{"id":926,"date":"2021-04-22T17:57:27","date_gmt":"2021-04-22T13:57:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/?p=926"},"modified":"2021-04-22T18:02:08","modified_gmt":"2021-04-22T14:02:08","slug":"fatma-bacara-kolg%c9%99-asiql%c9%99r-povest","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/fatma-bacara-kolg%c9%99-asiql%c9%99r-povest\/","title":{"rendered":"Fatma Bacara – K\u00f6lg\u0259 A\u015fiql\u0259r (POVEST)"},"content":{"rendered":"

T\u00fcrkiy\u0259li yazar Fatma Bacaran\u0131n \u201c K\u00f6lg\u0259 A\u015fiql\u0259r \u201c povesti<\/em> insan\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na vaxts\u0131z, g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n e\u015fqd\u0259n b\u0259hs edir. \u00d6mr\u00fcn ortalar\u0131nda da g\u0259l\u0259n sevda bir k\u00f6lg\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir, ya bir yay g\u00fcn\u0259\u015find\u0259 itir, ya da pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na qar\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Povesti t\u0259qdim edirik:<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r eyvandak\u0131 yuvalar\u0131ndan u\u00e7maq \u00fczr\u0259ydi ki, Hac\u0131 H\u00fcseyn h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Fayton\u00e7u C\u0259lil qap\u0131da onu xeyli vaxt\u0131yd\u0131 ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259dyind\u0259n s\u0259bri t\u00fck\u0259nmi\u015fdi. D\u00fcn\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc C\u0259lilin ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259hlil\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f atlar\u0131 ram etm\u0259y\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, faytonu t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259yi unutmu\u015fdu. Dua edirdi ki, ay Allah, n\u0259 olar, Hac\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259ki nat\u0259mizliyi g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. H\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ndan saqqal\u0131n\u0131 dart\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, d\u0259rind\u0259n \u0259sn\u0259di. Hac\u0131, ax\u0131r ki, g\u0259lib faytonda oturdu. Q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 neylondan olan tozlu xal\u00e7an\u0131n bir ucu oturacaqdan s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 sallanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hac\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 el\u0259 doluydu ki, bu t\u00f6r- t\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcy\u0259 fikir ver\u0259si halda deyildi. Onu yola salan o\u011fullar\u0131na uzun-uzad\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015fl\u0259r vermi\u015f, gethagetd\u0259 bir d\u0259 t\u0259krar dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa l\u00fczum g\u00f6rm\u0259yib, s\u00f6hb\u0259ti q\u0131sa el\u0259mi\u015fdi: \u201c Qalib, dediyim kimi, ma\u011fazan\u0131 sahibsiz buraxmay\u0131n. Fuad da d\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra ma\u011fazaya g\u0259lsin. \u0130stanbula \u00e7atan kimi sizi arayacam, yax\u015f\u0131m\u0131?\u201d
\nAltm\u0131\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 Hac\u0131n\u0131n sif\u0259tinin cizgil\u0259ri \u00e7ox s\u0259rt idi. A\u011farm\u0131\u015f saqqal\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259n q\u0131rxd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 b\u0259rb\u0259r S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259. Buxara papaq daz ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tamamil\u0259 \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Hac\u0131 o\u011flanlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox sevir, amma h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 p\u0259rd\u0259li dolan\u0131r, onlara sevgisini hiss etdirmirdi. Hac\u0131n\u0131n n\u00fcfuzlu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 alt\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131lan o\u011flanlar\u0131 \u201c Oldu, ata\u201d dey\u0259 ba\u015flar\u0131yla onun dedikl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nHac\u0131 bu g\u00fcn saat alt\u0131da \u0130stanbula ged\u0259n avtobusa yeti\u015fm\u0259liydi. Mal almal\u0131yd\u0131. Amma fikri-zikri qalacaqd\u0131 i\u015fd\u0259. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, o\u011flanlar\u0131 onun ist\u0259diyi canf\u0259\u015fanl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u0259zmi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilmirdil\u0259r. Fayton yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259r- t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131:\u201d A\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, Qalib, kiray\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011fma\u011f\u0131 yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarma, bildinmi? Di, salamat qal\u0131n!\u201d
\nFayton tind\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n it\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r, u\u015faqlar yerl\u0259rind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259dil\u0259r. Sonra d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b bir-birini g\u00f6zalt\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u0130ri c\u00fcss\u0259li Qalib qarda\u015f\u0131 Fuaddan ya\u015fca da b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Fuad universitetd\u0259 ikinci kursda oxuyurdu. Z\u0259if, c\u0131l\u0131z b\u0259d\u0259nli bir cavan idi. Qumral sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6n\u0259 darayan bu g\u0259ncin ki\u00e7ik, \u015fabal\u0131d\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n safl\u0131q ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b, d\u0259hliz\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259 – \u201cValla, bu g\u00fcn ma\u011fazaya g\u0259l\u0259mm\u0259yc\u0259m, qarda\u015f, \u00fcz\u00fcrl\u00fc say\u201d – dedi. Qarda\u015f\u0131na baxan Qalib, – \u201cAtam narahat olmaqda, dey\u0259s\u0259n, haql\u0131d\u0131r\u201d, \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u00c7\u00fcnki t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olandan sonra Fuad q\u0259rib\u0259 dostlar qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 .
\n\u201cBu h\u0259ft\u0259 izl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u00fcm, kiml\u0259rdi onun dostlar\u0131? Off, bir d\u0259 bu kiray\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011fmaq var ha, \u0259n \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdiyim \u015feydi. Sa\u011f olsun, atam da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6nd\u0259rir\u201d \u2013 fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259n Qalibin can\u0131 s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131\u2026
\nR\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng yaz \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 \u0259tir sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Eyvan\u0131n tavan\u0131n\u0131n mill\u0259ri aras\u0131nda yuva quran s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin civiltil\u0259ri h\u0259y\u0259ti ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, bir canlanma \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. Sanki \u201cbiz oyand\u0131q, siz d\u0259 oyan\u0131n\u201d deyirdil\u0259r. Qalib pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 eyvana qalx\u0131b, q\u0259dim tikili olan ev\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Zal\u0131n d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f s\u00fcfr\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u00fcfr\u0259nin k\u0259nar\u0131nda oturdu. \u201cSamir\u0259, \u00e7ay g\u0259tir\u201d -dey\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Be\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutmu\u015f g\u0259nc bir qad\u0131n otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturtdu. O, asta s\u0259sl\u0259 Qalib\u0259: \u201cU\u015faq da s\u0259ninl\u0259 yesin, yoxsa, yemir\u201d \u2013 dedi, sonra \u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 bo\u015f st\u0259kan\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, \u00e7ay g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 getdi. Qalib bir yandan yeyir, o biri yandan da g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucuyla o\u011flunu s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u0259ynind\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n toxudu\u011fu ya\u015f\u0131l yundan k\u00f6yn\u0259k vard\u0131. Yuxudan t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 qalxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sa\u00e7lar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n-Ay\u0259, k\u0259rata, de g\u00f6r\u0259k, niy\u0259 yem\u0259k yemirs\u0259n?
\nQa\u015fqaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f u\u015faq \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini q\u0131sd\u0131:
\n-\u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m.
\n-De g\u00f6r\u00fcm bir, atas\u0131n\u0131n qo\u00e7u.
\nYumurtan\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na at\u0131b, \u0259ynin\u0259 x\u0131rda g\u00fcll\u00fc, uzun \u0259t\u0259kli don geyinmi\u015f, \u0259lind\u0259 sini ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 durmu\u015f arvad\u0131na baxd\u0131: -\u201cYoxsa, ananm\u0131 hirsl\u0259ndi s\u0259n\u0259?\u201d dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. \u201cMurad pa\u015fama kim n\u0259 deyib, bir bil\u0259k.\u201d
\n-Kim n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k, t\u0259rs u\u015faqd\u0131, s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n tutdurub ki, M\u0259tingil\u0259 ged\u0259k.
\n– O\u011flum, M\u0259tin kimdir?
\n– Dostu, qon\u015fumuz Raziy\u0259nin o\u011fludur.
\n-Qoy s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini yesin, apar anas\u0131, Murad pa\u015fam\u0131 \u00fczm\u0259k olmaz. Hayd\u0131, qo\u00e7um, qarn\u0131n\u0131 doyuzdur.
\nO\u011flunun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tumarlasa da, u\u015faq t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di. Anas\u0131 qaynad\u0131lm\u0131\u015f yumurtan\u0131n qab\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 soyub, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 bo\u015fqaba qoydu. Bu vaxt m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n y\u0131r\u011falana-y\u0131r\u011falana g\u0259l\u0259n dolu b\u0259d\u0259nli, ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n d\u0259rind\u0259n ufuldad\u0131:
\n-Atan getdimi, o\u011flum?
\n\u018flind\u0259ki lava\u015flar\u0131 s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 qoydu. Ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u0259la\u011fay\u0131n\u0131n uclar\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 atm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n\u0131n x\u0131nal\u0131 tell\u0259ri \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n-Getdi, getdi, ay ana.
\n-\u00c7ox yax\u015f\u0131, g\u00fcl\u0259- g\u00fcl\u0259 getsin. Qalib, m\u0259n bu gec\u0259 he\u00e7 yatmad\u0131m. Dizl\u0259rimd\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131lar yatma\u011fa qoymad\u0131. \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259ki itl\u0259r yatd\u0131, m\u0259nim yuxum g\u0259lm\u0259di.
\nEl\u0259 bu vaxt \u0259lind\u0259 bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n d\u0259ft\u0259r-kitab tutan Fuad \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xaraq, qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdi:
\n-Ana, m\u0259n getdim d\u0259rs\u0259.
\nAnas\u0131 t\u0259rs- t\u0259rs ona baxd\u0131.
\n– A bala, g\u0259l, bir loxmasa da ye.
\n– Gecikir\u0259m, ay ana. G\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259nmi?
\n– Yaman \u00e7ox d\u0259rs oxuyursunuz, ha!- astadan dill\u0259ndi Qalib.
\n– Oxumaqdan u\u015faqda can qalmay\u0131b, \u00fcf\u00fcrs\u0259n y\u0131x\u0131lacaq, yaman z\u0259ifl\u0259yib. Qalib, qarda\u015f\u0131na niy\u0259 demirs\u0259n ki bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k ye?
\nH\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, anas\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 Fuad art\u0131q \u00e7oxdan getmi\u015fdi. Qalib pendir dilimini lava\u015f\u0131n aras\u0131na qoyub, yedi, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7di. Yolda\u015f\u0131 Samir\u0259 sakit s\u0259sl\u0259, – \u201cQalib, m\u0259ni d\u0259 bu g\u00fcn anamgil\u0259 apararsan\u201d, – dey\u0259 xahi\u015f etdi. Qaynanas\u0131 g\u0259linin\u0259 \u0259yri-\u0259yri baxd\u0131:
\n-Ay g\u0259lin , m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc pis hiss edir\u0259m, t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m evd\u0259?
\nQalib, – \u201c\u0130ndi durub i\u015f\u0259 gets\u0259m, yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq\u201d,- dey\u0259 fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi.
\n-N\u0259 deyirs\u0259n? \u2013 Samir\u0259 Qalibd\u0259n cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Qalib k\u0259s\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259ldi:
\n– Anangil\u0259 sabah ged\u0259rs\u0259n, olarm\u0131? Bu g\u00fcn anam \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc pis hiss edir.
\nSamir\u0259 sussa da, \u0259rinin s\u00f6zl\u0259ri ona toxundu. Hirsini balaca Muraddan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, loxman\u0131 zorla onun a\u011fz\u0131na soxma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u015faq \u0259lind\u0259ki qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 tullay\u0131nca, qad\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Can\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n, ye!
\nMurad\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na bir qapaz vurdu. U\u015faq var g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Qalib d\u0259rin bir n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b, arvd\u0131na t\u0259rs- t\u0259rs baxd\u0131. Samir\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259n qalx\u0131b, m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di.
\nQalib u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, xeyri olmad\u0131. \u201cS\u0259n u\u015fa\u011fa bax, ana, getm\u0259liy\u0259m\u201d- dey\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 taxta as\u0131lqandan penc\u0259yni al\u0131b, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bay\u0131ra atd\u0131.
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\nQollu-budaql\u0131 \u0259rik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259tir ed\u0259n t\u0259kqatl\u0131, baraka b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n taxta evin h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi darmada\u011f\u0131n idi. Eyvan v\u0259 evin b\u00f6y\u00fck bir hiss\u0259si a\u011fac\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259si alt\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Evin ki\u00e7ik bir h\u0259y\u0259ti d\u0259 vard\u0131. Bu s\u0259h\u0259r y\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ndan endiril\u0259n \u0259\u015fyalar \u2013 xal\u0131, stullar, qatlama \u00e7arpay\u0131lar, divan, masa, yataq d\u0259sti, yor\u011fanlar v\u0259 ba\u011flamalar o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox idi ki, eyvan\u0131 a\u015faraq, h\u0259y\u0259ti d\u0259 tutmu\u015fdu.
\nKim deyir da\u015f\u0131nmaq asan i\u015fdir? Da\u015f\u0131nmaq – zaman k\u0259siyni beyninizin, b\u0259d\u0259ninizin, ruhunuzun yor\u011funlu\u011fu alt\u0131nda bir ayr\u0131l\u0131q psixologiyas\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015famaq dem\u0259kdir. Da\u015f\u0131nanda, sad\u0259c\u0259, m\u0259kan d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi ba\u015f vermir, bu h\u0259m d\u0259 ruhi bax\u0131mdan insana t\u0259sir edir. Buna al\u0131\u015fmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259ti v\u0259 ya al\u0131\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaq da\u015f\u0131nan insan\u0131n q\u0259d\u0259ridir. Da\u015f\u0131nmaq yeni t\u0259yinat alanlar\u0131n al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r. Yeni \u015f\u0259h\u0259r, yeni insanlar, f\u0259rqli bir ev v\u0259 i\u015f yeri, u\u015faqlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yeni m\u0259kt\u0259b h\u0259yat\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z adamlar, daxilinizd\u0259ki yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalanlar v\u0259 yadl\u0131q duy\u011fusu… Bunu ancaq ya\u015fayanlar bilir.
\nYeni i\u015f yerin\u0259 t\u0259yinat alanlardan biri bu g\u00fcn yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 kiray\u0259 tutdu\u011fu evin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Zibil qab\u0131ndan tutmu\u015f, s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259, plastik l\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r, c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr ba\u011flamalardan ibar\u0259t ev \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q halda hara g\u0259ldi s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz olan Arif v\u0259 Sevgi da\u011f\u0131n\u0131ql\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u015f\u0259n q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ora-bura qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131lar. U\u015faqlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 el\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, – \u201cAy u\u015faqlar, anan\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rars\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yad adam\u0131n onlara yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u0131 bel\u0259 hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Sevgi qa\u00e7araq, i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di:
\n– Ana, bir adam qap\u0131da s\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r -dedi.
\nM\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 yerb\u0259yer ed\u0259n Canan naraz\u0131 halda i\u015fini dayand\u0131r\u0131b, \u0259lind\u0259ki bo\u015fqablar\u0131 yer\u0259 qoydu: – \u201cKimdir?\u201d – dey\u0259 s\u0259kkiz ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131ndan soru\u015fdu.
\n-M\u0259n haradan bilim?- dedi Sevgi v\u0259 yen\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u0259 bay\u0131ra qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\nCanan maraq i\u00e7ind\u0259 art\u0131rmaya \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u0259nc bir ki\u015fi dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n-Buyurun, kimi axtar\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?- dey\u0259 Canan evi t\u0259mizl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 geydiyi r\u0259ngi solmu\u015f paltardan utanaraq, \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, yeng\u0259, sizi narahat etdim. M\u0259n ev sahibinin o\u011flu Qalib\u0259m. Evd\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldil\u0259si \u0259y\u0259r-\u0259ksiklikl\u0259r varm\u0131\u015f, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Karniz v\u0259 b\u0259zi elektrik d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259yi\u015fdiril\u0259c\u0259kmi\u015f. G\u0259ldim ki, xarab olan \u015feyl\u0259ri d\u00fcz\u0259ldim.
\nCanan\u0131n i\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131ndan a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu qarmara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131qda \u00fcst\u0259lik t\u0259mir i\u015fini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259si halda deyildi. Olduqca d\u0259qiq \u0130stanbul l\u0259hc\u0259sind\u0259: – \u201c Maraqland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m, amma indi bu imkans\u0131zd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki el\u0259 bu sabah g\u0259lmi\u015fik v\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri b\u0259rbad g\u00fcnd\u0259dir. Add\u0131m atma\u011fa bel\u0259 yer yoxdur.Yax\u015f\u0131 olar ki, daha sonra g\u0259l\u0259siniz \u201c – dedi.
\n-Nec\u0259 ist\u0259yirsiniz, m\u0259n bir-iki g\u00fcn sonra g\u0259l\u0259r, k\u0259m-k\u0259siri tamamlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015faram, \u2013 dey\u0259 ev sahibinin o\u011flu dill\u0259ndi v\u0259 unudacaqm\u0131\u015f kimi bayaqdan b\u0259ri dem\u0259li oldu\u011fu s\u00f6z\u00fc ax\u0131r ki, dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdi:
\n– Xo\u015f g\u0259lmisiniz.
\n-T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m, g\u00fcl\u0259- g\u00fcl\u0259.
\nCanan eyvanda dayanaraq, iri c\u00fcss\u0259li, qarabu\u011fday\u0131, otuz ya\u015flar\u0131ndak\u0131 bu adam\u0131n arxas\u0131nca baxd\u0131, sonra i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di. A\u00e7\u0131lacaq ba\u011flamalar h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 evin ortas\u0131ndayd\u0131 v\u0259 u\u015faqlar \u015fey-\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcn aras\u0131nda gizl\u0259npa\u00e7 oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Bu durum qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rini daha da pozdu: – \u201cU\u015faqlar, yava\u015f olun\u201d – dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Can\u0131 s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Bu ev nec\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259kdi? M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik stullardan birind\u0259 oturub, siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00f6hn\u0259, p\u0259rd\u0259siz p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bay\u0131ra baxd\u0131. Hava g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli v\u0259 istiydi. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 evd\u0259 bir qad\u0131n eyvan\u0131 t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdi. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki \u0259rik a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n yamya\u015f\u0131l yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259k yell\u0259ndirirdi. \u201cM\u0259n hardayam? Nec\u0259 g\u0259ldim? Bura harad\u0131r?\u201d Canan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda bu cavabs\u0131z suallar dolan\u0131rd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131 \u0259ri B\u0259srid\u0259 idi. Onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r bura. Yoxsa, n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259ri var\u0131yd\u0131 Allah\u0131n da itirib- axtarmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu yerd\u0259?! Bir q\u0259ribin q\u00fcrb\u0259t qoxuyan n\u0259f\u0259siyl\u0259 siqaretin t\u00fcts\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi…
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\nYayda g\u0259ldiyi bu ki\u00e7ik \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 Canan get-ged\u0259 al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, art\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 uy\u011fun bir h\u0259yat d\u00fcz\u0259ni qurmu\u015fdu. Evini bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l b\u0259z\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bankda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n B\u0259srinin bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 vaxt\u0131 yox idi, i\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131ndan a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. O, ev\u0259 ax\u015fam saat 10- dan tez g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259i\u015f\u0259t i\u015fl\u0259ri Canan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Banka aid d\u00f6vl\u0259t evind\u0259 m\u00fcdir v\u0259 onun k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7isind\u0259n ba\u015fqa dig\u0259r m\u0259murlara yer olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan B\u0259sri banka yax\u0131n m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259l\u0259rin birind\u0259 ev tutmu\u015fdu. Canan evi ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 qa\u015fqaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcb deyins\u0259 d\u0259, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259ki dig\u0259r tavan\u0131 ax\u0131dan, hamam-tualetsiz, suyu bay\u0131rda olan evl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259, \u00f6z durumuna \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr etmi\u015fdi. Onlar\u0131n evi iki ki\u00e7ik yataq ota\u011f\u0131ndan, qonaq ota\u011f\u0131, m\u0259tb\u0259x v\u0259 hamamdan ibar\u0259tiydi. Canan\u0131n dinc\u0259lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyi yer eyvan idi. Eyvanda i\u00e7diyi \u00e7ay, q\u0259hv\u0259, \u00e7\u0259kdiyi siqaret g\u00fcn\u00fcn yor\u011funlu\u011funu qad\u0131n\u0131n can\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131. Canan \u0259vv\u0259lki kiray\u0259ni\u015finl\u0259rd\u0259n qalan g\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kli h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki alaq otlar\u0131n\u0131, sarma\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 yolub t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, q\u0259r\u0259nfil, beqonya v\u0259 zambaqlar\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fcr-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259mizl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Eyvana dair\u0259vi masa v\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259til qoymu\u015f, masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 r\u0259ngli, d\u00f6rdk\u00fcnc s\u00fcfr\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ail\u0259 burada yeyib-i\u00e7irdi.
\n\u0130yunun ortalar\u0131yd\u0131. Bir ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc Qalib kiray\u0259 evl\u0259ri dola\u015f\u0131b, \u0259n ax\u0131rda Canangilin qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00fcz tutdu. Atas\u0131 Hac\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259limat\u0131yd\u0131: – \u201cKiray\u0259ni\u015fin m\u0259murlar maa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 alan kimi, d\u0259rhal get, kiray\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011f, sa\u011fa-sola da\u011f\u0131tmalar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259\u201d
\n\u018fg\u0259r Qalibd\u0259n \u201c\u0259n z\u0259hl\u0259si ged\u0259n i\u015f n\u0259dir?\u201d dey\u0259 soru\u015fsayd\u0131lar, t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259d\u0259n \u201cKiray\u0259 pulu toplamaq!\u201d dey\u0259rdi. Haqq\u0131 \u00e7atan bir \u015feyi insanlardan ist\u0259m\u0259k bel\u0259 ona \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259lirdi. \u018fg\u0259r kiray\u0259 evl\u0259r onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 aid olsayd\u0131, Allah bilir, y\u0259qin ki, aylarla oralara u\u011framaz, kiray\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131n verilm\u0259sini kiray\u0259ni\u015finl\u0259rin insaf\u0131na buraxard\u0131. B\u0259zi kiray\u0259ni\u015finl\u0259r v\u0259rdi\u015f etmi\u015fdil\u0259r, onu g\u00f6r\u0259r- g\u00f6rm\u0259z pulu g\u0259tirib verir, o da bu pullar\u0131 utana-utana al\u0131rd\u0131. Atas\u0131na buna g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox hirsl\u0259nir, \u201cyan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n birin\u0259 bu i\u015fi g\u00f6rd\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yin halda, niy\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131rsan\u201d dey\u0259 ondan soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir, amma soru\u015fmurdu. Bilirdi ki, atas\u0131 bunu q\u0259sd\u0259n edir. \u201cO\u011ful, he\u00e7 vaxt pul i\u015fini \u00f6zg\u0259sin\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rma. Kiray\u0259\u00e7il\u0259r yolunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259dir, ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 pullar\u0131 y\u0131\u011f, sonra g\u0259l ev\u0259\u201d. Atas\u0131 bel\u0259 deyirdi.
\nQalib hrsl\u0259ns\u0259 d\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 l\u0259n\u0259t ya\u011fd\u0131rsa da, yen\u0259 pul y\u0131\u011fma\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f, Canangilin qap\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 durmu\u015fdu. \u015e\u0259r qovu\u015furdu, i\u015f\u0131qlar yeni-yeni yanma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng, g\u0259nc bir qad\u0131n eyvandak\u0131 masan\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n qara, hamar sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259liyl\u0259 tez-tez qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131na at\u0131r, n\u0259s\u0259 bir mahn\u0131 z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 edirdi.
\nO\u011flan ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi ona baxa-baxa qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ayaqlar\u0131, \u0259t\u0259yi, aya\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 b\u0259z\u0259kli t\u0259rlikl\u0259ri i\u015f\u0131qda nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc! Canan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259lum olmayan bir duy\u011fuyla eyvan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 adam\u0131 f\u0259rq etdiyind\u0259 \u0259ti \u00fcrp\u0259\u015fdi, az qald\u0131 ki, \u0259lind\u0259ki bo\u015fqablar\u0131 yer\u0259 sals\u0131n. Qorxu qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q, h\u0259y\u0259can, vahim\u0259 dolu s\u0259sl\u0259 – \u201cKimsiniz, orda n\u0259 i\u015finiz var?\u201d- dey\u0259 ucadan soru\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmadan \u0259lind\u0259ki bo\u015fqablar\u0131 masaya qoyub k\u0259til\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u00c7ox qorxmu\u015fdu… Qalib qad\u0131n\u0131 qorxutdu\u011funu hiss etdi. \u201c\u00c7ox-\u00e7ox \u00fczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, yeng\u0259. M\u0259n\u0259m, Qalib\u0259m, ev sahibinin o\u011flu. Siz t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259mir \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015fdim, amma sizin i\u015finiz vard\u0131. Sonra usta g\u00f6nd\u0259rdim. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, sizi qorxutdum, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n.\u201d
\n\u201cNec\u0259 d\u0259 qanmazd\u0131r, baxmaq yerin\u0259 bir s\u0259s ets\u0259n\u0259, adam!\u201d \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc Canan. Amma \u201c H\u0259, h\u0259, xat\u0131rlad\u0131m. Qorxmad\u0131m, \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131m. Buyurun, n\u0259 ist\u0259yirsiniz?\u201d \u2013 dedi.
\nDo\u011frudan da, n\u0259 ist\u0259yirdi? \u0130\u015fin \u00e7\u0259tin t\u0259r\u0259fi bu idi. A\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n ilk sual\u0131 verdi:
\n-B\u0259sri b\u0259y, evd\u0259 yoxdurmu?
\n– G\u00f6zl\u0259yin, \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131m. \u2013 qad\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di.
\n-B\u0259sri, bir baxsana, ev sahibinin o\u011flu qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirib. G\u00f6r, n\u0259 ist\u0259yir. Y\u0259qin ki, kiray\u0259 pulu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lib.
\nB\u0259sri \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259smalla qurulay\u0131b, hamamdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. K\u00f6yn\u0259yinin qollar\u0131n\u0131 dirs\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qatlayan B\u0259sri g\u00f6d\u0259r\u0259k, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, bir az dolu bir adam\u0131yd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131 daha yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u0131rda, ala g\u00f6zl\u0259rini azca q\u0131yd\u0131 v\u0259 Qalibi o d\u0259qiq\u0259 tan\u0131d\u0131.
\n-Ooo Qalib b\u0259y!… Ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 niy\u0259 durmusunuz? Buyurun, ke\u00e7in eyvana-dey\u0259 mehriban bir dill\u0259 qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rlik g\u00f6st\u0259rdi.
\nQalib banka kiray\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131 qoyma\u011fa g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 B\u0259sri il\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fdu. B\u0259srinin i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131 Qalib\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259rin kiray\u0259 ev axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 demi\u015fdi. B\u0259sriy\u0259 is\u0259 Qalibi bel\u0259 t\u0259qdim etmi\u015f, – \u201cB\u0259sri, bax, bu adam Qalib \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Atas\u0131n\u0131n kiray\u0259 evl\u0259ri var. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 evl\u0259rini h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bizim i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r\u0259 kiray\u0259 verirl\u0259r. G\u00f6r\u0259k, bo\u015f evi varsa, he\u00e7 \u0259ld\u0259n verm\u0259\u201d demi\u015fdi. Qalib t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259d\u0259n raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 bununla da, B\u0259srinin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck bir problem\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 indi Qalibi g\u00f6r\u0259n B\u0259sri \u0259ziz bir adam\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi \u00e7ox sevindi.
\n-M\u0259n sizi narahat etm\u0259yim. Ev\u0259 gedirdim, dedim bir ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kim, \u015fey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026.
\nS\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dal\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 dili d\u00f6nm\u0259di.
\n-H\u0259l\u0259 bir \u0259yl\u0259\u015f, sonra anladarsan. \u2013 dedi B\u0259sri.
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc itir\u0259n Qalib n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi. B\u0259sri b\u0259yin arvad- u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturma\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kinirdi.
\n-Qarda\u015f\u0131m, oturmasam yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, evd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r, – dey\u0259 b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k ist\u0259di.
\n-Yox, yox, he\u00e7 el\u0259 \u015fey yoxdur. Guya bizim burda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tan\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z var ki? Buyurun, \u00e7aya qonaq olun,- dey\u0259 B\u0259sri israr etdi v\u0259 cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di.
\n– Canan , qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z var, – dey\u0259 arvad\u0131na ucadan s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Ki\u015fi t\u0259rlikl\u0259rini geyinib geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 Qalib h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi. B\u0259srinin onu g\u00f6zl\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259, ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 eyvana qalxd\u0131. Bir aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qa\u00e7araq qoyaraq, k\u0259till\u0259rd\u0259n birind\u0259 oturdu. Canan g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc sinid\u0259 \u00e7ay g\u0259tirdi.
\n-Xo\u015f g\u0259lmisiniz, buyurun, bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay al\u0131n, – dedi.
\n\u018fri q\u0259d\u0259r israr etm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, qad\u0131n\u0131n da qona\u011f\u0131n oturmas\u0131na naraz\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 hiss olunurdu. T\u0259z\u0259 bir adamla tan\u0131\u015f olacaqd\u0131lar. Qalib\u0259 d\u0259 bu d\u0259v\u0259t maraql\u0131 g\u0259lirdi. \u00dcst\u0259lik d\u0259 \u201c\u00e7ay al\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi ki, e\u015fidirdi.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, i\u00e7\u0259r\u0259m. \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun, \u2013 dedi.
\nB\u0259sri siqaret qutusunu a\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 bir az \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n Qalib\u0259 uzatd\u0131:
\n– Buyur, \u00e7\u0259k, Qalib qarda\u015f\u201d – dedi.
\nQalib bir siqaret g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131rb a\u011fz\u0131na qoydu. Siqaret simit kimi dadl\u0131 g\u0259ldi ona. \u0130kisi d\u0259 birlikd\u0259 siqaret duman\u0131na b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\n-Qalib b\u0259y, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz kimi can\u0131na qurban oldu\u011fumun q\u0259d\u0259ri bizi hardan hara – \u0130stanbuldan ta buralara atd\u0131.
\n-Hans\u0131 m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259nsiniz, B\u0259sri b\u0259y?- dey\u0259 Qalib maraqland\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, el\u0259 bel\u0259, s\u00f6zg\u0259li\u015fi, s\u00f6hb\u0259t xatirin\u0259, cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 durumdan \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn soru\u015fdu.
\n-Ayd\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rd\u0259n, Nazillid\u0259n. – B\u0259sri cavab\u0131 uzatmad\u0131.
\n-E\u015fitdiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 oralar\u0131n havas\u0131 \u00e7ox istidir.- qonaq bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6zg\u0259li\u015fi dill\u0259ndi.
\n-H\u0259, el\u0259dir. Bir az istidir, amma \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l yerl\u0259rdir. Neyl\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kpulu qazanmaq adam\u0131 hara des\u0259n, s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yir. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7-be\u015f q\u0259pik, iki d\u0259 u\u015faq oxuduruq \u2013 B\u0259sri \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n hirsl\u0259 dedi.
\nCanan bir siqaret g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, sanki ail\u0259 sirrini a\u00e7ma deyirmi\u015f kimi dill\u0259ndi:
\n– \u015eikay\u0259t etm\u0259, B\u0259sri, \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, biz\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r\u201d.
\nArvad\u0131na t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 baxan B\u0259sri bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u201cS\u0259n\u0259 ancaq yetir qazandl\u0131\u011f\u0131m!\u201d dey\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdi.
\nS\u00f6hb\u0259tin qaba\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259sri onu sakitc\u0259 dinl\u0259y\u0259n bir h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259t tapma\u011f\u0131n rahatla\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0130stanbuldan buralara nec\u0259 g\u0259ldikl\u0259rini s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131: \u201cN\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131m, qarda\u015f, q\u0259d\u0259r insan\u0131 haralara u\u00e7urmur? Bunu \u015fikay\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn demir\u0259m. Yalan, f\u0131r\u0131ldaq d\u00fcnyan\u0131 al\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131na. Bar\u0131 bir q\u0259bah\u0259tim olayd\u0131\u2026 Hans\u0131sa m\u0259rdimazar\u0131n uydurmas\u0131yla g\u0259lib d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck buralara. Bacar\u0131ql\u0131 adama pax\u0131ll\u0131q el\u0259y\u0259n \u00e7ox olur. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, indiy\u0259c\u0259n n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm bir tik\u0259 haram yemi\u015f\u0259m, n\u0259 ail\u0259m\u0259-u\u015fa\u011f\u0131ma yedirtmi\u015f\u0259m. Allahdan oldu ki, s\u0259nin kimi birisiyl\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olduq, \u00e7ox ora-bura getm\u0259d\u0259n kiray\u0259 ev tapa bildik. \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol\u201d – dey\u0259 Qalib\u0259 minn\u0259tdarl\u0131qla baxd\u0131.
\n-B\u0259sri b\u0259y, m\u0259n n\u0259 etmi\u015f\u0259m ki? Evimizi sizin kimi yax\u015f\u0131 bir adama kiray\u0259 vermi\u015f\u0259m. Kim olsa, m\u0259nim etdiyimii ed\u0259rdi.
\nB\u0259sri s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ancaq \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 k\u0259sir, get- ged\u0259 bo\u015f-bo\u015funa g\u0259v\u0259z\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259\u011frur bir \u0259dayla k\u0259til\u0259 oturub, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 a\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f Canan bir \u0259liyl\u0259 siqaretini \u00e7\u0259kir, o biri \u0259liyl\u0259 siqaret qutusunu masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ora-bura f\u0131rlad\u0131r, aradabir o\u011frun-o\u011frun qona\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259rd\u0259n sar\u0131 b\u0131\u011flar\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k, yorucu-yorucu dan\u0131\u015fan \u0259ri il\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 bu g\u0259nc adam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc nec\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259rav\u0259tli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onun s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 yana daranm\u0131\u015f, q\u0131sa vurulmu\u015f s\u0131x qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131 enli aln\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qonaq eyvan\u0131n z\u0259rif, titr\u0259k i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda v\u0259 batmaqda olan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin sol\u011fun \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri alt\u0131nda lap film q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Qad\u0131n qona\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u201c Y\u0259qin qara olar \u201d – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.
\nQalib \u00f6z \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki n\u0259z\u0259r-diqq\u0259ti d\u0259rhal hiss etmi\u015fdi. Onu ilk d\u0259f\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f adaxl\u0131 kimi t\u0259r basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n cibind\u0259ki a\u011fappaq d\u0259smalla boyun-bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259rini silirdi. Qona\u011f\u0131n iri c\u00fcss\u0259sin\u0259, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 q\u0259dd-qam\u0259tin\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r uy\u011fun g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n utancaql\u0131\u011f\u0131 Canan\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131b, Qalibin bo\u015falan st\u0259kan\u0131n\u0131 yenid\u0259n doldurub g\u0259tirdi v\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 ke\u00e7ib onunla \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturdu. Onun s\u0259rb\u0259st davran\u0131\u015f\u0131, x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 yad bir ki\u015finin yan\u0131nda siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259si Qalibi t\u0259\u0259c\u00fcbl\u0259ndirmi\u015fdi: \u201cOnsuz da \u015f\u0259h\u0259r qad\u0131nlar\u0131 avropasaya\u011f\u0131 olublar\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 q\u0131nad\u0131 onu. \u00c7ay\u0131n\u0131 tez-t\u0259l\u0259sik i\u00e7ib qurtard\u0131, Canan \u00e7ay\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lini bo\u015f st\u0259kana uzadanda \u201cBu q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259sdir, sa\u011f olun, daha i\u00e7mir\u0259m\u201d- dedi. Qad\u0131nla g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kinib, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ondan yay\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131. Havan\u0131n qarald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259han\u0259 edib, getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. B\u0259sri onun qalxmas\u0131na etiraz etm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, g\u0259li\u015finizin s\u0259b\u0259bini dem\u0259diniz dey\u0259 maraqla qona\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. Qalib n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi. K\u0259k\u0259l\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k \u2013 \u201cHe\u00e7, kiray\u0259 pulu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015fdim\u201d \u2013 dedi.
\nB\u0259sri maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bu g\u00fcn alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O \u201cg\u00f6zl\u0259yin, indi g\u0259tirir\u0259m\u201d – dedi, ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di, bir d\u0259st\u0259 pulu g\u0259tirib, Qalib\u0259 uzatd\u0131. Pulun \u0259lli lir\u0259si \u0259ksikdir. Bu g\u00fcn borclara da\u011f\u0131d\u0131nca bu q\u0259d\u0259r qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u201cBax, sabah biz\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l, Canan g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fc\u015fb\u0259r\u0259 bi\u015fir\u0259c\u0259k. Biz q\u0259ribik. Bir-iki k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rik\u201d. Qalib ani olaraq n\u0259s\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, Canana baxd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259nib, qollar\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sind\u0259 \u00e7arpazlayan Canan bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 g\u00f6yd\u0259 tutaraq, – \u201cSizi g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik\u201d, – dedi. Onun d\u0259v\u0259tin\u0259 h\u0259m B\u0259sri, h\u0259m d\u0259 Qalib rahat oldu. Qalib bu g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z t\u0259klif\u0259, – \u201cT\u0259cili bir i\u015fim \u00e7\u0131xmasa, g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m, amma pul \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, bird\u0259n s\u0259hv ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rsiniz\u201d – dedi. \u201cS\u0259n Allah, el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma, g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik, v\u0259ssalam\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di B\u0259sri. Qalib d\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm ed\u0259r\u0259k, h\u00f6km\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini ba\u015f\u0131yla m\u0259mnun halda t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.
\nM\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259kil\u0259rin dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, Qalib t\u0259rbiy\u0259li, a\u011f\u0131r t\u0259bi\u0259tli, ab\u0131rl\u0131 bir adam\u0131yd\u0131. H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r evd\u0259n i\u015f\u0259, i\u015fd\u0259n ev\u0259 ged\u0259r, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b, bir q\u0131za-qad\u0131na g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucuyla da baxmazd\u0131. O, ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259yiydi. Onlar\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt incidib q\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018fsg\u0259rlikd\u0259n sonra valideynl\u0259rinin s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015f, anas\u0131n\u0131n t\u00f6vsiy\u0259si il\u0259 xalas\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 Samir\u0259yl\u0259 evl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi onlar uca divarlarla \u0259hat\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f geni\u015f h\u0259y\u0259ti olan q\u0259dim bir evd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Arvad\u0131 Samir\u0259 a\u011fb\u0259niz, z\u0259rif, qumral sa\u00e7l\u0131, al yanaql\u0131, \u0259tli-\u0259ndaml\u0131, t\u0259bii g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 malik bir k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. \u018frind\u0259n \u0259n az\u0131 be\u015f-alt\u0131 ya\u015f ki\u00e7ik olard\u0131. Qaynanas\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u0259lininin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259sim-\u0259sim \u0259sirdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n b\u0259xti g\u0259tirmi\u015f, toylar\u0131ndan bir il sonra nur topas\u0131 kimi bir o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 do\u011faraq, yerini daha da b\u0259rkitmi\u015fdi.
\nQalib \u00f6z sakit, yekn\u0259s\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcdr\u0259yib y\u0131x\u0131landa ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u015f yeri atas\u0131n\u0131n ucuz, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 keyfiyy\u0259tli mebell\u0259rl\u0259, \u0259\u015fyalarla doldurdu\u011fu ma\u011fazayd\u0131. Ofisd\u0259 atas\u0131 oturur, bazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 Qalib edirdi. Pulu atas\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131. Qalib v\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131 is\u0259 m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ril\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r, mal\u0131 sat\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nAtas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda Qalib \u00f6z oz o\u011flu Murad\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt quca\u011f\u0131na almaz, sevib ox\u015famazd\u0131. B\u0259sri v\u0259 onun ail\u0259siyl\u0259 ilk tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda onlar\u0131n Qalib \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u015fqa kiray\u0259ni\u015finl\u0259rd\u0259n he\u00e7 bir f\u0259rqi yox idi. H\u0259r kiray\u0259ni\u015fin \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131qdan sonra evin \u0259y\u0259r-\u0259ksiyini t\u0259mir edib, ora-buras\u0131na \u0259l g\u0259zdirib, yeni kiray\u0259\u00e7iy\u0259 verm\u0259k onun \u00f6hd\u0259sind\u0259ydi. Sonra is\u0259 davaml\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 kiray\u0259 pulu toplay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nAmma bu ax\u015fam q\u0259lbinin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0259rib bir sevinc duymu\u015fdu. B\u0259srigild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra ax\u015fam\u0131n s\u0259rin havas\u0131 \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131nda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 olaraq, – \u201cHava nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi!\u201d – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n sanki havan\u0131n f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r he\u00e7 bir kiray\u0259ni\u015fin onu evin\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etm\u0259mi\u015fdi. S\u0131x\u0131laraq oturdu\u011fu masada B\u0259srinin olduqca t\u0259bii v\u0259 s\u0259mimi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu rahat ets\u0259 d\u0259, arvad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259rt, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259nraz\u0131 \u0259das\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Q\u0131sas\u0131, B\u0259sri v\u0259 ail\u0259si onun beynini \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\nB\u0259srigilin isti m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin\u0259 laqeyd olmayan Qalib c\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc onlara getdi. D\u00fc\u015fb\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ox l\u0259zz\u0259tli g\u0259ldi. \u018ftsiz, sad\u0259c\u0259 paxla il\u0259 bi\u015firil\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fb\u0259r\u0259ni ilk d\u0259f\u0259 orda yeyirdi. \u0130btidai sinf\u0259 ged\u0259n Arif v\u0259 Sevginin civiltil\u0259ri, B\u0259srinin m\u0259hr\u0259m s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri v\u0259 Canan\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lkin\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n olduqca s\u0259mimi davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 onun duy\u011fular\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi.
\nB\u0259srigill\u0259 Qalibin m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri get-ged\u0259 daha da istil\u0259\u015fdi. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra Qalib bu ail\u0259nin \u0259n yax\u0131n dostuna \u00e7evrildi. H\u0259ft\u0259 s\u0259kkiz, m\u0259n doqquz onlara gedib-g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130sti yay ax\u015famlar\u0131ndan gec\u0259 saat ikiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oturub el\u0259dikl\u0259ri s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r, kart ya da n\u0259rd oyunlar\u0131 ona indiy\u0259c\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259li gec\u0259l\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131rd\u0131. Birlikd\u0259 pikniy\u0259 getm\u0259k, rak\u0131, kabab keyfi\u2026.
\nQalib bu ziyar\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt n\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 o\u011flunu g\u0259tirirdi. \u0130lk vaxtlar, – \u201cXan\u0131m\u0131n evd\u0259 i\u015fi var, x\u0259st\u0259dir, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259ti var\u201d – kimi b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259tirs\u0259 d\u0259, zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259, – \u201cBo\u015f verin, g\u0259lm\u0259m\u0259si daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u201d, – dey\u0259 d\u0259rdli bir g\u00f6rk\u0259m al\u0131rd\u0131. Get-ged\u0259 onun dili a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, i\u00e7ind\u0259kil\u0259ri bo\u015fald\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cAh, anam, anam m\u0259ni yand\u0131r\u0131b-yaxd\u0131, atamla birl\u0259\u015fib ax\u0131r\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Arvad\u0131m\u0131 yan\u0131ma al\u0131b, bir \u00fcr\u0259kdolusu g\u0259zm\u0259dim! M\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m n\u0259dir, ax\u0131? And olsun, Allaha, el\u0259 bil h\u0259bsxanadayam\u201d.
\nQalibin doluxsundu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259n B\u0259srinin d\u0259, Canan\u0131n da ona \u015f\u0259fq\u0259ti artm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259sri \u00e7ox h\u0259ssas v\u0259 eynia\u00e7\u0131q, deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n adam\u0131yd\u0131. Canan is\u0259 onun qonaq oldu\u011fu vaxtlar n\u0259 qabiliyy\u0259ti varsa, ortaya qoyur, m\u00fcx\u0259lif yem\u0259kl\u0259r, m\u0259z\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259ni b\u0259z\u0259yirdi. O, masa arxas\u0131nda \u0259rin\u0259 v\u0259 qona\u011fa yolda\u015fl\u0131q edir, maqnitafona g\u00f6z\u0259l mahn\u0131lar qoyur, birlikd\u0259 musiqi dinl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Gah i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259, gah eyvanda \u0259rik a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n x\u0131\u015f\u0131ldayan yarpaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131nda gec\u0259yar\u0131ya q\u0259d\u0259r, gah p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131, gah q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259ri e\u015fidilirdi. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 ya\u015fayanlar qabaqlar bu gedi\u015f- g\u0259li\u015f\u0259 el\u0259 d\u0259 fikir vermirdil\u0259r, amma vaxt ke\u00e7dikc\u0259, Qalibin B\u0259srigil\u0259 daha s\u0131x-s\u0131x g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259, qon\u015fular bu s\u0259mimi get-g\u0259lin ax\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 daxili bir narahatl\u0131qla izl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ayd\u0131n e\u015fidil\u0259n musiqi v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259rini b\u0259zil\u0259ri sakit qar\u015f\u0131lasa da, b\u0259zil\u0259ri bunu \u0259trafdak\u0131lara qar\u015f\u0131 say\u011f\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131q hesab edirdi.
\nCanan g\u00fccl\u00fc, sa\u011flam qad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131. Qara, d\u00fcz sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fcy\u00fc enli \u00e7iyinl\u0259ri, meydan kimi sin\u0259si vard\u0131. Paltar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n qabar\u0131q budlar\u0131, inc\u0259 beli ona x\u00fcsusi yara\u015f\u0131q verirdi. Zal\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yeri\u015fi is\u0259 bir ayr\u0131 al\u0259m idi. Yeriy\u0259nd\u0259 yer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 naz el\u0259yir, yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259, – \u201cD\u00f6n bir d\u0259 bax!\u201d, – deyirdi. Q\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131 \u0259t\u0259yinin alt\u0131nda bir x\u0259zin\u0259 saxlay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi, y\u00fcng\u00fcl add\u0131mlarla yeriyir, qu\u015f kimi s\u0259kirdi. Qon\u015fular\u0131 G\u00fclt\u0259nin, \u201cQad\u0131na bax e, yeriy\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259ndam\u0131yla \u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr \u201d, – s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin alt\u0131nda bir az heyranl\u0131q, bir az da h\u0259s\u0259d var\u0131yd\u0131. Ona s\u0259rvboylu dem\u0259k olmazd\u0131. \u0130lk bax\u0131\u015fda g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qarayan\u0131z, qaraqa\u015f, qarag\u00f6z idi. Qal\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131, iri, amma sif\u0259tin\u0259 \u00e7ox yara\u015fan bir q\u0259d\u0259r iri burnu vard\u0131. Amma neynirs\u0259n, i\u015fv\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm v\u0259 q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131nca baxanlar a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ld\u0259n verirdi. Harada olur-olsun, ki\u015fi, qad\u0131n, h\u0259r k\u0259si ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011fa bilirdi. S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fidir, ist\u0259diyini yerin\u0259 yetirirdil\u0259r. Yarmarkada, bazarda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k, inamla yeriyir, \u201cPa\u015fan\u0131n m\u00fcbar\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131!\u201d dedirtdirirdi arxas\u0131nca. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259bd\u0259 olan, diqq\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n pal-paltar, son model ayaqqab\u0131lar geyinirdi. G\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r onu hans\u0131sa adi, s\u0131ravi bir bank i\u015f\u00e7isinin arvad\u0131 deyil, kims\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k v\u0259zif\u0259li birisinin xan\u0131m\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131. O, t\u0259nb\u0259llik el\u0259m\u0259yib, h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 olmasa, bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, m\u00fctl\u0259q z\u0259nginl\u0259rd\u0259n birinin arvad\u0131 il\u0259 kinoya gedir, g\u0259zm\u0259yind\u0259n qalm\u0131rd\u0131. G\u0259ldiyi ilk vaxtlardan yan-y\u00f6r\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir heyranlar \u00e7evr\u0259si yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130stiqanl\u0131, yard\u0131msev\u0259r olmas\u0131 onu sevil\u0259n bir qad\u0131na, qon\u015fuya, insana \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. Dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259y\u0259tin \u0259n x\u0259tir-h\u00f6rm\u0259tli qad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131. Bi\u015firdiyi \u015firniyyatlar\u0131n, dadl\u0131-l\u0259zz\u0259tli yem\u0259kl\u0259rin t\u0259rifi dild\u0259n-dil\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ki\u015fil\u0259r B\u0259srini b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r san\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 ona qibt\u0259 el\u0259yir, qad\u0131nlar onu \u00f6z \u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0131sqan\u0131rd\u0131. G\u0259nc q\u0131zlar \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rinini sirrini onunla b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, o ucuz siqaretini dodaqlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda s\u0131xaraq, b\u0259z\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131yaraq, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb edirmi\u015f kimi geni\u015f a\u00e7araq onlar\u0131 dinl\u0259yir, kim\u0259s\u0259, n\u0259s\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t verirdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, onun s\u00f6z\u00fc-s\u00f6hb\u0259ti \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin n\u00fcfuzlu adamlar\u0131ndan olan bank m\u00fcdiri v\u0259 zabit arvad\u0131n\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131na yeti\u015fdi.
\nCanan \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 elit k\u0259simd\u0259n olan adamlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t\u0259 can at\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eirin dili, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri, q\u0259hv\u0259 fal\u0131na baxmaq qabiliyy\u0259ti onu y\u00fcks\u0259k t\u0259b\u0259q\u0259nin yax\u0131n dostuna \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259, \u0130stanbuldan g\u0259lm\u0259si onun y\u00fcks\u0259k t\u0259b\u0259q\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n q\u0259bul edilm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259s edirdi.
\nCananla yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131\u015f olmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n ma\u011faza m\u00fcdirinin arvad\u0131 Sibel xan\u0131m onu evind\u0259 \u00e7ox s\u0259mimi qar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ham\u0131 bilirdi ki, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131n kostyumlar\u0131n\u0131 Sibel xan\u0131m geyinir, bahal\u0131 d\u0259ri ayaqqab\u0131lar sad\u0259c\u0259 onda olur. D\u0259rzil\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 onun geyiml\u0259rini tikirdi. Bu, Canan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131lan tamam f\u0259rqli bir qap\u0131 ola bil\u0259rdi. Sibel boyal\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u00fczd\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k:
\n– \u0130stanbuldans\u0131n\u0131z, haras\u0131ndan g\u0259lmisiniz?, – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.\u201c
\n– Kad\u0131k\u00f6yd\u0259 Fikirt\u0259p\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131q – dem\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di Canan. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc kas\u0131blar m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sinin sakini kimi tan\u0131tmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Odur ki, – \u201c\u018fsl\u0259n Ayd\u0131n \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259nik. Ail\u0259miz \u0130stanbula g\u0259lm\u0259dir. B\u0259sriyl\u0259 d\u0259 orda tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fuq. O, bankda \u00e7ox sevil\u0259n, t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259li bir i\u015f\u00e7i idi. Burdak\u0131 banka \u015fef olaraq t\u0259yin etdil\u0259r. \u0130\u015fi bel\u0259dir, n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rik?
\n-Bura nec\u0259, al\u0131\u015fa bilirsinizmi?
\n-Al\u0131\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q, olaca\u011fa \u00e7ar\u0259 yoxdur.
\n-\u00c7\u0259tin oldu\u011funu bilmir\u0259mmi? M\u0259n d\u0259 bursal\u0131yam, bura \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259km\u0259dim des\u0259m, yalan olar. Narahat olma, \u015f\u0259k\u0259rim, biz s\u0259ni yaln\u0131z buraxmayaca\u011f\u0131q.
\n-\u00c7ox naziksiniz. G\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0259lbiniz var, Sibel xan\u0131m. \u018fsl-n\u0259cab\u0259tli insan\u0131n davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 bel\u0259 d\u0259 olmal\u0131d\u0131r.
\n-Sa\u011f ol, \u015f\u0259k\u0259rim.
\nBel\u0259 yax\u0131nl\u0131qlar Canan\u0131n bu ki\u00e7ik rayonda dar\u0131xmayaca\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.<\/p>\n

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Qalibin ba\u015f\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259 tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131na el\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, yay\u0131n nec\u0259 ke\u00e7diyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131. B\u0259srigil d\u0259 onunla vaxt ke\u00e7irm\u0259kd\u0259n m\u0259mnun idi. Son g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259ra\u015f ed\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki vaxtda yen\u0259 d\u0259 B\u0259srigilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi isti qar\u015f\u0131land\u0131. B\u0259sri s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259k bir dost tapma\u011f\u0131n sevinciyl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Canan onun g\u0259li\u015fiyl\u0259 x\u0259fif bir h\u0259y\u0259can qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q sevinc duydu. B\u0259sri gec\u0259 lampas\u0131n\u0131n nar\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda masa arxas\u0131nda oturub, n\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin, dostum. G\u0259l bu hesabda m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k et,- dey\u0259 qona\u011f\u0131 yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nQalib stulu ona yax\u0131n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k, oturdu:
\n– \u00c7\u0259tin hesabd\u0131, dey\u0259s\u0259n?
\n-H\u0259m d\u0259 nec\u0259! Maa\u015f\u0131 b\u00f6lm\u0259 hesab\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259tin n\u0259 ola bil\u0259r ki?
\n-Maa\u015f almad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bilmir\u0259m. Bizd\u0259 pul i\u015fin\u0259 atam baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan rahat\u0131q.
\nCanan i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Qalib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b, ona t\u0259r\u0259f bir qad\u0131n\u0131n deyil, sanki bir ilah\u0259nin g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. O an bu qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldu\u011funu v\u0259 izah ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi bir h\u0259y\u0259cana d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc ilk d\u0259f\u0259 hiss etdi. O vurulmu\u015fdu! Y\u0259qin buna g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259kind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yay\u0131nd\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 unutmu\u015f, el\u0259c\u0259 baxa-baxa qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Canan da onun bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 tutdu v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 oturaca\u011f\u0131 yer\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259di. Sanki g\u00f6zl\u0259diyi uzaq bir yol\u00e7usu g\u0259lmi\u015fdi v\u0259 arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir dil\u0259yin hasil oldu\u011fu bax\u0131\u015fla ona bax\u0131rd\u0131. Qalib heyr\u0259td\u0259n cans\u0131z bir heyk\u0259l\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Canan \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc gizl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n yum\u015faq-yum\u015faq dill\u0259ndi;
\n– Xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n, Qalib. Bir az erk\u0259n g\u0259ls\u0259ydin, yem\u0259y\u0259 yeti\u015f\u0259rdin. Acsansa bir \u015fey haz\u0131rlay\u0131m?
\n-Sa\u011f ol, yeng\u0259. Yemi\u015f\u0259m, ac deyil\u0259m.
\n-Vallah, do\u011fru s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr, acsansa, tez haz\u0131rlaya bil\u0259r\u0259m.
\n-\u0130nan\u0131n, ac deyil\u0259m. Utanm\u0131ram ki, az yem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m o g\u00f6z\u0259l yem\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n, sa\u011f ol.
\nBi\u015firdiyi x\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 deyil\u0259n t\u0259rif Canan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sar\u0131 ya\u011f kimi yay\u0131ld\u0131:
\n– Onda t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, he\u00e7 olmasa, ondan i\u00e7in. Yan\u0131nda isti paxlava d\u0259 var.
\n-Buna yox dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, – Qalib b\u00fct\u00fcn sif\u0259tini nurland\u0131ran v\u0259 ona \u00e7ox yara\u015fan t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.
\n-Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259m, – dey\u0259n Canan \u00e7evik add\u0131mlarla m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Amma \u00fcr\u0259yi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259rk d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ona dikil\u0259n ehtirasl\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudunu sarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verirdi? Bu bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k bel\u0259 onu h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131rma\u011fa b\u0259s edirdi. M\u0259tb\u0259xin d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 baxan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sini a\u00e7d\u0131. Hava bu ax\u015fam \u00e7ox istiydi, yoxsa ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi? H\u0259ty\u0259candan t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Dolabdan buz \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, ovcuna ald\u0131. Buz \u0259lind\u0259 \u0259ridi. \u018friy\u0259n buzun suyunu \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, boynuna, sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00fcrtd\u00fc, s\u0259rinl\u0259di. Susad\u0131. Bir st\u0259kan su doldurub i\u00e7di. U\u015faqlara, – \u201cYatmaq vaxt\u0131 g\u0259ldi, gedin yat\u0131n\u201d, – dedi. V\u0259 bird\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lib, haz\u0131rlayaca\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ay\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Tez \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u00fcb, paxlavalarla birlikd\u0259 salona g\u0259tirdi. B\u0259srinin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131. – \u201c M\u0259nim \u0259ziz arvad\u0131m, bax, bu \u00e7ox \u0259la oldu!\u201d – dey\u0259r\u0259k arvad\u0131na baxanda g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, Canan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zar\u0131b.
\n– S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub, Canan, yaman p\u00f6rtm\u00fcs\u0259n, x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nmis\u0259nmi?- dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\n– Yox, can\u0131m! X\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k n\u0259dir, m\u0259tb\u0259x \u00e7ox istidr, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bir az istil\u0259ndim.
\nQad\u0131n m\u00f6vzunu d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tez \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi v\u0259 \u0259rind\u0259n siqaret ist\u0259di. Qalib ona tez siqaret uzatd\u0131. Amma Canan ondan alma\u011fa bir anl\u0131\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fct etdi. – H\u0259yatda \u0259n vacib \u015fey puldur, z\u0259nginlikdir, – h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 yazan B\u0259sri \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dedi: – \u201cPulun varsa, xo\u015fb\u0259xts\u0259n. Kas\u0131b nec\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olsun?\u201d
\n-El\u0259 dem\u0259, B\u0259sri, m\u0259n s\u0259nin kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcr\u0259m. \u018fn vacibi sa\u011flaml\u0131qd\u0131r, sevgidir.
\n– Vallah, m\u0259n bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, bel\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259yir\u0259m. Samanl\u0131q seyran olmaz. M\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, siz g\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc?
\nQalib \u0259rl\u0259 arvad\u0131n aras\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, atas\u0131n\u0131 bu q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 varl\u0131 saymaq olard\u0131. Amma onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, h\u0259r \u015feyl\u0259ri var\u0131yd\u0131, amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss etdiyini dem\u0259k omazd\u0131. D\u00fcn\u0259n Samir\u0259 yen\u0259 balaca o\u011fullar\u0131 Muraddan \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259nirdi. Samir\u0259nin donuq bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, b\u00fczm\u0259li, g\u00fcll\u00fc donu g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7di. Arvad\u0131 xahi\u015f etmi\u015fdi ki, ona g\u00fcll\u00fc yayl\u0131q als\u0131n. Az qala unudacaqd\u0131.
\n– Bura bax, Qalib, d\u00fcz demir\u0259mmi? Yoxsullu\u011fun haras\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikdir ki? -B\u0259srinin sual\u0131na diksinib x\u0259yaldan ayr\u0131ld\u0131.
\n-N\u0259 dedin?
\n-Pul xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin \u0259sas\u0131d\u0131r dey\u0259nd\u0259 haql\u0131 deyil\u0259mmi?
\n– Haql\u0131san, qarda\u015f. Amma varl\u0131 olmaq, \u00e7ox vaxt insana g\u00f6zl\u0259nil\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi g\u0259tirmir. Odur ki, Canan bac\u0131 da haqs\u0131z deyil.
\n-El\u0259 \u015fey olmaz. S\u0259nin pula ehtiyac\u0131n yoxdur, s\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt deyils\u0259nmi?- B\u0259sri inad g\u00f6st\u0259rdi.
\nQalib he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259yib susdu. O rahat olma\u011f\u0131na rahat idi. Amma xo\u015fb\u0259xt deyildi. Bu B\u0259sri n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131? Onun yerin\u0259 olsayd\u0131, Canan kimi biriyl\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, quru saman \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yatsa da, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt sayard\u0131. A\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n utand\u0131, q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zard\u0131. Canan\u0131n pula \u00f6n\u0259m verm\u0259m\u0259yi xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.
\nCanan siqaretind\u0259n d\u0259rin bir qullab al\u0131b, s\u00f6zl\u0259ri sapa d\u00fczd\u00fc:
\n-Pulum- param olsun, amma x\u0259st\u0259 olum v\u0259 sevm\u0259diyim birisi il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131m, n\u0259yim\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r bel\u0259 z\u0259nginlik. M\u0259n sevgini puldan \u00fcst\u00fcn tuturam.
\nB\u0259sri ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 Canana baxd\u0131:
\n-\u00c7aylar\u0131 bir t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259, Canan, – dedi, \u2013 v\u0259 m\u00f6vzunu d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259di.
\nCanan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri Qalibin \u00fcr\u0259yini a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u201c Nec\u0259 d\u0259 inc\u0259 ruhlu, sevgiy\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r ver\u0259n qad\u0131nd\u0131r. Canan g\u00f6z\u0259l oldu\u011fu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 m\u0259rddir\u201d – q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi, heyranl\u0131qla ona baxd\u0131.
\nQalib bu ax\u015fam b\u0131r ba\u015fqa adam olmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259rib\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131 Canana. \u0130ri qara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki ifad\u0259 onu daha da g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fdi. Canan siqaret g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qalib inc\u0259 bir manevr edib, onun siqaretini yand\u0131rd\u0131. Qalibin \u0259li \u0259lin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259n bir c\u0259r\u0259yan ke\u00e7di, ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa, b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccuduna yay\u0131ld\u0131. Bu d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z bir h\u0259y\u0259can idi. D\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b, t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc bay\u0131ra \u00fcf\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bununla sanki i\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u0259 bay\u0131ra atd\u0131. B\u0259sri h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259s-k\u00fcyl\u0259 \u00f6z hesabat\u0131n\u0131 edirdi. Qalib onun yazd\u0131qlar\u0131na sad\u0259c\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t xatirin\u0259 bax\u0131r, amma he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlam\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi, dostum, bizim b\u00fcdc\u0259 yen\u0259 k\u0259sird\u0259 qald\u0131. M\u0259kt\u0259b a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131nca yand\u0131q. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi, pulsuz he\u00e7 bir \u015fey al\u0131nm\u0131r.
\n-Narahat olma, ortaq, bu ay kiray\u0259 pulunda g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft ed\u0259rik. – Qalib bir add\u0131m da ir\u0259li getdi, ortaq s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc i\u015fl\u0259tdi.G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 ortaql\u0131 bir i\u015f qurmaq haqq\u0131nda s\u00f6hb\u0259t etmi\u015fdil\u0259r.
\nB\u0259sri, – Yox, el\u0259 \u015fey olmaz, – des\u0259 d\u0259, i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u201cNiy\u0259 d\u0259 olmas\u0131n?\u201d- fikri ke\u00e7di.
\nQalibin bu anda \u0259n \u00e7ox ist\u0259diyi \u015fey Canana yax\u0131n olmaq idi. Etiraf etm\u0259sd\u0259 d\u0259, bu bir h\u0259qiq\u0259t idi.
\n-\u018fll\u0259riniz var olsun, \u00e7ay \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l olub. \u018flinizin d\u0259ydiyi h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdirirsiniz.
\n\u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 heyr\u0259t etdi. Nec\u0259 bel\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tli dan\u0131\u015fa bilirdi? Eyni masa arxas\u0131nda, bir add\u0131m yax\u0131nl\u0131qda, eyni havayla n\u0259f\u0259s alark\u0259n aralar\u0131ndak\u0131 cazib\u0259 onlar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi. El\u0259 bil \u0259traflar\u0131nda isti bir h\u0259lq\u0259, sehirli bir k\u0259m\u0259nd ikisini d\u0259 a\u011fu\u015funa alaraq, get- ged\u0259 daha da daral\u0131r, onlar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131r, a\u00e7\u0131lmaz bir ilm\u0259yl\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259nirdi.
\nQalib qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki kibrit qutusunu o \u00fcz-bu \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7evirirdi. B\u0259srinin hay-k\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc duymur, ancaq Canan\u0131n s\u00fckutunu dinl\u0259yirdi. Sanki bir divar y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, arada bu divar\u0131n toz-torpa\u011f\u0131ndan \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n bir s\u0259s qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O da bir azdan sakitl\u0259\u015f\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Fikirliydi. \u00c7ox oturmad\u0131. Bir az \u0259vv\u0259l hiss etdikl\u0259ri onu yormu\u015fdu. \u0130caz\u0259 ist\u0259yib, onlardan ayr\u0131ld\u0131.
\nBay\u0131rda qat\u0131 bir qaranl\u0131q var idi. Ulduzlar \u00e7ox uzaqda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n z\u0259if i\u015f\u0131qlar gec\u0259nin ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259lirdi. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin sonundak\u0131 evinin yolunu uzatmaq b\u0259han\u0259siyl\u0259 add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u0131td\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r niy\u0259 f\u0259rq etm\u0259mi\u015fdi? Yox, f\u0259rq etmi\u015fdi. Budur etiraf edir. Ona qar\u015f\u0131 heyranl\u0131q duyurdu. H\u0259tta, b\u0259lk\u0259 xo\u015flan\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259li, xo\u015flan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n utand\u0131. Olan \u015feydirmi? Bu insanl\u0131\u011fa s\u0131\u011fmazd\u0131. Bu, bir dost kimi a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 qap\u0131ya x\u0259yan\u0259t idi. Bunun ba\u015fqa bir ad\u0131 yox idi. Bir daha onlara getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u00f6z verdi. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara baxmayaraq, niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi? \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 dola\u015fan sevincin ad\u0131 n\u0259 idi? Xo\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etm\u0259k duy\u011fusuydumu? H\u0259r \u015fey niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc? Ayaqlar\u0131 yerd\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f kimi yeriyirdi.<\/p>\n

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Canan o gec\u0259 yata bilm\u0259di. D\u00f6nd\u00fc durdu. Ax\u015fam n\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi? N\u0259 olmu\u015fdu? Onun dax\u0131lini alt-\u00fcst ed\u0259n n\u0259 idi? Qalibin o g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n bal kimi heyranl\u0131q s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. B\u0259y\u0259nildiyini bil\u0259n, xo\u015fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss ed\u0259n bir qad\u0131n kimi q\u00fcrur duyurdu. Yuxuya uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra dald\u0131.
\nQalib ert\u0259si g\u00fcn ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc Canan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015fidd\u0259tli bir ehtiyac duydu. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k c\u0259hdi bo\u015funa getdi. O, ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki beynin\u0259 girm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kims\u0259 onu kodla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u015fin sonu yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259rars\u0131z v\u0259 t\u0259la\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259yd\u0131. Bir aya\u011f\u0131 gedir, biri getmirdi. H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca q\u0259lbi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi, ancaq, el\u0259 bil, ayaqlar\u0131ndan da\u015f as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259ni ayr\u0131 teld\u0259, ruhu bir ayr\u0131 teld\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259zar\u0259ti itirmi\u015f kimiydi.
\n\u201cBir d\u0259f\u0259 getm\u0259kl\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmaz, gedib B\u0259srini soru\u015far, qay\u0131daram\u201d – dey\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 girdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngini \u00e7ald\u0131. El\u0259 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, Canan qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Onu g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 n\u0259inki \u00e7a\u015fmad\u0131, \u0259skin\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131. – \u201c Qalib, s\u0259ns\u0259nmi?Xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n! \u201c \u2013 dey\u0259 sevincini gizl\u0259m\u0259di. Qalib g\u00fcnahkar bir u\u015faq kimi n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi. – \u201c Yeng\u0259, B\u0259srini soru\u015facaqd\u0131m\u2026\u201d
\nCanan g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di: \u201cO bu saatda g\u0259lmir, ax\u0131 \u201c.
\n-H\u0259, do\u011frudur, b\u0259z\u0259n gecikdiyini unutmu\u015fam. Narahat etdim sizi.
\n-S\u0259n bizi narahat etm\u0259zs\u0259n, Qalib, – qad\u0131n qa\u015f-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fczd\u00fcr\u00fcb, m\u0259nal\u0131-m\u0259nal\u0131 dill\u0259ndi.
\nQalib narahat bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yay\u0131nd\u0131raraq, – \u201c Yax\u015f\u0131, gec\u0259niz xeyir\u0259 qals\u0131n\u201d- dey\u0259r\u0259k s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. Canan onun arxas\u0131nca bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Art\u0131q i\u00e7i rahat idi. \u00dcr\u0259yin\u0259 e\u015fqin qurdu girmi\u015f, a\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlarla g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259ydi. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 evli bir qad\u0131n\u0131n deyil, g\u0259nc bir q\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 onu he\u00e7 n\u0259 maraqland\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131.
\nQalib is\u0259 onu al\u00e7aldan \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259biydi: \u201cN\u0259 etdiyini san\u0131rsan? Dayan, o\u011flum, Qalib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l, n\u0259 i\u015fin var yad adam\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131nda? \u018fri d\u0259 evd\u0259 deyil. U\u015faqlar bay\u0131rda. O v\u0259 s\u0259n – ikiniz\u2026\u201d
\nS\u0259h\u0259risi duy\u011fular\u0131 yen\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259, Canan\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi, \u00f6z\u00fc deyil, v\u00fccudu ist\u0259yirdi. D\u0259c\u0259l bir u\u015faq kimi Canan\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259nini ist\u0259yirdi. Onun qoxusunu v\u0259 ona sahib olma\u011f\u0131\u2026. Olmayacaq \u015feyl\u0259r ist\u0259y\u0259n q\u0259lbi a\u011fl\u0131na h\u00f6km etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259ki k\u00f6p\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259ri he\u00e7 vaxt bu gec\u0259ki q\u0259d\u0259r olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sanki bay\u0131rda bir it s\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fc xorla h\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Biri susan kimi o biri ba\u015flay\u0131r v\u0259 ya bir ne\u00e7\u0259si eyni anda davam edirdi. H\u0259tta yax\u0131nl\u0131qdan g\u0259l\u0259n it s\u0259sin\u0259 uzaqlardak\u0131 itl\u0259r d\u0259 s\u0259s verir v\u0259 bu, qaranl\u0131q gec\u0259ni daha da vahim\u0259li edirdi. Gec\u0259 olduqca canl\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tliydi. Evin \u0259traf\u0131nda ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidilirdi. Onlarla add\u0131m, p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131, qorxu dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259r \u0259trafda dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu vaxt adam\u0131n, – \u201cN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, d\u00f6rd divar\u0131m, ba\u015f\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dam\u0131m, kilidli qap\u0131m var\u201d – dey\u0259si g\u0259lirdi. O an evd\u0259, g\u00fcv\u0259nd\u0259 olmaq \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik idi. Amma hiss olunurdu ki, b\u0259zil\u0259ri gec\u0259nin qoynunda h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 oyaqd\u0131r.
\nCanan\u0131n yuxusu t\u0259miz qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259s\u0259 qeyri- adi bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259t var idi. Qulaqlar\u0131 onu yan\u0131ltm\u0131rd\u0131, ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidilirdi. K\u0259nardan duyacaqlarm\u0131\u015f kimi qorxudan n\u0259f\u0259sini uddu. Yata\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, qap\u0131 asta-asta d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcr. Diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi, do\u011frudan da, kims\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u00f6p\u0259kl\u0259r ola bil\u0259rdi, lakin onlar\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259ri yum\u015faq idi, bel\u0259 s\u0259s el\u0259m\u0259zdi. Sanki yad ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri eyvana q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini anid\u0259n a\u00e7d\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yi \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. T\u0259rslikd\u0259n i\u015f\u0131qlar da, dey\u0259s\u0259n, k\u0259silmi\u015fdi. Bay\u0131rdak\u0131 lampan\u0131n q\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lmirdi. Amma qap\u0131 olduqca \u00fcrk\u0259k bir s\u0259sl\u0259, arams\u0131z v\u0259 tez-tez d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nCanan sakitc\u0259 yor\u011fan\u0131n alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, gec\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yni d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi. \u018ftraf \u00e7ox qaranl\u0131q idi. M\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di, \u0259l havas\u0131na kibriti v\u0259 \u015fam\u0131 axtard\u0131. Qap\u0131 daha s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Evd\u0259kil\u0259r oyanacaq dey\u0259 Canan narahat oldu. – \u201cBu saatda kim ola bil\u0259r?\u201d- dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. A\u011fl\u0131ndan Qalib ke\u00e7di. Do\u011frudan da, o ola bil\u0259rdimi? Qalibdirs\u0259, B\u0259sri bunu bilm\u0259m\u0259liydi. Onun oyanmamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir an \u0259vv\u0259l qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lib, x\u0259fifc\u0259, – \u201cKims\u0259n?\u201d, – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. S\u0259s g\u0259lm\u0259di. T\u0259krar, bir az y\u00fcks\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259 soru\u015fdu. Qap\u0131 dal\u0131ndak\u0131 adam, \u201c M\u0259n\u0259m\u201d, – dedi. S\u0259s Canana tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259di. Bir d\u0259 soru\u015fdu: – \u201cS\u0259n kims\u0259n, ax\u0131? \u201d, – Bay\u0131rdak\u0131 s\u0259s qorxudan kalla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u201cM\u0259n\u0259m, Fuad\u201d \u2013 dedi.
\n-Hans\u0131 Fuad?
\n-Qalibin qarda\u015f\u0131, ev sahibinin o\u011flu\u2026
\nCanan indi xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Fuad\u0131 bir d\u0259f\u0259 ma\u011fazada g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 kiray\u0259 pulunu o g\u0259lib alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n-B\u0259li, b\u0259li , tan\u0131d\u0131m. Bu saatda n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r s\u0259n\u0259, Fuad?
\n-Yeng\u0259 qulun, k\u00f6l\u0259n olum. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7. Arxamca adamlar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.
\n– Eviniz\u0259 niy\u0259 getmirs\u0259n, o\u011flum?
\n-Ev\u0259 ged\u0259n yolu k\u0259sibl\u0259r, m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r, yeng\u0259, n\u0259 olar qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7, gizl\u0259nim, sabah tezd\u0259n ged\u0259r\u0259m.
\nCanan qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etdi. Bu o\u011flana nec\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rdi? Bir s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131 olsayd\u0131, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kdi? Ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131n qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q vaxt\u0131nda, qarda\u015f\u0131n qarda\u015f\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc bir zamanda qap\u0131n\u0131 nec\u0259 a\u00e7a bil\u0259rdi? Fuad is\u0259 bay\u0131rda yalvar\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-Vallah, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 girdil\u0259r, tez ol, bac\u0131, nec\u0259 olur-olsun, tez ol, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7!!!
\nCanan bir an i\u00e7ind\u0259 q\u0259rar verm\u0259liydi: ya he\u00e7 a\u00e7mayacaq, risk\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi; ya da birinin can\u0131 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259d\u0259 is\u0259, onu qoruyacaqd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7mama\u011f\u0131n, bir insan\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259d\u0259 ik\u0259n k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n he\u00e7 bir f\u0259rqi yox idi. D\u00f6n\u00fcb ged\u0259 bil\u0259rdimi? Bu Canan idi, he\u00e7 bir vaxt bel\u0259 etm\u0259mi\u015fdi! A\u00e7ar\u0131 sal\u0131b, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7\u0259ri salan Fuad tir-tir titr\u0259yirdi:
\n-Tez qap\u0131n\u0131 kilidl\u0259, bac\u0131. Arxamca g\u0259lirl\u0259r!!!
\nCanan qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131.\u201d D\u0259mir lingi qap\u0131ya tax, bac\u0131m\u201d, – dey\u0259n Fuad h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 titr\u0259yirdi.
\nCanan k\u00fcncd\u0259n d\u0259mir lingi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, c\u0259ld qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7irdi. Fuad el\u0259 ordaca, qap\u0131n\u0131n dibin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u018fg\u0259r qaranl\u0131q olnmasayd\u0131, Canan onun saralm\u0131\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc, qorxu dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259rdi.
\n– Bu adamlar kiml\u0259rdi?
\n-Soru\u015fma, bac\u0131. \u0130t s\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr.
\n– O n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir?
\n\u0130ndi onu nec\u0259 ba\u015fa salayd\u0131, uzun-uzad\u0131 olanlar\u0131 bir c\u00fcml\u0259y\u0259 nec\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rayd\u0131?
\n-Sonra anladaram, \u0259sas odur ki, \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259ydim, m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb le\u015fimi s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r.\u201d
\n-Qanl\u0131n-filan\u0131n varm\u0131? S\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 ist\u0259yirl\u0259r? N\u0259 etmis\u0259n onlara?
\nFuad o q\u0259d\u0259r qorxmu\u015fdu ki, hu\u015fu ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n– M\u0259n onlara he\u00e7 n\u0259 etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n– B\u0259s, onda gec\u0259nin bu vaxt\u0131nda s\u0259nin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 n\u0259 i\u015fin vard\u0131?
\nFuad n\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di:
\n-\u0130\u015fim yoxdu. M\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259y\u0259m. Bu s\u0259h\u0259r k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 dava el\u0259dik. \u0130ndi d\u0259 arxamca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbl\u0259r.
\nFuad\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n Canan\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131 bir \u015fey k\u0259sm\u0259di. Susub bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 bay\u0131rdak\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ri dinl\u0259dil\u0259r. Ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri \u0259trafda o t\u0259r\u0259f-bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra s\u0259sl\u0259r azald\u0131, uzaqla\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 tamam yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u0130ndi uzaqdan g\u0259l\u0259n it s\u0259sl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015fqa h\u0259r \u015fey susurdu. Canan Fuada, \u201c\u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, ke\u00e7 m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 otur, g\u00f6zl\u0259\u201d- dedi.
\n-Yox, bac\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Siz gedin, yat\u0131n. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, sizi narahat etdim. M\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n ged\u0259c\u0259m.
\nCanan \u00e7ox israr em\u0259yib, yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. O q\u0259d\u0259r yor\u011fun idi ki, yata\u011fa gir\u0259r-girm\u0259z yuxu onu apard\u0131.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0259fil a\u00e7d\u0131. B\u0259sri yan\u0131nda yox idi. Tez yataqdan qalx\u0131b, qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdi. Fuad g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi. Hamamdan \u00e7\u0131xan B\u0259sri;
\n-N\u0259 tez durdun – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\nCanan ax\u015famk\u0131 hadis\u0259nin t\u0259\u015fvi\u015fi alt\u0131nda h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n idi.
\n– El\u0259-bel\u0259 oyand\u0131m, s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yi haz\u0131rlayaram, – dey\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

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Fuad\u0131 o gec\u0259 bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay \u0259vv\u0259l dostu il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n g\u0259zintisi idi. Sinif yolda\u015f\u0131 Aslan onunla yax\u0131n dostuydu. Aslan b\u0259st\u0259boy, qara\u015f\u0131n, yek\u0259burun bir o\u011flan\u0131yd\u0131. \u0130mkanl\u0131 ail\u0259d\u0259niydi. He\u00e7 kimd\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaxtlar o, atas\u0131n\u0131n \u201cShevrolet\u201d markal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u00f6k oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259diyi Aslan onlar\u0131n diqq\u0259tini ma\u015f\u0131nla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259min g\u00fcn Fuada dedi ki, iki q\u0131z tan\u0131\u015f\u0131m var. Ma\u015f\u0131nla g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131q. Atam \u0130stanbuldad\u0131r. F\u00fcrs\u0259ti qa\u00e7\u0131rmayaq. Fuad t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259d\u0259n raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131. Ar\u0131q v\u00fccudu indid\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259candan \u0259sdi.
\nErt\u0259si g\u00fcn iki q\u0131zla \u015f\u0259h\u0259r k\u0259nar\u0131na g\u0259zintiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. Yolda s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 gedirdil\u0259r. \u018fvv\u0259l- \u0259vv\u0259l g\u0259zinti xo\u015f ke\u00e7irdi. El\u0259 ki, Aslan ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259sas yoldan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, a\u011facl\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u0259rdi, q\u0131zlar\u0131n kefi pozuldu. \u201cQay\u0131daq, valideynl\u0259rimiz narahat olacaqlar\u201d, – dedil\u0259r.
\nAslan onlar\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 fikir verm\u0259di. Bunu g\u00f6r\u0259n q\u0131zlar s\u0259sl\u0259rini qald\u0131rd\u0131lar. Fuad q\u0131zlar\u0131n qorxdu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb, \u2013 \u201cAslan, qay\u0131daq, q\u0131zlar, narahatd\u0131r\u201d, – dedi. Q\u0131zlar a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Aslan, – \u201cN\u0259 olub, sizi yedikmi?\u201d, – dey\u0259 hirsl\u0259ndi. Arzu adl\u0131 q\u0131z, – \u201cBax geri d\u00f6nm\u0259s\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131ndan atacam!\u201d, – dedi.
\nAslan onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ciddiy\u0259 almad\u0131, – \u201c\u0130ndi d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259m\u201d ,- deyib ir\u0259li s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Arzu q\u0259fild\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bay\u0131ra atd\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259k\u0259ri onun aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7di. Aslan \u015foka d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dayand\u0131rmaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 qaz\u0131 bas\u0131b, ir\u0259li s\u0131\u00e7ratd\u0131. Fuad, – \u201cDayan!\u201d, – dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Aslan, n\u0259hay\u0259t, s\u00fcr\u0259ti azald\u0131b, geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Arzu yerd\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259ktsiz halda uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Fuad, – \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn!\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 onun sin\u0259sin\u0259, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 yumruq vurdu.
\nArzu n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131, amma bir aya\u011f\u0131 s\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onu x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131lar, d\u0259rhal \u0259m\u0259liyyata al\u0131nd\u0131. O\u011flanlar is\u0259 polis m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259dil\u0259r. Q\u0131zlarn yax\u0131nlar\u0131 Aslan\u0131n\u0131n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131lar, Fuad\u0131 izl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015fladlar. H\u0259d\u0259- qorxu bitmirdi. Fuad\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Aslan bir ay h\u0259bs yat\u0131b, \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nBir ax\u015fam \u00e7ayxanadan \u00e7\u0131xanda yenid\u0259n q\u0131zlar\u0131n qohumlar\u0131yla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Aslan Fuad\u0131n qolundan \u00e7\u0259kdi ki, – \u201cG\u0259l qa\u00e7aq!\u201d. S\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Fuad b\u0259rk qorxmu\u015fdu. Qeyri- \u015f\u00fcuru hara g\u0259ldi qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259yat\u0131 bir kino kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u0259lib ke\u00e7di. Bilirdi ki, yaxalansa, sa\u011f buraxmayacaqlar. Bir xeyli qa\u00e7d\u0131. Aslan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259ymir, s\u0259sl\u0259r is\u0259 getdikc\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fmisigilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc, a\u00e7an olmad\u0131. Kiray\u0259 verdikl\u0259ri h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 girib, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. \u018fn ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131s\u0131 Canangilin qap\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcmidl\u0259 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra yalvar\u0131\u015flar, qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131… Qap\u0131 kandar\u0131nda yuxulamas\u0131n\u0131 Fuad \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u0131r\u0131nacan unutmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Qalib o s\u0259h\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 olduqca fikirli idi. H\u0259tta dal\u0131nca g\u0259l\u0259n faytonu bel\u0259 hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Faytoncu C\u0259lil yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 atlar\u0131 saxlay\u0131b dedi: \u201cN\u0259 yaman dal\u011f\u0131nsan Hac\u0131n\u0131n o\u011flu? Az qala bizim fa\u011f\u0131r atlara \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259zdir\u0259c\u0259kdin!\u201d Faytoncunun s\u0259si ucuz t\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kd\u0259n x\u0131r\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. O, Qalib\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201cHac\u0131n\u0131n o\u011flu\u201d deyirdi. Faytonu Qalibin d\u00fcz sa\u011f\u0131nda dayand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, atlar\u0131n qoxusu hiss edilirdi. Qalib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirib, ya\u015fl\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 baxd\u0131. Qozbel, qar\u0131nl\u0131 adam idi. \u018fllini \u00e7oxdan adlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma t\u0259ra\u015fs\u0131z, bax\u0131ms\u0131z \u00fcz\u00fc, t\u00fct\u00fcnd\u0259n saralm\u0131\u015f cod b\u0131\u011flar\u0131 onu daha ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. Yana \u0259yilmi\u015f kepkas\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\n-Nec\u0259s\u0259n, C\u0259lil day\u0131?
\n-M\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131yam, amma s\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259min deyil\u0259m!
\n-M\u0259ni bo\u015f ver… B\u0259zi hadis\u0259l\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yimi s\u0131x\u0131r…
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131 haydi min, bazara q\u0259d\u0259r apar\u0131m s\u0259ni. Onsuz da m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259rim yoxdur. G\u0259l otur, fayton bo\u015funa getm\u0259sin.
\nQalib faytona al\u0131\u015f\u0131q deyildi, tez-tez minm\u0259zdi. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259di. Faytondan \u00e7\u0131xan t\u0259k\u0259r v\u0259 z\u0131ng\u0131rov s\u0259sl\u0259ri onu lap u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rin\u0259 apard\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 gir\u0259n h\u0259r faytonun arxas\u0131nca dostlar\u0131 il\u0259 qa\u00e7ar, faytonun oxundan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b, ayaqlar\u0131 g\u00f6yd\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r ged\u0259rdil\u0259r. Nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259li idi!… H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n, u\u015faql\u0131q xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikdir! Bu t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li mac\u0259ra k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259ki dig\u0259r u\u015faqlar\u0131n fayton\u00e7uya x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259siyl\u0259 bit\u0259rdi. Ba\u011f\u0131rard\u0131lar: \u201cFayton\u00e7u, arxaya bir qam\u00e7\u0131!\u201d Bu s\u00f6z \u201cArxadan tutan u\u015faqlar var\u201d m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 verirdi v\u0259 C\u0259lilin dala yell\u0259diyi s\u0259rt qam\u00e7\u0131yla u\u015faqlar faytonun oxunu buraxard\u0131lar. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 yada sal\u0131b, x\u0259fifc\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Atlar\u0131n taqq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ox xo\u015f idi. Arxaya s\u00f6yk\u0259ndi.
\n-\u0130\u015fl\u0259r nec\u0259dir, day\u0131?
\n-Nec\u0259 olacaq, taksi \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra bizim i\u015fimiz bitdi. Bir \u00e7oxlar\u0131 faytonunu satd\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 satmaq ist\u0259rdim, amma ind\u0259n bel\u0259 n\u0259 i\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259m, neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m?… Bu qocalm\u0131\u015f atlarla \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cburam. M\u0259ni bo\u015f ver, bor \u00f6z d\u0259rdind\u0259n-odundan dan\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 var, n\u0259 yox.
\nQalibin fikri bir anl\u0131q ona veril\u0259n sualda c\u0259ml\u0259ndi. \u201cN\u0259 olacaq, day\u0131, qarda\u015f\u0131m Fuad yaman s\u0131x\u0131r can\u0131m\u0131. K\u0130ml\u0259rs\u0259 onun dal\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259 h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259yirl\u0259r. He\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m, neyl\u0259yim\u201d Qalibin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki \u00fcmidsizlik o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259riniydi ki, sanki qaranl\u0131q bir quyunun i\u00e7ind\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, yol tap\u0131b he\u00e7 c\u00fcr \u00e7\u0131xa bilmirdi. C\u0259lil ki\u015fi susub, sad\u0259c\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259dirdi. S\u00f6zl\u0259r bel\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n qorxaq v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259king\u0259n olur, gizl\u0259nir. H\u0259r insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259diyi s\u00f6z onun g\u00fcv\u0259nc yeridir. Susmaq sirl\u0259ri v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri \u00f6rt\u00fcr. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, indi susmaq, h\u0259r \u015feyi unutmaq, a\u011fl\u0131n \u0259n d\u0259rin, n\u0259 gizli yerin\u0259 atmaq vaxt\u0131yd\u0131. Eynil\u0259 Canana olan hissl\u0259ri kimi lap arxaya atmaq. Amma Fuad o q\u0259d\u0259r ger\u00e7\u0259k idi ki, onun bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti h\u0259r c\u00fcr narahatl\u0131q v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib g\u0259tirirdi.
\nFaytonun t\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 dayananda C\u0259lilin, – \u201cG\u0259ldik, Hac\u0131n\u0131n o\u011flu\u201d – dem\u0259siyl\u0259 Qalib fikir-x\u0259yaldan ayr\u0131l\u0131b, ger\u00e7\u0259k al\u0259m\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. Ma\u011fazan\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda faytondan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 verdiyi pulu n\u0259 illah el\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, faytoncu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259di. C\u0259lil atlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 qam\u00e7\u0131lay\u0131b, uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. Qalib ma\u011fazaya girdi. Atas\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi ondan \u0259vv\u0259l g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi yen\u0259 d\u0259 qa\u00e7qabaql\u0131 idi. Qalibin he\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 baxmad\u0131. Yen\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259lik, adi, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki bir i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015flad\u0131…<\/p>\n

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Canangil\u0259 getm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparan Qalib, n\u0259hay\u0259t, getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn vacib bir s\u0259b\u0259b tapma\u011f\u0131n verdiyi rahatl\u0131qla g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda getm\u0259yi q\u0259til\u0259\u015fdirdi. Canan Fuad\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bunu Fuad \u00f6z\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 Canana minn\u0259tdarl\u0131q etm\u0259k laz\u0131m idi. \u201cAxtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m yar idi, yetirdi p\u0259rv\u0259rdigar. Bundan yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259b ola bil\u0259rmi?\u201d – dey\u0259 Qalib d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.
\nAx\u015fam d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 o art\u0131q Canangilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndayd\u0131. Canan qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda Qalibin ilk s\u00f6z\u00fc, – \u201cT\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015fdim\u201d, – dem\u0259k oldu. Canan onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 yaranan m\u0259mnun ifad\u0259 il\u0259, – \u201c\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri g\u0259l, Qalib, \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259 dayanma, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan islanma\u201d – dedi. Qalib \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. – \u201cOrta\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lm\u0259yibmi?\u201d- soru\u015fdu. B\u0259z\u0259n B\u0259sriy\u0259 s\u0259mimilikd\u0259n , – \u201cOrta\u011f\u0131m\u201d- dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edirdi. Gec\u0259l\u0259rin birind\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t zaman\u0131 birlikd\u0259 \u0130zmird\u0259 ortaq bir kafe a\u00e7maq haqq\u0131nda s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri olmu\u015fdu.
\n-G\u0259l\u0259r, g\u0259l\u0259r. S\u0259n ke\u00e7 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f…
\nQalib qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. U\u015faqlar \u00fczb\u0259\u00fczd\u0259ki qon\u015fudayd\u0131. Hava \u00e7iskin, ya\u011fmurlu idi. Penc\u0259yini \u00e7\u0131xarmadan \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Canan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 Qalib, – \u201cM\u0259n gedim, B\u0259sri g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lib d\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m. Sad\u0259c\u0259, qarda\u015f\u0131m Fuad\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qurtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259min ad\u0131ndan s\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr etm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. Sizi narahat etdim\u201d, – dey\u0259r\u0259k aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Amma Canan\u0131n m\u0259lah\u0259tli s\u0259si onu yenid\u0259n oturma\u011fa vadar el\u0259di.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, amma bura kimi g\u0259lmis\u0259n, bir q\u0259hv\u0259 i\u00e7, ged\u0259rs\u0259n. \u0130kic\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259, B\u0259sri d\u0259 indic\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r.
\nCanan c\u0259lbedici, g\u00f6z\u0259l yeri\u015fiyl\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f y\u00f6n\u0259ldi. Qara r\u0259ngli q\u0131r\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131 bir don geyinmi\u015fdi. Corabs\u0131z bald\u0131rlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131qda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qalib onun arxas\u0131nca g\u00f6zucu baxd\u0131. Bu, onu alt-\u00fcst etm\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259s el\u0259di. \u018fyl\u0259\u015fdiyi yer\u0259 mismar kimi \u00e7ax\u0131ld\u0131. Evd\u0259ki \u0259\u015fyalar sanki ba\u015f\u0131na f\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131…
\nCanan ota\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 Qalib\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, sanki bura g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n saatlar ke\u00e7ib. Canan t\u00fcrk q\u0259hv\u0259si g\u0259tirdi, sonra da ke\u00e7ib Qalibin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi:
\n-Siqaretin varm\u0131?\u201d
\nQalib cibind\u0259n siqaret qutusunu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b ona uzatd\u0131. Canan Qalibin titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc siqareti min bir naz il\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l dodaqlar\u0131 aras\u0131na qoydu. Qalib bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259mr\u0259 tabe bir robort kimi \u00e7axma\u011f\u0131 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. Qad\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259tri onu bihu\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdi. O, bu qad\u0131n\u0131n iki doda\u011f\u0131 aras\u0131ndaki siqaretin yerind\u0259 olmaq ist\u0259y\u0259rdi! Canan\u0131n m\u0259nal\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 ox kimi sanc\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ondan \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmirdi. Masada \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib siqaretl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kdil\u0259r. Bu \u015f\u0259rait onlar\u0131 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259s el\u0259di.
\nH\u0259y\u0259candan, utancdan dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015fqa bir s\u00f6z tapmayan Qalib qarda\u015f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dalbadal minn\u0259tdarl\u0131q edirdi. Canan Fuad\u0131n g\u0259ldiyi gec\u0259d\u0259n s\u00f6z etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n-B\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k bir \u015fey deyil. M\u0259nim yerimd\u0259 kim olsa, o da bel\u0259 ed\u0259rdi. Minn\u0259tdarl\u0131\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdur.
\nAmma Qalib \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmadan Canan\u0131n onlar\u0131n ail\u0259sin\u0259 nec\u0259 bir yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q etdiyini el\u0259 hey t\u0259krar edirdi:
\n-Bilirs\u0259nmi, s\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l \u0259mimgilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcb, a\u00e7an olmay\u0131b. \u0130nsan dostu, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259tin vaxtda tan\u0131y\u0131r.
\nSonra q\u0259hv\u0259l\u0259rini i\u00e7dil\u0259r. H\u0259r ikisi bir-birini qucaqlamaqdan \u00f6zl\u0259rini g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Radioda \u00e7al\u0131nan q\u0259dim bir mahn\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 inc\u0259 bir s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 kimi yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131:
\nGetdi can\u0131m\u0131n canan\u0131,
\nah can\u0131m, vay can\u0131m, yar can\u0131m.
\nQoydu m\u0259ni yaral\u0131,
\nah can\u0131m, vay can\u0131m, canan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259sri bu n\u0259\u011fm\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevir. \u2013 Canan g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.
\n– S\u0259nin ad\u0131n var, y\u0259qin bu \u00fczd\u0259ndir, yeng\u0259.
\n-Bir \u015fey xahi\u015f edim s\u0259nd\u0259n. Bu \u201cyeng\u0259\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 sevmir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 Canan de.
\nQalib g\u00fcld\u00fc:
\n-Olar yen… y\u0259ni Canan. \u2013 deyib azca p\u0259rt oldu. Aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b, k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz-k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz \u201cGets\u0259m yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u201d – dedi.
\n– \u00d6z\u00fcn bil\u0259rs\u0259n. \u2013 Canan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymad\u0131.
\nCanan qabaqda, Qalib arxada qonaq ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f ir\u0259lil\u0259dil\u0259r. Qap\u0131n\u0131n tam qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Canan anid\u0259n arxaya \u00e7evrilib, Qalibl\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 durdu, qap\u0131yla o\u011flan\u0131n aras\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b qald\u0131. Canan\u0131n istiliyi Qalibi alov kimi qarsalad\u0131. H\u0259r \u015feyi unudub, Canan\u0131n \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, boyun-bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259rar\u0259tli \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq etdi… Canan qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q vermir, amma dart\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131 da. El\u0259c\u0259 o\u011flan\u0131n ist\u0259yin\u0259 tabe olmu\u015fdu. Bird\u0259n m\u00fcvazin\u0259tini itirib, Qalibin quca\u011f\u0131na y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. Qalib ona m\u00f6hk\u0259m sar\u0131ld\u0131, \u201cCanan, Canan\u201d dey\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259si k\u0259sil\u0259-k\u0259sil\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. Sonra qad\u0131n\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131ndan burax\u0131b, qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rparaq, evi c\u0259ld t\u0259rk el\u0259di.
\nCanan bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nda donub qald\u0131. \u018fli il\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131na toxundu, \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n idi, ke\u00e7ib oturdu. Bir az \u00f6nc\u0259 yuxumu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc? N\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi bir anda? Yuxu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 masadaki fincanlar, doda\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 izd\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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Qalibgil\u0259 m\u0259xsus olan \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl\u201d mebel ma\u011fazas\u0131 C\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin \u0259n m\u0259rk\u0259zi yerind\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015firdi. Ma\u011faza c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr mebell\u0259rl\u0259 doluydu. Yem\u0259k masalar\u0131, yataq d\u0259sti, divanlar, kreslo, q\u0259hv\u0259 masalar\u0131, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, a\u011fla g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259r c\u00fcr mebel var idi. Ma\u011fazan\u0131n \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259n olan \u00f6n t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 boya il\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259rfl\u0259rl\u0259 \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl Mebel\u201d yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Eyni r\u0259ngd\u0259 bir l\u00f6vh\u0259 d\u0259 ma\u011fazan\u0131n yuxar\u0131s\u0131ndan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hac\u0131 H\u00fcseyn ki\u00e7ik bir x\u0131rdavat d\u00fckan\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z s\u0259y v\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259til\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259nin \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 mebel ma\u011fazas\u0131na \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. Ki\u015fi \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259 ciddi v\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259bkar idi. O \u00f6z o\u011fullar\u0131na he\u00e7 vaxt bu i\u015fl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faraq, d\u0259rs ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f, onlar\u0131n birba\u015fa praktikada \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259l\u0259rini ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n bu i\u015fi sev\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rini dem\u0259k do\u011fru olmazd\u0131. Qalib bu i\u015fd\u0259 atas\u0131na \u00fcmid v\u0259d edirdi. O \u00f6z i\u015fini m\u0259nims\u0259mi\u015f v\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. G\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fc v\u0259 xo\u015f r\u0259ftar\u0131 say\u0259sind\u0259 m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri ondan raz\u0131 qal\u0131rd\u0131.
\nQalib evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fan bir c\u00fctl\u00fcy\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x d\u0259stini g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi ki, Fuad\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259ri girdiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. O, buna \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259yib, m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259riyl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tini davam etdirdi:
\n-Bu mebel qoz a\u011fac\u0131ndan haz\u0131rlan\u0131b, d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fcd\u00fcr …
\nS\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259l\u0259 bitirm\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, qap\u0131dak\u0131 gurultuya t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildi. Fuad yer\u0259 s\u0259rilmi\u015fdi. H\u0259r k\u0259s t\u0259la\u015fla ona sar\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Qalib qorxuyla ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Fuad! Fuad, n\u0259 oldu s\u0259n\u0259?
\nO, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na \u00e7atanda Fuad\u0131n durumu yax\u015f\u0131 deyildi. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi al- qan i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. Qalib:
\n– Fuad, qarda\u015f\u0131m, kim etdi bunu s\u0259n\u0259?- dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nAmma Fuad \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259-s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildi. Onu tez x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nYaras\u0131 a\u011f\u0131r idi. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra hu\u015fu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259, v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 qorxulu idi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xanada qald\u0131. Qalib ba\u015f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 oturub, ke\u015fiyini \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n hal\u0131na \u00e7ox \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Analar\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131yan dizl\u0259ri ucbat\u0131ndan g\u00fcnd\u0259 ancaq bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilir, atalar\u0131 is\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 telefonla \u0259laq\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. O z\u0259if, \u00e7\u0259limsiz u\u015faq indi, dem\u0259k olar ki, tamam \u0259riyib \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, bir d\u0259ri, bir s\u00fcm\u00fck qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 yaralar var idi, qab\u0131r\u011falar\u0131 s\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, di\u015fl\u0259ri t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, qaraciy\u0259ri \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f, ba\u015f\u0131ndan a\u011f\u0131r z\u0259d\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qalib koridordak\u0131 telefonla atas\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra ota\u011fa qay\u0131danda qarda\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini tavana zill\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri bu q\u0259d\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n-Fuad, Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr yax\u015f\u0131san. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin k\u0259nar\u0131na qoydu\u011fu stulu c\u0259ld yata\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib oturdu. Fuad\u0131n \u0259lini tutdu. Ar\u0131q, inc\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini… D\u0131rnaqlar\u0131 uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn k\u0259s\u0259r\u0259m, – dey\u0259 Qalib d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n damc\u0131lar s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. \u201cNiy\u0259 demirs\u0259n ki, s\u0259n\u0259 bu \u0259clafl\u0131\u011f\u0131 kim el\u0259di?\u201d
\nSar\u011fi il\u0259 sar\u0131nm\u0131\u015f b\u0259zi yerl\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259lh\u0259m v\u0259 qan bay\u0131ra s\u0131zm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 . Qalib d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 soru\u015fsa da, cavab ala bilm\u0259di. Sonra Fuad, – \u201cM\u0259ni tualet\u0259 apar \u201d, – dedi. S\u0259si sanki bir borudan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Qalibin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131. C\u0259ld k\u00f6m\u0259k edib, onu tualet\u0259 apard\u0131. Bu s\u0259h\u0259r dializ cihaz\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Sidiyi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 qanl\u0131 idi. T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7arpay\u0131ya qay\u0131danda \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 uzand\u0131:
\n-M\u0259nim qarda\u015f\u0131m asland\u0131, aslan! \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Yax\u0131nda ev\u0259 qay\u0131dacaq. S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u015forba bi\u015firtdir\u0259c\u0259m anama\u201d- dedi Qalib.
\nFuad ilk d\u0259f\u0259 o g\u00fcn \u015forba i\u00e7\u0259 bildi. Ax\u015fama do\u011fru atalar\u0131 da g\u0259ldi. Bir k\u0259lm\u0259 k\u0259sm\u0259d\u0259n uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t o\u011fluna baxd\u0131. Sanki \u00f6z yaralar\u0131ym\u0131\u015f kimi b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 o a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 hiss etdi, amma \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir duy\u011fu \u0259lam\u0259ti bel\u0259 yoxuydu. Bir xeyli Qalibin Fuada \u015forba yedirtm\u0259sini seyr etdi v\u0259 sonra bo\u015falan kasalar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, g\u0259tirdiyi torbaya qoydu.
\n-M\u0259n gedir\u0259m ev\u0259, Qalib.”-dey\u0259 palatadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nQalib qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 sildi, yor\u011fan\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ldib, “Yat, qarda\u015f\u0131m”, – dedi v\u0259 bir az m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7un k\u00f6hn\u0259 kresloya \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Sol \u0259lini aln\u0131na dayad\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. O an x\u0259yal\u0131ndan Canan ke\u00e7di. Yan otaqdan z\u0259if bir musiqi s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi.
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 bax, e\u015fq\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.
\nS\u0259ni nec\u0259 itirdim…
\n\u0130ll\u0259rdir mahn\u0131ya qulaq asmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, e\u015fitdiyi musiqi s\u0259sl\u0259rinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ona indi ayd\u0131n olmu\u015fdu. Musiqi qula\u011f\u0131na nec\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lirdi. Canan v\u0259 musiqi \u2013 ikisi d\u0259 nec\u0259 xo\u015f idi. Canan kim idi? Ya\u015fam idi, n\u0259f\u0259s, b\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259r, h\u0259yat\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 idi. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259ki k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki minl\u0259rl\u0259 ulduz idi… Sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kreslonun arxas\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. Onu \u00f6pm\u0259yini, ona sar\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n\u0131, Canan\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131qca, i\u00e7ind\u0259 t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi il\u0131q duy\u011fular dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nBu vaxt Fuad\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi:
\n-\u00c7ox d\u00f6yd\u00fcl\u0259r. Ac\u0131madan vurdular… Vurdular…
\nQalib g\u00f6z\u0259l x\u0259yallar\u0131ndan ayr\u0131ld\u0131:
\n-N\u0259 dedin, Fuad?
\n-Onlar insan deyildil\u0259r.
\n-\u0130nsan olsalar etm\u0259zdil\u0259r. S\u00f6yl\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m, s\u00f6yl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259, gedib d\u0259rsl\u0259rini verim.
\n-Yox qarda\u015f\u0131m, s\u0259n ili\u015fm\u0259 onlara. – dodaqlar\u0131, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7i yara olan Fuad\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 k\u0259sik-k\u0259sik \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. – O g\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar, m\u0259ni tutdular. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t da\u015fl\u0131 yolla harasa getdik. Sonra m\u0259ni bir yer\u0259 apard\u0131lar, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 zirz\u0259miy\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Orda m\u0259n\u0259 i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verdil\u0259r. Sonra da \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n uzaq t\u0259nha bir yer\u0259 g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. Var g\u00fcc\u00fcml\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m, k\u00f6m\u0259yim\u0259 he\u00e7 kim g\u0259lm\u0259di. Sonra hu\u015fumu itirdim… G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7anda ma\u011fazan\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131m. \u00d6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, at\u0131b getmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Niy\u0259 g\u0259tirdikl\u0259rini d\u0259 anlam\u0131ram, m\u0259ni el\u0259 oradaca, burax\u0131b ged\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, atama g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131blar…
\n-G\u00fcnah m\u0259nd\u0259di Fuad, s\u0259ni yaln\u0131z buraxmamal\u0131yd\u0131m. S\u0259n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fck el\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. S\u0259ni qoruma\u011f\u0131 bacarmad\u0131m. – g\u00fcnahkarl\u0131q hissind\u0259n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n Qalib n\u0259s\u0259 etm\u0259yin m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczl\u00fcy\u00fc, qisas\u0131n\u0131 ala bilm\u0259m\u0259yin \u00e7ar\u0259sizliyi il\u0259 yumruqlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259di.
\n– X\u0259ta m\u0259nimdir, s\u0259n m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. -Fuad\u0131n sol\u011fun, g\u00f6y\u0259rmi\u015f \u00fcz\u00fc pe\u015fimanl\u0131q ifad\u0259 edirdi.
\nBir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra Fuad\u0131 x\u0259staxanadan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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Sentyabrda m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131n yeni m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 qeydiyyata d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259siyl\u0259 Canan \u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu. Yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259yinat\u0131ndan dolay\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n t\u0259z\u0259 yerd\u0259ki m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdirilm\u0259si, yeni forma, kitab v\u0259 ba\u015fqa l\u0259vazimatlar\u0131n al\u0131nmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc bazarda, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, hava \u0259vv\u0259lki istiliyini itirmi\u015fdi. \u018fslind\u0259, bu qa\u00e7aqa\u00e7 Canana yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259sir etmi\u015f, fikri az da olsa, da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma buda\u011f\u0131ndan qopan yarpaq kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc taleyin r\u00fczgar\u0131na t\u0259slim ed\u0259r\u0259k, ya\u015fama\u011fa davam edirdi. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259ki q\u0259rib\u0259 duygular onda bir \u00fcmidsizlik yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 ev, n\u0259 d\u0259 u\u015faqlar g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ydi. He\u00e7 bir qohumu, ail\u0259si-u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olmayan g\u0259nc q\u0131z kimi \u00fcr\u0259yi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. Sevirdi! Amma bu onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt etmirdi. Bilirdi ki, sevdiyi insan onun\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fcz v\u0259 \u0259l\u00e7atmazd\u0131r. Yegan\u0259 ist\u0259yi onu g\u00f6rm\u0259k idi. Bu c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r bir-birini \u0259v\u0259z edirdi.
\nBu g\u00fcn eyvana bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdi. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik masan\u0131n arxas\u0131nda siqaretini t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259d\u0259r\u0259k, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n s\u00f6y\u00fcd a\u011faclar\u0131na dikmi\u015fdi. Aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, m\u0259tb\u0259x r\u0259fl\u0259rind\u0259 qablar\u0131n alt\u0131na s\u0259rdiyi \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi, st\u0259kanlar\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 d\u00fczd\u00fc. \u0130kig\u00f6zl\u00fc qaz sobas\u0131n\u0131 sildi, altda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n qaz balonunun p\u0259rd\u0259sini \u00e7\u0259kdi. S\u0259liq\u0259 -s\u0259hman sev\u0259n qad\u0131n idi.
\nBu vaxt \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259 kims\u0259 \u201cCanan bac\u0131! Ay Canan bac\u0131!\u201d – dey\u0259 uca s\u0259sl\u0259 haylad\u0131. Qon\u015fusu G\u00fclt\u0259nin s\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Canan t\u0259la\u015fla qap\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131:
\n-N\u0259di, a G\u00fclt\u0259n, n\u0259 olub yen\u0259?
\n-Sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n a bac\u0131, bir \u015fey olmay\u0131b. Suzangil\u0259 alver\u00e7i g\u0259lib, g\u0259l bir s\u0259n d\u0259 bax, el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feyl\u0259r var ki! Suzan yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259yib, dedi ki, Canan bac\u0131n\u0131 da \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lsin, oturub bir yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259k.
\nCanan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi, amma b\u0259dbin-b\u0259dbin Qalibi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k- d\u0259ns\u0259, gets\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 idi. -Aha, yax\u015f\u0131, paltar\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib g\u0259lir\u0259m – dedi. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n Canan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi \u0259lind\u0259 siqaret v\u0259 al\u0131\u015fqan yell\u0259n\u0259-yell\u0259n\u0259 evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131dan onu izl\u0259y\u0259n qad\u0131nlar \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar.
\n-G\u00fclt\u0259n, Canan bac\u0131 ar\u0131qlay\u0131b el\u0259 bil?- dedi Suzan. G\u00fclt\u0259n d\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxanda onun do\u011frudan da ar\u0131qlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss el\u0259di.
\n-H\u0259, ar\u0131qlay\u0131b. Ax\u0131r vaxtlar \u00fcz\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fclm\u00fcr. Kefi yoxdur sanki. N\u0259 is\u0259 g\u0259lsin g\u00f6r\u0259k, soru\u015fub \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259rik…
\nSentyabr ay\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131zmar g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259n biri idi. Suzan eyvana kilim s\u0259rmi\u015f, yer\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kc\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fczm\u00fc\u015f. Alver\u00e7i qad\u0131n box\u00e7as\u0131nda n\u0259yi varsa, a\u00e7\u0131b, s\u0259rmi\u015fdi eyvana. Kirli aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n birini alt\u0131na alm\u0131\u015f, o birini d\u0259 uzadaraq d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu. \u018fynind\u0259ki b\u00fczm\u0259li \u015falvar onu oldu\u011fundan daha \u015fi\u015fman v\u0259 qar\u0131nl\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. Qarayan\u0131z, toppu\u015f \u00fcz\u00fc t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015fdi. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib, – buyurun bac\u0131lar, – dedi. Sol t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259ki \u00fcst di\u015fl\u0259rinin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131ldan oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r. Zal\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131 el\u0259 bl z\u0259rg\u0259r d\u00fckan\u0131 idi, al\u0131\u015f\u0131b yan\u0131rd\u0131. Sar\u0131 nax\u0131\u015fl\u0131 v\u0259 oymal\u0131 k\u0259l\u0259\u011fay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n uclar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259p\u0259sind\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259mi\u015fdi . Qulaqlar\u0131nda l\u0259l da\u015f\u0131ndan q\u0131z\u0131l s\u0131r\u011falar sallan\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-G\u0259l \u015f\u0131x, ay Canan bac\u0131, bu yaz\u0131q arvadlar bayaqdan s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r.
\nCanandan s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131, balkonda onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ayr\u0131lan \u0259n qal\u0131n d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 oturub, arxas\u0131n\u0131 divara s\u00f6yk\u0259di. Suzan tezc\u0259 onun k\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 bir yast\u0131q qoydu. Sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259, bir az aral\u0131qda havan\u0131n istiliyin\u0259 baxmayaraq, k\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 \u015fal ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n oturmu\u015fdu. Canan, – Salam, xala, – dey\u0259r\u0259k qad\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131yla salamlad\u0131. Azac\u0131q g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n onun salam\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 ald\u0131. Suzan inc\u0259 s\u0259siyl\u0259, – Canan can, bu qad\u0131n m\u0259nim anamd\u0131r, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bizd\u0259 qalacaq, – dedi.
\n-Ooy, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131! S\u0259n\u0259 qulaq yolda\u015f\u0131 olar, dar\u0131xmazsan,- dedi Canan.
\nSuzan b\u00f6y\u00fck bir sinid\u0259 \u00e7ay, c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr \u015firniyyat, konfet, \u015fokolad g\u0259tirdi. \u0130nci kimi di\u015fl\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259-g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259 dedi:
\n-Canan, bir g\u00fcn x\u0259b\u0259r el\u0259 g\u0259l, g\u00f6r Suzan bac\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r haz\u0131rlayacaq!
\nSuzan hicabl\u0131, x\u0131rda-m\u0131rda bir qad\u0131n idi. Alt\u0131 ay idi ki, \u0259r\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Bu evlilikd\u0259, aran\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259kd\u0259 Canan\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck rolu olmu\u015fdu. Suzan qon\u015fular\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131nda f\u0131rlana-f\u0131rlana h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 toyundan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Canan ona bax\u0131r, amma he\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitmir, he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sad\u0259c\u0259 dinl\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259dirdi. Ba\u015fqa vaxt olsayd\u0131, s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 ed\u0259r, x\u0131rdalayar, fikirl\u0259rini bildir\u0259rdi. \u0130ndi o hayda deyildi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc alver\u00e7iy\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirdi:
\n-G\u00f6st\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259k, n\u0259yin var?
\n-S\u0259n ist\u0259, m\u0259n g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259r\u0259mmi, g\u00f6r bir n\u0259l\u0259rim var. D\u0259stl\u0259rim \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ldi, \u00e7ox…
\nQad\u0131n box\u00e7an\u0131 alt-\u00fcst ed\u0259r\u0259k masa \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u0259rini, yataq d\u0259stl\u0259rini, d\u0259smallar\u0131, \u0259l i\u015fl\u0259rini, r\u0259ngli nax\u0131\u015fl\u0131 yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k \u00fczl\u00fckl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, qad\u0131nlar\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na d\u00fczd\u00fc.
\n– Qurban olum, a bac\u0131, h\u0259l\u0259 bu a\u011f \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 bax! Bunlar t\u0259miz Qaziant\u0259p \u0259l i\u015fidir. \u018fl \u0259m\u0259yi, g\u00f6z nuru… H\u0259l\u0259 bu yataq d\u0259stinin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 bax!
\nSuzan yataq d\u0259stini \u0259lind\u0259 o t\u0259r\u0259f-bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259-\u00e7evir\u0259 inc\u0259l\u0259yirdi.
\n-Ne\u00e7\u0259y\u0259dir bu?
\n\u0130\u015fin \u0259sl \u00f6n\u0259mli t\u0259r\u0259fi bu idi. Bazarl\u0131q. Alver\u00e7i qad\u0131n el\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k qiym\u0259t s\u00f6yl\u0259di ki, G\u00fclt\u0259n, – s\u0259n box\u00e7an\u0131 topla get, – dem\u0259li oldu. -Biz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 deyil.
\n-Ay q\u0131z, niy\u0259 el\u0259 deyirs\u0259n, s\u0259n d\u0259 bir qiym\u0259t de h\u0259l\u0259…
\n-Yox ay bac\u0131, vallah biz ala bilm\u0259rik.
\n-S\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm, bir qiym\u0259t de…
\nAx\u0131r ki alver\u00e7i qad\u0131n mal\u0131 normal bir qiym\u0259t\u0259 endirdi. Al\u0131na bil\u0259c\u0259k m\u00fcnasib bir qiym\u0259t idi. Suzan sevincl\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri qa\u00e7d\u0131, amma qay\u0131danda kefsiz idi. -\u00c7ox t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf, pulum \u00e7atm\u0131r, bac\u0131\u201d – dedi.
\nCanan s\u0259ssizc\u0259 bazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 izl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k siqaretini t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259dirdi. Alver\u00e7i ars\u0131zca, – bir siqaret d\u0259 biz\u0259 ver, biz d\u0259 t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259d\u0259k, – dedi. Canan bir siqaret uzad\u0131b, al\u0131\u015fqan\u0131 da verdi. Qad\u0131n siqareti yand\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259rin bir qullab al\u0131b, t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc yek\u0259 burun de\u015fikl\u0259rind\u0259n buraxd\u0131. \u00c7ox siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n oldu\u011fu d\u0259rhal hiss olunurdu.
\n– M\u0259n olsam, bu d\u0259sti qa\u00e7\u0131rmazd\u0131m, bac\u0131, amma gen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn bil\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, – des\u0259 d\u0259, alver getm\u0259diyind\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc hiss olunurdu.
\n-N\u0259ys\u0259, n\u0259sib deyilmi\u015f, – dedi G\u00fclt\u0259n.
\nAlver\u00e7i t\u0259rs-t\u0259rs ona bax\u0131b s\u00f6yl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n-Yeni g\u0259linin h\u0259v\u0259sini niy\u0259 qursa\u011f\u0131nda qoyursuz, k\u00f6m\u0259k edin als\u0131n da!
\nAlver\u00e7i qad\u0131nlar adamda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 heyranl\u0131q oyad\u0131rlar. Onlara alver\u00e7il\u0259rin \u015fah\u0131 dem\u0259k olar. Onlar\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r box\u00e7alar\u0131 da \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 yay\u0131n istisind\u0259 tozlu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, ara m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 dola\u015fa-dola\u015fa s\u0259rgil\u0259dikl\u0259ri h\u00fcn\u0259r t\u0259qdir\u0259layiqdir. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 inaml\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, fa\u011f\u0131r durmurlar. S\u0259s tonlar\u0131 daim gur, davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 t\u0259bii v\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nli olur. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, – \u201cBoxca\u00e7\u0131 g\u0259ldiii!\u201d – dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rmaqdan utanm\u0131rlar. A\u00e7\u0131q g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259ri h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131lar\u0131ndan girm\u0259y\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00e7\u0259kinmirl\u0259r. Bu onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn olduqca normal bir \u015feydir v\u0259 dig\u0259r adamlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259c\u00fcbl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lanm\u0131r. Onlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n, – \u201c\u00d6lm\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t, bir st\u0259kan su\u201d v\u0259 ya \u201cS\u0259n sa\u011flar\u0131n can\u0131, bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 xahi\u015f etm\u0259l\u0259ri adi bir \u015fey oldu\u011fu kimi, veril\u0259n yem\u0259kl\u0259ri i\u015ftahla yem\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc deyil. \u0130ri d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259ri aras\u0131ndan bir d\u0259st\u0259 pul \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, x\u0131rda qaytarmalar\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131n\u0131rlar…
\nHe\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz, qara\u00e7\u0131 tayfas\u0131ndan olan bu qad\u0131n da o alver\u00e7il\u0259rd\u0259n biri idi. G\u00fclt\u0259n\u0259 qa\u015fla-g\u00f6z aras\u0131nda krujeval\u0131 s\u00fcfr\u0259 d\u0259stini satd\u0131qdan sonra keyfi yerin\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Canan maraqlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi, – H\u0259, n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259lmi\u015f bu d\u0259st, n\u0259l\u0259r var i\u00e7ind\u0259?- soru\u015fdu.
\n-N\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131sa, ham\u0131s\u0131 var Canan bac\u0131. Bu b\u0259yaz yataq d\u0259stinin iki b\u00f6y\u00fck, bir uzun, iki d\u0259 ki\u00e7ik yast\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fc, yataq \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc v\u0259 yorgan \u00fczl\u00fcy\u00fc var. Bu g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 bax h\u0259l\u0259… \u018fl \u0259m\u0259yidir.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131. Onda m\u0259n al\u0131ram- dedi Canan.
\nSuzan n\u0259 deyc\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di, bir yandan mal\u0131n al\u0131nmas\u0131na sevindi, bir yandan da \u00f6z\u00fc ala bilm\u0259di dey\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc.
\n-G\u00f6zl\u0259 bac\u0131, g\u0259lir\u0259m indi, – dey\u0259 Canan ba\u015fmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7irib, h\u0259y\u0259tin ax\u0131r\u0131ndak\u0131 evin\u0259 sar\u0131 getdi. Az sonra ovcundak\u0131 qatlanm\u0131\u015f pulu qad\u0131na uzadanda alver\u00e7inin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131. Pullar\u0131 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 sayaraq d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259rinin aras\u0131na soxdu. Sonra d\u0259sti tezbazar qatlay\u0131b, Canana uzatd\u0131. Y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 box\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 belin\u0259 atmas\u0131yla sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b getm\u0259yi bir oldu. Qad\u0131nlar onun dal\u0131nca baxa-baxa qald\u0131lar. Suzan g\u00f6zalt\u0131 b\u0259yaz d\u0259st\u0259 heyran-heyran bax\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-Xeyirli olsun, bac\u0131, yax\u015f\u0131 el\u0259yib ald\u0131n… A\u011fl\u0131mda qalard\u0131 alan olmasayd\u0131.
\n-S\u0259n\u0259 xeyirli olsun, Suzan\u0131m…
\n-M\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 xeyirli olsun ki, bac\u0131?
\nCanan d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259nin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 paketi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, Suzana do\u011fru uzatd\u0131:
\n-Al, bu s\u0259nindir. S\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ald\u0131m. S\u0259hv ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259, onsuz da s\u0259n\u0259 bir h\u0259diyy\u0259 alma\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm, bu lap yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\n-Yox ay bac\u0131, olmaz vallah, q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.
\n-\u0130nan ki, inciy\u0259r\u0259m, \u00fczm\u0259 m\u0259ni, g\u00f6t\u00fcr.
\nD\u00fcnyalar Suzan\u0131n olmu\u015fdu. \u00c7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi. – H\u0259 indi yax\u015f\u0131 oldu, bunun \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 bir siqaret yand\u0131ra bil\u0259r\u0259m – dey\u0259n Canan da \u00e7oxdand\u0131r bu q\u0259d\u0259r sevinm\u0259diyinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131. Bayaqdan he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n onlar\u0131 seyr ed\u0259n, qap\u0131ya yax\u0131n oturmu\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n bird\u0259n dill\u0259ndi: – Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259n bura g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259nmi? – dey\u0259 Canandan soru\u015fdu. G\u00fclt\u0259nl\u0259 Suzan balkondan ota\u011fa ke\u00e7mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Canan \u00e7evrilib qad\u0131na baxd\u0131. Ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n yen\u0259 eyni ruhsuz ifad\u0259yl\u0259 ona bax\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-B\u0259li, xala, bural\u0131 deyil\u0259m.
\n-\u00d6z el-oban \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xm\u0131rsanm\u0131?
\n-Yox, dar\u0131xm\u0131ram.
\n-O zaman bir d\u0259rdinmi var?
\n-Yox, ay g\u00f6z\u0259l xala… Niy\u0259 soru\u015fursan bunlar\u0131?
\n-S\u0259nin m\u00fctl\u0259q bir d\u0259rdin var, ay bala.
\nDamarl\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rp\u0259yinin alt\u0131na soxan qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri canlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Dodaqlar\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar aras\u0131nda itmi\u015f, balaca \u00e7\u0259n\u0259si q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Yaln\u0131z d\u0259rdi olan bu q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259d\u0259rli baxa bil\u0259r. Bu ya\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, ill\u0259rim arxada qal\u0131b, s\u0259nd\u0259ki bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ancaq bir ne\u00e7\u0259 insanda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. He\u00e7 unutmaram, altm\u0131\u015f yeddinci ild\u0259 bir bald\u0131z\u0131m var idi. Ad\u0131 H\u0259c\u0259r idi. Sevdiyi o\u011flana verm\u0259dil\u0259r, o\u011flan da \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi. H\u0259c\u0259r q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng idi. \u00dcz\u00fc ay kimi i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131, qar kimi d\u00fcma\u011f idi.
\n-B\u0259s, sonra n\u0259 oldu?
\n-Sevdas\u0131ndan \u0259ridi getdi. Sonra e\u015fitdik ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259yib. Heyf oldu.
\nCanan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn titr\u0259diyini hiss etdi.
\nSuzanla G\u00fclt\u0259n balkona qay\u0131danda, -N\u0259y\u0259 heyf oldu?, – dey\u0259 maraqla ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131na baxd\u0131lar. R\u0259ngi qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, donub qalm\u0131\u015f Canan qad\u0131n\u0131n susmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi.
\n-He\u00e7 n\u0259, ke\u00e7\u0259n zamana heyf. O\u011flum m\u0259ni q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi, can\u0131 sa\u011f olmu\u015f, he\u00e7 dem\u0259di, ana, nec\u0259s\u0259n…
\nCanan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015f halda ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0259fil s\u0259sl\u0259rd\u0259n yerl\u0259rind\u0259n dik at\u0131ld\u0131lar. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 bir izdiham var idi. Tez h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131lar. U\u015faqlar q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n ke\u00e7irdil\u0259r.
\n-Kinoteatrda, kinoteatrda Y\u0131lmaz G\u00fcney…
\nSonra bir az qabaqda ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015f iki adam\u0131 da\u015f\u0131yan at arabas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Birinin \u0259lind\u0259 s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndirici, dig\u0259rinin \u0259lind\u0259 kino afi\u015fasi var idi. Biri \u0259lind\u0259ki s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndiricini a\u011fz\u0131na dayay\u0131b q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Diqq\u0259t! Diqq\u0259t! Sabahdan etibar\u0259n \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d kinoteatr\u0131nda \u201cAc\u0131 H\u0259yat\u201d filmi. Ba\u015f rollarda – T\u00fcrkan \u015eoray, Ayxan \u0130\u015f\u0131q. \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d kinoteatr\u0131nda… Bir d\u0259 \u201cB\u0259lal\u0131lar\u201d filmi….Y\u0131lmaz G\u00fcney, sabah bu kinoteatrda! Duyduq, duymad\u0131q dem\u0259yin!..
\nB\u0259st\u0259 boylu bir ki\u015fi \u0259lind\u0259ki afi\u015fan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Arabadan y\u0131x\u0131lmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 geni\u015f aralamas\u0131na baxmayaraq, sa\u011fa-sola l\u0259ng\u0259r vurur, yerind\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259yirdi.
\nH\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131lar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, insanlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Bir qisim qad\u0131nlar p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 uzatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onlar\u0131n, – N\u0259 olub, kim olacaqm\u0131\u015f, n\u0259 zaman imi\u015f?- kimi suallar\u0131 \u0259trafa yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-T\u00fcrkan \u015eoray varsa ged\u0259k, vallah, – dedi G\u00fclt\u0259n.
\n-T\u00fcrkan\u0131 neynir\u0259m, Y\u0131lmaz G\u00fcneye g\u00f6r\u0259 getm\u0259k olar- dedi Suzan. – El\u0259 deyil bac\u0131?- Canana \u00fcz tutdu.
\nFilml\u0259r Canan\u0131n mara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. H\u0259min d\u0259qiq\u0259 filml\u0259r aras\u0131nda se\u00e7im etm\u0259d\u0259n t\u0259klifini dedi.
\n-Sabah ged\u0259kmi q\u0131zlar, ya da el\u0259 bu ax\u015fam?…
\n– Vallah, ged\u0259k, – dedi G\u00fclt\u0259n. – M\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bizimkin\u0259 deyim, ged\u0259k ee, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olar.
\nArxalar\u0131nca be\u015f-alt\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n qa\u00e7\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 at arabas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259kil\u0259r sentyabr\u0131n istisind\u0259 qan-t\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 dayanmadan q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 bir anda canlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Araba k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f ir\u0259lil\u0259dikc\u0259, elan daha y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259nir, arxada buraxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 toz-duman u\u015faqlar\u0131 ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nCanan kinoteatra getm\u0259k fikrini b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi. B\u0259lk\u0259, bir az fikri da\u011f\u0131lard\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, ruh kimi dola\u015fmaq onu p\u0259ri\u015fan etmi\u015fdi. \u00dcz\u00fc q\u0259mgin v\u0259 kefsiz idi. Sevdiyi adam\u0131 ne\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259 idi ki, g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. N\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi, n\u0259 etmi\u015fdi ki, Qalib bel\u0259 el\u0259yirdi. G\u00f6rs\u0259, bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015facaqd\u0131 ondan. Amma Qalib art\u0131q kiray\u0259 pulunu alma\u011fa da g\u0259lmirdi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015f kimi m\u0259nas\u0131z dola\u015f\u0131r, gec\u0259l\u0259ri yatm\u0131r, g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r yataqdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. Canan\u0131n s\u0259bri art\u0131q t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259k h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259han\u0259si haz\u0131r idi, \u201cx\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m\u201d deyir, \u0259rinin h\u0259kim\u0259 getm\u0259k t\u0259klifini is\u0259 qulaqard\u0131na vururdu. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259, – H\u0259 q\u0131zlar, kinoya ged\u0259k, – dedi.
\nS\u0259h\u0259rsi g\u00fcn qad\u0131nlar saat ikinin seans\u0131na gecikm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n bir az tez \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. Kinoteatr \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n izdihaml\u0131 yerl\u0259rind\u0259n birind\u0259 idi. M\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131ya q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259saf\u0259 ayaqla yar\u0131m saata yax\u0131n olard\u0131. M\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259nin yegan\u0259 market sahibi \u0130lo\u015f Ablan\u0131n d\u00fckan\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 y\u00fcz add\u0131m qabaqda idi. Daha sonra d\u0259mir\u00e7ixanalar\u0131n v\u0259 \u00e7ayxanalar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ke\u00e7m\u0259k laz\u0131m idi. Sonra is\u0259 B\u0259l\u0259diyy\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131ndan yolu ke\u00e7m\u0259k, \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d kinoteatr\u0131na \u00e7atmaq laz\u0131m idi. Canan, – Yox ay bac\u0131, – dedi. -M\u0259n o \u00e7ayxanalar\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131ndan, d\u0259mir\u00e7il\u0259r bazar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Yol uzun olsa da g\u0259lin polis idar\u0259si t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ged\u0259k- dey\u0259 fikrini bildirdi. Ham\u0131 buna haqq qazand\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd, G\u00fclt\u0259n \u0130\u011fd\u0131ra xas olan \u0130ran \u00e7ar\u015fab\u0131na b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ayxanalar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259k \u00fcr\u0259yinc\u0259 deyildi. Ara k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 t\u0259nha idi. Dal\u011f\u0131n-dal\u011f\u0131n gedirdil\u0259r ki, Suzan yen\u0259 sevinc dolu s\u0259siyl\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Aa… h\u0259l\u0259 ora bax\u0131n! O g\u0259l\u0259n Qalib deyilmi?!
\nG\u00fclt\u0259n t\u0259stiql\u0259di:
\n-H\u0259 odu. N\u0259 vaxtdand\u0131 kiray\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131 da alm\u0131r. E\u015fitmisizmi, qarda\u015f\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb..\u201d
\nCanan \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmadan h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rinin e\u015fidilm\u0259sind\u0259n qorxurmu\u015f kimi yalandan \u00f6sk\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259, bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131tlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir az tez g\u00f6rs\u0259ydi, b\u0259lk\u0259, yolun o \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259rdil\u0259r, amma art\u0131q gec idi, Qalib onlara t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259lirdi. Qa\u00e7\u0131lmaz bir qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fma olacaqd\u0131. El\u0259 d\u0259 oldu. Bir-birin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Canan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlamasa, az qala a\u011flayacaqd\u0131. \u201cH\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 o nec\u0259 d\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131d\u0131r\u201d- dedi \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259. Nurlu bir i\u015f\u0131q vard\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259. \u0130ndi yax\u0131nla\u015facaq v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onun k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259, qaranl\u0131qda qalacaqlarm\u0131\u015f kimi hiss ed\u0259c\u0259kdi.
\nQalib d\u0259 onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, p\u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Amma ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ydi v\u0259 yanlar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n, -H\u0259r vaxt\u0131n\u0131z xeyir, – deyib tez d\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. Sad\u0259c\u0259, bu q\u0259d\u0259r. Canan\u0131n s\u0259si \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Yan\u0131ndak\u0131lar: – H\u0259r vaxt\u0131n xeyir, – dedil\u0259r. Canan sonraki dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 e\u015fitmirdi. Sanki kimins\u0259 ona m\u00f6hk\u0259m bir sill\u0259 vurma\u011f\u0131 laz\u0131m idi. Ayaqlar\u0131 nec\u0259 gedirdi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 buna t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb edirdi. Yaln\u0131z \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131ya \u00e7atd\u0131qdan sonra bir az \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bildi. Bird\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131na yolda e\u015fitdiyi o s\u00f6z d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Dayana bilm\u0259yib soru\u015fdu:
\n-Qarda\u015f\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259nmi d\u00f6n\u00fcb?
\n-Kimin?- dey\u0259 qad\u0131nlar t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.
\n-Y\u0259ni bir az \u0259vv\u0259l dediniz ki,Qalib b\u0259yin…
\n– H\u0259\u0259\u0259… onumu deyirs\u0259n? S\u0259nin x\u0259b\u0259rin yoxdur, dey\u0259s\u0259n. Qalibin qarda\u015f\u0131 Fuad var ha, onu \u00e7ox pis hala sal\u0131blarm\u0131\u015f.
\nDan\u0131\u015fan G\u00fclt\u0259n idi. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini iri a\u00e7araq, son x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259n birin\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259yin kefi il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Suzan yen\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Ay aman, bax\u0131n, kinoteatr\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131 nec\u0259 s\u0131xl\u0131qd\u0131r\u2026
\nQad\u0131nlar\u0131n izdiham\u0131 x\u00fcsusil\u0259 \u00e7ox idi. U\u015faql\u0131 qad\u0131nlar bu qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131qda itm\u0259sinl\u0259r dey\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk tutmu\u015fdular. – \u201cTum! \u00c7\u0259r\u0259z! Qazl\u0131 su! Limonad!\u201d – dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ran s\u0259yyar sat\u0131c\u0131lar f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259n istifad\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k, matahlar\u0131n\u0131 x\u0131r\u0131d el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Canan is\u0259 tez salona girm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Qaranl\u0131\u011fa ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131.
\nKinotetatr\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na nec\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 he\u00e7 f\u0259rqind\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi. Kinoteatr-filan vecin\u0259 deyildi. Qalibin ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Dem\u0259li, h\u0259yat\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131… B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, art\u0131q buna g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 bir f\u00fcrs\u0259t tap\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Aralar\u0131nda olub ke\u00e7\u0259ni xat\u0131rlay\u0131nca, onun e\u015fql\u0259 baxan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, qucaqlamas\u0131, toxunu\u015fu… Bunlar adi bir \u015fey ola bilm\u0259zdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, Qalib art\u0131q bunlar\u0131 \u00f6z daxilind\u0259 bitirib, h\u0259r \u015feyi unutmaq ist\u0259yirdi? Canan film boyu doyunca a\u011flad\u0131. Nec\u0259 olursa-olsun onu g\u00f6rm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldi.
\n-Canan bac\u0131 \u00e7ox t\u0259sirl\u0259ndi – dey\u0259 Suzan G\u00fclt\u0259kinin qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. G\u00fclt\u0259n onun bu hal\u0131na o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 m\u0259na ver\u0259 bilmirdi. – Bu Cananda bir q\u0259rib\u0259lik var. G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259k g\u00f6r\u0259k, n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaq- dey\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259riyl\u0259 aras\u0131 d\u0259yib, hardan bilm\u0259k olar?
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Qalib ziddiyy\u0259tl\u0259rin burul\u011fan\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259n\u0259n \u00e7ar\u0259siz biri kimi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015f, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 son hadis\u0259d\u0259n sonra bir daha Canan\u0131n yan\u0131na getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 and i\u00e7mi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Ev\u0259 erk\u0259n getdi. Qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n adi, g\u00fcnd\u0259lik h\u0259yata d\u00f6nm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Arvad\u0131yla birlikd\u0259 vaxt ke\u00e7irdi. H\u0259diyy\u0259l\u0259r al\u0131b, onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015f tutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Balaca o\u011flu il\u0259 oyunlar oynad\u0131. \u0130\u015f yerin\u0259 apard\u0131, oyuncaqlar ald\u0131. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, evd\u0259kil\u0259rin t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 alt\u0131nda ondan g\u00f6zl\u0259nil\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi el\u0259di. Amma evd\u0259kil\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt idis\u0259, o bir o q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259yus idi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki kefsiz ifad\u0259 il\u0259 dola\u015fd\u0131. \u0130nsan zorla g\u00fcl\u0259 bilm\u0259z deyirdil\u0259r, inanm\u0131rd\u0131 \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259r. \u0130ndi do\u011frudan da g\u00fcl\u0259 bilmirdi. Canan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259d\u0259n ya\u015famaq onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck b\u0259db\u0259xtlik idi. H\u0259yat\u0131nda bir \u0259ksiklik, bir dads\u0131zl\u0131q vard\u0131. Qiym\u0259tli bir \u0259\u015fyas\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f cocuq kimiydi. Sentyabr ay\u0131 onsuz ke\u00e7di. Meyv\u0259l\u0259r t\u00fck\u0259ndi, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli g\u00fcnl\u0259r azald\u0131, ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar ba\u015flad\u0131. Amma Qalib s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00f6nm\u0259di. \u201cS\u0259nsiz olmaq qism\u0259timdir, Canan\u201d- dey\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n s\u00f6k\u00fcb ata bilm\u0259diyi Canandan m\u0259hrum el\u0259di. Onsuz ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir c\u0259za k\u0259sdi.
\nQarda\u015f\u0131 art\u0131q ma\u011fazaya onunla b\u0259rab\u0259r g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, evd\u0259kil\u0259r \u201cO\u011flumuz d\u00fcz\u0259ldi\u201d – dey\u0259 sevinmi\u015fdil\u0259r ki, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 Canan ma\u011fazaya g\u0259ldi. O g\u00fcn \u00e7ox da isti olmayan pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u0259\u015finin alt\u0131nda Qalib q\u0259d\u0259rin\u0259 boyun \u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, dal\u011fln halda ma\u011fazan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259ki taxta oturacaqda oturmu\u015fdu. Yolda adam az idi. Al\u0131c\u0131 yox idi, t\u0259k- t\u00fck adamlar ma\u011fazalara sad\u0259c\u0259 boylan\u0131b, el\u0259-bel\u0259 vitrinl\u0259ri s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Bu \u0259r\u0259f\u0259d\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin m\u0259\u015fhur d\u0259lil\u0259rind\u0259n Da\u011fso k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259nc\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni deyirdi. Onlar is\u0259 d\u0259lini daha da q\u0131z\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, onunla m\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nir, q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r. Da\u011fso q\u0259fild\u0259n var g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131: – \u201cSizin anan\u0131z\u0131, arvad\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 s\u2026m!\u201d G\u0259ncl\u0259r hirsl\u0259nm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 daha da g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r: \u201cDa\u011fso, h\u0259l\u0259 bir de g\u00f6r\u0259k, s\u0259nin \u015feyin varm\u0131? \u2026 Da\u011fso arvadlar hamamda nec\u0259 bay\u0131l\u0131rlar?!\u201d G\u0259ncl\u0259rin zavall\u0131 d\u0259liy\u0259 la\u011f etm\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 Qalib d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Hirsl\u0259 onlar\u0131n yan\u0131na getdi:
\n-O\u011flum, utanm\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131, Allah\u0131n q\u0259rib b\u0259nd\u0259si il\u0259 la\u011f-la\u011f\u0131 edirsiniz. G\u00fcnah deyilmi? Ba\u015fqa bir i\u015finiz-g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcz yoxdurmu, bu zavall\u0131yla \u0259yl\u0259nirsiniz?
\nDa\u011fso is\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyinin f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildi, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bi halda s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f s\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc. Q\u0259rib\u0259 bir d\u0259liydi. Z\u0259r\u0259rsizdi, amma adamlar onu z\u0259r\u0259rli hala g\u0259tirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni edirdil\u0259r.
\n-S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub, Qalib qarda\u015f, i\u015f yox, g\u00fcc yox, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qat\u0131r\u0131q. Onsuz da he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlam\u0131r ki, dedikl\u0259rimizd\u0259n. O \u00f6z\u00fc biz\u0259 s\u00f6y\u00fcr.
\nG\u0259ncl\u0259rin bel\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259nm\u0259si eynin\u0259 deyildi, Qalib g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. D\u0259lini onlar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n alaraq, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259nin yolla k\u0259si\u015fdiyi yer\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r apar\u0131b, buraxd\u0131:
\n-Evin\u0259 get, ortada bo\u015f-bo\u015f dola\u015fma Da\u011fso \u2013 dedi.
\nSa\u00e7- saqqal\u0131 uzanm\u0131\u015f d\u0259li kirli, y\u0131rt\u0131q patlarlar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259l-qolunu oynadaraq, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi. \u00c7ay\u00e7\u0131 M\u00fclazim \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00f6rd st\u0259kan sini d\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 bayaqdan ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri izl\u0259yirdi. Asta add\u0131mlarla Qalibin yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi:
\n-Ham\u0131s\u0131 o N\u0259riman qar\u0131n\u0131n ucbat\u0131ndan oldu.- dedi.
\n-Onunla n\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259si var, M\u00fclazim?
\n-El\u0259 dem\u0259, ham\u0131 bilir, bir t\u0259k s\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n, dey\u0259s\u0259n.
\n-N\u0259dir bildiyin?
\n-Da\u011fsonun hekay\u0259sini.
\n-Dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm, M\u00fclazim.
\n– Bir vaxtlar burdak\u0131 fahi\u015f\u0259l\u0259r evin\u0259 N\u0259riman adl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Da\u011fso g\u0259nc bir d\u0259liqanl\u0131, N\u0259riman da \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l imi\u015f. Onda Da\u011fxan adlanan bu g\u0259nc h\u0259min qad\u0131na vurulur. Qad\u0131n da, deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, bu ev\u0259 yeni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbm\u00fc\u015f. Da\u011fxan nec\u0259 a\u015fiq olubmu\u015fsa, onu alaca\u011fam deyirmi\u015f. Amma atas\u0131 he\u00e7 al\u0131b, onu evin\u0259 g\u0259lin ed\u0259rdimi? Ki\u015fi Nuh deyir, pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259r demir, q\u0131z\u0131 yax\u0131n qoymur ki, qoymur. H\u0259l\u0259 bu azm\u0131\u015f kimi, q\u0131z\u0131 \u0130\u011fd\u0131rdan s\u00fcrg\u00fcn etdirir. Zavall\u0131 Da\u011fso q\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259tin\u0259 dayana bilm\u0259yib, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, \u201c – Di, hayd\u0131 vurun , m\u0259ni! Ey mill\u0259t, x\u0131na yax\u0131n , N\u0259riman getdi! \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin namusu t\u0259mizl\u0259ndi.\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r, M\u0259cnuna d\u00f6n\u00fcr. H\u0259r g\u0259lib ke\u00e7\u0259n\u0259 sin\u0259sini a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6st\u0259rirmi\u015f. Bax\u0131n, yaralar\u0131m var m\u0259nim. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc, nec\u0259 d\u0259rindir? Yaz\u0131q d\u0259li olur. Sonra atas\u0131 gedib N\u0259riman\u0131 g\u0259tirs\u0259 d\u0259, faydas\u0131 olmur, \u00e7\u00fcnki Da\u011fso art\u0131q a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015fdi.
\nQalibin i\u00e7ind\u0259n soyuq bir gizilti ke\u00e7di. T\u00fckl\u0259rinin biz-biz oldu\u011funu hiss etdi.
\n-Y\u0259ni e\u015fqd\u0259n oldu deyirs\u0259n?
\n– Ola bilm\u0259zmi?
\n-Yox, can\u0131m, m\u0259nc\u0259, onun ba\u015fqa s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259ri var. \u0130nsan e\u015fqd\u0259n a\u011f\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259z.
\n-N\u0259 bilim, qarda\u015f\u0131m, onu s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, bilikli adamsan. M\u0259n gedim, g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k.
\nQalibin \u0259hval\u0131 onsuz da pozulmu\u015fdu. E\u015fitdiyi hadis\u0259 d\u0259 can\u0131n\u0131 lap s\u0131xd\u0131. G\u0259lib yenid\u0259n ma\u011fazan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259ki mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturdu. Bir siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0131nm\u0131\u015f s\u0259ki da\u015flar\u0131na baxaraq, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 dalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 onun z\u0259rif ayaqqab\u0131lar i\u00e7ind\u0259 inc\u0259 t\u00fcl corabl\u0131 ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Canan f\u00fcsunkar s\u0259siyl\u0259, – \u201c Salam , Qalib\u201d, – dedi. Y\u00fcks\u0259k bir \u0259dayla, \u201cG\u00f6z\u0259l xal\u00e7alar\u0131n varm\u0131?\u201d- dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. Qalib \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131nl\u0131qdan dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259di. Qorxurdu ki, qarda\u015f\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n\u0131 hiss ed\u0259 bil\u0259r. \u018ftrafa baxd\u0131. – \u201c T\u0259bii ki, var, var, buyurun, g\u00f6st\u0259rim\u201d, – dedi. Ma\u011fazaya ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. Burda ev \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey sat\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 – xal\u0131lar, qoltuqlar, dolablar. Canan guya maraqlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi xal\u0131lara baxd\u0131. Mallar\u0131n \u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259ri, bir-birind\u0259n f\u0259rqi, keyfiyy\u0259ti il\u0259 maraqland\u0131, qiym\u0259tl\u0259rini soru\u015fdu. Sonra aras\u0131ndan birini b\u0259y\u0259nib, almaq ist\u0259diyini bildirdi. O, guya aralar\u0131nda he\u00e7 bir \u015fey olmam\u0131\u015f kimi davran\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fcmk\u00fcn q\u0259d\u0259r laqeyd aparma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra vitrinin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7ay\u00e7\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fan Fuada baxaraq, h\u00fcznl\u00fc bir s\u0259sl\u0259, – \u201c\u018fslind\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f olsun dem\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldim. D\u00fcn\u0259n e\u015fitdim, bilmirdim. \u0130nan ki, \u00e7ox \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm.\u201d, – dedi.
\nQalib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259ydi:
\n-Sa\u011f ol, Canan\u201d
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.
\n-\u0130ndi el\u0259dir. Amma \u0259vv\u0259lki hal\u0131n\u0131 bir g\u00f6rs\u0259ydin, inanmazd\u0131n. \u00c7ox pis d\u00f6ym\u00fc\u015f, az qala \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc vermi\u015fdil\u0259r biz\u0259.
\n\u00c7ar\u0259siz halda, – \u201cT\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf, z\u0259man\u0259 \u00e7ox pisdir, n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rik?, – dey\u0259 bildi Canan.
\n– S\u0259n onsuz da bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni etdin, onun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qurtard\u0131n. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 o \u00f6z taleyind\u0259n qa\u00e7a bilm\u0259di. Art\u0131q g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yi bir i\u015f yoxdur. \u018fn do\u011frusu, uzaq durmaqd\u0131r. Atam onu bu yax\u0131nlarda Almaniyadak\u0131 xalam\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k.
\n-B\u0259li, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur. \u00d6z\u00fc n\u0259 deyir?
\n-O d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259d\u0259n sonra, \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri pozulub, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n qorxur, h\u00fcrk\u00fcr. Getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir.
\n-Yolu a\u00e7\u0131q olsun.
\nSonra el\u0259 susdular ki, el\u0259 bil, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131las\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Canan getm\u0259k laz\u0131m oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131:
\n-M\u0259n gedim, art\u0131q, – dey\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz dill\u0259ndi.
\nQalibd\u0259n s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131, el\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini Canana zill\u0259yib durmu\u015fdu. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdi. Canan d\u00fcz qaba\u011fa\u0131nda durmu\u015fdu. Az qal\u0131rd\u0131 desin ki, getm\u0259, n\u0259 olar, bir az da qal. Amma el\u0259 bil ki, dili kilidl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7a bilmirdi. Canan, – \u201c T\u0259krar, ke\u00e7mi\u015f olsun\u201d, – dey\u0259r\u0259k qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdi. O\u011flan anas\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131nca m\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n quzu kimi onun arxas\u0131nca baxa- baxa qald\u0131. Onun arxas\u0131nca getm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc zorla saxlad\u0131. – \u201c Dayan, getm\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m\u201d dedi q\u0259lbi, amma a\u011fl\u0131 onun \u0259l-qolunu buxovlad\u0131.
\nQalib ert\u0259si g\u00fcn solu\u011funu Canangilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 ald\u0131. O q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259birsiz idi ki, iki d\u0259qiq\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k bel\u0259 ona bir il q\u0259d\u0259r uzun g\u0259lirdi. Evd\u0259 he\u00e7 kimin olmamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dua etdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 Canan a\u00e7d\u0131. Sevdiyi bir \u0259\u015fyan\u0131 itirib, sonra yenid\u0259n tapan birisi kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131. Qalib d\u0259v\u0259t-filan g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259yib, ayaqqab\u0131larla ev\u0259 ke\u00e7di, qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Qollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b Canana sar\u0131ld\u0131. Onu sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131.
\n-Canan, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaman dar\u0131xd\u0131m. Daha dayana bilm\u0259dim.
\n-Bilir\u0259m, m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259y\u0259m. S\u0259ni sevdiyimi anlad\u0131m, Qalib.
\n-M\u0259n d\u0259, Canan\u0131m.
\nBu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n olub, d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 vuruldu\u011fun qad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k d\u0259li olasan. O anda olanlara he\u00e7 bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 mane ola bilm\u0259zdi. Zaman, m\u0259kan anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131 itmi\u015fdi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 ikisi qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, payla\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 v\u00fccudlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-birl\u0259rind\u0259n \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259zl\u0259rin d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda qeyb olub getmi\u015fdil\u0259r..
\nQ\u0259s\u0259b\u0259nin yegan\u0259 prospekti olan C\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t prospekti \u00e7ox q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik idi. Q\u0259rib\u0259 bir h\u0259ngam\u0259 var idi. 29 Oktyabr C\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t Bayram\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 olurdu. M\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259rin orkestr qruplar\u0131, uniforma geyinmi\u015f o\u011flanlar v\u0259 q\u0131zlar prospektd\u0259 ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa s\u0131rayla d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Ata-analar, g\u0259ncl\u0259r, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r bayram meydan\u0131nda idi.
\nC\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t bayramlar\u0131 ad\u0259t\u0259n h\u0259r il soyuq, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 havada qeyd edils\u0259 d\u0259, o s\u0259h\u0259r, \u0259ksin\u0259, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bu, Canan\u0131 \u00e7ox sevindirmi\u015fdi. Qara q\u0131sa \u0259t\u0259yini v\u0259 a\u011f penc\u0259yini geyinmi\u015fdi. Boynuna z\u0259rif bir \u015f\u0259rf ba\u011flay\u0131b, qara g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f eyn\u0259yini taxd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 general\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131 daxil olmaqla b\u00fct\u00fcn zabit xan\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kirdi . \u2013 \u201cAy q\u0131z, \u0130stanbul g\u00f6z\u0259li! Zabitl\u0259rin arvadlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7atlatd\u0131n!\u201d – Sibel dedi.
\nKe\u00e7id m\u0259rasimi ba\u015flayanda co\u015fqu daha da \u00e7oxald\u0131. H\u0259rbi orkestr qrupunun \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 mar\u015f\u0131n oynaq ritmi q\u0259lbl\u0259ri co\u015fdurur, damarlardak\u0131 qan\u0131 qaynad\u0131r,milli hissl\u0259ri oyand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Orkestr qrupu \u00f6z yerin\u0259 ke\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 r\u0259smi parada ba\u015flad\u0131…
\nM\u0259kt\u0259blil\u0259rin \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131 qurtarmaq \u00fczr\u0259 idi. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc sinifd\u0259 oxuyan Arifi v\u0259 be\u015finci sinifd\u0259 oxuyan Sevgini axtard\u0131. Bu s\u0259h\u0259r u\u015faqlar\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259li haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f, qara \u00f6nl\u00fckl\u0259rini ax\u015famdan diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259yib, a\u011f yaxalar\u0131n\u0131 qatlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sevginin \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259r iki qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 toplayaraq, a\u011f bantlar taxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 apararaq, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259hvil vermi\u015fdi. U\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259lbi sevgi v\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t hissiyl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131. T\u0259dbirin \u0259n \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259li t\u0259r\u0259fi m\u00fcxt\u0259lif s\u0259n\u0259tkarlar\u0131n at arabalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259rinin \u0259m\u0259yini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259l\u0259ri idi. Q\u0259ssab\u0131n, d\u0259rzinin, d\u0259mir\u00e7inin, d\u00fclg\u0259rin v\u0259 dig\u0259rl\u0259rinin \u00f6z reklamlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259rgil\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k ke\u00e7m\u0259l\u0259ri izl\u0259yicil\u0259ri h\u0259m g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcr, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259ndirirdi.
\nBu vaxt \u00f6n c\u0259rg\u0259d\u0259n iki qad\u0131ndan biri qar\u015f\u0131 s\u0259kid\u0259ki bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259nc o\u011flan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, – \u201c O ortadak\u0131 Qalib deyilmi? – dedi. Canan h\u0259min d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcnc\u0259, Qalibi g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Qad\u0131nlar dedi-qoduya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131: – \u201cM\u0259nc\u0259, onlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259n yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131s\u0131 Qalibdir. Qarda\u015f\u0131 he\u00e7 ona ox\u015fam\u0131r. Day\u0131lar\u0131 da bel\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 idi. Qalib day\u0131lar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli d\u0259liqanl\u0131 g\u0259nciydi, amma atas\u0131 getdi ona k\u0259ndd\u0259n qohumunun q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131.\u201d Canan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri Qalib\u0259 dikilib qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qalib d\u0259 onu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259, burdak\u0131 \u0259n yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 ki\u015fi o idi. Ona heyran olmamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. Q\u0259lbind\u0259 bir sevinc duydu. Nec\u0259 olsa da, yen\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 onu g\u00f6rm\u0259k f\u00fcrs\u0259ti \u00e7ox olacaqd\u0131. Qad\u0131nlar\u0131n p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131q e\u015fitmir, yaln\u0131z Qalibi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nQ\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131qdan sonra Canan s\u00f6zl\u0259\u015fdikl\u0259ri kimi u\u015faqlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k, bank\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda B\u0259sri il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\n-El\u0259 geyinib b\u0259z\u0259nmi\u015fk\u0259n, u\u015faqlar da bayram geyimind\u0259yk\u0259n, ail\u0259vi \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7ox \u0259la olar, – dedi Canan.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fmis\u0259n, Canan. Ba\u015fqa vaxt imkan olmur \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirm\u0259y\u0259. H\u0259m d\u0259 u\u015faqlar g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 bax\u0131b xat\u0131rlayarlar, – dey\u0259 B\u0259sri Canan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.
\nO g\u00fcn \u201cH\u0259yat fotostudiyas\u0131\u201dnda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ail\u0259vi \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirdil\u0259r. Canan t\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fc profild\u0259n d\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirdi. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259r a\u011f-qara olacaqd\u0131, amma olsun. \u015e\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirm\u0259k g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Sonra da u\u015faqlar\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutaraq, \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f D\u00f6n\u0259r Evi\u201dn\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r yem\u0259y\u0259 getdil\u0259r. Canan ne\u00e7\u0259 m\u00fcdd\u0259t idi ki, bel\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259li g\u00fcn ke\u00e7irm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bayram \u015f\u0259nliyinin da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, yollarda d\u0259st\u0259-d\u0259st\u0259 adamlar dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nCanan \u201cyax\u015f\u0131 ki Sibell\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fam\u201d dey\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdi. Sibel ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 onu B\u0259sri il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 ax\u015fam \u0259sg\u0259r kazinosunda ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k C\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t gec\u0259sind\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etmi\u015fdi. Canan\u0131n sevincd\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri parlam\u0131\u015f v\u0259 t\u0259klifi sev\u0259-sev\u0259 q\u0259bul etmi\u015fdi.
\nCanan h\u0259y\u0259candan o gec\u0259 yata bilm\u0259di. Bu d\u0259v\u0259ti sevincl\u0259 B\u0259sriy\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259dikd\u0259 \u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n etiraz etdi.
\n-B\u0259sri, ax\u015famk\u0131 bala m\u00fctl\u0259q ged\u0259k. Ora \u00e7ox adam g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131, zabitl\u0259r, generallar v\u0259 xan\u0131mlar\u0131. M\u0259d\u0259ni t\u0259b\u0259q\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131 orada olacaq.
\nB\u0259srinin h\u0259v\u0259si yox idi.
\n-Canan, orada n\u0259 i\u015fimiz var? G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qurban, g\u0259l getm\u0259y\u0259k\u201d.
\nCanan qa\u015fqaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc:
\n– Dem\u0259k, bunu m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n? Ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rdir ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc bu qoca k\u0259ndd\u0259, bu cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 h\u0259yatda \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fct, indi uy\u011fun insanlar tapm\u0131\u015fk\u0259n, s\u0259ni uzaqda tutsunlar. Ayda, ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259 olsun, onu da \u0259rin s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6rs\u00fcn.
\n\u018fli-aya\u011f\u0131 ba\u011fland\u0131 B\u0259srinin, raz\u0131 olmaqdan ba\u015fqa ayr\u0131 \u00e7ar\u0259si qalmad\u0131. . Yoxsa, \u00f6m\u00fcrbillah Canan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 deyin\u0259c\u0259kdi:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, indi yataq, sabah tezd\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m.
\nCanan \u00e7ox sevindi. Bala n\u0259 geyin\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, b\u00fct\u00fcn geyiml\u0259rini g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. Xo\u015funa g\u0259l\u0259n olmad\u0131, yenisini tikdirm\u0259y\u0259 is\u0259 vaxt az idi. Bird\u0259n ni\u015fan\u0131nda geyindiyi paltar\u0131 g\u0259ldi a\u011fl\u0131na, bir az d\u00fcz\u0259lts\u0259, bala da geyinm\u0259k olard\u0131.
\nAx\u015fam u\u015faqlar\u0131 G\u00fclt\u0259ngil\u0259 qoyub, rayonun yegan\u0259 kazinosu olan \u0259sg\u0259r kazinosuna C\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t bal gec\u0259sin\u0259 getdil\u0259r. \u0130\u015f\u0131qlar, masalar, \u015fux qad\u0131nlar, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r, yax\u015f\u0131 geyinmi\u015f b\u0259yl\u0259r – h\u0259r \u015fey \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. \u00d6n t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik orkestr n\u0259s\u0259 m\u00fcasir bir musiqi ifa edirdi. H\u0259r k\u0259s g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259n yerd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Canan \u00e7a\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma sevincliydi. Sibel d\u0259 \u015fi\u015fman \u0259ri il\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Geriy\u0259 daranm\u0131\u015f, tumarl\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131 olan bu adam\u0131n kostyumu \u00e7ox bahal\u0131yd\u0131. Sibel polkovnik arvad\u0131 kimi geyinmi\u015fdi. Bu ki\u00e7ik \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 q\u0131sa \u0259t\u0259kli, k\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131q dekolteli, \u00e7\u0131lpaq qollu qad\u0131nlar g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yi Canan\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. O is\u0259 pudra r\u0259ngind\u0259 k\u00fcprd\u0259n, \u0259t\u0259kl\u0259ri dizin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olan donunu geyinmi\u015f, zin\u0259tl\u0259rini taxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Geyimi sad\u0259 olsa da, \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi b\u0259s edirdi.
\n-Bax, B\u0259sri, \u0259zizim, yax\u015f\u0131 ki, g\u0259ldik. H\u0259r \u015fey \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ldir deyilmi? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\nUzun masan\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f otursalar da, Canan \u00e7ox m\u0259mnun idi. Polkovnik v\u0259 arvad\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259qsi il\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. C\u00fctl\u00fckl\u0259r \u00f6zl\u0259rini ortaya atd\u0131lar. \u201c B\u0259sri, m\u0259ni r\u0259qs\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t ets\u0259n\u0259\u201d – dey\u0259 \u0259rini d\u00fcrtm\u0259l\u0259di. B\u0259sri h\u0259v\u0259ssiz aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.
\n-M\u0259n r\u0259qsmi bilir\u0259m, Canan?
\n-El\u0259c\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb dolanacaqsan.
\nMusiqisi v\u0259 yem\u0259kl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m idi.<\/p>\n

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\nHac\u0131 H\u00fcseynin \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259rv\u0259tim dediyi o\u011fullar\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa, atadanqalma be\u015f hektar \u0259razisi, evl\u0259ri, g\u00f6z\u0259l meyv\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131.
\nSon zamanlar o\u011flu Qalibd\u0259n nigaran idi, onun davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 Fuad\u0131 gerid\u0259 qoymu\u015fdu. Ax\u015fam bu haqda arvad\u0131 Almasla d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f, arvad sakit halda, – \u201cAy ki\u015fi, rahat burax u\u015faqlar\u0131. Onlar h\u0259yat\u0131n yolunu bilir. Art\u0131q ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015fq, \u00f6z qeydimiz\u0259 qalaq\u201d, – demi\u015fdi. Hac\u0131 da daha bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259mi\u015f, yata\u011f\u0131na uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u201c Eh, Almas, s\u0259ninl\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259yim g\u00fcn\u0259 qurban k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259m\u201d, – dey\u0259 fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259 salonunun kirli v\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259, s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f oturacaqlar\u0131nda oturan Hac\u0131 H\u00fcseyn, iki o\u011flu v\u0259 el\u0259 hey a\u011flayan arvad\u0131 yola d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k avtobusu g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259ydil\u0259r. Fuad\u0131n gedi\u015fi \u0259n \u00e7ox anas\u0131na t\u0259sir etmi\u015fdi. O\u011flunu \u00f6z yan\u0131na yax\u0131n, Hac\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 oturacaqda oturtmu\u015fdu. B\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259sli, b\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259ssiz g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131na hakim ola bilmir, yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n uclar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0131xaraq, a\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi: \u201cSar\u0131 balam\u0131 q\u00fcrb\u0259t ell\u0259r ald\u0131, g\u00fcman\u0131m qalmad\u0131. Vay \u00e7il\u0259li ba\u015f\u0131ma. Baiskar\u0131n evi y\u0131x\u0131ls\u0131n,oca\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6ns\u00fcn…\u201d
\nHac\u0131, – \u201c Sus, ay arvad, b\u0259sdir, yet\u0259r!\u201d, – des\u0259 d\u0259, o q\u0259d\u0259r hirsl\u0259nmirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bir daha g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi o\u011flunu Almaniyaya yola salark\u0259n, indid\u0259n h\u0259sr\u0259t i\u00e7ini bir qor kimi yand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131sa, yo\u011fun qollar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7arpazlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011f yundan h\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f jiletinin h\u0259r iki yaxas\u0131n\u0131 dart\u0131\u015fd\u0131raraq, g\u00f6b\u0259yini \u00f6rtm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Fuadda bir h\u0259v\u0259ssizlik, tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerl\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 bir qorxu vard\u0131, amma o a\u011f\u0131r d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259d\u0259n sonra buralardan can\u0131n\u0131 qurtad\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevinirdi. Bu s\u0259hn\u0259ni seyr ed\u0259n Qalib\u0259 \u00e7oxdan t\u0259rgitdiyi siqareti yenid\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259yi g\u0259ldi. Oturdu\u011fu yerd\u0259n aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, -\u201c M\u0259n buralardayam\u201d, – dey\u0259r\u0259k, bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nAvtobusda h\u0259l\u0259 bir t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015f yox idi. Yerd\u0259 \u00e7oxlu y\u00fckl\u0259r var idi. Kimins\u0259 onu s\u0259sl\u0259diyini e\u015fitdi: – \u201cQalib, qaraa\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00e7ox durma, leyl\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n ehtiyatl\u0131 ol\u201d.
\nQalib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b yuxar\u0131 baxd\u0131. Leyl\u0259kl\u0259r \u00e7oxdan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f k\u00f6\u00e7 etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Amma budaqlarda qar\u011falar at\u0131l\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 qu\u015f peyini d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. \u201c Sa\u011f ol, qarda\u015f\u0131m\u201d, – g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di, – \u201c Ziyan\u0131 yoxdur, biz onsuz da bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131za q\u0259d\u0259r pisliy\u0259 batm\u0131\u015f\u0131q, qu\u015f pisliyin\u0259 batsaq, n\u0259 olacaq ki\u201d- dey\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259. Siqareti at\u0131b, i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di. Anas\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 Fuad\u0131n \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoymu\u015f, \u0259lind\u0259n m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m tutmu\u015fdu. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Onun bu hal\u0131 \u0259rini v\u0259 o\u011flanlar\u0131n\u0131 daha da \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Atas\u0131na baxd\u0131, ki\u015fi sanki on ya\u015f qocalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Kepkas\u0131n\u0131 geriy\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f, ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 geni\u015f a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcz\u00fc \u00e7ox sol\u011fundu. Yan\u0131nda oturdu, avtobusun gecikm\u0259si onu \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fdi:
\n– Dinsiz, imans\u0131zlar, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt ke\u00e7ib, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 avtobus yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nmir. Bu f\u00fcrma \u00e7ox s\u0259hl\u0259nkarl\u0131q edir. – Hac\u0131 s\u0259sini qald\u0131randa \u0259misi o\u011flu Surat onlara yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdi.
\n-Nolub?
\n-Daha n\u0259 olacaq, Fuad gedir.
\n-Hara?
\n-Almaniyaya.
\n-N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l! Siz\u0259 baxan el\u0259 bil\u0259r ki, \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Allah \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb. Fuad, s\u0259n d\u0259 almaniyal\u0131 olacaqsan. Siz buna g\u00f6r\u0259mi bel\u0259 bikefsiniz. \u015eansl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, x\u0259b\u0259riniz yoxdur. Xala, s\u0259n niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rsan? O\u011flunun h\u0259yat\u0131 qurtulub, sevinm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n. \u0130\u015f\u0259 gir\u0259r, i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259r, v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015fl\u0131q alar, sonra V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 rahat gedib-g\u0259l\u0259r. Hac\u0131 \u0259mi, o\u011flun lotereyada udub. Bu g\u00fcn markan\u0131n ne\u00e7\u0259 lir\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilirs\u0259nmi? H\u0259l\u0259 qoy bir getsin-g\u0259lsin, vallah, bunun tozu mill\u0259ti basacaq. Markalar\u0131 toplayarsan, \u0130\u011fd\u0131r\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 alarsan.\u201d
\n\u018fmio\u011flu Surat el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, guya a\u011fz\u0131ndan bal dam\u0131rd\u0131. O d\u0259qiq\u0259 Hac\u0131 belini dik\u0259ltdi. He\u00e7 o t\u0259r\u0259fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Anas\u0131 da a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdi.\u201dTezlikl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rmi, deyirs\u0259n?\u201d
\n– S\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt ist\u0259s\u0259n, g\u0259l\u0259r, ana. Ora Avropad\u0131r. Ka\u015f m\u0259nim d\u0259 bir qohumum olayd\u0131 orda.
\nFuad oturacaqda yerini rahatlad\u0131. Atas\u0131 onunla birg\u0259 hava liman\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r ged\u0259r\u0259k, o\u011flunu Almaniyaya u\u00e7an t\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259 mindirib geri d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259kdi. Qalib avtobusun arxas\u0131nca \u0259l yell\u0259y\u0259rk\u0259n, i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir bo\u015fluq hiss etdi. H\u0259yat\u0131n bu bo\u015flu\u011funda h\u0259r \u015fey boz olsa da, q\u0259fild\u0259n bir sevinc q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131m\u0131 yand\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259. Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259ndir\u0259n bu alovun s\u0259b\u0259bi Canan\u0131n i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7an g\u00f6zl\u0259ri idi. \u201cN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, onu tan\u0131m\u0131\u015fam\u201d, – dey\u0259 q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi.
\nMebel ma\u011fazas\u0131na biti\u015fik manufaktura d\u00fckan\u0131n\u0131n sahibi K\u0259lbalayi \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t ad\u0131na uy\u011fun \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u0130\u011fd\u0131rda. Quma\u015f\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259li v\u0259 h\u0259r \u00e7e\u015fidi onda tap\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. \u018ftraf\u0131 seyr ed\u0259n, radar\u0131 and\u0131ran g\u00f6zl\u0259ri he\u00e7 bir \u015feyi qa\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmadan d\u00fckan\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 z\u0259rg\u0259rlik, ayaqqab\u0131, qalantereya d\u00fckanlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi. Yan t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259ki qon\u015fusu Hac\u0131 H\u00fcseyni axtar\u0131rd\u0131. Amma onun ma\u011fazas\u0131nda s\u0259ssizlik idi.
\n-Bir m\u0259n\u0259 bax, M\u00fclazim, -dedi.
\n\u00c7ay\u00e7\u0131 M\u00fclazim \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7ay sinisi yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdi.
\n-N\u0259 deyirs\u0259n, ay \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t \u0259mi
\n– Hac\u0131gil haradad\u0131r? He\u00e7 biri yerind\u0259 yoxdur. Xeyir ola?
\n– \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, gedim soru\u015fum?
\n-Yox laz\u0131m deyil. S\u0259n i\u015find\u0259 ol.
\n\u00c7\u0259n\u0259sini s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131b, s\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259-s\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fckana ke\u00e7di:
\n\u201c Yen\u0259 bu kommunist Hac\u0131 n\u0259l\u0259r qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n? Kim bilir \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 hans\u0131 hinl\u0259rin izind\u0259dir. Zal\u0131m o\u011flunun b\u00fct\u00fcn fikri-zikri m\u0259nd\u0259dir. Pax\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir. Neyl\u0259sin, \u0259lind\u0259 deyil\u201d.
\nH\u00fcseynin ona pax\u0131ll\u0131q etdiyin\u0259 ad\u0131 kimi \u0259min idi. Onun \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259nraz\u0131 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0131c\u0131q olurdu. D\u00fcn\u0259n bay\u0131rdak\u0131 oturacaqda nec\u0259 d\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 a\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmadan \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7irdi. \u201c M\u0259n salam verm\u0259s\u0259m, salam verm\u0259z d\u0259yyus. \u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131 da o ald\u0131. M\u0259n ondan qabaq ist\u0259yirdim Almaz\u0131. Girdi aram\u0131za. \u0130ndi d\u0259 o\u011fullar\u0131na g\u00fcv\u0259nir. Bizim arvad m\u0259n\u0259 bir o\u011ful da verm\u0259di\u201d
\nBu vaxt \u00e7ay\u00e7\u0131 M\u00fclazim i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Yeni \u00f6yr\u0259ndiyi m\u0259lumat\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik x\u0259b\u0259r verdi:
\n-\u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t \u0259mi, bilirs\u0259nmi, Hac\u0131 bu g\u00fcn o\u011flu Fuad\u0131 Almaniyaya g\u00f6nd\u0259rir.
\n\u015e\u00f6hr\u0259tin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri iril\u0259ndi:
\n-Hara g\u00f6nd\u0259rir dedin?
\n– Almaniyaya. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.
\nBu \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l x\u0259b\u0259r oldu. \u00c7ay\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n ovcuna 25 q\u0259pik qoydu, kefi yerin\u0259 g\u0259ldi: \u201c H\u0259, Hac\u0131 \u0259f\u0259ndi! Dur h\u0259l\u0259, baxaq g\u00f6r\u0259k daha n\u0259l\u0259r olacaq? S\u0259n d\u0259 o\u011fulsuz t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na qal g\u00f6r\u00fcm, n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r qal\u0131rsan?\u201d G\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6rt\u0259n qal\u0131n qa\u015flar\u0131 yuxar\u0131 dart\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018flind\u0259ki sar\u0131 k\u0259hr\u0259ba t\u0259sbehini \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259r\u0259k, oturaca\u011fa yasland\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Qalib ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn idi ki, q\u0259rars\u0131zl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7abalay\u0131b dururdu. Canan\u0131 t\u0259krar g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yi onu d\u0259li el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Gedib onu yenid\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259liydi. Burda n\u0259 pis \u015fey vard\u0131 ki? Amma yox, getm\u0259s\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olas\u0131 \u015fey deyildi. \u018fn yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 onu unutmay\u0131ld\u0131, el\u0259 bu an, el\u0259 bu d\u0259qiq\u0259! Amma bu da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olan \u015fey\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi. Onu q\u0259lbind\u0259n s\u00f6k\u00fcb atmaq he\u00e7 d\u0259 asan olmayacaqd\u0131. H\u0259r g\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u0130\u015f is\u0259 \u00e7ox yorucu, bezdirici idi. H\u0259r hans\u0131 bir m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259rinin \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 suallar\u0131na cavablar verm\u0259k s\u0259brini t\u00fck\u0259tmi\u015fdi. Sat\u0131las\u0131 oturacaqlardan birin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259r\u0259k, ma\u011fazan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki \u0259\u015fyalara g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi. \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259nim \u00f6mr\u00fcm el\u0259 burda ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nG\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6z axar\u0131yla g\u0259lib-ke\u00e7irdi. G\u00fcn boyu g\u00f6z\u00fc saatdayd\u0131. Saatlar bitir, h\u0259sr\u0259t bitmirdi ki, bitmirdi. Qalibin t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259ri B\u0259srinin ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259 saat\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 sonda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n yorulmu\u015f halda yor\u011fun-ar\u011f\u0131n ev d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ev\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rmadan, he\u00e7 yer\u0259 baxmadan gedir, Canan haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc danlay\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cL\u0259n\u0259t olsun, m\u0259n n\u0259 edir\u0259m, m\u0259n al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n biriymi\u015f\u0259m\u201d
\nCanana da q\u0131z\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cH\u0259r \u015fey onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n oldu, onun yeri\u015find\u0259n, c\u0259lbedici bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndand\u0131r. Yoxsa olmazd\u0131 bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r. Hans\u0131 g\u00fcn haram yedim ki, a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mdan ald\u0131 bu zal\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131?!\u201d B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 z\u0259rif, inc\u0259 duy\u011fular onu yenid\u0259n tap\u0131r, ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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Ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc qap\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131nanda Canan yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bildi ki, g\u0259l\u0259n qon\u015fudur, tez gedib qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. M\u0259sum g\u00f6rk\u0259md\u0259 dayanan Qalibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259, h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131, i\u00e7i titr\u0259di. El\u0259c\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bax\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.
\n– Kimdir?- dey\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n B\u0259srinin s\u0259si g\u0259ldi.
\n– Qalib g\u0259lib, bir baxarsanm\u0131?
\n-Oooo, buyur usta, – dey\u0259 B\u0259sri qap\u0131ya g\u0259ldi .
\n– Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir, B\u0259sri. Sa\u011f ol, evd\u0259 bir az i\u015fim var, getm\u0259liy\u0259m.
\n-Kiray\u0259 pulu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmis\u0259n? Sabah g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m.
\n-Yox, can\u0131m. \u015eey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026. – k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259di.- Bu g\u00fcn usta g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdim, i\u015f\u0131qdak\u0131 probleml\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131. Dedim, g\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259 oldu? G\u00fcnd\u00fcz g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdim, evd\u0259 olmursan dey\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259dim.
\nBu s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 Canan\u0131n g\u00fclm\u0259yi g\u0259ldi. B\u0259sri onu s\u0259mimiyy\u0259l\u0259 bir daha i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t etdi. Qalib bu d\u0259f\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259di. Canan\u0131 daha yax\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259k arzusu onun i\u00e7ini qurd kimi yeyirdi. El\u0259 bil havalanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Canan yen\u0259 Qalibin \u0259traf\u0131nda dola\u015f\u0131r, \u0259trini \u0259trafa yay\u0131b, onu m\u0259st edirdi.
\nQalib \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 tez-t\u0259l\u0259sik qurtumlay\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Bundan art\u0131q h\u0259y\u0259cana dayana bilm\u0259zdi. \u201c M\u0259n gedim\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. Arxas\u0131ndan B\u0259sri minn\u0259tl\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 endirdi:- \u201cNamuslu u\u015faqd\u0131 bu Qalib. E\u015fitdinmi n\u0259 dediyini? M\u0259nim evd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k, g\u0259lm\u0259yib.\u201d Canan dill\u0259nm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

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Son iki h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259rzind\u0259 Qalib onlara g\u0259lm\u0259di. Hey B\u0259srid\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131. I\u00e7ind\u0259ki t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qalsa da, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra vicdan\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u0259ldi. Onsuz da bundan \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 bir h\u0259yat ya\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi is\u0259 g\u00fcnahkarl\u0131q duy\u011fusu da bir yandan onu \u0259zirdi. H\u0259yat\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131n\u0131b o\u011furland\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 ail\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259nirdi. \u201cCanana a\u015fiq oldum, onu sevir\u0259m. M\u0259g\u0259r m\u0259n insan deyil\u0259mmi? M\u0259nim hissl\u0259rim yoxdurmu? D\u00fcnya qopursa, qoy qopsun! H\u0259yatda bir d\u0259f\u0259, yaln\u0131z bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldum. A\u015fiq oldum, t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z sevdi, sevildim. Sevgi il\u0259 qucaqlayan qollar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm…\u201d
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bi\u0131m\u0259yb, Canana ev telefonudan z\u0259ng vurdu. Yalvar\u0131\u015f dolu bir s\u0259sl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-N\u0259 olar, Canan, n\u0259 olar, qoy, be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259liyin\u0259 g\u0259lib, s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcm. Sonra bir daha narahat etm\u0259r\u0259m. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259d\u0259n ya\u015faya bilmir\u0259m.\u201d Bu acizan\u0259 yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Canan\u0131n s\u0259ssizliyi uzun s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonra is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn sev\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r kimi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar verdi.
\n\u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Onu h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259 a\u00e7d\u0131. \u0130nan\u0131lmaz\u0131yd\u0131, amma o idi. E\u015fqi, sevgisi, \u0259siri oldu\u011fu o\u2026 B\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndayd\u0131. Tez i\u00e7\u0259ri ald\u0131 sevdiyini. Qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131. A\u015fiql\u0259r bir-birin\u0259 sar\u0131ld\u0131lar. He\u00e7 bir \u015fey s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n bir-birini uzun-uzad\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq etdil\u0259r. Dodaqlar bir-birini tapd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259r kilitl\u0259ndi…<\/p>\n

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\nDekabrda ilk qar ya\u011fd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r qara t\u0259slim olmu\u015fdu, adamlar seyr\u0259k idi. S\u0259fil k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 itl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015fqa b\u00fct\u00fcn canl\u0131lar ortal\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. Amma insanlar daha onun he\u00e7 eynin\u0259 d\u0259 deyildi. G\u00fcnorta yem\u0259yind\u0259n ya\u011fan nar\u0131n, a\u011fappaq qar\u0131n fonunda Qalib \u00f6z qara paltosuyla heyb\u0259tli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. G\u00f6z\u0259l \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n qar d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri o andaca \u0259riyirdi. Onun i\u00e7ind\u0259ki e\u015fq at\u0259\u015fini, ehtiras alovunu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n qar\u0131 da b\u0259s el\u0259m\u0259zdi. Ayaqlar\u0131 onu Canangilin qap\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259tirdi. \u201cNec\u0259 rahat gedilirmi\u015f qada\u011fan olan yollarla! Gizli g\u0259lm\u0259k n\u0259 imi\u015f, s\u0259ni tan\u0131y\u0131nca bildim, Canan!\u201d – dey\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131.
\n\u201cBilirs\u0259nmi, g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 nec\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259dim, G\u0259r\u0259ksiz, t\u0259rk edilmi\u015f bir adam kimi\u201d. Bu fikirl\u0259r h\u0259r ikisinin a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ir, amma he\u00e7 biri bunu dilin\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmirdi.
\nQalibin atas\u0131 naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259 vurmasa da, el\u0259 hey arvad\u0131na donquldan\u0131rd\u0131. – \u201cBu o\u011flana n\u0259s\u0259 olub. N\u0259 ma\u011fazaya g\u0259lir, n\u0259 d\u0259 bir i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Q\u0259rib\u0259 hal\u0131 var. Daim qa\u015fqabaql\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259lidir. Niy\u0259 bel\u0259dir, anlaya bilmir\u0259m…\u201d Yaz\u0131q ana da olanlardan x\u0259b\u0259rsiziydi. Onsuz da o\u011flunun birini xaric\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcst\u0259lik o biri o\u011fluyla ba\u011fl\u0131 s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131ya, d\u0259rd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi d\u00f6zm\u0259zdi.
\n-Bir d\u0259rdi var, amma n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bir bils\u0259m\u2026- ki\u015fi deyinm\u0259yind\u0259 idi.
\n-M\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259, g\u0259lin\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 demir.- bunu Almaz dedi.
\n-Bu gedi\u015fat he\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 gedi\u015fata oxam\u0131r. Z\u0259nnimc\u0259, bu g\u00fcn, ya da sabah qoxusu \u00e7\u0131xar, bil\u0259rik. O\u011flan\u0131n birini g\u00f6nd\u0259rdik. Allah can\u0131n\u0131 almad\u0131, amma q\u00fcrb\u0259t\u0259 sald\u0131. Fuad\u0131n gedi\u015fi onsuz da m\u0259ni bitirib. \u0130ndi d\u0259 Qalibin bu durumu\u2026.
\nAlmaz arvad g\u0259linin d\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259rini e\u015fidir, amma d\u0259rin\u0259 gedib, onu \u00fczm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. \u201cD\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r, d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r, h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259ncdir. S\u0259s el\u0259m\u0259, g\u00f6r\u0259k n\u0259 olur. Biri getdi, bar\u0131 bu yan\u0131m\u0131zda qals\u0131n. Canlar\u0131 sa\u011f olsun, \u00f6n\u0259mli olan da bu.\u201d – dey\u0259 onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirirdi.
\nHac\u0131 – \u201cB\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r, m\u0259nd\u0259ki \u015fansa t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcm! Ba\u015fqalar\u0131 o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 yan\u0131na d\u00fcz\u00fcb, h\u0259l\u0259 bir m\u0259nimkil\u0259r\u0259 bax\u2026 Ki\u00e7iyin can\u0131n\u0131 qurtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yad ell\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdik. Bunun da a\u011fl\u0131 ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259. Duyduqlar\u0131m do\u011fruysa, vay ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259! Onsuz da bu d\u0259rzi \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t o xain g\u00f6zl\u0259rini biz\u0259 dikib, qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nim ma\u011fazama \u015f\u0259kl\u0259yib!.\u201d- dey\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259ndi. F\u0259rqind\u0259 olmadan son s\u00f6zl\u0259ri y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259n dedi.
\n-Manufaktura\u00e7\u0131 \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259tmi?- Almaz soru\u015fdu.
\n-Ba\u015fqa \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259tmi var, s\u0259n d\u0259 lap u\u015faq kimi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan!
\nHirsini h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u0259linind\u0259n v\u0259 arvad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Evin ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 el\u0259 bil ki, \u00e7ala\u011fanlar u\u00e7urdu. Ail\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 hiss olunacaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 bir h\u00fczursuzluq vard\u0131. Lakin he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131, ham\u0131 n\u0259 is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Samir\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra k\u0259l\u0259\u011fay\u0131s\u0131\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na \u00f6rt\u00fcb, o\u011flu Murad\u0131n da \u0259lind\u0259n tutaraq, evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qaynanas\u0131 arxas\u0131nca, – \u201cHara gedirs\u0259n, ay g\u0259lin? – dey\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Samir\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tli s\u0259sl\u0259 \u201cAnamgil\u0259\u201d \u2013 dedi. Qaynana daha he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di.
\nSamir\u0259 iki tin uzaql\u0131qda olan atas\u0131 evin\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, yoldan ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rin ona yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lir. Adamlar\u0131n onun arxas\u0131nca qeyb\u0259t etdiyini fikirl\u0259\u015fdikc\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Deyil\u0259nl\u0259r do\u011fruydumu? Bu hal nec\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rdi? Anas\u0131n\u0131n dediyi kimi, bax\u0131c\u0131ya gets\u0259, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259rdimi?
\nSamir\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck inamla, \u0259zml\u0259 Qalibin \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir, onu \u00e7ox sevirdi. Amma son e\u015fitdikl\u0259ri zavall\u0131 g\u0259lini ruhdan sal\u0131rd\u0131. Qad\u0131nlar\u0131n bir a\u011f\u0131zdan \u201cS\u0259br el\u0259, d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r\u201d dem\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 ona t\u0259skinlik vermirdi. \u018fslind\u0259 he\u00e7 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u015fqa \u00e7ar\u0259si d\u0259 yoxuydu. Qalibin get-ged\u0259 ondan, o\u011flundan uzaqla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 izl\u0259yirdi. Ona yaln\u0131z \u015firin xatir\u0259l\u0259r g\u00fcc verirdi. Toy gec\u0259si fatas\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131ran Qalibin sevgi dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 unuda bilmirdi. G\u00fcv\u0259ndiyi da\u011fa qar n\u0259 vaxt ya\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131? Harada s\u0259hv etmi\u015fdi? Evliliyinin n\u0259 vaxtsa bit\u0259c\u0259yi he\u00e7 vaxt a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. Getdiyi fal\u00e7\u0131lar da ona yax\u015f\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 v\u0259d etmirdi. H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 Qalibsiz t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Bu qara kabusun bitm\u0259sini \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n ist\u0259yir, s\u0259brsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

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\nSon \u00fc\u00e7 ay\u0131n kiray\u0259 pulunun al\u0131nmamas\u0131n\u0131 B\u0259sri aralar\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u0259mimiy\u0259t\u0259 yozdu. \u201cD\u0259liqanl\u0131 adamd\u0131r bu Qalib, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n Canan, v\u0259ziyy\u0259timizi hiss el\u0259di, bizi kiray\u0259 pulu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0131x\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131r…\u201d
\nCanan u\u015faqlar\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b, yolda\u015f\u0131na baxa bilm\u0259di. E\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vurdu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.
\nB\u0259sri: – \u201cYax\u015f\u0131 oldu, \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259rik bir g\u00fcn. Allah\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259ri \u00e7oxdur. H\u0259l\u0259 bu ay\u0131 da \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u0259k, g\u00f6r\u0259k n\u0259 olur. S\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 Qalibin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 xo\u015f bax\u201d – dedi. Canan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131. Bilm\u0259di g\u00fcls\u00fcnm\u00fc, a\u011flas\u0131nm\u0131. Qalibl\u0259 h\u0259dd\u0259n art\u0131q yax\u015f\u0131 davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdi. H\u0259tta ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n da f\u0259rqind\u0259 idi. Qalib il\u0259 Canan aras\u0131nda ya\u015fananlar\u0131n x\u0131rdal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 ancaq ikisi bilirdil\u0259r. Bir-birl\u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259li kimi xo\u015flanan iki insan n\u0259l\u0259r edirs\u0259, onlar da bunu h\u0259r f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259 edirdil\u0259r. \u018frinin tualetd\u0259 oldu\u011fu d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 bel\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri birl\u0259\u015firdi. Stolun alt\u0131nda ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 toxundururdular. Art\u0131q Qalibin o m\u0259sum hal\u0131ndan \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, Canan\u0131n \u015f\u0259klini alm\u0131\u015f, d\u00f6\u015f cibind\u0259 gizl\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\nQ\u0131\u015f\u0131n sonlar\u0131na do\u011fru bir-biril\u0259rin\u0259 art\u0131q qopa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131nla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. M\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259ki h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n yerini sonu bilinm\u0259y\u0259n \u00fcmidsizlik alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ba\u015flar\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bir k\u0259d\u0259r buludu dola\u015fmaqdayd\u0131. Yanan soban\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 oturmu\u015f, sevgi dolu q\u0259lbl\u0259rini, k\u0259d\u0259rli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259ki yanan siqaretl\u0259r\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259yib, t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fcfl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. \u201cSonumuz yax\u015f\u0131 olmayacaq, ayr\u0131laca\u011f\u0131q, Qalib.\u201d \u2013 deyirdi Canan. Qalib is\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n onu dinl\u0259yirdi. Qalibin bir ist\u0259yi vard\u0131 – bu anlar\u0131n he\u00e7 vaxt bitm\u0259m\u0259si. Qrammafonda q\u0259mli bir mahn\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131:
\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131n niy\u0259 b\u0259yazlanm\u0131\u015f, dostum?
\nS\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim kimi
\n\u00e7\u0259kdir\u0259nmi var?…<\/p>\n

Uzun-uzun oturur, sevi\u015fir, qoxla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bu hal u\u015faqlar m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n qay\u0131dana q\u0259d\u0259r davam edirdi. Qalib ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n Canan\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

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Onlar\u0131 ilk g\u00f6r\u0259n \u00fczb\u0259\u00fczd\u0259ki qon\u015fular\u0131 G\u00fclt\u0259n oldu. Bir ax\u015fam qon\u015fudan k\u00f6yn\u0259k toxumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn mil ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 \u0259ks olunan m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 seyr\u0259 dalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bel\u0259 bir s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 baxmamaq imkans\u0131z idi. O g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131qlar s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 ax\u015fam saat alt\u0131 olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 verilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin p\u0259rd\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. P\u0259rd\u0259 otaqda g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259nl\u0259rin k\u00f6lg\u0259sini bir sinema kimi \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259ks etdirirdi. G\u00fclt\u0259nin t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbd\u0259n a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131la qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 – p\u0259rd\u0259y\u0259 iki \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ehtirasla bir-birin\u0259 sar\u0131lan c\u00fctl\u00fcy\u00fcn silueti uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t p\u0259rd\u0259d\u0259n itm\u0259mi\u015f, G\u00fclt\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri b\u0259r\u0259lmi\u015f halda yerind\u0259 quruyub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259r a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya do\u011fru s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259nin itm\u0259siyl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n G\u00fclt\u0259n, utanaraq \u0259trafa baxm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ild\u0259n b\u0259ri evli olan c\u00fctl\u00fcy\u00fcn bu sevgisin\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015f v\u0259 qibt\u0259 etmi\u015fdi. Canangilin evind\u0259 ba\u015fqa birinin olaca\u011f\u0131 onun a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi…
\nGec\u0259nin bir vaxt\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131 balkonun i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 qeyrri-ixtiyari G\u00fclt\u0259ni p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an Canan, i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n is\u0259 \u0259ri B\u0259sri idi. G\u00fclt\u0259n t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. B\u0259sri ev\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 indi g\u0259lirdi? Bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn ola bilm\u0259zdi. B\u0259s, bayaq Cananla \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259 kimin idi? Bu, B\u0259srid\u0259n baq\u015fas\u0131 ola bil\u0259rdimi? Kim ola bil\u0259rdi ? Kim?
\nH\u0259… bir m\u00fcdd\u0259tdir o ev\u0259 tez-tez girib-\u00e7\u0131xan Qalib idi. Qalib ad\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdiyi an, \u201cYox bir, ola bilm\u0259z! B\u0259sri y\u0259qin \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, siqaret-zad alma\u011fa, sonra da qay\u0131d\u0131b g\u0259lib\u201d – dey\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndak\u0131lar\u0131 qovmaq ist\u0259di. O an beynind\u0259ki ki\u00e7ik bir \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259nin daha sonra nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir mara\u011fa v\u0259 davaml\u0131 bir m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259yini h\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi. C\u00fctl\u00fcy\u00fcn gizli m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rini g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc vaxt a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdiyi b\u0259nz\u0259tm\u0259 bel\u0259 oldu: \u201c K\u00f6lg\u0259 A\u015fiql\u0259r.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Bu qon\u015fular\u0131n xo\u015f m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri art\u0131q qeyb\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evrilm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayanda q\u0131\u015f h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 davam edirdi. O g\u00fcn hava tutqun idi. Qu\u015fba\u015f\u0131 qar ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Canan\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131 qap\u0131da qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259diyi s\u0259sin g\u0259li\u015fi il\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n az qala u\u00e7maq ist\u0259di. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ar-a\u00e7maz g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131. Qalib idi. Nec\u0259 d\u0259 sevimli v\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 idi. \u018fli il\u0259 sevgilisinin qardan islanm\u0131\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc sildi. Qalib i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi, qap\u0131n\u0131 arxadan ba\u011flad\u0131. O q\u0259d\u0259r c\u0259lbedici idi ki, Canan ordaca boynuna sar\u0131l\u0131b, Qalibi h\u0259rar\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fc. Onun paltosunu \u0259ynind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Sarma\u015fd\u0131lar…
\nOnlar\u0131n ail\u0259-u\u015faqlar\u0131 art\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 deyildi. Kim buna n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k, nec\u0259 baxacaq, umurunda deyildil\u0259r. \u0130ndi onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015famaq birlikd\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq, itirilmi\u015f h\u0259zl\u0259rin arxas\u0131nca sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r getm\u0259k, d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 e\u015fq\u0259 sar\u0131lmaq idi! Canan h\u0259r ist\u0259diyini yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259n, onu m\u0259mnun etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lav\u0259 i\u015f saatlar\u0131na qalan, gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n \u0259rind\u0259n \u0259sirg\u0259diyi qay\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Qalib\u0259 com\u0259rdc\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. B\u0259srinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmaq bel\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259n g\u0259lmirdi.
\nQalib d\u0259 arvad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oxdan unutmu\u015fdu. Onunla n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzaq oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. O g\u00fcn soban\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kc\u0259d\u0259 diz-diz\u0259, \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 oturdu\u011fu Canan\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rini ovuclar\u0131 aras\u0131nda tutark\u0259n, n\u0259 vaxtdand\u0131r Samir\u0259nin o yum\u015faq, b\u0259yaz \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 toxunmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259ldi. Q\u0259lbind\u0259 ona toxunmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 bir ist\u0259k yox idi. Onlarla eyni otaqda yatan balaca o\u011flunun h\u0259r gec\u0259 oyan\u0131b a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259han\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k, qonaq ota\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 divanda yat\u0131rd\u0131. Canan maqnitafondak\u0131 kasseti d\u0259yi\u015fdirib g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 Qalibi fikirli g\u00f6rd\u00fc.
\n-D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259lis\u0259n. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, kefini pozan n\u0259s\u0259 var.
\n-He\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur \u2013 Qalib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131raraq, yum\u015faq bax\u0131\u015flarla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.
\n-Yoxdurmu?
\nQalib susdu. T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc itdi. Ba\u015f\u0131 yen\u0259 \u0259yildi.
\n-Yan\u0131mdan bir saniy\u0259 bel\u0259 ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mir\u0259m.Nec\u0259 olacaq bizim hal\u0131m\u0131z, Canan?
\n-Bu haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m.- qad\u0131n dill\u0259ndi.
\n-N\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yik? Bel\u0259 davam ed\u0259 bilm\u0259rik.
\n\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, bu q\u0259d\u0259r ciddi dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Canan Qalibin \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 dayad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131raraq, uzun, tuta\u015f kirpikl\u0259rini ox kimi sevdiyin\u0259 tu\u015flad\u0131.
\n-M\u0259nd\u0259n bezmis\u0259nmi? Ayr\u0131lmaqm\u0131 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, yoxsa?
\nQalib g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. He\u00e7 bel\u0259 q\u0259ti d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015f, ayr\u0131l\u0131q k\u0259lm\u0259sini a\u011fl\u0131na dag\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di:
\n-S\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, s\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.\u201d
\n\u0130kisinin d\u0259 q\u0259lbin\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcmidsizlik qoru doldu.
\nYen\u0259 o \u00e7ox sevdikl\u0259ri mahn\u0131 oxunurdu: \u201cNiy\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n b\u0259yazlanm\u0131\u015f, dostum…\u201d Adnan \u015e\u0259ns\u0259sin m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m ifas\u0131ndak\u0131 bu mahn\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Qalibin i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u201cBunu bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc oxumusan?!\u201d- dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rmaq g\u0259lirdi.
\nQap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131 v\u0259 Canan qalx\u0131b, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011fa getdi. G\u0259l\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 Sevgi v\u0259 onun r\u0259fiq\u0259si idi.
\n-Ana, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 t\u0259til oldu, m\u0259n d\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259m Sibeli biz\u0259 g\u0259tirdim. R\u0259fiq\u0259ml\u0259 d\u0259rs oxuyaca\u011f\u0131q.
\n-Yava\u015f olun amma, evd\u0259 qonaq var.
\n-Yen\u0259 Qalib \u0259midir?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259diyini bilir, amma d\u0259rin\u0259 getmirdi. U\u015faqlar i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 Qalib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 cavabs\u0131z qalan suallarla \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi. Canan ya\u011fan qar\u0131n alt\u0131nda g\u00f6zd\u0259n it\u0259n Qalibin arxas\u0131nca sevgiyl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 yar\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015f, bitm\u0259mi\u015f c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 kefsiz halda bir siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131.
\nQ\u0131z\u0131 yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi:- \u201cAna, yem\u0259k varm\u0131?\u201d \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 \u00e7ox qar var, m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259tildi. \u00c7ox sevindik…\u201d Q\u0131zlar bir az \u0259vv\u0259l iki sevgilinin oturdu\u011fu d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 oturub, sevincl\u0259 oynama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Canan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu.<\/p>\n

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D\u00fcz on s\u0259kkiz g\u00fcn Qalibi g\u00f6rm\u0259di. U\u015faqlar t\u0259tild\u0259 idi. \u00c7\u00f6l soyuq olsa da, m\u0259nzil yax\u015f\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u015faqlarla bir otaqda, bir az cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131, \u0259s\u0259bi g\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7irdi. Qalibsiz h\u0259yat qad\u0131na dads\u0131z-duzsuz g\u0259lirdi. \u00d6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n verdiyi xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin bel\u0259 f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildi. E\u015fq v\u0259 ehtiras\u0131n sadiq qulu kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n he\u00e7 bir d\u0259y\u0259ri yox idi. Qalibd\u0259n ba\u015fqa h\u0259r \u015fey onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259y\u0259rini itirmi\u015fdi. Qalib e\u015fq heyk\u0259li idi. Sevgi ibad\u0259tgah\u0131yd\u0131. Orda qan\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131d\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qurban verir, \u0259hd-peyman edirdi.
\nT\u0259til bit\u0259r-bitm\u0259z Qalib yenid\u0259n peyda oldu. Canan o g\u00fcn bayramlardak\u0131 u\u015faqlar kimi sevinirdi. H\u0259yat\u0131na g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f do\u011fmu\u015fdu. Dar\u0131xmas\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, toxunu\u015fu, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259n bilinirdi. Ona toxundu\u011funa inana bilmirdi. Var g\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 Qalib\u0259 sar\u0131ld\u0131, he\u00e7 buraxmaq ist\u0259m\u0259di. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yan\u011f\u0131l\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri sapa d\u00fczd\u00fc:
\n– M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi anlad\u0131m.
\n-Bilir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki s\u0259n m\u0259nims\u0259n. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131la bilm\u0259r\u0259m…<\/p>\n

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Yaz g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri art\u0131q gizlilikd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f, qad\u0131n m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259, \u00e7ayxanalarda, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259ki adamlar aras\u0131nda dedi-qodular ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qalibin ail\u0259si v\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131 \u00f6zl\u0259rini e\u015fitm\u0259zliy\u0259 vursalar da, ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131lar arxas\u0131nda onlardan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259srinin is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri yox idi. Deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, bankdak\u0131 bir dostunun vicdan\u0131 yol verm\u0259mi\u015f, B\u0259srini bir q\u0131ra\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kib, – \u201cBura bax, qarda\u015f, burdan \u0259riz\u0259ni yaz\u0131b, gets\u0259n, yax\u015f\u0131 olar\u201d, – demi\u015fdi. Onun bu t\u0259klifini yanl\u0131\u015f anlayan B\u0259srinin pisin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi: – \u201cNiy\u0259, qarda\u015f? M\u00fcd\u00fcr m\u0259ni yax\u015f\u0131 v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tirdi dey\u0259 q\u0131sqand\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?\u201d \u2013 demi\u015fdi. Bel\u0259 cavaba \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015f\u0259n i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131: -\u201cEl\u0259 axmaqsan ki, arvad\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyilm\u0259y\u0259n qalmay\u0131b, amma s\u0259nin ruhun bel\u0259 duymur…\u201d- dey\u0259 ikrahla ona baxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nYalan olsa bel\u0259, e\u015fitdikl\u0259rind\u0259n B\u0259srinin n\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259b, ac\u0131, m\u0259yusluq hissi ke\u00e7irdiyini g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k olmazd\u0131. \u201cM\u0259ni \u0259f\u0259l yerin\u0259 qoydular. Axmaq z\u0259nn etdil\u0259r, arxamca i\u015f \u00e7evirdil\u0259r, \u0259l\u0259 sald\u0131lar, m\u0259ni m\u0259hv el\u0259dil\u0259r, \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r\u201d- dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb beynind\u0259n vurulmu\u015f kimi oldu. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n balaca g\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131zard\u0131, q\u0259z\u0259bi vulkan kimi p\u00fcsk\u00fcrd\u00fc. C\u0259ld bankdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00f6lg\u0259li ke\u00e7di. E\u015fitdiyini h\u0259zm etm\u0259k \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin idi. Adam\u0131n \u201cTanr\u0131 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 bel\u0259 bir \u00e7ar\u0259sizlik verm\u0259sin\u201d dem\u0259yi g\u0259lirdi. \u201c\u00d6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb le\u015fl\u0259rini asaca\u011fam!\u201d -dey\u0259 q\u0259rar verdiyi andan bir q\u0259d\u0259r sakitl\u0259\u015fdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Canan qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. B\u0259sri q\u0259z\u0259b v\u0259 d\u0259rin k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 Canan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t qap\u0131da dayand\u0131. \u201cBax m\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259 anla. Anla v\u0259 utan, s\u0131x\u0131l, vicdan\u0131n varsa, \u00f6l. M\u0259ni nec\u0259 m\u0259hv el\u0259din. Vicdans\u0131z, \u0259xlaqs\u0131z qad\u0131n!…\u201d
\nBunlar\u0131 dem\u0259di, sad\u0259c\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi. Canan ona bax\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259ki adam B\u0259sri deyildi, onun ox\u015far\u0131 olmal\u0131yd\u0131. B\u0259sri ona bel\u0259 baxmazd\u0131..\u201d\u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, \u00e7ox \u00fczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Etdikl\u0259rimin yan\u0131nda bir \u00fczr neyl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r ki?\u201d
\nB\u0259sri i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi.
\n-Deyil\u0259nl\u0259r do\u011frudurmu cavab ver?
\n-N\u0259 deyirl\u0259r ki?
\n-Bilirs\u0259n…
\n-Yox, bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259ni n\u0259 il\u0259 g\u00fcnahland\u0131r\u0131rsan?
\nN\u0259 il\u0259mi? Allah\u0131n b\u0259las\u0131 n\u0259 il\u0259mi? Bilmirmi\u015f kimi dan\u0131\u015fma! – s\u0259sini y\u00fcks\u0259ltdi.
\n-Ba\u011f\u0131rma! M\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 el\u0259 pis bax\u0131rsan, s\u00f6yl\u0259…
\n-T\u0259kc\u0259 bir \u015feyi bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc des\u0259n, aradan \u00e7\u0259kilib ged\u0259r\u0259m. S\u00f6yl\u0259, s\u0259nl\u0259 Qalib…\u201d Onun ad\u0131 bel\u0259 Canan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn pul kiimi q\u0131zarmas\u0131na b\u0259s el\u0259di. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-El\u0259 bir \u015fey yoxdu, b\u00f6htand\u0131r. Bel\u0259 \u00e7irkin b\u00f6htanlara nec\u0259 inana bilirs\u0259n?
\n-Canan, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de…
\nCanan a\u011flad\u0131, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc, inkar etdi, ancaq sonunda boynuna ald\u0131. Qalibi sevdiyini, ona a\u015fiq oldu\u011funu etiraf etdi. B\u0259sriy\u0259 bir g\u00fcll\u0259 vursayd\u0131, bundan yax\u015f\u0131yd\u0131. B\u0259sri o q\u0259d\u0259r sars\u0131ld\u0131 ki, g\u00fccl\u00fc bir yumruq z\u0259rb\u0259si alm\u0131\u015f kimi s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259di. Yolda\u015f\u0131na indiy\u0259 kimi \u0259l qald\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Vurdu, vurdu, d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 vurdu onu. Canan qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259di, ver\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra evin bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131, h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra-h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra a\u011flad\u0131, doyunca a\u011flad\u0131. Ota\u011f\u0131n z\u0259if i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 iki k\u00fcncd\u0259, iki k\u0259d\u0259r dolu v\u00fccud f\u0259rqli s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rl\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. K\u0259d\u0259r bir ota\u011f\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 doldurarm\u0131\u015f, a\u011fr\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259zab bir ota\u011f\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259hat\u0259 ed\u0259rmi\u015f. Alovlu bir sevgiy\u0259 \u015fahidlik ed\u0259n otaq, soyuq bir atmosferl\u0259 qucaqla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar yava\u015f\u0131d\u0131 v\u0259 k\u0259sildi. T\u0259s\u0259lli bo\u015fluqlar\u0131 siqaretin k\u0259d\u0259rli dumanlar\u0131 il\u0259 doldu. Bu ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 bit\u0259n bir sonun ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 idi. Canan partlayan doda\u011f\u0131ndan, burnundan axan qan\u0131n l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259diyi, titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 baxaraq s\u0259ssizliyi pozdu:
\n-T\u0259k g\u00fcnahkar m\u0259n\u0259mmi, B\u0259sri? M\u0259n\u0259mmi olanlar\u0131n t\u0259k s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131? – s\u0259sind\u0259ki titr\u0259m\u0259ni dayand\u0131ra bilmirdi. -S\u0259n deyildinmi, Canan, Qalibl\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 davran, bizd\u0259n kiray\u0259 pulunu ist\u0259m\u0259sin dey\u0259n? S\u0259n deyildinmi onu ev\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran? Onun t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00f6z yuman s\u0259n deyildinmi?…
\nB\u0259sri aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. Arvad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc da\u015f kimi a\u011f\u0131r, b\u0131\u00e7aq kimi k\u0259skin idi. B\u0259srinin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb, qan \u00e7ana\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Hirsl\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131raraq stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qrafini Canan\u0131n arxas\u0131nca tolazlad\u0131. \u201cM\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 davran dedim, daha dem\u0259diki, get onunla yat! Onu sev! \u0130ndi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259miz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarma! M\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcbm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, x\u0259b\u0259rim yox imi\u015f! \u018ftimi \u00e7eyn\u0259diniz, yand\u0131r\u0131b k\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fc bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259diniz… M\u0259n n\u0259 yaz\u0131q imi\u015f\u0259m, kor olmu\u015fam, inanm\u0131\u015fam, g\u00fcv\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m, yolda\u015f\u0131m demi\u015f\u0259m, dostum demi\u015f\u0259m… Dem\u0259li, k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n b\u0131\u00e7aqlanmaq bu imi\u015f…\u201d \u2013 sonra deyinib durdu. Amma n\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259, olan olmu\u015f, ke\u00e7\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Olanlar t\u0259mizl\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rdimi? S\u0259hvl\u0259r d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259, d\u00fcz\u0259ldil\u0259 bil\u0259rdimi?
\nU\u015faqlar ax\u015fam ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti hiss el\u0259dil\u0259r. Bundan sonra he\u00e7 n\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi olmad\u0131 v\u0259 olmayacaqd\u0131 da. Evin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qara buludlar yox olmad\u0131, bir qaralt\u0131 kimi \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Canan art\u0131q ruh kimi dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259yata mara\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. B\u0259srid\u0259n bo\u015fanaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259, onda q\u0259lbi rahatl\u0131q tapard\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn evd\u0259 lal-dinm\u0259z dola\u015fan B\u0259srid\u0259n soru\u015fdu:
\n-M\u0259ni n\u0259 vaxt bo\u015fayacaqsan?
\n-S\u0259ni bo\u015famaq m\u0259nim \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck sevincim olard\u0131. Amma bu olmayacaq. M\u0259n ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir ana-atan\u0131n \u00f6vlad\u0131yam, eyni \u015feyi u\u015faqlar\u0131ma ya\u015fatmayaca\u011fam. U\u015faqlar\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 bu evlilik davam ed\u0259c\u0259k. Amma daha arvad\u0131m ola bilm\u0259zs\u0259n…
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 hirs, q\u0259z\u0259b, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 qat\u0131 bir nifr\u0259t vard\u0131. K\u0259d\u0259rli g\u00fcnl\u0259r sanki bitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u201cS\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt s\u0259rb\u0259st buraxmayacam, bunu a\u011fl\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarma. S\u0259nl\u0259 aram\u0131zda h\u0259r \u015fey bitdi. \u0130st\u0259diyin ayr\u0131l\u0131q da n\u0259 vaxtsa bir yerd\u0259 ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259k. Amma o an bu zamanda v\u0259 bu yerd\u0259 olmayacaq…\u201d
\nB\u0259srinin Cananla evliliyi qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 sevgid\u0259n ba\u015f verm\u0259mi\u015fdi. B\u0259sri ilk d\u0259f\u0259 onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 vuruldu\u011funu z\u0259nn ets\u0259 d\u0259 amma, – \u201c Bu q\u0131z m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259z\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu evliliy\u0259 m\u0259mur olmas\u0131 yol a\u00e7d\u0131. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan alan bu q\u0131zla evl\u0259ndi. Kas\u0131b bir ail\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131 olan Canan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu evlilik bir z\u0259rur\u0259t oldu. Canan\u0131 \u00e7ox sev\u0259n B\u0259sri onun h\u0259r ist\u0259yini yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nEvin\u0259 q\u0259bul etdiyi Qalibin ona qar\u015f\u0131 etdiyi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini h\u0259zm ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Ondan intiqam\u0131n\u0131 almal\u0131, \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259li idi onu. \u018fvv\u0259l silah almaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, sonra fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. Arxa cibind\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7aq g\u0259zdirm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u201cAl\u00e7aq, namussuz. Son duan\u0131 et, \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u201d – dey\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0259n Qalibl\u0259 rastla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra Canan\u0131 da \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259m, – dey\u0259 q\u0259til\u0259\u015fdirs\u0259 d\u0259, u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 yetim\u00e7ilikl\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Onu da h\u0259bs ets\u0259l\u0259r, b\u0259s, u\u015faqlar\u0131nm aqib\u0259ti nec\u0259 olacaqd\u0131? Yetimxanaya ver\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Yox, \u00fcr\u0259yi d\u00f6zm\u0259zdi buna. Canan h\u0259l\u0259lik ya\u015fayacaqd\u0131. Amma namusunu t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259liydi.
\nBa\u015fqa \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259yinat ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. Saqqal\u0131 uzanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri batm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qalibi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r izl\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, yolda qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. Ancaq onu harada tapa bil\u0259c\u0259yini bilirdi – mebel ma\u011fazas\u0131nda.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259ri yuxusuzluqdan qan \u00e7ana\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Q\u0259rar\u0131nda q\u0259ti idi. Anid\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri girib, i\u015fini bitir\u0259c\u0259kdi.
\nC\u00fcmhuriyy\u0259t k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sinin sahibkarlar\u0131 yava\u015f-yava\u015f ma\u011fazalar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ma\u011fazaya n\u0259 zaman g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259di. \u201cTam zaman\u0131d\u0131r, onun le\u015fini itl\u0259r\u0259 yem ed\u0259c\u0259m\u201d, – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ma\u011fazan\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q idi. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259ki o idimi? Nec\u0259 bel\u0259 rahat i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 bilir?- a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irdi.
\nQalibin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi bir sakitlik v\u0259 t\u0259mizlik vard\u0131. Sanki bir ail\u0259ni k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n sars\u0131dan bu adam deyildi. Q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 ma\u011fazaya t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131, q\u0259fild\u0259n ir\u0259li cumdu. D\u00fcnya h\u0259r ikisi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qarald\u0131. H\u0259r \u015fey bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. H\u0259r yer q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 qana boyand\u0131.
\nQalibi x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7atd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. B\u0259sri ortal\u0131qda yox idi. Ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rin s\u0259b\u0259bini bil\u0259n Hac\u0131 H\u00fcseyn \u00e7ox s\u0259s-k\u00fcy olmas\u0131n dey\u0259 B\u0259srini ail\u0259siyl\u0259 birg\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. Qalib d\u0259 onu kimin vurdu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259di. Bel\u0259c\u0259 i\u015f ba\u011fland\u0131. Qalib m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259mi\u015fdi B\u0259sriy\u0259. Onun yaras\u0131 sa\u011fald\u0131. Amma \u0259sl z\u0259rb\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 idi. O he\u00e7 vaxt sa\u011falmayacaqd\u0131.
\nK\u00f6lg\u0259 a\u015fiql\u0259rin sevgisi g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u0259ridi. Ayr\u0131lq, h\u0259sr\u0259t iki a\u015fiq aras\u0131ndak\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti sanki \u00fclvil\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fdi. Bu sevgi indi \u0259l\u00e7atmaz, d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z v\u0259 unudulmaz idi.<\/p>\n

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Bura g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi Canan v\u0259 ail\u0259si olduqlar\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri yen\u0259 d\u0259 bir yay t\u0259rk etdil\u0259r. Qad\u0131n a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Bu onun sevgisi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ax\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131 son g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 idi. Daha sonralar B\u0259sri he\u00e7 vaxt onun a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259di.
\nQalib bu g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z sonu taleyin q\u0259d\u0259ri kimi q\u0259bul etdi. Amma o art\u0131q f\u0259rqli duy\u011fular, xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldu\u011fu h\u0259zl\u0259r k\u0259\u015ff el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bundan sonra ona n\u0259 toppu\u015f arvad\u0131, n\u0259 anas\u0131 il\u0259 atas\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 evl\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr ba\u011f\u00e7a divarlar\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259lli ver\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Canan\u0131 nec\u0259 unudacaqd\u0131? Unutmaq asan idimi? Q\u0259tiyy\u0259n unuda bilm\u0259di. Bir g\u00fcn fikirli-fikirli a\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlarla i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fckanlar\u0131n birind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n mahn\u0131 s\u0259si onu Canana v\u0259 onunla ke\u00e7irdiyi g\u00f6z\u0259l anlara apard\u0131. \u201cGetdi can\u0131m\u0131n canan\u0131, qoydu m\u0259ni yaral\u0131…\u201d Add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f\u0131td\u0131. \u018ftrafda h\u0259r \u015fey yox oldu. Mahn\u0131n\u0131n ah\u0259ngi, k\u0259d\u0259rli musiqisi v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 toxunan s\u00f6zl\u0259ri onu varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan el\u0259di, Canan\u0131n yan\u0131na apard\u0131. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 s\u00f6z\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rm\u0131? Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn nec\u0259 d\u0259 dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onsuzluq, onu bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259k hissi… G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 leysan kimi ax\u0131rd\u0131…
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 i\u00e7ki i\u00e7il\u0259n bir kafey\u0259 getdi. Alaqaranl\u0131q barda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sanki Canan da yan\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f kimi hiss etdi, he\u00e7 kim olmadan rahatca xatir\u0259l\u0259rini ya\u015fad\u0131. Z\u0259rif bir qad\u0131n mahn\u0131 oxuyurdu:
\nBir q\u0259rib yol\u00e7uyam h\u0259yat yolunda,
\nYar\u0131m\u0131 itirdim p\u0259ri\u015fanam m\u0259n
\nAl\u0131n yaz\u0131m imi\u015f h\u0259yat yolunda
\n\u00dcmidsiz sevginin qurban\u0131yam m\u0259n
\nYalan d\u00fcnya h\u0259r \u015fey bo\u015f, yol\u00e7u s\u0259rxo\u015f…
\nB\u0259li, ilk d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259rxo\u015f oldu v\u0259 sonra d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ora getdi. Amma bel\u0259 rahatla\u015fa bilirdi. Evd\u0259kil\u0259rd\u0259n s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r k\u0259s bunu ke\u00e7ici hal kimi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirib, s\u0259brl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.
\nN\u0259hay\u0259t, q\u0259lbin\u0259 hakim ola bilm\u0259di. Bir g\u00fcn uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r avtobusunda yol\u00e7u oldu. Yollar onu Canan\u0131n getdiyi \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131. Samsunun d\u0259niz qoxulu havas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rin-d\u0259rin i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Uzun-uzun ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 doldurdu. Aylar sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r rahat idi. Anlad\u0131 ki, Canan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259 bel\u0259, onun oldu\u011fu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015famaq da g\u00f6z\u0259lmi\u015f. \u0130ndi daha onun yax\u0131n\u0131nda idi. Halbuki, avtobusdak\u0131 uzun s\u0259yah\u0259t m\u00fcdd\u0259tind\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndan el\u0259 hey bu fikir ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi: \u201cKa\u015f, Cananla he\u00e7 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmayayd\u0131m v\u0259 o g\u00f6z\u0259l duy\u011fular\u0131 ya\u015famayayd\u0131m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, o, m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi b\u0259x\u015f etdi, amma m\u0259ni ac\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259n d\u0259rinind\u0259 d\u0259 bo\u011fdu. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn h\u0259yat n\u0259dirs\u0259, bildiyin h\u0259yat da odur. Canan\u0131 tan\u0131masayd\u0131m, m\u0259n d\u0259 atam kimi d\u00fcnyadan bix\u0259b\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259kdim. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, atam he\u00e7 e\u015fqi dad\u0131bm\u0131?\u201d Atas\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259ldi. O, yumru, qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 sif\u0259ti, Hitlersaya\u011f\u0131 b\u0131\u011f\u0131, qal\u0131n qa\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 nec\u0259 d\u0259 z\u0259hmli idi. Bir anl\u0131q, bu c\u00fcr bir mac\u0259ra ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc atas\u0131ndan \u015fansl\u0131 hiss etdi. \u201cSevgim h\u0259m xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim, h\u0259m d\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rim oldu. Ey Canan, s\u0131nd\u0131r \u00fcr\u0259yimin qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131!… \u018fsl q\u00fcrb\u0259t s\u0259nsizlikdir. S\u0259nin yan\u0131nd\u0131r v\u0259t\u0259nim…\u201d
\n\u0130ki g\u00fcn ki\u00e7ik bir otel ota\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259di. \u00dcnvan\u0131 bankdak\u0131 dostundan yalvararaq alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018flind\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131za baxa-baxa d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 otaqda d\u00f6n\u00fcb doland\u0131. Getsinmi, getm\u0259sinmi? Q\u0259rars\u0131z idi. Bird\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7masa, ya da evd\u0259 olmasa, neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi? \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259ki s\u0259s \u201cGet\u201d deyirdi.
\nH\u0259min gec\u0259ni yolunu azm\u0131\u015f bir insan kimi ke\u00e7irdi. Narahat idi. Son q\u0259rar\u0131 Canan\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb getm\u0259k idi. Qorxurdu. Cinay\u0259t t\u00f6r\u0259tm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn plan quran biri kimi q\u0259rarl\u0131yd\u0131.
\nO s\u0259h\u0259r \u015f\u0259h\u0259r boz bir \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fcn alt\u0131nda soyuqlam\u0131\u015f x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Qalibin ruhunu bir q\u0259riblik b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131, \u00e7ar\u0259siz v\u0259 t\u0259nha idi. Taksi onu dediyi \u00fcnvana apar\u0131rd\u0131. Sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259sdiyini hiss el\u0259di. Ara k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 girdil\u0259r. Adi bir m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 idi. \u0130nsanlar gedib-g\u0259lir, u\u015faqlar qa\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131r, balkonlardan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259tl\u0259r sallan\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n \u201cN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l\u201d dey\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. \u201cHam\u0131 nec\u0259 rahat v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtdir… Birc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259m b\u0259db\u0259xt olan\u201d. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131. A\u011fl\u0131nda yaln\u0131z Canan var idi. He\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 fikir vermirdi. Taksi k\u00f6hn\u0259, boyas\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259ngi solmu\u015f bir binan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc, – \u201cAxtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fcnvan burad\u0131r\u201d, – dedi. Qalib \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, taksid\u0259n en\u0259 bilmirdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 ke\u00e7di, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc d\u00f6zm\u0259yib yen\u0259 soru\u015fdu: \u201cSizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yimmi?\u201d
\n-Aha. B\u0259li, b\u0259li g\u00f6zl\u0259yin.
\nAsta-asta ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Udqundu, \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri qalxd\u0131qca h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131 daha da art\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259y\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. Axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nzil ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 idi. Taleyinin binas\u0131, 2- ci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259, m\u0259nzil 4. Dayand\u0131, n\u0259f\u0259s ala bilmirdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259di. Sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu. Aylard\u0131r g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi sevdiyi qad\u0131n bu qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndayd\u0131. Onu uzaq yerl\u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259kdi.
\nQap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259r evd\u0259 kimins\u0259 olmas\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi. Qap\u0131, – \u201cKimdir?\u201d- dey\u0259n qad\u0131n s\u0259siyl\u0259 yava\u015fca araland\u0131. Kim idi o? N\u0259 dem\u0259li idi? Sad\u0259c\u0259, bax\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259sum, d\u0259rdli, \u00e7ar\u0259siz v\u0259 a\u015fiq…
\nCanan Qalibi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda \u015fok ke\u00e7irdi. He\u00e7 g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdi. Bir anl\u0131q donub qald\u0131 . Al\u00e7aq s\u0259sl\u0259 \u2013 \u201cQalib, s\u0259ns\u0259n?! S\u0259n buralarda, neynirs\u0259n, Qalib?…- dey\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259ssizliyi pozdu Canan.
\n– Burdan ke\u00e7irdim. Son d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. – nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 bu yalan dodaqlar\u0131ndan?
\nCanan n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi.
\nQalib d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259di. \u0130st\u0259yini dil\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259ndi:
\n-Vaxt\u0131n varsa, bir az dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0259rikmi? Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259nim x\u0259trim\u0259.
\nCanan cavab verm\u0259di. Sad\u0259c\u0259, qap\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildi. Qalib i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Uzun koridoru olan bir ev idi. Canan\u0131n arxas\u0131nca getdi. \u00c7\u0259king\u0259n halda da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q qonaq ota\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 kreslolardan birind\u0259 oturdu. Canan da qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 kresloda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Qalib barmaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Dey\u0259c\u0259yi s\u00f6zl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn vaxt\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ox olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdi. Canan Qalibin dan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri izah ed\u0259 bils\u0259ydi…
\nSevdiyi qad\u0131n h\u0259m yax\u0131n\u0131nda, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox uzaqda idi. N\u0259 olmu\u015fdu bird\u0259n-bir\u0259. Bu be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 qabaq h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n yan\u0131b-yax\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 taleyinin qad\u0131n\u0131 deyildimi? Niy\u0259 onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra h\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi? Dey\u0259s\u0259n, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 qad\u0131n da eyni hissl\u0259ri ke\u00e7irirdi. H\u0259r ikisi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dikib, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yer\u0259 zill\u0259yib susurdular. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u0259ssizlik h\u00f6km s\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nQalib \u00fcmidsiz bir s\u0259sl\u0259, \u201cM\u0259n burdan ke\u00e7mirdim. Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259ldim. – dedi. – \u201cS\u0259ni burdan aparmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m\u201d dem\u0259k ist\u0259di, amma \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n, – \u201cS\u0259ni son d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m\u201d \u2013 dedi.
\nOna el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, Canan bundan p\u0259rt olacaq. Amma g\u00f6zl\u0259diyinin \u0259ksin\u0259 qad\u0131n onu t\u0259mkinl\u0259, sakitlikl\u0259 dinl\u0259yirdi. He\u00e7 el\u0259 bil bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay qabaq d\u0259rdind\u0259n d\u0259li-divan\u0259 olan qad\u0131n deyildi.
\nCanan Qalibin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxa bilmirdi. El\u0259 bilirdi ki, Qalib ona etdiyi \u201cx\u0259yan\u0259ti\u201d g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n oxuya bil\u0259r. Anid\u0259n d\u0259qiq v\u0259 q\u0259r\u0259zsiz bir tonda \u201cQalib, h\u0259r n\u0259 oldusa, ke\u015fmi\u015fd\u0259 qald\u0131. Unut m\u0259ni\u201d- dedi v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00f6z soyuqqanl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na mat qald\u0131. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 ona ayd\u0131n oldu ki, Qalibi sevmir v\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n, he\u00e7 vaxt sevm\u0259yib. Onun sevgi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6t\u0259ri bir hiss, bir ehtiras alovu imi\u015f.
\nQalib qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ataraq t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 Canana bax\u0131r. S\u0259hvmi e\u015fitmi\u015fdi? El\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi ki, Canan sevincd\u0259n boynuna sar\u0131lacaq, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 onu \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq ed\u0259c\u0259k. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi…
\n-Bilir\u0259m n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. Amma ikimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 bundan sonra geriy\u0259 yol yoxdur. H\u0259yat iki n\u0259f\u0259rlik oyun deyil. O, d\u0259rdi, k\u0259d\u0259ri, sevinci, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi il\u0259 bir mac\u0259rad\u0131r. O mac\u0259rada ba\u015fqa insanlara da yer var. \u00d6vladlar\u0131m Arif v\u0259 Sevgi. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox balacad\u0131rlar. \u0130ki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.\u201d Onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m. Onlar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb yeti\u015fdirm\u0259k yegan\u0259 arzumdur…
\nQalib sad\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259k k\u0259lm\u0259 – \u201cAnlay\u0131ram\u201d dey\u0259 bildi. Bu geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olmayan \u00e7ar\u0259sizliyin v\u0259 sonsuz s\u0259ssizliyin ilk i\u015far\u0259si idi. Anlay\u0131ram dem\u0259k, s\u0259n bil\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259nas\u0131nda bir raz\u0131l\u0131q idi.
\n-S\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r yolu q\u0259t edib g\u0259ldin m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Nec\u0259 \u015fansl\u0131 bir qad\u0131nam. Bura q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259lm\u0259kl\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259din. M\u0259ni unutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sa\u011f ol. Bir g\u00fcn ya\u015flan\u0131b geriy\u0259 baxanda, s\u0259ni eyni yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 hal\u0131nla xat\u0131rlayaca\u011fam. M\u0259nim Qalibiml\u0259 ke\u00e7irdiyim g\u00fcnl\u0259rim ke\u00e7mi\u015fimin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l xatir\u0259l\u0259ri olaraq qalacaq. Amma n\u0259 olar \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fm\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla!\u201d
\nQalib yenid\u0259n t\u0259krar etdi:
\n-Anlay\u0131ram.\u201d
\nCanan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onsuz bir h\u0259yata haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu h\u0259yat\u0131nda Qalibin yeri yox idi. Aralar\u0131nda h\u0259r \u015fey bitmi\u015fdi. Qalib \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn burda olma\u011f\u0131n bir m\u0259nas\u0131 qalmam\u0131\u015f, beynind\u0259 n\u0259 vard\u0131sa, ham\u0131s\u0131 u\u00e7ub getmi\u015fdi. Halbuki, o n\u0259 x\u0259yallar qurmu\u015fdu… D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc s\u0259hn\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi. Bu an el\u0259 ger\u00e7\u0259k idi ki, h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015fdi. Aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Canan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n sanki bir \u015fey qopdu, yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O da c\u0259ld qalxd\u0131.
\n-Gedirs\u0259nmi?
\n-H\u0259, daha narahat etm\u0259yim.
\nQ\u0259lbind\u0259 k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fck var idi. Qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f getdi. Arxas\u0131nca Canan\u0131n z\u0259if add\u0131mlar\u0131 onu izl\u0259yirdi.
\nArxaya d\u00f6nd\u00fc:
\n-\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bax, n\u0259 olar. S\u0259ni b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 sald\u0131m, amma \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 mane ola bilm\u0259dim.
\n– El\u0259 dem\u0259. S\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bax. S\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, bir k\u00f6lg\u0259 kimi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 izl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, s\u0259nd\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q x\u0259b\u0259rim olacaq.
\nKoridorda \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz dayand\u0131lar, son d\u0259f\u0259 bir-biril\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.
\n-Xudahafiz.
\n-Yolun a\u00e7\u0131q olsun, Qalib.
\nCanan sakit g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qalib zorla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi: \u201cS\u0259ni unutmayacam. Daim xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, bir add\u0131m atd\u0131, ged\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Canan\u0131n v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn koridora d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n k\u00f6lg\u0259sinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259li idi. \u018fvv\u0259l-\u0259vv\u0259l buna t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etdi. Sonra n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259, s\u00fcr\u0259tli add\u0131mlarla k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7ib qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015feyi bir k\u00f6lg\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r arxada buraxd\u0131…
\nTaksiy\u0259 min\u0259nd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n nar\u0131n ya\u011fmur onu ayl\u0131td\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni qald\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi ya\u011f\u0131\u015f onun q\u0259lbin\u0259, xatir\u0259l\u0259ninin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Dilimiz\u0259 uy\u011funla\u015fd\u0131ran: Nazil\u0259 G\u00fcltac; \u015fair-t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7i<\/strong><\/p>\n

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T\u00fcrkiy\u0259li yazar Fatma Bacaran\u0131n \u201c K\u00f6lg\u0259 A\u015fiql\u0259r \u201c povesti insan\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na vaxts\u0131z, g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n e\u015fqd\u0259n b\u0259hs edir. \u00d6mr\u00fcn ortalar\u0131nda da g\u0259l\u0259n sevda bir k\u00f6lg\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir, ya bir yay g\u00fcn\u0259\u015find\u0259 itir, ya da pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na qar\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Povesti t\u0259qdim edirik: S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r eyvandak\u0131 yuvalar\u0131ndan u\u00e7maq \u00fczr\u0259ydi ki, Hac\u0131 H\u00fcseyn h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Fayton\u00e7u C\u0259lil qap\u0131da onu xeyli vaxt\u0131yd\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":927,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/926"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=926"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/926\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":930,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/posts\/926\/revisions\/930"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media\/927"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=926"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=926"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dilimizvarligimiz.az\/api\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=926"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}