{"id":921,"date":"2021-04-20T11:33:33","date_gmt":"2021-04-20T07:33:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=921"},"modified":"2021-04-20T22:04:14","modified_gmt":"2021-04-20T18:04:14","slug":"yorulub-oturdum-varagin-bir-kuncund%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/yorulub-oturdum-varagin-bir-kuncund%c9%99-seirl%c9%99r\/","title":{"rendered":"Yorulub oturdum vara\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 – \u015eeirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

Qulu A\u011fs\u0259s<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

M\u00fcharib\u0259 \u0259lili<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00dczd\u00fc ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259n yolu
\nqay\u0131td\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcqoylu\u2026
\nqay\u0131td\u0131m
\nqur\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131n yuxar\u0131 qat\u0131yla,
\nqay\u0131td\u0131m
\n\u0259lil arabas\u0131n\u0131n at\u0131yla\u2026
\n\u0130ki balam g\u00f6z\u00fcya\u015fl\u0131
\narvad\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131da\u015fl\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131q h\u0259r \u0259mr\u0259 m\u00fcnt\u0259zir:
\nh\u0259m m\u0259ni g\u0259zdirir,
\nh\u0259m \u2026 \u00f6z\u00fc g\u0259zir\u2026
\nS\u00fcfr\u0259md\u0259 haram var \u2013
\ndinmir\u0259m,
\n\u0130ki ac balam var \u2013
\ndinmir\u0259m.
\nDinmir\u0259m
\ng\u00fcl a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131landa heyr\u0259tin:
\n\u00abV\u0259t\u0259ni qorudun, b\u0259s \u00f6z qeyr\u0259tin?!\u00bb
\n\u2026 \u00dczd\u00fc ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259n yolu
\nbu da m\u0259n\u0259 \u00absa\u011f ol\u00bbu\u2026<\/p>\n

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\nG\u00f6rs\u0259n ki, qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr al\u0259m\u0259,
\nG\u00f6rs\u0259n ki, ax\u015famd\u0131\u2026fikir el\u0259m\u0259.
\nBir u\u00e7uq yuxudu gec\u0259nin boyu
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r imkan var rahatlan, uyu\u2026<\/p>\n

Q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n bir \u00e7a\u011fa salar hay-h\u0259\u015fir
\nS\u0259h\u0259r \u2013 k\u00f6rp\u0259sidi do\u011fan G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin.
\nOnu ovutma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259r ham\u0131,
\nBel\u0259c\u0259, salarlar yen\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131.<\/p>\n

T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n qaramat basar d\u00fcnyan\u0131,
\nHan\u0131 do\u011fan G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f? k\u00f6rp\u0259si han\u0131?
\n\u2026 G\u00f6rs\u0259n h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n \u0259lin \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr,
\nG\u00f6rs\u0259n \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrs\u0259n\u2026yand\u0131r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n

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\n\u00c7ox da sal\u0131b d\u00fcnyan\u0131 eyn\u0259yim g\u00f6zd\u0259n \u2013 nolar
\nA\u011f\u0131z suyuyla bitir dodaqda s\u00f6z d\u0259 \u2013 nolar\u2026
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin i\u015fdi, g\u00f6r n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l c\u0259zan var,
\nD\u00f6rd t\u0259r\u0259fin k\u00f6p\u0259ks\u0259, dem\u0259k, m\u00fchafiz\u0259n var\u2026<\/p>\n

Yer t\u0259rp\u0259nir \u2013 t\u0259rp\u0259nsin, sallanarsan budaqdan
\nBir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn \u0259l edir kims\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 uzaqdan\u2026
\nN\u0259 laz\u0131m, uzaqba\u015f\u0131 birc\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n ola
\nGec\u0259nin bir yar\u0131s\u0131 q\u0259fil qona\u011f\u0131n ola\u2026<\/p>\n

Sev\u0259s\u0259n bu g\u0259li\u015fi ba\u015fdan aya\u011fa kimi
\nK\u00fcsd\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flaya qoynunda \u00e7a\u011fa kimi\u2026
\nGed\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 yalvar \u2013 yap\u0131\u015f apara
\nG\u00fcn g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f d\u0259risin g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015f apara\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026 Ged\u0259, bir d\u0259 qap\u0131ndan \u0259c\u0259l gir\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f x\u0259st\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya \u015f\u00fca ver\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

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\nCan\u0131m-g\u00f6z\u00fcm, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr de ki,
\n\u00d6ls\u0259n d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n \u00fcstd\u0259ki \u2013
\nP\u0259mb\u0259 buluddu, da\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n

Sevm\u0259yi var, sancma\u011f\u0131 var
\nBaxma h\u0259rd\u0259n u\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 var \u2013
\n\u00dcr\u0259k yuvad\u0131, qu\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n

Neyn\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m g\u00f6r\u0259n s\u0259nsiz?!
\nHa ist\u0259dim \u00f6l\u0259m s\u0259nsiz \u2013
\nBaxd\u0131m ki, m\u0259nlik i\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n

Bu da m\u0259nim baxt\u0131mdand\u0131,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm Tanr\u0131 taxt\u0131ndad\u0131 \u2013
\nOnun da yeri bo\u015f deyil\u2026<\/p>\n

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\n\u00d6z\u00fcn da\u011f ba\u015f\u0131na qoyan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin
\naya\u011f\u0131n xan k\u0259ndi yuyurdu
\nk\u00fcr\u0259yinin t\u0259ri
\nc\u0131d\u0131rda soyuyurdu.
\nGirm\u0259zdi
\nduman\u0131na g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131,
\nhavas\u0131na \u00e7ay qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131.
\nQayalar\u0131 s\u0259rxo\u015f idi,
\nadamlar\u0131 tay-tu\u015f idi,
\nk\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri tay-ke\u015f idi.
\nQ\u0259bir\u00fcst\u00fc yaz\u0131lar\u0131
\nn\u0259\u011fm\u0259 kimi oxunurdu,
\nkolda-kosda t\u0259l\u0259f olan
\nqurd-qu\u015fu g\u00fcl qoxuyurdu.
\nKim idi qalxan o boyda da\u011f\u0131? –
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sallan\u0131b enirdi qona\u011f\u0131.
\n… Da\u011f\u0131n dizl\u0259ri \u0259sdi bir may s\u0259h\u0259ri
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131
\naya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n suyuna qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin…<\/p>\n

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\nBu d\u00fcnyada he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259dim…
\nO d\u00fcnyada soru\u015fsalar:
\ns\u0259n kims\u0259n? \u2013
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yumub, a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7acam!
\nDey\u0259c\u0259m ki:
\nalt\u0131ndak\u0131 skamyada
\nbir yol \u00f6z\u00fc oturmayan
\nyor\u011fun a\u011facam…<\/p>\n

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\nYorulub oturdum
\nvara\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yim it kimi ulay\u0131r
\nit kimi…
\nat g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259.
\nQ\u0131\u015fa bir taya \u015feir y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fam
\ns\u00f6z\u00fc misraya vura – vura.
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f – m\u00fcq\u0259vva g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259ydi
\ngec\u0259ni qu\u015f kimi qorxuzub u\u00e7ura…
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m:
\nYa\u015famaq!
\n\u2013 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n zor i\u015fi!
\nYa\u015famaq!
\n\u2013 ir\u0259li qovaraq ke\u00e7mi\u015fi!
\nF\u0259q\u0259t…
\nist\u0259yir\u0259m \u0259c\u0259l g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259
\nqar\u015f\u0131mda he\u00e7 n\u0259 dayanmas\u0131n.
\nM\u0259ni el\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n ki,
\nsevgilim yuxudan oyanmas\u0131n…<\/p>\n

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\nYast\u0131q qoyub ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za
\n\u0259c\u0259b yat\u0131rd\u0131n bizi.
\nA\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n
\nQ\u0131r\u0131b bat\u0131rd\u0131 bizi.<\/p>\n

Milyon ill\u0259rdi yeyirik
\nS\u00fcfr\u0259nin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndan.
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k bizi tutar deyin,
\nDinmirik qaba\u011f\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 boydasan g\u00f6r\u0259n heyl\u0259?
\nBir \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcy\u0259 g\u0259lmirs\u0259n?
\nBa\u015f \u00e7\u0259kmirs\u0259n qullar\u0131na
\nBiz\u0259 niy\u0259 g\u0259lmirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2026\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259k d\u0259,
\nXofun yamand\u0131, Allah!
\nBizi q\u0131r\u0131b qurtarmam\u0131\u015f,
\n\u00d6lm\u0259, amand\u0131, Allah!..<\/p>\n

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\nKims\u0259n, n\u0259\u00e7is\u0259n, ay Allah \u2013
\nHe\u00e7 s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015f tapammad\u0131q.
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn qurdu\u011fun d\u00fcnyada
\nS\u0259n\u0259 bir i\u015f tapammad\u0131q.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u00fcn nec\u0259 ke\u00e7ir bar\u0131,
\nCan verib can alma\u011f\u0131nnan?..
\nS\u0259ni n\u0259yn\u0259n b\u0259nd\u0259 salaq,
\nTutaq hans\u0131 qarma\u011fnan?!<\/p>\n

G\u00f6rs\u0259k, he\u00e7 n\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259rik,
\nBir \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259r biz\u0259!
\nYax\u015f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259g\u0259r busa,
\nYaman g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259r biz\u0259!..<\/p>\n

Neyl\u0259s\u0259n, sevir\u0259m s\u0259ni,
\nQulunam, g\u0259l min boynuma!..
\nBu \u015feiri d\u0259 s\u0259n yazm\u0131san,
\nBabal\u0131 m\u0259nim boynuma\u2026<\/p>\n

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\nN\u0259 olar, bir s\u0259h\u0259r durub g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n,
\nDivarlar \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 Allah yazd\u0131r\u0131b.
\nQ\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc soyuqdan \u00f6l\u0259n a\u011fac\u0131n
\nYas\u0131na mart ay\u0131 yarpaq yazd\u0131r\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259s\u0259n, odu k\u00f6z\u0259rir,
\n\u0130\u015f\u0131q vermir, amma i\u015f\u0131q s\u00f6z verir.
\nBirc\u0259 eybi var ki, d\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u0259lin
\nM\u0259ni quca\u011f\u0131na qonaq yazd\u0131r\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr o g\u00f6yd\u0259ki ismin hal\u0131na,
\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr qar\u0131na.
\n\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z jurnal\u0131na
\n\u018fc\u0259l adqoydudan qabaq yazd\u0131r\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n

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\n\u0130\u015fdi-q\u0259zad\u0131
\ns\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l \u00f6ls\u0259m,
\nm\u0259ni son m\u0259nzil\u0259 apar\u0131rlar g\u00f6rs\u0259n,
\nv\u0259siyy\u0259tim\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l el\u0259:
\nArxamca su at,
\nu\u011fur dil\u0259.
\nSa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 yolma,
\nk\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259.
\nAllah\u0131n yan\u0131na gedir\u0259m
\n\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 ayr\u0131 \u015fey g\u0259tirm\u0259,
\nBorclunun qap\u0131s\u0131n d\u00f6y\u0259rl\u0259r:
\nYegan\u0259 borclu qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m
\n\u0259v\u0259zini verm\u0259d\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m
\nson n\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259n \u00f6zg\u0259
\nkims\u0259ni qap\u0131ma yax\u0131n qoyma.
\nBir d\u0259
\nta u\u015faq deyils\u0259n
\nburnunun suyunu
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ax\u0131dan
\nbu faniy\u0259 uyma\u2026<\/p>\n

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\nR\u0259ngsizdi, tams\u0131zd\u0131,
\n\u0259tsiz-qans\u0131zd\u0131,
\nAllahs\u0131z, imans\u0131zd\u0131,
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

N\u0259fsi b\u0131\u00e7aqdan iti,
\ni\u00e7imi da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, didir,
\nvecin\u0259 deyil\u0259m q\u0259ti
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259rin.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 \u0259t deyil,
\nn\u0259 siqaret
\nDey\u0259s\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildi, qurtard\u0131.
\n…D\u00fcnya, Tale, Tanr\u0131 deyil\u0259n
\nn\u0259 var ham\u0131s\u0131 g\u00fcnahkard\u0131
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259r\u0259.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rdi n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259sidi,
\nn\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131lacaq,
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259rin.
\n…Bir g\u00fcn “s\u0259rgisi” a\u00e7\u0131lacaq,
\nM\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259rin.<\/p>\n

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\nYaz\u0131rsan: \u00ab\u00d6l\u00fcr\u0259m\u2026\u00bb Min \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, alq\u0131\u015f!
\nN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, sevgid\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 var.
\nDem\u0259, ki\u015fid\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259l\u0259k olarm\u0131\u015f,
\n\u018fzray\u0131l olanda ax\u0131 n\u0259 olar…<\/p>\n

Bilmir\u0259m d\u00fcnyan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xti deyim,
\nBilmir\u0259m d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u0259db\u0259xti s\u0259n\u0259.
\nD\u00fcz\u00fc, ist\u0259mir\u0259m x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259yim,
\nCavab axtar\u0131ram n\u0259 vaxtd\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259…<\/p>\n

Kims\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qoymaz i\u00e7\u0259ri \u2013
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn ke\u015fiyin balam \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259.
\nSevgi \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u00fcr m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6t\u0259ri,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259ni s\u0259vm\u0259kl\u0259 dala \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Cavab m\u0259ktubumda s\u00f6zl\u0259r ba\u015f-ayaq,
\nBir ucdan yazilir, pozulur el\u0259.
\nQorxuram \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n sevgin ya\u015faya,
\nQorxuram qalasan – m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u00f6l\u0259.<\/p>\n

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\nDan yeri – gec\u0259nin g\u00f6yd\u0259 od tutan
\nba\u011fr\u0131d\u0131.
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin varm\u0131? –
\nBilmir\u0259m.
\nBir d\u0259 yarpaq salma k\u00fcl\u0259k po\u00e7tuna.
\nBa\u011fl\u0131d\u0131.
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin varm\u0131? –
\nBilmir\u0259m.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yin – i\u00e7\u0259ri qap\u0131nd\u0131 S\u0259nin,
\nA\u00e7 g\u00f6r\u0259k, n\u0259yin var
\nqab\u0131nda S\u0259nin?!
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb… qal\u0131qda
\nS\u0259ni Saxlad\u0131.
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin varm\u0131? –
\nBilmir\u0259m.
\nH\u0259r\u0259miz borcludu
\nbir can \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259,
\n\u00d6ls\u0259k d\u0259, tapmar\u0131q
\n\u0259ncam \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259.
\nTanr\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131r bizi… Ancaq
\n\u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 yoxlad\u0131r.
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin varm\u0131? –
\nBilmir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

Tural Ad\u0131\u015firinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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