u011fals\u0131n…<\/p>\n

-Eh, ay doktor, m\u0259nim balam ya\u015fam\u0131r, yox, yox, he\u00e7 ya\u015fam\u0131r! – M\u0259sm\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi, arvad\u0131n \u015fi\u015fkin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yen\u0259 doldu. \u2013 Gec\u0259l\u0259r say\u0131qlay\u0131r, s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f\u0131r, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi xat\u0131rlam\u0131r… he\u00e7 kimi tan\u0131m\u0131r. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 “mama\u201d deyib, v\u0259ssalam. Can bala, can, Allah el\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrs\u00fcn!<\/p>\n

-Azz, yeri, yeri, \u00e7ay g\u0259tir, qona\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda bizi biab\u0131r el\u0259m\u0259! – \u0259ri arvad\u0131na\u00e7\u0259mkirdi.<\/p>\n

Bac\u0131lar yuxudan durmu\u015fdular, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 aynab\u0259nd\u0259 girib t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n g\u0259nc h\u0259kim qad\u0131na maraqla bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131z var, Allah saxlas\u0131n! – psixoterapevt u\u015faqlar\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-G\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcz olsun! – M\u0259sm\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sik m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ya\u015fca b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131nca y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. B\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 s\u0259dri qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259rt sif\u0259tini bac\u0131lardan \u0259n ki\u00e7iyin\u0259 tutdu, soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

-S\u0259n niy\u0259 bel\u0259 ar\u0131qsan, balaca? \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k yemirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

U\u015faq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sallad\u0131, dinm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

-Ad\u0131n n\u0259dir? \u2013 h\u0259kim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n qolundan tutub sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tumarlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ayt\u0259n. O da Aynurdu.<\/p>\n

-Ay ma\u015fallah! Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var?<\/p>\n

-S\u0259kkiz! Aynurun on ya\u015f\u0131 var! Ayg\u00fcn\u00fcn is\u0259 on be\u015f olacaq!<\/p>\n

-Ay ma\u015fallah! B\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259lumatlar s\u0259nd\u0259di ki! – b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 s\u0259dri g\u00fcld\u00fc. – Ayt\u0259n, m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 gedirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

-Yox, pandemiyad\u0131. Polis icaz\u0259 vermir…Aynur da getmir. Ayg\u00fcn anaya k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

Ata \u0259lind\u0259 i\u00e7i meyv\u0259yl\u0259 dolu iri m\u0259cm\u0259yi aynab\u0259nd\u0259 girdi.<\/p>\n

-H\u0259y\u0259timizindi, \u00f6t\u0259n ild\u0259n a\u011facda saxlam\u0131\u015fam, – dey\u0259 porta\u011fal v\u0259 nar\u0131ngil\u0259ri i\u015far\u0259 el\u0259di. – \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259lmisiz, bir dad\u0131na bax\u0131n, bel\u0259sini oralarda tapmazs\u0131z, g\u00fcbr\u0259sizdi.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 nar\u0131ngid\u0259n birini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00fcr\u0259ksiz soyma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131, amma yem\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ay m\u0259rasimind\u0259n sonra b\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259 s\u0259dri \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi, h\u0259kim seansa ba\u015flad\u0131. M\u0259sm\u0259, \u0259ri v\u0259 bac\u0131lar g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00fcmidl\u0259 h\u0259kim\u0259 dikmi\u015fdil\u0259r. F\u0259rid\u0259 ilk seans\u0131n u\u011fursuz oldu\u011funu evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 bildirm\u0259di, dedi:<\/p>\n

-K\u0259ll\u0259-beyin travmas\u0131 siz\u0259 zarafat g\u0259lm\u0259sin. D\u00fczg\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir, tez-tez \u00e7a\u015f\u0131r. Seanslar\u0131n xeyri olacaq, bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck i\u015f deyil.<\/p>\n

Seanslar davam edirdi. Art\u0131q bir ay idi ki, x\u0259st\u0259 “ana\u201d, “ata\u201d dan ba\u015fqa s\u00f6z bilmirdi, bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131; xalalar, day\u0131lar, \u0259mil\u0259r, bibil\u0259r el\u0259 bil he\u00e7 \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n yox idil\u0259r; ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f-bili\u015fl\u0259r, qazinin ke\u00e7mi\u015f sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 da x\u0259st\u0259d\u0259n ayr\u0131landan sonra ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bulay\u0131r, k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r:<\/p>\n

-Yadda\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259tin qay\u0131ts\u0131n.<\/p>\n

-D\u0259rmanlar da xeyir el\u0259mir, ham\u0131s\u0131 geydirm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

K\u0259ndin ya\u015fl\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7oxbilmi\u015f qar\u0131lar\u0131 is\u0259 ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r:<\/p>\n

-H\u0259kimdi, d\u0259rmand\u0131 – bunlar bo\u015f \u015feyl\u0259rdi, balam. T\u00fcrk\u0259\u00e7ar\u0259…t\u00fcrk\u0259\u00e7ar\u0259\u2026 Ya da u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 apar, c\u0259ddin\u0259 qurban Seyid A\u011fan\u0131n yan\u0131na, g\u00f6r nec\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k!<\/p>\n

-Vallah, bu u\u015faq ya\u015fam\u0131r! Ke\u00e7mi\u015fi xat\u0131rlam\u0131rsa, dem\u0259li, ya\u015fam\u0131r, bu g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi d\u0259 yoxdu!<\/p>\n

-Ka\u015f el\u0259 o da m\u0259nim n\u0259v\u0259m kimi \u015f\u0259hid olayd\u0131\u2026 Ma\u011f\u0131l bil\u0259rdik ki, o biri d\u00fcnyada behi\u015ftlik yeri var! Yaz\u0131q u\u015faq, n\u0259 burda, n\u0259 d\u0259 ordad\u0131…Ya\u015fam\u0131r, vallah, ya\u015fam\u0131r! Bel\u0259 h\u0259yat olmaz! \u2013 bunu da Molla H\u00f6cc\u0259tulla \u015f\u0259hid n\u0259v\u0259sinin yas m\u0259clisind\u0259 demi\u015fdi v\u0259 s\u00f6z g\u0259lib \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 M\u0259sm\u0259nin qula\u011f\u0131na. Arvad\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131 qurumurdu ki!<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131r \u00e7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259y\u0259 bir g\u00fcn qalm\u0131\u015f h\u0259kim n\u00f6vb\u0259ti seans\u0131n\u0131 bitirib qazinin ota\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0259yus halda \u00e7\u0131xanda M\u0259sm\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

-Doktor, daha \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin…bir aydan \u00e7oxdu yol \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcrs\u00fcz, xeyri d\u0259 yoxdu. N\u0259 u\u015fa\u011fa, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 \u0259zab verin.<\/p>\n

-N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131z? Bu n\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u00fc! Siz onu tez-tez t\u0259miz havaya \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131n, yax\u015f\u0131 qidaland\u0131r\u0131n, xeyri olacaq.<\/p>\n

-Evd\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xara bilmir\u0259m, s\u0259n\u0259 qurban! \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 qapan\u0131b! B\u0259s m\u0259n haran\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131ma t\u00f6k\u00fcm?!<\/p>\n

H\u0259tta Kitablar da qad\u0131nlar\u0131 biri birind\u0259n f\u0259ql\u0259ndirir. M\u0259g\u0259r ulduzlar\u0131 m\u00fcqayis\u0259 etm\u0259k olar? Olar, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, olar. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rli g\u0259nc qad\u0131n k\u0259nd x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kabinetd\u0259 oturub d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, h\u0259tta \u0259kiz qad\u0131nlar\u0131 da biri-birind\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259ndirm\u0259k olar. Son vaxtlar M\u0259sm\u0259 anan\u0131n atmacalar\u0131 v\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra bu q\u0259na\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r v\u0259 k\u0259nd qad\u0131nlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda mental f\u0259rql\u0259r \u00e7oxdur; b\u0259z\u0259n k\u0259nd qad\u0131nlar\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc birba\u015fa deyirl\u0259r, \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n adam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bozar\u0131rlar. Misal \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, M\u0259sm\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 anlam\u0131r, adamlar\u0131 incik sal\u0131r. H\u0259, h\u0259, el\u0259 onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 psixoloji v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 M\u0259sm\u0259nin yerind\u0259 kim olsayd\u0131, ondan da bet\u0259r olard\u0131\u2026 Yox, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 deyil! Biz \u00e7ox oxuyuruq, onlar – \u00e7ox bilirl\u0259r! \u018fslind\u0259 bel\u0259di!\u201d. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda F\u0259rid\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tuturdu; o, psixoloji m\u00fcalic\u0259 \u00fcsullar\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259tic\u0259 verm\u0259diyind\u0259n p\u0259ri\u015fan olmu\u015fdu. Bu g\u00fcn psixoterapiyaya ehtiyac\u0131 olan qazil\u0259rimiz azm\u0131d\u0131r? Onlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259si bir f\u0259rddir, h\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259 eyni c\u00fcr yana\u015fmaq olmur. B\u0259z\u0259n F\u0259rid\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259lki h\u0259yatla m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n sonrak\u0131 h\u0259yat he\u00e7 bir halda bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mir. M\u00fcharib\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n astar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evirir. El\u0259 o \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 sanki q\u0259fil qopan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r k\u00fcl\u0259yinin y\u0131r\u011falay\u0131b k\u0259nd\u0259 tullad\u0131\u011f\u0131 adam olub. Ax\u0131 o, qalib \u00f6lk\u0259nin qalib h\u0259kimiydi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan. B\u0259s n\u0259d\u0259n qazini sa\u011falda bilmir? Onun m\u00fcalic\u0259 \u00fcsullar\u0131n\u0131n he\u00e7 biri i\u015f\u0259 yaram\u0131r. Yox, el\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc sabah \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259k burdan!\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u0259nc qad\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda f\u0131rlanan dola\u015f\u0131q fikirl\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259 q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n peyda olan suallar da az deyildi; bu suallar son g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u015f\u0259hid tabutlar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda analar\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan qopan f\u0259ryadlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sanki n\u00f6y\u00fct t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 bir anl\u0131q F\u0259rid\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, h\u0259r yan onun i\u00e7i kimi yan\u0131r, alovlan\u0131r. Ax\u0131 biz m\u00fcharib\u0259ni udmu\u015fuq! “M\u0259g\u0259r m\u00fcharib\u0259ni udan\u0131n qan\u0131 axm\u0131r? M\u0259g\u0259r qalib \u015f\u0259hid vermir? M\u0259g\u0259r qalibin qazisi, igidi, qorxa\u011f\u0131, satq\u0131n\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131s\u0131 olmur? M\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l bunlar\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259zdin, \u00e7\u00fcnki s\u0259n haqq sava\u015f\u0131na gedirdin – g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck co\u015fquyla, ruhunla, b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259lbinl\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan qovma\u011fa gedirdin. S\u0259nin buna haqq\u0131n vard\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259n o HAQQI qazand\u0131n. Sonra h\u0259yat bamba\u015fqa olur \u2013 qazand\u0131qlar\u0131na yox, itirdikl\u0259rin\u0259 yan\u0131rsan. \u0130llah da ki, itirdikl\u0259rin aras\u0131nda \u0259ziz insan ola! M\u0259n o qazinin anas\u0131n\u0131 da q\u0131nam\u0131ram. Kim deyir ki, m\u00fcharib\u0259 insan\u0131 b\u0259rkidir, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7in\u0259 kimi yalan deyir. Kim deyir ki, m\u00fcharib\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259 daxili dinclik, rahatl\u0131qd\u0131? N\u0259 dinclik, n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q? D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259yib\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnl\u0259r u\u00e7duqca qazinin hal\u0131 daha da pisl\u0259\u015firdi; M\u0259sm\u0259 o\u011flunun s\u0131n\u0131xm\u0131\u015f v\u00fccuduna bax\u0131r, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilmirdi. B\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259 anlar olurdu ki, arvad havalan\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacan\u0131 dola\u015f\u0131r, gah \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131, gah ev\u0259 g\u0259lib-ged\u0259n adamlar\u0131 sanc\u0131r, gah da dizl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcb h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fri arvad\u0131n\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyirdi:<\/p>\n

– U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda a\u011flama! \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al, camaat\u0131n u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u015f\u0259hid olub, s\u0259ninki sa\u011f-salamat g\u0259lib. Ham\u0131 bizim o\u011flumuzun igidliyind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, h\u00f6kum\u0259t ona orden-medal verib, q\u0259zetl\u0259r, televiziyalar ondan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Biz\u0259 b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rlik oxuyanlar da var…<\/p>\n

– Neynir\u0259m o b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rliyi! Ka\u015f o\u011flum qolsuz, ayaqs\u0131z g\u0259l\u0259ydi, amma yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259y\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

\u018fr-arvad aras\u0131nda bel\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r tez-tez olurdu.<\/p>\n

K\u0259ndd\u0259 M\u0259sm\u0259 kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n arvadlar az deyildi. \u015e\u0259hid analar\u0131 da t\u0259xmin\u0259n eyni c\u00fcr fikirl\u0259\u015firdil\u0259r. “Zarafat deyil, ki\u00e7ik bir k\u0259nd\u0259 on iki \u015f\u0259hid g\u0259lib. Onlar\u0131 m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 h\u0259min analar yola salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 ham\u0131 “s\u00fcd\u00fcm s\u0259n\u0259 halal olmaz, s\u0259n ba\u015f \u0259ys\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259!\u201d dem\u0259mi\u015fdimi? H\u0259, demi\u015fdi! Onlar da \u015f\u0259hid oldular, amma qalib kimi qay\u0131td\u0131lar. Ana \u00f6z\u00fc F\u0259rid\u0259 h\u0259kim\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, h\u0259min o Molla H\u00f6cc\u0259tullan\u0131n n\u0259v\u0259sinin \u00fc\u00e7r\u0259ngli tabutunu anas\u0131 \u00e7iynind\u0259 aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 m\u0259zarl\u0131\u011fa. El\u0259 \u00f6z bald\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcr\u0259k\u0259ni d\u0259 \u015f\u0259hid olub, onu da el\u0259 \u00f6z xan\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7iynind\u0259 apar\u0131b basd\u0131rma\u011fa\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259 qazinin evind\u0259n qay\u0131dandan s\u00f6nra xeyli g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy edirdi – \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131ts\u0131n, yoxsa qay\u0131tmas\u0131n? Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131, durub p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7maq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 qap\u0131 arxas\u0131ndan s\u0259s e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

Kims\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcrk\u0259k-\u00fcrk\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc. G\u0259nc qad\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259kil\u0259rd\u0259n qopub s\u0259s\u0259 boyland\u0131, bir anl\u0131q susdu. Qap\u0131 yen\u0259 astaca d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-Kims\u0259n? G\u0259l i\u00e7\u0259ri\u2026- ucadan s\u0259sl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

-Doktor, salam. – i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n sol\u011fun b\u0259nizli b\u0259st\u0259boy q\u0131z dill\u0259ndi. \u2013Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, sizi narahat etdim. Sizinl\u0259 vacib s\u00f6hb\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn buraya g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259t el\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

H\u0259kim t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn\u00fc gizl\u0259tm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015f v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli simas\u0131 ona qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fclayim r\u0259\u011fb\u0259t oyatd\u0131, qad\u0131n\u0131n mara\u011f\u0131 artd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Buyurun, e\u015fidir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259nim ad\u0131m \u0130lah\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

-\u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l, \u0130lah\u0259. N\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir? Probleminiz var?<\/p>\n

-\u015e\u0259xsi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259di, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

S\u00fckut ota\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Bax\u0131\u015flar toqqu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

-Bilirsiz\u2026 m\u0259n\u2026 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki\u2026deyir\u0259m, adam \u00e7ox sevdiyi \u015feyi unuda bilmir\u2026<\/p>\n

-H\u0259, el\u0259di\u2026el\u0259di\u2026<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n\u2026. m\u0259n\u2026 onunla bir sinifd\u0259 oxumu\u015fam. Biz\u2026\u2026.biz\u2026bir-birimizi sevirdik. O, \u0259sg\u0259r ged\u0259nd\u0259\u2026. m\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdi ki\u2026<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z yen\u0259 susdu. Onlar bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bel\u0259c\u0259 bax\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. F\u0259rid\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q g\u0259ldi, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259ndi, t\u0259ran\u0259 kimi u\u00e7maq ist\u0259di\u2026Bu anlarda el\u0259 bil ona qiym\u0259tli h\u0259diyy\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131lar, \u015firin v\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sli h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259yl\u0259 onu a\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-\u0130lah\u0259, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 anlay\u0131ram s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

-Sa\u011f olun. Bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, o nec\u0259di, \u00fcmid varm\u0131?<\/p>\n

-B\u0259s \u00f6z\u00fcn niy\u0259 gedib soru\u015fmursan?<\/p>\n

-Nec\u0259 gedim ax\u0131? Anas\u0131 m\u0259ni ist\u0259mir\u2026bilirsiz\u2026ist\u0259mir m\u0259ni. O\u011fluna \u00f6z qarda\u015f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zalt\u0131 el\u0259mi\u015fdi, o da \u00f6zg\u0259sin\u0259 qu\u015fulub qa\u00e7d\u0131\u2026Amma biz biri-birimizi sevirik\u2026 vallah, \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 dam\u0131b ki, m\u0259ni g\u00f6rs\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259ssiz toqqu\u015fdu. Araya d\u0259rin s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, he\u00e7 kim onu pozmaq ist\u0259mirdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k iti add\u0131mlarla q\u0131za yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, q\u0259tiyy\u0259tli s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

-Sabah \u00f6z\u00fcm s\u0259ni aparacam. G\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259niml\u0259?<\/p>\n

-G\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

Bayram\u0131n birinci g\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259kiml\u0259 \u0130lah\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259 M\u0259sm\u0259 \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tur\u015fudub \u0259rin\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

-Bu niy\u0259 g\u0259lib?<\/p>\n

-G\u0259lib g\u0259lib d\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcnk\u00fcd\u00fc\u2026qovmayacaqsan ki?!<\/p>\n

Qazi onlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi yerind\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini xeyli ovu\u015fdurdu. El\u0259 bil ba\u015f\u0131nda q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7axd\u0131, can\u0131 gizild\u0259di, damarlar\u0131ndan c\u0259r\u0259yan ke\u00e7di, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131mlar \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6r kim g\u0259lib?! \u2013 h\u0259kim g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– \u0130lham, m\u0259ni tan\u0131d\u0131n? – \u0130lah\u0259 maskas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b F\u0259rid\u0259d\u0259n qabaq ir\u0259li yeridi, o\u011flan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u0259tilin tu\u015funda durdu.<\/p>\n

Qazi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131za zill\u0259mi\u015fdi; o bax\u0131\u015flar yava\u015f-yava\u015f alovlan\u0131rd\u0131, yum\u015fal\u0131rd\u0131, \u0259riyirdi; q\u0131z mavi don geyinmi\u015fdi, uzun qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259bli kimi iki yerd\u0259n h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259mi\u015fdi. H\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259rin ucuna a\u011f lent vurmu\u015fdu, \u0259lind\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bli \u00e7antas\u0131 vard\u0131, el\u0259 bil indic\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7a-a\u00e7a h\u0259y\u0259canla:<\/p>\n

– Bax g\u00f6r s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m?!- dey\u0259 \u00e7antan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259kil\u0259ri bir-bir \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b k\u0259tilin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fczd\u00fc: q\u0131raqlar\u0131 b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi g\u00fcll\u0259rl\u0259 nax\u0131\u015flanm\u0131\u015f s\u00fcd r\u0259ngli k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131, \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 g\u00fcn eyn\u0259yi, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 “Bax\u00e7asaray\u201d yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f turk \u0259tiri, \u015f\u0259kil d\u00fczm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn r\u0259ngli, balaca albom, \u0259l boyda ka\u011f\u0131zda yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u0259ktub, bir d\u0259 a\u011f mirvari d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rinin s\u0259f-s\u0259f d\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc yalan\u00e7\u0131 boyunba\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

O\u011flan h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131.<\/p>\n

-\u0130lah\u0259!<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutub s\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131n!<\/p>\n

-S\u0259ni unutmaq olar?<\/p>\n

– \u0130lk sevginin yadda\u015f\u0131 g\u00fccl\u00fc olur…<\/p>\n

– \u0130lk v\u0259 son sevginin\u2026- o\u011flan d\u0259rhal d\u00fcz\u0259li\u015f el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– De g\u00f6r\u00fcm, \u0259sg\u0259rliy\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b kitabxanas\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 demi\u015fdin?<\/p>\n

– S\u00f6z… demi\u015fdim… S\u00f6z\u00fcm s\u00f6zd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z yan-y\u00f6r\u0259sin\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259l qoymadan o\u011flana sar\u0131ld\u0131, onun g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n boynunu islad\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259nim sevimli qazim! Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc h\u0259r \u015fey?<\/p>\n

O\u011flan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudu \u0259sirdi, az \u00f6nc\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7axan ild\u0131r\u0131mlar el\u0259 bil yox oldu, indi beyin h\u00fcceyr\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 sanki nar\u0131n-nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f \u00e7is\u0259yirdi. O q\u0131z\u0131n belind\u0259n b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, buraxmaq ist\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n

-H\u0259r \u015fey yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr: son z\u0259ngd\u0259 bu mavi donu geymi\u015fdin, s\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu \u015feyl\u0259r d\u0259 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 saxlam\u0131san! Aman Allah, xat\u0131rlad\u0131m: m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getm\u0259yimiz, qartopu oynama\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, evinizin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 pal\u0131dl\u0131q, \u0259sg\u0259r getm\u0259yim, m\u00fcharib\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259ktub, dostlar\u0131m, \u015eu\u015fa yolu… Aman Allah! S\u0259n yen\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi sevimlis\u0259n!<\/p>\n

-S\u0259n d\u0259!<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rli h\u0259kimin hal\u0131 qarma\u011fa ili\u015f\u0259n bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n qopub t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n suya d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259di; o, ayaqlar\u0131 ucunda sakitc\u0259 v\u0259 arxay\u0131n-arxay\u0131n otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rini ilk yaz ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Kamran N\u0259zirli<\/b><\/p>\n

Bak\u0131, 28 mart 2021-ci il<\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hospitaldan ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n qazini qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7r\u0259ngli bayraqlar\u0131 yell\u0259d\u0259-yell\u0259d\u0259 \u015f\u0259nl\u0259nir, gah t\u0259k-t\u0259k aramla, gah da ham\u0131s\u0131 bira\u011f\u0131zdan q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131: “\u0130gid \u0259sg\u0259r, s\u0259ninl\u0259 q\u00fcrur duyuruq!\u201d, “Qaraba\u011f-Az\u0259rbaycand\u0131r!\u201d, “Qazimiz\u0259 e\u015fq olsun!\u201d, “\u015e\u0259hidl\u0259r \u00f6lm\u0259z, V\u0259t\u0259n b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259z!\u201d. X\u0259fif, lakin t\u0259pt\u0259z\u0259 ovqatla n\u0259f\u0259s alan camaat, qonum-qon\u015fu, qohum-\u0259qraba aras\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131 b\u0259yaz \u00f6rp\u0259kli b\u0259st\u0259boy bir q\u0131z da vard\u0131; o, g\u00fclm\u00fcrd\u00fc, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131, izdiham\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":857,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/856"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=856"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/856\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":858,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/856\/revisions\/858"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/857"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=856"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=856"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=856"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}